Quickly travel through the book: Xiaocao Raiders Flower God

It has been several months since I returned to China, and my life seems to be on the right track, but everything seems strange.Xiao Qi felt very conflicted in his heart. He felt that every part of the Luo family mansion he lived in was very familiar to him, but he felt strange to the servants here. The master bedroom he lived in was very luxurious and comfortable, but he often felt that the furnishings should not be That's right.

In short, when Luo Qing didn't realize it, Xiaoqi already had a faint sense of uneasiness in his heart, but he was inexplicably unwilling to share this uneasiness with Luo Qing, as if there was always a voice in his heart saying, "Luo Qing is the source of everything .” It made him unable to completely trust Luo Qing, and he had faint doubts about Luo Qing.

It happened that Luo Qing was going on a business trip these few days, and Xiaoqi felt that the overwhelming emotion that was weighing on him was a little bit relieved, so he sneaked out of the mansion without telling anyone, wanting to go for a stroll in the city.At this moment, when he was standing on the busy street, he felt an inexplicable sense of sadness attacking his heart. The feeling came so suddenly that he was a little at a loss as to what to do.

On the bustling streets, pedestrians and vehicles are rushing past, it seems that everyone is looking for their roots and the value of their existence, and they don't want to be the drifting feathers, or drifting duckweed.

What about my roots?where is it?

Suddenly there was some pain in his head, Xiaoqi couldn't help clenching his fists, and beat his head hard with his fists, and then the three words "orphanage" suddenly appeared in his mind, and he couldn't help but flashed a flash of inspiration, wanting to recall that it was him in that memory Look at the orphanage where you grew up.

But... which orphanage is it?Where is the orphanage?Why can't I seem to remember?Is my memory so bad?

Xiaoqi stood there in confusion, and couldn't help frowning tightly, full of doubts, until a low-key and luxurious black Bentley stopped in front of him, and it was the car from the Luo family who came to pick him up.

Seeing the driver wearing white gloves get out of the car and turn around to open the back seat door for him, Xiaoqi bit her lip, feeling a little uneasy inexplicably, so he asked: "Who asked you to come? You How do you know where I am?"

"It's sir who called and asked to come pick you up. Sir, he is worried that you will be in danger." The driver replied respectfully, bowing slightly, not daring to be contemptuous at all because Xiaoqi looked young. The little lover, blowing the pillow wind, they all have a hard time.Even in the Luo family, in fact, the new batch of servants in the Luo family felt a little disdain for the sudden appearance of the young man, thinking that the young man looked like an adult, and the way of seducing people was clever.

Xiaoqi is actually a sensitive person. He has long noticed the condescending attitude of Luo's servants, so he felt that the house was cramped and strange, because he always felt that it was not like this, he always felt that the people in the house were They are very kind and kind, treat him very well, like to smile at him, cook him the most delicious food, prepare gifts for him carefully, be happy for his happiness, and be sad for his sadness, which is not the case at all A cold house!

There was an unbearable pain in his head again, and Xiaoqi didn't want to ask Luo Qing if he was monitoring him for the time being, so he got into the car and said to the driver, "Go to the orphanage."

The driver was obviously trained. As soon as Xiaoqi mentioned the orphanage, he knew that Xiaoqi was referring to the place where Xiaoqi grew up, so he sent a message to Luo Qing while driving to the orphanage according to Xiaoqi's wishes. hospital to go.

When he came to the orphanage where he grew up, Xiaoqi stood at the door of the slightly dilapidated orphanage, and felt that the place was terribly strange. He saw the children dressed in plain clothes, and couldn't help reaching out to touch every table, chair and equipment here. , the sense of disobedience in his heart was even heavier, because he didn't feel that he had lived here before, even if everyone who smiled at him could call him by his name.

Xiaoqi is so unfamiliar to everyone here that he has no sense of familiarity. He thinks carefully, and even his memory of them is vague.

Is this really where he grew up?Why is it that there are traces of his existence everywhere, such as the pictures of him when he was a child on the wall, the bunk beds that belonged to him, and the swing he used to play on? Everyone seems to be trying to tell him that he is very happy here, Everyone is also deliberately emphasizing that he has lived here for many years, but because of this deliberation, he feels that this orphanage is so strange that there is no sense of familiarity.

After all, the more things need to be emphasized, the more false they may be.Those who tell lies will instead be aggressive and create momentum.

His heart suddenly became very painful. Xiaoqi stood in the yard of the orphanage, watching the children lining up on the swings one by one. When the children's laughter suddenly came, a vague idea appeared in his mind. Scenes.In the scene, he was also swinging on a swing, but behind him was a tall man. The man's figure was shrouded in a halo. He couldn't see clearly, so he could only look back hard, but he still only You can see a cloud of mist.

Xiaoqi in her mind turned her head in disappointment, but Xiaoqi in reality was even more at a loss, she could only stand there blankly, and began to doubt everything, even doubting whether he really existed.

In this way, Xiaoqi stayed in the orphanage for a whole afternoon, until a familiar embrace pulled him into his arms, and a gentle voice came from his ear, "Do you miss this place again? It's late, come home with me Bar."

Luo Qing's voice has always been nice, but at this time, for some reason, this kind of tenderness made Xiaoqi feel shuddering, so he broke away from Luo Qing's embrace, turned around and asked, "Are you spying on me? You clearly said that next week I will come back, I have only been here for a while, and you have followed me, how do you know where I am?"

The expression on Xiaoqi's face was very serious, and in his clear and calm eyes, there was a bit of resentment that he didn't notice. It seemed that he hated the feeling of being watched all the time, as if... As if he had been imprisoned and locked up!This feeling was so bad that just thinking about it made him tremble, fearful, and angry.

Luo Qing's expression flashed an extremely cold and gloomy look for a moment, but then he smiled gently and wanted to reach out to hug Xiaoqi back, but Xiaoqi opened his hand and refused, and then only heard Xiaoqi ask more loudly: "Answer me! Are you! Are you spying on me?"

His expression was completely gloomy, Luo Qing couldn't accept the rejection from Xiaoqi, so he grabbed Xiaoqi's wrist forcefully, pulled Xiaoqi straight out of the orphanage gate, stuffed the struggling Xiaoqi into the car, and then tightly held Xiaoqi with one hand. Holding Xiaoqi's wrists tightly, he ordered the driver coldly, "Drive, go back to Luo Zhai."

"Luo Qing!" Xiaoqi's eyes were red with anger, and his wrists were red, but he was still struggling stubbornly, as if he wanted to escape from Luo Qing's shackles. He had been spoiled by Luo Qing for a long time. , seems to have a good temper, once his bottom line is touched, he would rather die than compromise!

"Let go of me! You bastard!" Feeling that Luo Qing's hand was getting stronger and stronger, Xiaoqi roared like a little beast whose territory had been violated, but Luo Qing suddenly pinched his chin and kissed him ferociously.

"Get off... hurt (open)!" Xiaoqi hated this feeling of being forced, and couldn't help biting Luo Qing's tongue hard, until the bite was full of blood and rust between their lips and teeth, and Xiaoqi relaxed a little. He didn't dare to continue biting deeply, because Luo Qing seemed to be crazy, regardless of pain or not, tongue injury or not, he continued to aggressively attack his lips and tongue, until he finally calmed down a little, and then backed away.

Xiaoqi panted heavily, partly because of poor breathing, partly because of extreme anger, he stared at Luo Qing's still indifferent face, and suddenly felt that such Luo Qing was as terrifying as a devil, and he would no longer be in his heart. Gentle image.

Obviously when he was in Venice, Luo Qing was still so gentle and could give him all tenderness and care, but since returning to China, everything seems to have changed, it seems that day after day, there is always a voice calling from the bottom of his heart, warning him to stay away from Luo Qing. Green, otherwise one day they will die together.

The conflict broke out, and Xiaoqi's unilateral cold war kicked off. He ignored Luo Qing's gentle smiling face, and even moved out of the master bedroom, and chose a guest bedroom to live in. He refused to smile at Luo Qing, and refused to respond. Luo Qing showed all his favors, because he really couldn't accept Luo Qing's control over him.

Even a lover is not qualified to control his life to such an extent!He can choose!

I am very obsessed with this kind of accidental right of choice in my heart. Xiaoqi is determined to have a cold war with Luo Qing this time, not to lose his temper, but to really let Luo Qing realize that he is also an independent personality, and Luo Qing has no right to monitor him , Control him!

With Xiaoqi like this, Luo Qing's complexion became more and more ugly day by day. That night, he finally couldn't bear it anymore, and directly opened Xiaoqi's locked door with a gun, but saw that Xiaoqi was not affected at all. Impact, was sleeping on the bed, through the moonlight, he saw Xiaoqi frowning, obviously having a terrible dream.

"Dad...Dad, don't lock me up, I'm afraid...Dad, Dad, Dad!"

Suddenly, I saw Xiaoqi sitting up from the bed suddenly, calling out a name that he didn't even understand. He was gasping for breath, and fumbled to turn on the bedside lamp, but was suddenly appeared Luo Qing who was in his room was startled.

The load on her heart was instantly too heavy, Xiaoqi couldn't help covering her heart, and shouted angrily, "Luo Qing, what are you doing! You disrespect me so much! Get out, get out!!!"

Still thinking about the "Dad" that Xiaoqi yelled just now, Luo Qing couldn't help but feel a little dazed at the moment, when Xiaoqi asked him to leave, he left subconsciously, and even forgot what he came here for , I just want to ask Xu Hui what's going on!Doesn't it mean that it is impossible to remember it again?

However, when Luo Qing told Xu Hui about this, the result Xu Hui told him made him a little desperate, because Xu Hui said, "To be honest, Xiaoqi's firm will is really rare, and it can hypnotize you at first." Success is only possible after one or two months of long-term hard work, and you have destroyed a large part of his will. But now after you return to China, the environment he is in is too contrary to his memory. Many, maybe you have touched one of his most sensitive nerves, maybe he will suddenly think of everything."

"Can't you hypnotize me again?" Luo Qing squeezed the phone tightly, a flicker of madness flashed in his eyes.

"No, if he does it again, his will will completely collapse."

"What happens if it breaks down?"

"Either you are crazy or insane, or the subconscious memory is confused, leading to a coma, no different from a vegetable." Xu Hui's tone was very serious, and what he said made Luo Qing a little terrified, because Xiao Qi was his baby. Having already hurt Xiaoqi once, he is really not sure that he can hurt him a second time.

The child's resentful eyes, just one look, he could no longer bear.That's it... One day, even one day, anyway, it is stolen, snatched, fantasy happiness, and sooner or later it will have to be paid back.

At the same time, Xiaoqi was sitting on the bed and was frantically pulling his hair and beating his head. He felt that something was hitting his brain, and he wanted to break through the shackles, but he couldn't breathe, so he He could only sit on the bed dejectedly with his head down, thinking about how he and Luo Qing became like this, obviously those sweet memories are still fresh in his mind, but now he actually has the desire to break up with Luo Qing.

It's not that he doesn't like Luo Qing, but that he can't stand Luo Qing's desire to control. He's not a Barbie doll, no, absolutely not! ! !

Barbie doll!To be dressed up as you like, raised in a gorgeous golden house, no need to move, no need to think, just need to be dressed up as the most beautiful, sitting quietly in the window to be appreciated by others is enough!No!Don't do that!Don't make my life like that!

Seeming to have touched the most sensitive red line again, Xiaoqi could not help but subconsciously yelled "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" Luo Qing's heart tightened when he heard it. In Qi's bedroom, he saw Xiao Qi banging his head against the wall with all his might, his forehead was bruised, and his heart almost jumped out of fright.

"Qiqi! What are you doing!" Luo Qing rushed over and held Xiaoqi in her arms, preventing Xiaoqi from doing stupid things any more. The cute and kind child he loved was forcefully forced into such a crazy appearance by him. What did he do... Did he destroy his love with his own hands?

Tasting poppy for the first time, the heavenly taste will make people addicted, but its poison will gradually erode a person's will, and finally tear a person's humanity, making people become neither human nor demon, and completely lose their original intentions. To get back to the original intention, one must go through great pains before being reborn and a new man.

At this time, Luo Qing looked at Xiaoqi's pain, that kind of physical and mental pain was on Xiaoqi's body, but it was like ten times the pain of gouging out flesh and bones, and the pain was deep in his soul, making his My heart is empty, I just feel that the whole world has become gray and white, lifeless and hopeless.

"Father..." I heard Xiaoqi weakly calling in Luo Qing's arms, and Luo Qing gently hugged Xiaoqi tightly, and replied in a low voice, "Well, Dad is here."

"Don't...don't be a Barbie doll."

"Okay, babies don't do Barbie dolls."

"Be free, don't lock me up."

Hesitating for a second, Luo Qing closed his eyes again and nodded, the only tear of love in his life flowed out of his eyes, the tear was both hot and cold, the hot one was love, and the cold one was tears.

This teardrop fell on Xiaoqi's face, causing Xiaoqi to reach out to touch it. When he touched a tear, he couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable, but when he heard Luo Qing say, "Okay, daddy will give the baby freedom." " His heart couldn't see anything else for the time being, he could only curl his lips happily, and replied softly, "Thank you dad! I'm so tired and sleepy, dad let me sleep for a while."

"Okay... Dad will watch over you, baby, let's sleep for a while."

This night, Luo Qing hugged Xiaoqi all the time, like a second before the end of the world, embracing the most precious thing he could hug, until the sky was bright, he gently put Xiaoqi on the bed, Looking at the swollen bruises on Xiaoqi's forehead, his heart hurts like a needle prick, and he still tortures himself like this and doesn't want to give up. He just wants to use this pain to remind him all the time that he hurt the person he loves the most. He doesn't deserve to be forgiven.

But if you want to ask Luo Qing if he regrets it, he will definitely say: No, I don't regret it at all.Just because he is despicable, and he never denies it, it's just true love, how can he be willing to let his lover suffer because of him?So he would rather cut his own flesh to set his lover free.

Later, when Xiaoqi woke up and healed the injuries caused by the self-abuse, the two of them tacitly never brought up what happened that night again. Xiaoqi still called Luo Qing "Luo Qing", and Luo Qing never spoke to Xiaoqi again. Any violation of the rules.Until this day, Luo Qing took some of the best foreign university materials, put them in front of Xiaoqi, and said to him, "These schools are all good. You can see which one you want to go to. After you go, you should study languages ​​first. Then go directly to the undergraduate study, if you want to continue to study in graduate school, if you don’t want to study, whether to stay abroad or come back, it’s up to you, and I respect your opinion.”

Luo Qing said this, but his hands were trembling slightly, obviously trying to restrain his suppressed emotions.

Xiaoqi took the documents and looked through them carefully, and finally decided to go to a school in England. Then he quietly held Luo Qing's hand, only to find that the hands of Luo Qing, who had always been obsessed with cleanliness, were already covered with cold sweat, making his His heart was also a little sore, but in the end he looked at Luo Qing's slightly expectant eyes, and he still didn't say anything, just said, "Take care of yourself." Then he got up and left. Tell Luo Qing, in fact, he is also at a loss in his heart.

Because in Xiaoqi's heart, there are not only the parent-child memories of Luo Qing's childhood, but also the sweet time in Venice later, his heart is also contradictory, he can't completely resent Luo Qing, and he can't completely forgive Luo Qing, so At this time, he can only choose to escape, maybe time will heal everything, so that he can face it all bravely.

"Luo Qing, I'm leaving. If one day I can find my true self, I will come back to you. If you are willing to wait for me, just wait, if you don't, then so be it...you will always be my dearest People, let time tell us what the real answer is."

Looking at the last text message from Xiaoqi sent on the phone, a wry smile appeared on the corner of Luo Qing's mouth, revealing an inferiority complex and fragility that had never been revealed before.

The plane took Xiaoqi away, and took away the only concern in Luo Qing's heart, so he turned back into that indifferent and ruthless emperor of the Black//Tao, and began to expand his king's territory by all means.

In the process, this part of the plot gradually got on track with the original novel. Following the advancement of the plot, Luo Qing became the real king of the underground. The only difference from the original novel is that he is no longer the lone star of the evil spirit, and he still has A longing, an indelible longing, is a state of mind that makes him soften when he thinks about it, even when he says the word "seven".

Qiqi, are you okay?

Year after year, Xiaoqi was gone and never came back.And Luo Qing was afraid that as soon as he saw Xiaoqi, he would not be able to help but want to snatch him back and continue to be locked in his world, so he didn't dare to go to England to find Xiaoqi, and even everyone who used to secretly monitor Xiaoqi would also be afraid. Withdrew by him, he gave Xiaoqi complete freedom, and completely severed the one-sided connection between him and Xiaoqi, only waiting for a hope, a hope that does not know when it will light up.

The love of Red Poppy is crazy and passionate, but also deeply inferior. All despicable means are because it does not know how to protect and love, so it causes harm, but it is also this kind of harm that makes it wake up and learn to let go , learn to become trusting and wait.Maybe its love will never come back, but its heart is still full of love, because love is never distance, but protection and expectation.

In five years, Luo Qing has completely turned into a deep, introverted and charming man. There are always people who don't know how to live or die by his side rushing towards him, trying to find something from him, but he lives like a Puritan, abstinent, rigorous, the only hobby in life is to look at the videos and photos of Xiaoqi from the past, and then sit in the sun with a cup of tea, read a book, and wait for someone who doesn't know if he will return.

"Luo Qing!" A voice suddenly rang in his ears. Luo Qing, who was bending over to trim flower branches in the garden, thought he was hallucinating, until a pair of arms hugged him tightly from behind. The voice sounded again, "Luo Qing! Luo Qing! Luo Qing! I'm back! I miss you so much!"

His eyes turned red in an instant. It's not that the man has no tears, but that he hasn't reached a place where love is deep.

Luo Qing clenched his fists tightly, suppressing the violent rush of emotion. He looked up at the high hanging sun, and couldn't help but raise his hands to cover his eyes, blocking the too glaring sunlight. After a while, he turned around, Hold tightly in your arms the lover who has finally returned.

My love...do you know?Whether it is one year, two years, three years, or a lifetime, I will wait for you, and now I finally wait for you.I love you, my Qiqi.