Ping Xie's Life and Death Qi Kuo

I can't perceive how much time has passed, because there is no concept of time in the black world.I was wandering in this empty space, but I didn't know where I was going.Someone is always calling my name by my ear, one after another, coming from the depths of the darkness, like Sanskrit.My soul was drawn, and I kept walking, without feeling tired or painful, just like a numb puppet.It wasn't until a ray of strong light suddenly tore from the dark sky and shined brightly into my body that I suddenly woke up... Many times I wondered whether my life was a joke made by God inadvertently. , rebirth, death, rebirth... like an absurd drama full of tragedy.

So, when I opened my eyes again, I no longer wondered why I wasn't dead yet, and naturally, I didn't feel lucky anymore.The Buddha said, the cycle of cause and effect, maybe I did too many bad things in my previous life, and I am destined to repay in this life before I can leave.

My brain is still in a trance, and my body is wrapped in the icy river water. Through the fingers between my palms, I can see a few swimming insects floating below. My limbs cannot move, and the surrounding air is like an invisible cage. Wrap me tightly, bind me.The river water kept hitting his face, dyeing the water below into a deep red.

Time kept passing, and I waited quietly, waiting for the pain to hit overwhelmingly at the first moment of awakening of consciousness as promised.I gritted my teeth, and the severe pain quickly spread from my fingertips to my whole body, and finally gathered at the wound on my left shoulder along the nerves. The feeling made me twist into a ball on the surface of the water.Only at this time do I feel strongly that I am still alive.

For a long time afterwards, I put all my energy on resisting the pain until the other senses returned.I opened my mouth and gasped for a long time on my back, not knowing whether it was sweat or tears that flowed down my face.

After a while, my body had fully adapted to it. I tried to turn over and sit up from the water, but my right shoulder felt a sharp pain, and I slammed back hard.I just realized that my right hand was twisted at an extremely weird angle, and I knew it was broken at a glance. It should have been smashed when I fell.The wound on the thigh had also been severely suppurated at this time, the skin turned out looked disgusting, and the bullet was still inside, which was enough to prove that the leg was basically useless.I smiled wryly, I don't know how to describe this feeling, I am not even afraid of death, why do I care so much about a leg.It's just that my heart is really blocked, my nose is sore, why did I become like this.

But this kind of thought is fleeting, and I know I still have things to do.

I stayed in the water for a while, biting the clothes on my body and wiping my face, because I could no longer use my hands, and it took a long time just to stand up.I glanced at the surrounding environment and found that this place was very familiar. It wasn't until I saw the high platform standing in the water that I realized that I was actually back again, and a strange feeling suddenly arose in my heart.However, I can't think about these things now, I subconsciously search for Qi Yu's figure, if I'm still alive, maybe he's still alive.

There is such a lucky desire in my heart, so I beg God to give me a chance, I want to see that man, I want to say sorry to him, I want to tell him that I was wrong.

It must be weird to walk with one leg dragging, and every step takes all the strength out of my body.I endured it, gritted my teeth and kept walking, with a strong belief in my heart that he was waiting for me somewhere here, waiting for me to take him home.But as the distance continued to shorten, even this belief was slowly disappearing.I was suddenly panicked and scared. Is it because I am left alone again? Is there no one who will tell me when I dream back at midnight, Wu Xie, don’t be afraid, there is me, is there no one to force me? Watch me eat those disgusting meals, don't you...Qi Yu, have I lost you...

The mist in the eyes is getting heavier and heavier, and the body also wants to sleep.In a daze, I seemed to see that man coming over, wearing my favorite white T-shirt, smiling and calling my name, Wu Xie.Even though he has the same face, I always feel that he is prettier than me. His smile bears a heavy imprint of life, which is a kind of mature charm accumulated over the years.However, every time he would shake his head and say to me, Wu Xie, you don’t know how beautiful you are...Since I am so beautiful, would you like to stay with me again...I am walking aimlessly, my feet are like Stepping on the cotton, there is no sense of attachment.Maybe God heard my prayers, I finally saw his body in an inconspicuous groove on the shore, he was lying there quietly, the tide came up and went down, and he fell asleep as usual In the same.At that moment, I stopped instead, my eyes suddenly enlarged, and my hands trembled unreasonably.I walked over like crazy, and only then did I hate that what I lost was a leg.

My right hand was broken and my left hand was completely useless from a gunshot wound.I stared blankly at the body, a thought flashed in my mind, I bent down suddenly, bit his clothes with my teeth and dragged him to the shore desperately. I don't know where my perseverance came from, but I only have one idea , want to hug him, hug him tightly.

"Qi Yu..."

The body of the person in my arms was so cold that I couldn't help shivering, and I couldn't speak.He still maintained his original stiff appearance, the blood on his brow bone stained his pale complexion red, exuding an extremely sickly beauty.I wanted to help him wipe the blood off his face, but found that I couldn't lift my hands at all.

"I'm here, Qi Yu."

I pressed my face against his and rubbed gently, "I'm coming."

I'm here, so you open your eyes to see if I'm okay.

Didn't you say that as long as I call you, you will appear?Didn't you say that as long as I'm tired, you can lend me your shoulder?Didn't you say that you want to protect Zhang Qiling for my life without any worries?But Qi Yu, Zhang Qiling doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want me, don't you want me too?Why don't you open your eyes and look at me!Why are you all trying to lie to me!You obviously can't make a promise, why do you pretend to be determined and make a promise!

Don't you know I'm a fool! ?

You don't know, do I take your promises seriously!

But, in the end, am I the only one who takes it seriously... Pokerfinger is, even you... "Wake up, okay, okay..." My tone became weaker and weaker, and in the end, even myself Can't hear clearly.

I was really scared, afraid that in this vast world, I was the only one left to persevere alone; I was afraid that I would go back to the previous bleak night and repeatedly asked who I was, but no one told me that I was Wu Xie I was afraid that I would never find my way back, but no one held my hand and told me to take me home.

My body trembled, and I buried my face into his shoulder, and finally broke out into a scream of grief, suppressed, broken, and intermittent... I have never felt such despair, even in the ancient building of the Zhang family. Seeing the "corpse" of Pokerfinger, I have never felt so hopeless.I leaned on his shoulder and almost fell asleep again.

"Wu Xie..."

Who is calling me?My vision was blurred with tears, but I heard it.

"Wu Xie..."

I slowly raised my head and saw my shadow was reflected in his eyes, as bright as the starry sky in the dark night.My body trembled uncontrollably, my mouth was wide open but I couldn't make a sound, and the name he called me kept echoing in my mind.But in the next second, I was thrown into the icy hell again, and I suddenly realized that maybe God really just wanted to give us a chance to say goodbye.

"I heard you calling me," he said.

I didn't respond, just stared at him blankly.

"Why don't you talk anymore?" He turned his head to look at my body, frowned suddenly, and said "tsk", "Why did you hurt so badly! Why didn't you bandage it!" His face was not very good-looking, his eyes were full of Distressed but so frank.

Qi Yu seemed to have forgotten everything that happened before.He stretched out his hand to touch my broken right hand, but he suddenly retracted like an electric shock, and looked at his fingers in shock. They were a pair of long and thin hands with sharp nails. What I saw belonged to the forbidden woman's hand.

"Wu Xie, I, I..."

"It's very special." I smiled, and put my face on his palm, "It's actually pretty good."

"No!" He pushed me violently, "Go away! I will hurt you, Wu Xie, go away!"

The wound was torn open again, I subconsciously "hissed", he turned his head, leaned over immediately, and said distressedly: "Why are you hurt so badly!?"

I smiled, "I ran into some trouble and got separated from everyone."

Yes, that's good, so that you won't be heartbroken, and in this way, he will always be that person in your heart.

He stared blankly at my hand, the corpse made his expression look stiff, but I could still feel the sadness on his face, "Wu Xie", he was trembling all over, but it wasn't because of fear, "I Time is running out," he said.

I was taken aback, "No."

"I've been waiting for this day for a long time," he said suddenly, "it's been a long time."

He said that his death should be on that snow mountain, accompanied by the souls of those people in the long river of time.But he has the obsession to live, because of this obsession, no matter how humble, he wants to live, because of this obsession, he can fight against a huge family on his own.He longed to stand by that man's side and become his comrade-in-arms, but he could only watch from afar behind.He loves humblely, but loves with all his heart.Now, this obsession is gone, whether it is love or friendship, there is no reason to support him to live anymore.

"Unfortunately, I didn't get to see the end of the Wang family with my own eyes." He smiled, raised his hand and stroked my face with utmost tenderness, "I didn't get to see your wedding either."

My heart was shocked, I couldn't control my emotions anymore, I buried my face in his arms and cried loudly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

I'm sorry because I lied to you; I'm sorry because I hurt you; I'm sorry because I fell in love with Zhang Qiling... But please, can you give me a chance to spend my whole life to make up for you.

He patted me on the back, "Fate should be like this, no one should be blamed." His eyes clearly contained such deep pain, but he was so calm, "If, I change," he moved his lips to My ear, "Please kill me with this."

He put the knife in my hand, and it felt like the weight of the whole world was on it, so heavy that I couldn't hold it, and I couldn't breathe.

"it is good……"

If one day, you are no longer you, I will definitely end your life with my own hands.

He smiled, changed his posture and lay in my arms, his eyes looked at the infinite distance through the nothingness in front of him without focus, and there was no movement for a long time, but I seemed to be able to see the scene in his eyes.That was the scene when we first met. In that late night in May, there was no moonlight, no galaxy, and the gray night sky was like the face of a crying child.Standing on the pool of blood all over the place, he held up the ancient black gold knife, as if a succubus had descended into the world, but he smiled and said to me, "Wu Xie, we finally meet."

I saw a lot, the days we were together, every scene was like what happened yesterday, that was Wu Xie and Qi Yu's five years... the breath of the person in my arms is getting weaker and weaker, but I can't do anything, Only shouting his name over and over again, wanting to engrave it in my mind forever.His body began to change, his skin became dead white, and his hair grew wildly as if he had been given hormones. I grabbed the Swiss Army Knife in my hand and hugged his body tightly without feeling any pain.

"Wu Xie," he couldn't utter a complete sentence, "Move, do, please, please."

I gritted my teeth and hugged him even tighter, but the saber in my hand slammed into his chest fiercely.Every time I struggled, I hugged him tighter, every time I struggled, the knife penetrated deeper, tears fell from my face, I didn't feel it at all.

After more than ten seconds, the shaking in my arms stopped. My hand was still holding the saber tightly, and my body shivered. It was so cold here that I almost froze.

I sat there holding his body for a long time, my mind kept repeating his last words.

"Forgive him, Wu Xie."

It turns out that you remember everything.

"I said, if you continue, you will regret it." The familiar voice sounded again.

"I thought you wouldn't come."

"Because I want you, give me your body willingly." He said.

I raised my head and looked at the tall man, "Make a deal."

He smiled and said approvingly, "Okay."

I didn't even look at his body until I left...

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It's too long, so I need to divide it into chapters