Rebirth of the heart

The first thing Xie Hui felt when he woke up was a headache and low back pain, and he felt uncomfortable all over his body.

The headache was because Xie Hui remembered that after drinking the "white wine" prepared by Zhou Qi last night, he had no chance to prepare another glass of "fake wine" and couldn't shirk other people's toasts, so he had to bite the bullet and drank two glasses of red wine. The memory cut off just after he wanted to find Zhou Qi.

It's not like he didn't have the same experience. Xie Hui knew very well what this kind of back pain meant, so he didn't dare to turn around to see who the owner of the hand behind his waist was.

His heart was beating wildly. For a moment, Xie Hui felt that the sky was falling and the earth was falling. He couldn't remember who took him away, whether it was Zhou Qi whom he wanted to find, or a stranger he didn't know, or... terrible The unknown made him dare not confirm it.

But when he finally figured out that he wanted to shatter the jar and turn around to see the person beside him, this kind of fear became barren, like roaring and mocking in his heart...

Pictures of brokenness, joy, and shame flashed in my mind one by one.

He remembered pulling this person, begging him not to go, begging him to hug him, and kissing him, as if he couldn't find a sense of security, he didn't want him to leave, leave his body, leave his side, so he Repeating those humble supplications over and over, asking him to satisfy his shameful desire...

It's so bad, I'm so bad...

Xie Hui hated himself for not living up to expectations, and stubbornly refused to let tears fall from his eyes.

"Snapped--"

Xie Hui raised his hand and slapped himself, waking himself up and shattering the illusion of hypocrisy and tenderness.

"What are you doing?" Lu Mingyou sat up and pulled Xie Hui's hand away, looking at the finger prints that instantly appeared on his fair and flawless face, his heart ached so much, he was afraid that he would hurt himself again, so he sat up and trapped Xie Hui under him, using all his strength pressed his hands against the sides of the pillow.

"Get out!" Xie Hui was angry calmly, as if he had no love in his life without struggling.

"Hui, I..."

"Get out!" Xie Hui didn't give him a chance to speak at all, his trembling voice was icy cold.

Lu Mingyou grabbed Xie Hui's hand, and slapped himself hard on the face.

"What are you doing!" Xie Hui was startled, and wanted to withdraw his hand, but found that Lu Mingyou was pinching him so painfully, but there was no possibility of letting go.

Lu Mingyou frowned and said, "If you want to get angry, hit me. I won't allow you to hurt yourself like this."

Xie Hui laughed back in anger, his firm eyes did not flicker, and asked: "Why?"

"..." Lu Mingyou was speechless, but he didn't want to let go of Xie Hui either.

The two stalemate for a while, Lu Mingyou raised Xie Hui's hand again and hit him in the face. Xie Hui, who was already experienced, quickly clenched his fists and tried hard in the opposite direction to get rid of Lu Mingyou's restraint, but the difference in physical strength and Due to physical discomfort, Lu Mingyou dragged him and slapped him on the face in the end.

"What madness!" Xie Hui struggled to pull back his hand, and even more wanted to break free from his embrace.

Regardless of his resistance, Lu Mingyou clasped his hands with one hand, stroked Xie Hui's face with the other hand, and felt distressed seeing the red marks on his face.

Xie Hui looked at the person in front of him, lost his mind for a moment, as if the time had gone back to five years ago, just like every morning at that time, falling asleep in his arms and waking up in his arms again.

But I can't go back...

"I will pretend that nothing happened last night and let me go." Xie Hui looked at Lu Mingyou with red eyes, and said his biggest concession.

Lu Mingyou didn't intend to let go at all, just looked at him and said: "I've always wanted to have a chance to have a good chat with you, although now is not the best time, but can you give me some time? I will explain everything Here you go."

"Is it useful?" Xie Hui closed his eyes and didn't want to look at him, "Lu Mingyou, we're done..."

"Then start again!" Lu Mingyou said excitedly, "Let me pursue you again..."

"There will be no results." Xie Hui opened his eyes and looked at him, with no emotion in his eyes, as if he was not the one who was restrained, "It's not that you say it's over, you say you start over, and you can start over of."

Lu Mingyou didn't believe that what he said was the truth. The person who hugged him and cried and laughed last night was Xie Hui's true heart. He still loves him. Every sensitive area of ​​his body is the one he is most familiar with. Yes, otherwise he would keep calling his name when he was in a state of infatuation.

Lu Mingyou leaned down and kissed his lips without saying a word. He was angry but helpless. He wanted to force Xie Hui to admit that he still loved him and that he was willing to give him a chance.

Unexpectedly, Lu Mingyou dared to be so presumptuous. After a moment of stupefaction, Xie Hui began to struggle desperately. Even if his hands were clamped and his legs were pressed down by him, he was unwilling to sink with him.

There was pain on Lu Mingyou's lips. He knew that Xie Hui had bitten him, but he didn't care to deal with the sweet sores in his mouth, so he deepened the kiss. He locked his hands with one hand and pinched his chin with the other. Don't let him close his upper lip, let him accept your kiss to the greatest extent.

Xie Hui was forced to have no way out by such a fierce and powerful kiss, and what was even more shameful was that he actually reacted. This mixed feeling of shame, anger, hatred and pain made Xie Hui unable to help crying.

Lu Mingyou vaguely heard the sound of sobbing, and stopped only to find that Xie Hui was already in tears, and panicked immediately.

"Hui... I... I'm sorry..." Lu Mingyou let go of his hands while talking, but he didn't dare to let him go completely, and still suppressed him under his body.

Xie Hui, who was free, struggled to get up, but couldn't push Lu Mingyou away.

"Don't force me to hate you..." Xie Hui closed his eyes and covered his eyes with his arms, but he couldn't stop the tears welling up in his eyes. He didn't want to look at him, and said in a choked voice, "Why did you come back? Come back when I'm about to forget you!"

"Hui, look at me," Lu Mingyou wanted to take his hand covering his eyes, but he was afraid of irritating him again, so he kept such an uncomfortable posture and said softly, "I'll tell you everything before, listen Can you sentence me to death after the end? Five years ago my elder brother..."

"I don't want to hear it!" Xie Hui interrupted him, "So what if I know!"

"What do I have to do to forgive me..." Lu Mingyou suddenly saw a barely visible scar on Xie Hui's wrist. Because he was too familiar with his body, he confirmed that it was not his previous scar, and that the location ...are arteries...

There is no need to ask for proof, Lu Mingyou suddenly understood what Xie Hui did because of his departure... This scar, like a whip that was hit with salt water on his heart, left a scar that was painful...

"I understand... this is what I owe you..."

Xie Hui heard Lu Mingyou's words like a monologue, but still refused to look at him. He only felt the gravity that had been oppressing him disappear in an instant, and heard the rustling sound of clothes being put on, and then the door opened and closed. sound, and then, everything was quiet...

Xie Hui, who managed to stop his tears, sat up from the bed. Although his headache and back pain did not ease, he found that his body was very dry, which should have been treated well.

Shaking his head, Xie Hui told himself not to think about these things anymore, picked up the scattered clothes and put them on slowly, took out the mobile phone in his pocket and looked, it was full of calls from Zhou Qi, the last call was in the early morning Four o'clock.At that time, I should still fall asleep in that warm embrace.

Can't think any more.

Xie Hui walked out with heavy steps, and when he was about to open the door, he remembered that he hadn't heard the sound of the door opening and closing just now, so where did Lu Mingyou, who hadn't seen him for so long, go?

My heart suddenly became flustered, very much like the flustered feeling of not being able to find Lu Mingyou at that time... I lost him after that, so what about now...

Xie Hui didn't know where the strength came from, as if he forgot about his physical discomfort, he began to look for Lu Mingyou in every room, no kitchen, no study, no gym, what about the bathroom...

The hand holding the bathroom doorknob trembled uncontrollably. He couldn't hear a single sound from inside. He probably wasn't taking a bath. Xie Hui wanted to push the door open, only to find that the door was locked from the inside. The great anxiety in his heart made him knock on the door quickly. , Shouting: "Lu Mingyou, are you inside! Open the door! Open the door!"

But after calling several times, there was no response.

Xie Hui's mind went blank for an instant, as if this familiar scene had happened before, but Xie Hui had no time to think about it, so he slammed into the door hard, but couldn't open it.

What, what can open the door?

Xie Hui went outside to search for things, and found a chair in the dining room. He completely forgot about his physical discomfort, picked up the chair and threw it at the glass on the door.

After finally smashing a piece, Xie Hui looked in and saw a piece of blood red in the bathtub.

His legs were trembling uncontrollably. Regardless of the injury, Xie Hui continued to hit the broken glass with his elbow, reached in and opened the door lock.

Rushed in front of Lu Mingyou, raised his bleeding hand, checked the other hand holding the knife, and after confirming that there was only one wound, quickly took a dry towel and wrapped it tightly for him with trembling hands .

Xie Hui stretched out his hand and kept patting Lu Mingyou's face, crying in fear and anxiety: "Lu Mingyou, wake up! Don't sleep! Wake up! Wake up!"

As if hearing Xie Hui's call, Lu Mingyou slightly opened his eyes, looked at Xie Hui's anxious appearance, smiled slightly, and said in a barely audible voice: "Don't cry... I owe you this..."

I owe you paralysis!

Xie Hui really wanted to beat him up, but suddenly everything blurred in front of his eyes, and when he wiped away his tears, he saw Lu Mingyou closed his eyes again.

No, nothing will happen!

Xie Hui probed for his breath, and put a towel on his arm, and dragged Lu Mingyou, who was covered in blood, out of the bathtub with all his strength, raised his feet, and ensured that he could Blood supply and oxygen supply, only then have time to think about the next step.

call the ambulance!

No, Xie Hui immediately denied this plan.

Lu Mingyou's status is special, the less people know about this kind of thing, the better.

Xie Hui tried to force himself to calm down, took out the phone in his pocket, wiped off the water stains on it, dialed the phone, and said in a trembling voice that he couldn't control, "Xiao Yang, help..."