My golden finger is not right

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"I have someone else's soul in my body?! How is this possible! What does it mean that you can't leave?!" Seeing Baihu lazily lying down again, with a look of reluctance to talk, I boldly moved forward walked a few steps and asked.

"Anyway, you definitely can't go now, and not only can't go, but you have to live in this world until you are more than 80 years old, before you have the chance to go back." Baihu slightly tilted his head on his forelegs, as if he didn't want to Talk more.

Such an unclear answer really doesn't satisfy me. I don't understand why it clearly wanted me to leave quickly before, but now it has changed its face.

I wanted to know why, but the other party had already closed his eyes slightly, as if he was about to fall asleep.

I did so much thought work... because of this matter, I even hid in bed and cried once... During the illness, I didn't move so many good meals and dishes I liked... As a result, I endured it for so long, but in the end tell me sorry we're not going any further...

Anger arose in my heart, almost without thinking about it, I rushed over and grabbed the hair of the culprit, and then ravaged and ravaged:

"You're such a badass! Big badass!"

The white tiger was caught off guard by me scratching his face, he was obviously stunned, he had probably never been treated like this before, he was about to open his mouth to yell at me, but suddenly found that my whole face was already wet .

It seemed to be deflated, allowing my hands to move on its face.

After a long time, my strength was exhausted, and I buried myself in its soft fur.

I don't know what to do now.

I don't feel happy at all about staying, on the contrary, there is infinite fear in my heart.Fear of the unknown.Frightened by what it says is 70 years.

I must admit, from the bottom of my heart, that I have never for a single moment put myself in this world.

I even passively accepted all this with a cold-eyed onlooker's attitude.

Although I also feel anger, pain, happiness and satisfaction in it.But those emotions didn't really affect me, shake me.

I don't belong here, my soul has been branded with another world.

I can even clearly remember the summer vacation when I was ten years old, the heat was blowing on my face, cicadas and cicadas were singing, and the icy cold river.

The river that buried all my happiness since I was ten years old, the river that buried the body of my brother.

From that moment on, my soul was condemned.Every moment I live is atonement for myself.

-

I buried it on its head and cried for a long time, until it described it to me in a flat tone: "From the moment you got here just now, in another world, what I promised has already taken effect."

I froze my body, trying to ask something but couldn't.

Bai Hu didn't care, but continued: "The timeline has been tampered with. You died when you were ten years old, but your brother who should have died came back to life."

Doesn't this mean... the hatred and disgust I have endured from my relatives because of my brother's death all these years will be borne by that little guy who can't even walk well?

"You can't do this..." I raised my head tremblingly, I can almost imagine how much he will suffer because of my "death", "Let me go back! You can't do this! Let me go back !"

"You can't go back." Baihu glanced at me, and there was something in his eyes that I rarely saw, "Actually, those concerns of yours... didn't come true."

"After you died, your parents didn't feel much sorrow. On the contrary, they were more concerned about your brother's fever after he fell into the water."

"The only one who cried for your departure was your grandfather."

I didn't know how to react for a moment, whether I was finally relieved because I got the answer I had wanted to know all my life, or whether I should be sad because of the answer I had already vaguely guessed.

I knew from a young age that my parents love my younger brother far more than me, and even my importance is not even one-tenth of his.

It's like I was sent to my grandfather's house in the countryside since I was a child to live a life of barely enough to eat, while my younger brother followed his parents in the city to eat delicacies of mountains and seas and lived an unimaginably rich life.

I never understood how such a huge difference came about. It was not until I accidentally eavesdropped on their speech that I realized that my birth almost killed my mother.

I was born unwelcome because I nearly brought death.

It's just that I didn't expect this death to be delivered by me in the end.

I have imagined more than once that it would be great if I didn't take my brother to play by the river that day, or that I was the one who fell at that time.

I even shamefully imagined, if I was the one who died at that time, whether my parents would be sad for my departure, and whether they would treat my younger brother like me.

Now that I think about it, I think of myself too highly after all.

Because the only one who will really cry for me to leave is my grandfather.

-

"The time of 70 years will not be too difficult. After all, in this world, there are far more people who value you than in that world."

I heard the words with a sarcastic smile: "Are you trying to say Miss Huizi? She really values ​​'me' very much, because I replaced Yan Ye Chong's body, and her duty is to let the Yan Ye family pass on. So I can't have anything, nothing at all."

Baihu didn't speak again.

How could it not have been discovered?When Miss Huizi looked at me, she really regarded me as a treasure, but it was not for me, but for my skin, the skin of the successor of the Yanye family.

In fact, from the first time I saw her, there was a kind of ecstasy mixed with surprise in her eyes. Although she concealed it very well, it was still too obvious for me who has been observing words and expressions for more than ten years.

I knew from the beginning that she knew that I was not the real Yan Yechong.

But I thought that after a long time, I might be able to replace the trace left in her heart by the last Yan Ye Chong, just like I tried to replace the trace of my younger brother in the hearts of my parents.

The more you want something, the more likely it is that your wish will come true.

I should have known.

Whether it is the real Yan Ye Chong, or me, they will never be the most important in Miss Huizi's eyes.

"Maybe Keiko can't do it, but what about the others?" Bai Hu straightened his body slowly, fixed his eyes on the back of me, "I told you, the weight of your soul can't bear you to leave this world."

"Because your soul is mixed with the souls of too many people."

I slightly raised my head to look at it, too much sadness and pain filled my brain, and I couldn't understand what it meant.

"The doping of the soul can only be done voluntarily, and the more the doping of the soul, the heavier and more indestructible the soul will be."

"Your soul is mixed with the souls of many people, Zashiki Boy, Oniwa Hanako, Tamamomae, Fusangshin..."

My head seemed to be pierced by a thread, and the stories I watched were replayed in my memory.

I never thought...they are the people who miss me the most in this world...

"Besides, there's a god guarding each other..." Baihu curled his lips, as if he had pure dislike for the name, "Now it's a foregone conclusion, you have to stay in this world for the remaining 70 years, wait When you see me again, it's time for me to send you back."

"Don't worry, this time I will choose a rich and loving family for you to reincarnate."

"Won't I go back to my old body?" I murmured.

"Wu Ke died of drowning when he was ten years old. There is no more Wu Ke in the world." The white tiger replied, seeing that I was a little out of control, it added: "From today onwards, there will be no more guests from Wu's family, only words." Ye Chong."

"You are no longer a dispensable resident of the Wu family, you will have new friends, family and life."

-

I was sent back to Yan Yechong's body by it. Before leaving, it made an agreement with me that it would come to pick me up 75 years later.

The shy boy was still slumped on the ground, and everything looked as if it hadn't been long.

I moved my hands, and I could feel a strong life force rushing through the blood vessels of my limbs.I am no longer weak and weak, and I am no longer sleepy.I can be in my current state, and I can fly in the sky and fly without any problems.Thinking of this, I rolled over like a carp and sat up.

...and fell back down again...

Okay, so hungry... blah blah...

I looked at the boy who fell asleep soundly at the side with tears in my eyes until I woke him up.

"...Eh? How can I sleep...!!" Seeing me slumped on the quilt with red eyes, the boy quickly got up and helped me back into the quilt.

Then his expression became quite struggling and blamed himself, as if he was annoyed that he fell asleep and didn't find my appeal in time.

Before he uttered a bunch of words begging for forgiveness, I opened my mouth first: "...Hungry...Think about, think about roast duck..."

"Do you want to eat?" The boy paused for a second, and when he realized what I was talking about, he became ecstatic, "Do you want to eat roast duck? Yes, yes! I'll ask someone to go Get ready!" With that said, he ran out in a hurry, forgetting to close the door, looking happier than he could eat.

What about the roast duck? !Liar!

Looking at the bowl of porridge with clear soup and little water in front of me, I was outraged. Don't think I can't see it. Isn't this what I have been forced to drink every day for the past month? !As for the dark things inside, I can guess with my eyes closed that it's not meat but medicinal materials!

After being stared at by me for a few times, the boy flinched a little. He stirred the porridge with a spoon, finally gave up struggling, and admitted to me: "Mr. It may be dangerous to eat..." Mr. Akai is the old doctor who was taken captive to the mountain. Recently, because he was entertained by monsters with good food for a month, he was raised white and tender, with wrinkles on his face. They're a lot rounder.

I also know this truth, but now I am so greedy that I want to eat meat...

Seeing that I was showing some signs of softening, the young man tried to persuade me a few more words and promised various benefits before successfully feeding me.

When Lai Hao came back in the evening, he saw that I seemed to be getting better, so he frowned and observed the top of my head for a while, and his complexion calmed down after a long time.

"Your Qi has improved a lot now." Lai Hao showed a rare smile, and patted my head uncharacteristically.

I haven't washed my head in over a month.

"It's here." Lai Hao stared at me for a while, then suddenly said, "But I'm not happy at all."

"I wish it hadn't come."

I knew that the person he was talking about should be the young monk Qingxing, but I didn't know what happened to make him so sad.

"I once thought, what exactly does it like and worship? Is it the majestic mountain guard who guards the barrier, or a rat demon who has lived for many years and treats people indifferently?"

"When the halo on my body is no longer, when I am no longer the guardian of the mountain, will it still like me so much?"

"When I am no longer that lofty guardian of the mountain, is it meaningless to it?"

24,

"When it looked at me, there was only guilt in its eyes..." The young monster showed a kind of pure doubt and confusion that only children can show, "It shouldn't be like this... It's just a few dozen We haven't seen each other for years..."

"There is nothing but guilt..."

"It can't see me, it can only see a collection of guilt..."

"So I asked it, if the token never comes back, if the identity of the mountain watcher changes hands, if I can no longer change back to the high mountain patroller, if the token is lost has nothing to do with it...will it... Will it..."

The lower his voice was, the whole face was full of sorrow.

I secretly guessed that the other party's answer might not be very good, or there was no answer at all.

My guess came true.

The young monk Qingxing did not answer Lai Hao. To be precise, he hesitated for a long time before replying "I don't understand".

This was the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Decades of captivity and confinement are nothing to Lai Hao. What really makes him unbearable is that for the young monk of Qingxing, Lai Hao, the rat demon, is not special, but the special one is the mountain guard .That is to say, if the person patrolling at that time was a cat demon or a dog demon, the equipment worn by the young monk Qingxing would be different.

The deepest reason why it is so obsessed with finding the token now is that it needs a strong man to worship.

no matter who the other party is.

-

The relationship between monsters is difficult to describe, and the closest they are is to the same clan or the boss and younger brother. As for things like liking and love, it is difficult to survive in this world.

Or even if it exists, it is difficult to be aware of it.

Since ancient times, there have always been many stories between humans and monsters, but stories between monsters and monsters have rarely been mentioned.

Perhaps in the world of monsters, the best confession is companionship, and the others are not so important.

The premise is that this tacit understanding is not broken.

When I was very young, my grandfather once told me such a strange story: It is said that there are two trees that are very close to each other on a mountain, one is a peach tree and the other is a laurel tree.Both trees have a history of at least a hundred years, but the branches are thick, the flowers and leaves are dense, and there is no sign of decay.In addition, tourists and hunters often see two elegant scholars sitting on the ground near the two trees, looking at each other playing the piano, so there are rumors that the two flower trees have become immortals.

There was a cold disaster one year, and the villages with a radius of tens of miles were affected, and there was no harvest. It even became a problem how to survive the winter this year.People began to try their best to find food for the winter.Weeds, bark, withered leaves...everything that could be eaten was eaten by them.Until someone put their eyes on the two trees that are still blooming.

Even though there is awe and fear towards them, none of these can beat the scorching hunger.On the night when they planned to chew up the two trees, all the people involved in the plan had a dream. They dreamed of two young men with extraordinary temperament.One was dressed in red, but kept a cold face and said nothing. On the contrary, another young man in yellow said to them softly, that is, they should help each other for their neighbors. Let them go to Guishu from the next day. One person picks a leaf, soaks it in water and takes it, which can satisfy one's hunger for a day.

On the second day, they dubiously followed suit, as they said.So this year, no one was left by the winter.

But the osmanthus tree has experienced this, but the missing leaves never grow back.Those who were benefactors were ashamed of this, so many villages jointly funded and built a small temple not far behind the two trees to worship them, and the incense burns every day.

I don't know how many years later, suddenly there was thunder and lightning overnight, but there was no rain.On the second day, a hunter who hadn't returned last night suddenly rushed back to the village in a panic, and told everyone what he saw and heard last night.

He said that he was hunting last night, but there was thunder falling on the mountain, and it kept on. The place is near those two trees.He had also received the kindness of the laurel leaf back then, so naturally he couldn't leave first seeing this situation.So he boldly approached in that direction.

Then, he saw a scene that could not be described in words:

One after another thick, strong crimson lightning fell heavily from the sky, from the sky where countless clouds gathered, and with a murderous intent, it hit the branch of the peach tree, and it was scorched black all over. All the branches and leaves were burned into black ash.

He was so shocked that he didn't dare to move, his ears were filled with the extremely piercing crackling sound, and there was also a man's painful neighing.

Just when the peach tree was chopped off layer after layer of bark, and was about to be split into a handful of black ash, the lightning suddenly stopped.

He thought the thunder and lightning had stopped, but when he raised his head and looked at the sky, his heart almost stopped beating in fright:

All the clouds visible to the naked eye converged from all directions into one rotating cloud eye.There seemed to be something black stirring and struggling in the eyes of the cloud, and even the few traces of sound that leaked out were so terrifying, as if they came from another world.

The Orion couldn't move at all because of fear, he just intuited that the peach tree would not be able to hold the things that would be bred there.

Just as this thought flashed, an extremely thin black lightning bolt pierced through the densest part of the cloud layer, and it neighed down with a chilling rage.

Just when he thought that the tree would cease to exist after the lightning passed, the osmanthus tree that was very close to it suddenly moved.

It wraps all the branches and roots around the peach tree.And that bolt of lightning fell on the laurel tree along the branches and roots.

In just one breath, the entire osmanthus tree, which was three to four meters high, was reduced to ashes.

At the same time, a golden light was suddenly projected from the place where the clouds gathered for the final blow, covering the entire peach tree.

After the golden light dissipated, the peach tree was gone, and there was only a handsome man in red with frosty eyebrows and eyes left.

He looked at the ashes of the osmanthus tree for a long time without saying a word, until it was almost dawn, he sat down on the ground, played the piano and sang.

Orion couldn't understand what the man sang, but felt that his singing was very sad, and the tune made people cry.

At the end of the song, the man suddenly said, the voice was not loud, but somehow it got into Orion's ears: "I have been taken care of by it for hundreds of years, and now it is fighting for me. I really don't think so. report."

"What I want in this life is to climb to the top and look down on all sentient beings. But if today's calamity has passed, and my wish is fulfilled, my heart is suffering unspeakably."

"I've got what I want, but I hate what I've lost. It's probably because the world can't have both."

"The speed of climbing to the top is already enjoyed. There is nothing I want in the world. I should let it go and go to the underworld together. In the next life, I wish to be together and never separate."

"Ciqin is the thing I love so much, and all my achievements come from it. Now that I have lost the thing I love more, it has no meaning to me anymore."

"I know you have received a leaf from it, so I will give this piano to you. You must keep it for us, otherwise there will be no trace of us in this world."

After finishing speaking, Naqin flew into Orion's arms, and he himself slowly faded into the air without any trace.

Later, the Orion kept the Qin and treasured it carefully, and passed it down from generation to generation.

...so that's why my grandfather tricked me into learning the piano.

Because he told me that our family is the descendant of this Orion, and the broken violin I am using now is a gift from that man.

So naive and ignorant, I was deeply moved by this story, and started to learn piano for quite a long time.And my grandfather actually gave me a hand-copied sheet music that looked like it was falling apart, just to make the trick a little more realistic.

It's just that I practiced this piece, and I haven't practiced it for five years.

This is the strangest place.

Obviously the piano score reads very smoothly, but it doesn't mean that at all when played.

My grandfather just said I wasn't there yet, and of course he said he wasn't there either.

This sentence has blocked me for five years. Until now, I am not sure how much my grandfather's words are true.After all, with the living conditions at that time, owning a guqin was still too extravagant.

Just thinking about it now, this story does have some subtleties.

Or maybe it's just that "a scholar dies for his confidant".

The best... is to be with you.

-

"Maybe it doesn't care about these?" I withdrew my thoughts and looked at the ceiling. "Or maybe it used to like to pursue the strong, but now you are more important than your identity?"

"After all, how can you be ruthless after spending hundreds of years together?"

"Why don't you just say what's in your heart, the clearer you say it, the more you will find that your worries are unnecessary."

Lai Hao's eyes lit up, as if he was moved by what I said, and I didn't care what his expression was, I just continued to say to myself: "What you want is that it can accompany you, forever and ever , isn’t it already in your hand at this moment?”

"As long as you don't let go, it won't be able to leave even if it wants to."

Hearing this, Lai Hao didn't see joy, but said vaguely:

"Those words just now don't seem like what a child of yours would say..."

"Suffering makes people progress."

Because I learned how important it is to take your chances and not let them slip by.

In the past, I always fought desperately for opportunities that did not belong to me. In the end, no matter how hard I tried, I was no match for my brother's resurrection, even at the cost of my death.

But here, even if I have always positioned myself as a bystander, even if I am just a person who listens to stories, there are still many confidants who are reluctant to leave me.

And what I want in my life is nothing more than a glance of attention.

Time to let go of those things.

Because here, I can live a truly happy life.

-

In view of the fact that the young monk Qingxing has been trapped by Lai Hao, no one is bored enough to take the life of a cub, and the resources here are not sufficient, so I stuff a roast duck and a roast fish into my mouth all day long, Seriously affected the local production and living order.

So one morning, I was driven home by Lai Hao's order.

"Your Qi is very abundant, even a kind of abundance that is far better than ordinary people. Qi luck exists with you. Since your Qi is so strong, your luck will not be too bad. Early death or something is obviously related to you. It doesn't match at all." Lai Hao said to me while opening the channel, "I have never made a mistake in observing Qi, and you will definitely live a long life. If this is the case, it makes no difference whether you stay or not."

When I heard the words, I suddenly thought of something: "If you are so good at observing the breath, don't you expect that your token will be taken away by someone...?"

Lai Hao's hand paused, and after a long time, he replied in a nonchalant tone: "From the day I agreed to take Qingxing in, I can no longer see my anger."

After I passed through the dimension, when I saw the familiar dog hole, Lai Hao’s voice still echoed in my mind:

"However, I have never regretted this decision."

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