Little President ABO

Xia Feiou has often had dreams about Jiang Qianyue recently.

When he just passed away, Xia Feiou also dreamed of him every night.The dream at that time was more like a memory, playing back the bits and pieces of their together, and he smiled in the dream and cried when he woke up.

And the most recent dreams are always good at the beginning, but dreaming and dreaming, they always have insight into the fact that Jiang Qianyue has died.

Once Xia Feiou dreamed that he was going on a business trip, and Jiang Qianyue hugged and said goodbye at the door of their house.Jiang Qianyue asked him when he would be back, and he said he would be back the day after tomorrow. Jiang Qianyue smiled and told him, "I'm already dead the day after tomorrow."

Once he dreamed that the two were hugging and kissing, but Jiang Qianyue's skin slowly lost its color, and her eyes gradually became cloudy. As a doctor, Xia Feiou understood why.He made an emergency call and rushed to the hospital with Jiang Qianyue in his arms. Jiang Qianyue said sorry to him all the way. When the scene changed, he stood in the mortuary of the hospital, and there was a dead Jiang Qianyue lying on every bed around him.

Another time, he dreamed that he fell from upstairs and was about to fall to his death, but Jiang Qianyue caught him downstairs.Xia Feiou was terrified, checked his body, and asked if he was okay.Jiang Qianyue smiled and said to him: "I'm fine, I died once, and I won't die again."

Every time, Jiang Qianyue would let him know that he was dead, and once that point appeared in the dream, it was like an alarm clock, waking up everything that happened in reality in the dream.And Xia Feiou was either crying or screaming, returning from the nightmare in the dream to the nightmare in reality.

It has been almost two years, and his pain has not eased at all, on the contrary, it has become more and more serious.He couldn't tell others like a normal confession, and the pain was so overwhelming that he couldn't speak out about it.He could only break down again and again in front of his psychological counselor. During several hours of crying, he told the counselor intermittently about his recent feelings and poured out his thoughts over and over again.

The consultant told him that he had such a dream now because his subconscious mind had begun to accept the fact that Jiang Qianyue had died.It was different from the first dream, when his subconscious refused to accept his death, so Jiang Qianyue was presented to him alive.

"But no matter how much you resist, what really happened will gradually penetrate from the conscious level to the subconscious, and the part of your self-help instinct will start to force you to accept it, because only when you really accept it can you really come out."

"No matter how painful the truth is, do we have to accept it?" Xia Feiou was so choked up that he couldn't speak.

"Yes, no matter how painful the truth is, we can only accept it."

So Jiang Sulu is luckier than him, no matter how bad the person he loves is, whether they can be together in the future, whether they will hurt him, Jiang Sulu will continue to love him or hate him, Cheng Hui will still be in this world.And no matter how good the person he loved was, he was gone.Love and hate have antidote, only longing is unsolvable.

Xia Feiou didn't know how long this would last, and he had no choice but to endure it, or commit suicide if he couldn't bear it.He only knew that Jiang Qianyue definitely didn't want him to make the latter choice. If his death made the living unable to live well, Jiang Qianyue would feel very guilty and painful.Xia Feiou knew it, and because he knew it, he worked hard to live a good life like Jiang Qianyue expected.

He can pretend to live a good life, as if Jiang Qianyue is looking at him somewhere in this world, but he can't really live a good life, he can't get rid of that pain.

That night, he opened the door of the storage room, and there were four large packing boxes inside. He opened one of them, and the robot copied one by one with Jiang Qianyue was in a posture that is convenient for packing and impossible for humans to do. curled up.He called the security robot, borrowed his pliers, pulled "Jiang Qianyue" out, returned to the human posture, and together with the security robot, lifted him to the sofa outside and put him down in a sitting position.

Xia Feiou turned on the power to warm up the robot's body, then brought a towel, and carefully wiped its face and body.

This is the fourth companion robot he customized in AM. The first three are also Jiang Qianyue's one-to-one copies, but the first one uses AM's database. The second and third ones are Jiang Qianyue's that he got from Jiang Sulu. data, but AM does not do a good job of intelligence.In the fourth paragraph, he asked to erase the data of the robot, and he only wanted a simulated body.

Xia Feiou put Jiang Qianyue's pajamas on it, put it on the bed where Jiang Qianyue was used to, and put it in the sleeping position he was used to.Xia Feiou lay down next to it, hugged it, and whispered next to his face that was slightly cold because it hadn't fully reached the temperature of the human body because the activation time was too short.

"Ah Yue, I miss you so much,"

"Do you miss me?"

"I don't know if I will dream of you tonight."

"If I dream of you, don't make me sad, okay?"

Xia Feiou buried his face in its chest, his body temperature had already risen, it was a soft and warm body.This familiar temperature and touch made Xia Feiou's eyes wet again.

"I love you so much, I don't want to love you so much, you will never come back, but I can't do it."

"I really miss you, want to see you, let me dream of you..."

As the night deepened, Xia Feiou slowly calmed down.

"Ah Yue, good night." After speaking, he kissed the robot's forehead and fell asleep with it in his arms.

The next day, Xia Feiou was woken up by a hasty doorbell.He was sleepy and looked at the time, it was just after seven o'clock.It's so early in the morning, I don't know who will come to him, he really knows how to pick the time.

The doorbell kept ringing.He sat up from the bed and glanced at the robot lying next to him, looking like he was still asleep.Even though he knew it wasn't true, he took a few extra glances greedily.

In the few months before Jiang Qianyue's death, he barely survived by relying on these robots.Later, his counselor told him that over-reliance on such things was not conducive to psychological reconstruction, and asked him to try to give up.According to the consultant's advice, Xia Feiou gradually reduced his reliance on replicas, and would only take them out occasionally when he really couldn't bear it.

Xia Feiou put on his clothes and went to open the door with an angry expression on his face. Before he saw anyone outside the door, he asked impatiently, "Who is it so early in the morning?"

"……why you?"

The door opened, and he suddenly saw Cheng Boshan standing outside the door, dressed in a suit and leather shoes, full of style, holding a snack in one hand and a handful of daisies wrapped in kraft paper in the other.

Just now, he took a few deep breaths outside the door and rehearsed the meeting, but when he suddenly saw Xia Feiou, whom he hadn't seen for several months, Cheng Boshan became nervous again.He handed over what was in his hand first, and when he opened his mouth, his tongue got stuck: "Morning, good morning."

Xia Feiou didn't pick up his things, didn't speak, and wrapped himself in the thick coat, thinking that he wasn't well at all.

Seeing that he would not speak or move, Cheng Boshan began to feel uneasy.Coming to see Xia Feiou this time is different from the past. In the past, he didn't know what he was facing, but this time it was with a clear compromise.He struggled for several months. At first, he really planned to give up on Xia Feiou, but he finally stood here. He knew that facing this person, there was no price he couldn't pay.

"For you, flowers and egg yolk cakes." Cheng Boshan's tone already had a hint of pleading.

Xia Feiou took a deep breath and stepped aside to open the door: "Come in."

"what do you want to drink?"

"Water will do."

While Cheng Boshan was changing his shoes, Xia Feiou went to pour water for him and closed the bedroom door by the way.

Cheng Boshan was sitting on the sofa in his living room, knowing that it was impolite to look at other people's rooms, but he couldn't help but look around, and was soon attracted by the oil paintings hanging on the wall.A portrait of a character, it can be seen that the person in the painting is Xia Feiou, the brushwork is very immature, it is not from the hands of a master, it is more like an amateur drawing by himself.

Xia Feiou put the water glass in front of Cheng Boshan, and sat down opposite him, without asking him why he came here so early in the morning, he held the water glass and drank slowly.

Cheng Boshan felt embarrassed, but he couldn't care less and forced to find a topic.

"Your eyes are red and swollen, what's the matter, do you want to apply a cold compress?"

"Need not."

"Did you not sleep well?"

"What do you think? Who gets up before seven o'clock."

Cheng Boshan also held the water glass, as if finding a sense of dependence for himself: "I get up at this time every morning."

Xia Feiou almost laughed angrily: "I'm not you, Mr. Cheng, I don't have an AM to manage. You said you are so busy, why are you running to me early in the morning?"

Cheng Boshan took a sip of water, and when he swallowed it with a grunt, he also made up his mind. He raised his eyebrows and looked at Xia Feiou: "I accepted your proposal last time, and I am willing...you and I will try."

Xia Feiou frowned, he didn't expect Cheng Boshan to really accept his request to embarrass him.

"Cheng Boshan, you..."

"Don't talk yet, just listen to me." Cheng Boshan interrupted Xia Feiou loudly, "I've been thinking about this matter for several months, and I thought about giving up countless times, but now, I have made a decision that I have never done in my life. Unprecedented concessions, I accepted your conditions, so don't say that this is your casual talk, or just an excuse to repel me."

"Of course, I also have a condition. Before we have a relationship, we must date for three months. I don't accept purely physical relationships."

Xia Feiou put down the hot water cup in his hand, leaned on the sofa and looked at Cheng Boshan with his arms crossed. From his eyes, he saw sincerity and eagerness, as well as recklessness and a lot of tension.

He was very calm: "Cheng Boshan, you know that I once had a lover, right?"

"I know, it's Jiang Qianyue, I've seen him before."

"I love him very much. It's been almost two years since he passed away, and this feeling hasn't diminished." Xia Feiou's throat rolled, and he lowered his head, "I don't know if this feeling will fade away, and I don't know if it will last in this life. Falling in love with someone else. I am with you, but is this really what you want? Can you accept that the person you like has another person hidden in his heart, or is a dead person. You know that in this world, only dead people are the most Unsurpassable, understand? It's not fair to you." Xia Feiou said, wrapping his arms around his arms at the end, his eyes full of sadness.

"I think I can surpass him, as long as you look at me, Xia Feiou." He leaned over, held Xia Feiou's shoulders, and pushed him up to look at himself.

"And what if you can't?"

"That's my business, isn't it? Any investment will not necessarily produce output. I am very used to this kind of failure, and I am very used to breaking through this kind of failure." The closer he is to Xia Feiou, the more Cheng Boshan can smell him The sad smell on his body was like a hand reaching out to grab his heart, and he hugged Xia Feiou into his arms.

"If you can't fall in love with someone else in your life, then I admit it. If you can still fall in love with someone else, then that person can only be me. Feiou, give me a chance."

Xia Feiou finally closed his eyes, was pulled into Cheng Boshan's arms, and nodded.