I thrived on straight balls [entertainment]

December 31, heavy snow, strong wind.

It was five o'clock in the morning, it was still dark, but Ruan Youtian couldn't sleep anymore.

He opened the corner of the curtain and looked down. It was pitch black, and the earth was still sleeping.

Occasionally, the whistling wind blows outside the window, and the bleak and lonely outside is vaguely reflected by the bedside lamp in the bedroom.

Just like Ruan Youtian's mood at the moment.

Yesterday he came back full of depression, stuffed himself in the mattress, didn't want to talk, entertain, or read.

He once again stumbled on the problem of friends, just like in the fifth grade of elementary school——

The little fat guy in the same class said to him: "I won't play with you anymore, you are not generous at all."

At that time, Ruan Youtian, who didn't even have the money to buy popsicles and spicy sticks, just watched dryly that his little friend who had been playing well all the time went to play with others, and he was left behind.He didn't know why this happened. He didn't have pocket money, so he couldn't treat guests like others. His good friend even wrote this in his composition, and then the whole class knew that Ruan Youtian, who had a rich family, was actually a cheapskate.

The cheapskate cried into a little puffer fish under the covers, and when his mother finally found out about his abnormality one month later and asked about it, he could only answer quietly: "I don't know, we don't play together much anymore."

He didn't know how to talk to his mother, and he felt that even if he talked to his mother, he would not be comforted. Sure enough, his mother didn't care that his son lost a friend, and he didn't know that once a child's fragile heart was hurt, it would be very difficult. repair.

……

Now Ruan Youtian couldn't feel how sad he was when he recalled this past, but his body's memory hadn't been erased, and his heart was sore, he forced himself to close his eyes and not think about it.

What a waste of time, he thought.

When he was a child, he could only swallow the sadness of losing his friend by himself, but now it has intensified and become the bitter fruit of being watched by others.

it is ridiculous.

It is rare for Ruan Youtian to get out of repressed emotions. He grew up in a suppressed education. His parents didn't care about him, and he didn't have friends to love him. He grew up on his own and talked to himself.Even though he is not that happy most of the time, he will not let himself sink in bad emotions.

It was different now, he seemed unable to control his emotions, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that he had failed, and he was always on the sidelines when others called for friends.Now it's hard to be friends in twos and threes, but they have received another blow in the head.

Ruan Youtian sat down on the small rug beside the bed, leaned her head against the edge of the bed, a line of tears slipped from the corner of her eyes, and wet the soft home clothes.

No matter how high-sounding he speaks in front of outsiders, he still can't hide the pain in his heart. He is not chic, optimistic, or generous.

He didn't really announce the end of the friendship yesterday, but he already knew it in his heart. His cleanliness had spread into his emotions, and he could no longer face up to this friendship objectively.

Ruan Youtian smiled wryly and thought, Sui Xin and the others still wanted to purify. Now, the friendship between the two of them will be sacrificed first, and when they return to Molu, they probably won't have any burdens.

Ruan Youtian stayed up until seven o'clock in a daze, and sat on the ground for more than two hours. Even though there was heating in the room, he still caught cold.

When the assistant came to deliver things to him, he found that his eyes were a little swollen and his nose was a little red, and he was startled.

Ruan Youtian spoke in a low voice, unable to cheer up, "It's okay, I have a little cold."

The assistant probed his forehead, and found a thermometer, "I came back last night and it was cold? Have you had breakfast?"

Ruan Youtian felt guilty, but he was not good at lying, so he said frankly, "I didn't eat."

The assistant was about to order food for him immediately, "It's almost eleven o'clock, let's have breakfast and lunch together, don't order greasy ones for you, eat some refreshing and delicious Chinese dishes, okay?"

Ruan Youtian nodded, "Yes, whatever."

He has always had no appetite, he can eat anything, and his assistant knows it well, and he feels that his artists are easy to support.

"I came here today to give you the script."

After the two of them had finished their lunch, the assistant Xiao Liu started to talk about the business, "If the other books are not suitable, Sister Lin will screen them for you. You can read the remaining two books first."

Ruan Youtian flipped through the title page, and said in surprise, "Yan Qinghe? Is it the famous speech director?"

The assistant nodded, "Yes, it's the famous speech director."

Yan Qinghe, a newcomer in the TV industry, a genius director, was only 24 years old when he won his first director award. Six years have passed, and now he is thirty. Dabble, and the screenwriter are regular partners, original scripts, good at portraying characters with rich ink and color, the splash-ink-like deduction techniques and the composition style of ancient scrolls complement each other, and the drama quality is even more evident.A well-known venomous drama critic said, "The costume dramas made by others are at most interpretations, but the costume dramas made by Yan Qinghe are reenactments."

"The third male lead doesn't have many roles, but it's brilliant, full of contrast and tension." The assistant said: "And, you know the male lead."

Ruan Youtian was puzzled, "I know you?"

"Well, Yang Xinliu. It is said that he recommended you." The assistant said.

Ruan Youtian was startled, really surprised.He didn't have much contact with Yang Xinliu, and he didn't say anything after the game. The only communication was on the stage of the game, one question and one answer.

"How should I thank Teacher Yang? This is a debt to the adults." Ruan Youtian asked like an assistant, with earnest eyes, "What about Brother Liu?"

The assistant waved his hand, "Sister Lin said, leave the rest to her, you read the script first, and if you really accept it, treat Yang Xinliu to a meal and thank you, it's fine, if you make it too grand, people will feel uncomfortable. "

Ruan Youtian nodded, "Okay, I understand."

Others may be Xiaohui who just said something casually, but when it comes to him, it will be a big favor. In the final analysis, it is the difference in status and qualifications. He understands the truth, so he pays special attention to the kindness and help of others.

If others give one point of favor, he will return two points of affection. He is afraid that his own dealings will become a burden to others, and he is also afraid that such thoughts will become his own shackles.

but……

"When I am capable, I will pay back more. Before I have results, I can only benefit from it." Ruan Youtian said, "Is that right?"

He doesn't have the capital to bargain now, nor does he have the freedom to reject other people's wishes at will.The way to go up, although you have to climb up step by step by yourself, but more importantly, you can't cut off the vines handed over by others.

The assistant felt relieved seeing that he thought thoroughly and didn't need to explain it himself.

Speaking of the crew's arrangement, the assistant said: "This show will be a year later, so there is no need for an audition, but the director still needs to see your ancient costume with your own eyes. This is easy to say, but there is a problem... with you There is a time conflict in preparing the dissertation, if you accept this drama, you have to catch up with the dissertation on the set."

Ruan Youtian thought it was a big deal, and immediately breathed a sigh of relief, "It's okay, I'm already preparing materials, one month is enough."

The assistant didn't expect him to be so efficient, and when he thought that the world of Xue Shen was probably like this, he couldn't be surprised, "Look at the next book, directed by Pei Xiangnan, school drama, male lead. It will start in March, here you go more time."

"School drama? Am I a bit old for my age?"

"No, there is absolutely no sense of disobedience for you to play a high school student, and this is not all about high school, but one third is after work, which is just right."

Ruan Youtian nodded, and after carefully reading the two script fragments, said: "I choose "Listening to the Wind"."

The assistant was a little surprised, "Is it because Yang Xinliu is hard to refuse?"

He couldn't figure it out, when the "Actor's Writing" competition is over, more people will definitely see Ruan Youtian's acting skills, and there will definitely be more film appointments than now.The previous filming of "Starlight" is next year's summer file, and the time for the new film to join the team is during the gap period, so it will definitely attract the attention of the outside world.Others who have made a slight improvement must hold on to the male lead and won't let go. As a result, Ruan Youtian is a maverick, and the matter of the male third alone is enough for the outside world to discuss.

Ruan Youtian smiled, and handed him a cup of fruit tea, "Don't worry, I'm not afraid of what they say."

He's an actor, and the character and the story come first.The pursuit of progress and self-breakthrough is the consciousness and mission that an actor should have. Maintaining a sense of freshness is also the only way to maintain the vitality of acting. If he gives up other choices because he is stubborn to maintain the dignity of the hero or is afraid of being discussed , is the real loss outweighs the gain.

What's more, since stepping here, the discussion around him has never stopped.

Since he will be talked about no matter what he does or how he does it, just follow his heart.

Ruan Youtian has a bit of a stubborn temper, thinking to himself, let's give it a try and see if I beat you first, or you got bored with me first.

Assistant Xiao Liu didn't know what he was thinking, "Then do you really like this script?"

He was also worried that he would mislead Ruan Youtian's judgment, "I don't know much about this, if you like it, you can accept it, anyway, Sister Lin said you can decide for yourself."

"Well, I really like it." Ruan Youtian also nestled on the sofa with a cup of fruit tea in his hands, and the dense heat steamed up, making him very warm. He closed his eyes and sniffed it comfortably, like a cat.

After the script was finalized, the assistant went back to report. Before leaving, he asked him, "There are fireworks in Huxin Park tonight, do you want to go and watch them?"

Ruan Youtian shook his head, "I won't go, I don't want to move."

It was rare to rest, and he hadn't fully adjusted his mood, so it was naturally difficult to feel the excitement outside.Since going out is also disappointing, it is better to stay at home.

And before Leng Xiaoyang came the news that MIRACLE will have a New Year's Eve stage tonight, come back to have dinner with him tomorrow, Ruan Youtian agreed.

"If you have time to chat with fans, live broadcast is also fine. Anyway, from the beginning of the battle, there are audiences participating in voting. The audience who go to the scene may not be able to see your live broadcast, but a dynamic is better than nothing. I know you If you don't like to cause trouble for fans, you don't have to say it, just take it as a way to relieve the fans and show your face."

"Can you say whatever you want?"

"It's all right, you have a sense of proportion, just handle it yourself."

Ruan Youtian asked: "Is this what Sister Lin ordered?"

The assistant was helpless, "I can't hide it from you."

Ruan Youtian smiled, "You can tell me directly what you need me to do next time, and I will do my best to cooperate. And you are doing it for my own good, I know. I hope I won't be a hindrance to your normal work."

Seeing his sincerity, the assistant said in a rare way: "Ah Ruan, you have always been a good partner. Although it is awkward to say this now, I hope you understand that we are very happy to work with you, and we also hope You can be happy and comfortable in this team.”

"Because you deserve it."