Be Dazai's mother

After blowing the boy's hair, the four of us sat together and watched TV for a while.When the TV was over, I also felt sleepy.

After saying good night to the three of them, I went back to my room and went to bed.

When I woke up in a daze in the middle of the night, I was thirsty and went to the living room to get a glass of water. I didn't expect to see the leader Zai standing on the balcony.

Since his back was facing me, I didn't see what he was doing.

It was already autumn, and it was still after the rain, so it was probably quite cold on the balcony.Looking at the thinly dressed leader Zai, I thought about it and quietly pushed open the balcony door and walked over.

Noticing that my leader Jae turned his head, I finally saw what he was doing - he was smoking.

The leader Zai was a little surprised when he saw me. He was leaning on the balcony with a cigarette between his fingers. A cold wind blew through him, making him look even thinner.

When I looked at him, I suddenly remembered the scene when I first met Mr. Mori when he was smoking alone.

I also thought about the fact that the leader Jae mentioned that he replaced Mr. Sen and became the new leader of the port mafia when chatting with me today.

It's unbelievable that Aji from another world I didn't know became the leader of the port mafia.

Of course, there are many things that I don’t know, but when I think about how much "Dazai Osamu" in the parallel world has gone through to become the leader of the port mafia, I am very concerned.

Seeing me coming, the leader killed the cigarette. He smiled at me and asked, "Wake up in the middle of the night to drink water?"

I nodded and asked him again: "Why are you standing on the balcony smoking a cigarette alone in the middle of the night?"

A few maple leaves fell and made a crisp sound when they landed on the balcony floor.The leader Zai looked at the maple leaf with misty eyes, and said softly: "If you can't sleep and have nothing to do, come and smoke a cigarette."

Hearing him say that he couldn't sleep, I asked nervously, "Is it the bed? Or is it uncomfortable to sleep in the same room with other people?"

Because there is only one guest room in the house, the leader Jae and the young Jae slept in the same room.Of course, I have properly separated the two of them with a screen, but for extremely sensitive people like them, it may be a torment to be with other people—even if they are themselves in a parallel world.

I did propose that the boy should sleep in my room, the chief should sleep in the guest room, and then I would just lay a floor in the living room, but both of them and Azhi refuted my idea.

"No." The leader lowered his eyes. There was a smell of cigarettes on his body. It didn't smell bad, but for some reason, it made people feel in a trance. He said, "It's just that I didn't bring sleeping pills, so I couldn't sleep."

I looked at him worriedly, didn't know what to say for a while, and then said: "In this case, when Azhi wakes up tomorrow, let him go get you some sleeping pills? I don't know what kind of sleeping pills you usually take?"

I don't have a doctor's certificate and I can't go directly to the pharmacy to buy this medicine, so I can only buy it through Azhi's contacts.

"It's okay." The leader subconsciously raised his hand holding the cigarette, as if he still wanted to take a sip, then put down his hand and said, "It's fine if you don't sleep for a few days."

"How can you not sleep?" I said in surprise: "Your body will not be able to hold on!"

Anxiety-prone people like me just discovering that we haven't gotten enough sleep and have things to do can be enough to cause anxiety to scratch us all over our body.I can't even imagine not sleeping for several days like the leader Jae said.

I said angrily, "You have to cherish your body well!"

After speaking, I unconsciously frowned.Because I realize that the leader Jae is not my Aji after all, this is still too close for two strangers.

But hearing him lightly say that it's good not to sleep for a few days, I couldn't help but get angry again.

The leader simply didn't care, just waved his hand and said, "Don't worry, Xingzi, I still cherish my body. It's just that I know where my limit is so I can say such a thing."

"Your answer is not convincing at all." I said helplessly.

The leader said coquettishly: "Of course, if Xingzi you come to coax me to sleep, I might be able to fall asleep."

I was so surprised by his words that I couldn't keep my mouth shut. Sensing the sense of disobedience that I had felt since I met the leader Jae, I asked suspiciously, "Have we met before?"

Although the young Zai is curious about me, he is indeed strange to me.But the leader Zai is different. He seems to have known me from a long time ago, but this kind of knowledge has a vague barrier.This made the leader Zai talk to me with intimacy and a little distance, understanding but curiosity and temptation.

As if surprised by my words, the leader raised his eyebrows and smiled at me and said: "Of course, I have known you a long time ago."

Under the somewhat cold autumn night sky, his smile looked extraordinarily pure and clean with a kind of childish complacency, which made me soften my expression.

"When?" I asked amusedly.

"I won't tell you." The leader Zai said with a smile.

"Then what can you tell me?" I asked again.

"What can I tell you?" The leader Zai repeated what I said, and replied: "Yes, what I can tell you is--I did know about your existence from a long time ago, and I know that I in a parallel world have Such a mother."

He propped his face and said casually: "I also tried to find you in my own world, but unfortunately the "Haruko Nakatani" in that world died long ago."

"Of course, I have also looked for you in other worlds, but apart from this world where you are, the other "Haruko Nakatani" have all died."

The leader Zai said so, turned his head to look at me, and said with a bit of irony: "So, maybe you are a miracle among miracles?"

I don't understand how he knows me, let alone how he knows that "I" in other worlds are all dead. I just feel the loss and regret in his expression, so I can't help but sigh and say: "Hearing myself The fact that being alive is a miracle doesn't always feel like a happy thing."

"That's what you said," said the leader Zai.

After talking like this for a while, I suggested: "If you can't sleep, go back to bed and lie down for a while?"

The leader Zai shook his head and said, "I'll just stand there for a while. If Xingzi feels sleepy, go back to sleep."

"Stupid." I patted him on the back and said, "It's not that I feel sleepy, it's that I think you'll catch a cold if you continue to stand here."

Unlike me, who is afraid of the cold and wears thick clothes even if I just go out to pour a glass of water, the leader Jae only wears one piece of clothing.The wind is strong at night in autumn, and I'm afraid he'll catch a cold if he stays here any longer.

"Aren't you cold?" I asked.

"Of course not." The leader said, noticing the subtle look in my eyes, he raised his hand in surrender and said, "Well, it's still a bit cold."

I felt helpless, and suddenly felt that the leader Zai might be the one who couldn't take care of himself the least among the three "Dazai Osamu".

Obviously the one who looks the most mature, isn't it?

"Anyway." I said, "Let's go to the living room first?"

The leader Zai thought for a while, smiled as if defeated by me, and said, "Okay."

I took the leader Zai to sit on the sofa in the living room.The wind outside the window was blowing loudly, and the window made a bang bang sound, but it also made the house warmer.

Looking at the leader Zai who became drowsy because of the warmth after being pulled to the sofa by me, I asked softly, "How about just sleeping like this?"

The leader Zai said: "But I want to talk to you."

"How about talking while sleeping?" I said with a smile.

The leader Zai grumbled but nodded and lay down.

Looking at the leader Zai who was lying down, I was finally able to see his face clearly, which made me a little surprised and said: "Oh, you have grown a beard."

The leader with his eyes closed touched his chin subconsciously, and said, "After all, I've been busy with work recently, and I haven't shaved my beard since I was dragged into this world."

It is said to be stubble, but it is really just a few small black spots. I also noticed it because I know Ah Zhi better and the leader Zai's face is paler.

"I'll buy them together tomorrow by the way." I said.

I'll go to the supermarket when I get up tomorrow, and I have to buy some daily necessities for the boy Zai and the leader Zai.

"But you've really grown up." I sighed.Because of Azhi, even the leader Zai looked like a child to me, but when I saw the stubble on his face, I suddenly realized that he was no longer a child.

"After all, I'm already an adult." The leader Zai said softly with his mouth raised.

"Yeah, I have become a great adult." I said jokingly.

I reached out and touched the brow of the leader Zai, and asked with a smile, "Are you going to sleep?"

"Not yet." The leader Zai replied in a dazed voice.

There was silence between us for a while, and the leader Zai said again: "Actually, Xingzi, you have met me before, but you seem to have forgotten."

His voice was indistinct and soft because of sleepiness, so I couldn't hear what he was saying clearly, so I could only utter in doubt: "Huh?"

The leader Zai didn't care, just smiled and said: "But it doesn't matter, even if you forget, as long as I remember."

I actually didn't quite understand what he was saying, but seeing his satisfied smile, I couldn't help but said softly, "That's it."

"En." The leader Zai agreed, and then fell asleep with a steady breathing.

And looking at his sleeping face, I somehow felt a sense of déjà vu, which made it impossible for me to recover.

When I noticed that the light in front of me was a bit dim, I looked up and found that the young Zai was already sitting on the sofa opposite me at some point.

I said to him apologetically, "I'm sorry, did our talking wake you up?"

In fact, I have deliberately softened the sound, and the sound insulation of the room is also very good. Logically speaking, the outside sound should not be heard in the room.

Compared with the leader Zai, the young man with a more immature face shook his head and said, "No, I just couldn't sleep, so I thought about going out for a while."

"Is it because you recognize the bed? Or is it because you feel uncomfortable sleeping in the same room with other people?" I asked nervously, and then realized that my words seemed familiar.

The young man shook his head and said calmly, "It's just that I can't sleep."

He thought for a while, and said, "Well, it's still a little cold, and I had goose bumps all over my body when I woke up."

It's autumn, and I washed all the previous quilts, leaving only a few temporary ones for sleeping.It rained suddenly again today, and the quilt was not dry at all, so I could only take some overcoats for Zai Zai.

I said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I misconsidered. I'll go get the quilt tomorrow and cover you up."

The young man shook his head and said, "It's nothing."

As he said that, he couldn't help but keep looking at the leader Zai.

Noticing that he kept staring at the sleeping leader Zai, I said helplessly, "You are already an adult, but you look like a child, right?"

The young Zai nodded with his hands crossed, and said, "That's right, I don't want to admit that this guy and the guy still in the room are the future "me" of a certain world. I am not such a childish guy."

"Haha." I couldn't help but covered my mouth and laughed a few times, looked at him and said, "Maybe the future of your world is also like this?"

"No way." The young Zai raised his eyebrows and said.

I met Wu Jingzai and smiled without saying a word, then I looked at the young Zai, stretched out my hand to him, and asked, "Do you want to sleep together? It will be very cold to sleep alone, but it will be very cold for three people to sleep close together." Warm."

The young man was silent, he pursed his lips, responded in a low voice, and then walked towards me.After he leaned over, I also became drowsy because of the drowsiness that appeared.

When I woke up from the drowsy sleepiness, what I saw was Azhi standing in front of me, huffing and puffing.

At this time, I was sitting on the sofa, leaning on the leader Zai and the young Zai on the left and right respectively. For some reason, I always had the illusion that I was discovered by the cat owner at home after going to the pet cafe to suck cats.

I thought about it, and stretched out my hand to Aji.

"Come here, Aji." I said with a smile.

Azhi raised his eyebrows, then came over and pushed aside the boy Zai and the leader Zai on my left and right, and then sat beside me like a koala and hugged me tightly.

"This is my mother alone." Azhi said in a muffled voice while hugging me.

I couldn't help softening my expression, and said in a voice like a dream: "Well, it's your mother alone."

I fell asleep again in a daze, and when I was half asleep, I heard the whistling wind outside the window and the crisp sound of rainwater falling to the ground.

Ah, it's raining outside again.

However, it doesn't feel cold at all.

I vaguely felt the leader Zai on the left approaching again, and Azhi and the young Zai on the right seemed to be arguing again.

It always feels wonderfully reassuring, as if the whole body is soaked in warm spring water, so happy.

With such peace of mind and warmth, I gradually fell into a dreamland...