Be Dazai's mother

"More than anyone else, I sincerely hope that she will be happy, and I can do anything for it." Osamu Dazai couldn't help showing a gentle and pure smile when he said this.

"..."

The few people around looked at his smile and fell silent for some reason.

Nakahara Chu also had mixed feelings in his heart, and he said, "I finally believe that you and Ms. Sachiko are mother and son." This kind of place where they try their best to think about each other is exactly the same.

"Of course Sachiko and I are mother and son. Isn't this kind of thing obvious at a glance?" Dazai Osamu made a face at him and mocked: "A slug is a slug, not only has no brain, but also has bad eyes."

Seeing that Chuya Nakahara and Osamu Dazai were about to quarrel again, Mori Ogai reluctantly stopped them.

Yosano Akiko glanced at Osamu Dazai, and said delicately, "I thought you would be the type to firmly prevent Miss Sachiko from being snatched?"

"No, why do you think so?" Osamu Dazai looked at Akiko Yosano suspiciously, noticing that her gaze was still on the knife in his hand, Osamu Dazai put the knife back with a smile, and said: " Oh, this, this is just a joke."

Who believes it? !

Everyone except Edogawa Ranpo and Oda Sakunosuke couldn't help but think of it.

"It's true." Osamu Dazai spread his hands helplessly, he turned his head to look at Sachiko who was still chatting with Mrs. Nana over there, his gaze became extremely soft, and he said: "Sachiko's life has always revolved around me Yes, not only because she loves me very much, but also because she doesn't love herself enough."

Osamu Dazai sighed, shook his head, and said, "Although Sachiko has accepted her past, she still doesn't love herself enough in essence, and she always feels that she doesn't deserve to be loved."

"It's weird, isn't it?" Osamu Dazai said distressedly: "But Sachiko thinks so, which also causes her not to have a longer and closer relationship with anyone other than me." Even with Mrs. Nana Chatting together is just for the promise with Sawada Iemitsu.

This is not to say that Sachiko doesn't like Mrs. Nana, but just to explain Sachiko's poor interpersonal relationship and her unconscious self-abased and self-abuse tendencies.

For example, Osamu Dazai himself works in the port mafia on weekdays. He exchanged words with Mr. Mori and quarreled with Nakaya. After work, he went to Lupine Bar to have a drink with Oda Sakunosuke and Sakaguchi Ango. Occasionally, when he was free, he went back Once at home, I chatted with Sachiko about family matters.Although he is still looking for the meaning of living, his world is not only for Sachiko.

Fortunately, she is different.Perhaps it is still impossible to get away from the post-war era, and Sachiko has always had a hard time forming bonds with others.Although Sachiko is now able to use her smartphone and TV fluently, she doesn't always like to use them.

This is a very strange thing, a person's world should not only revolve around a certain person.Even if Osamu Dazai and Sachiko are mother and child with a bond that transcends blood relationship, they are not conjoined twins after all, but two different, independent people with their own thoughts and consciousness.Especially now that Osamu Dazai has grown up and become independent, Sachiko also has her own thoughts and consciousness, and she should also have her own life.

"I hope she can have her own life." Osamu Dazai lowered his eyes and said calmly, "Not just around me."

Although Sachiko has a rebellious and rebellious side, she actually has a more traditional Japanese female side in her bones.She feels that unless there are special circumstances, women should not be alone in a room with men, or they will be gossiped about.She also thinks that it is natural for women to become housewives after marriage and childbirth, and it is only natural that their lives revolve around their husbands and children.

Dazai Osamu said: "I hope she can be loved, not to live as someone's so-and-so, but just to live as the person "Sachiko"."

Osamu Dazai respects her ideas and needs, and at the same time hopes that Sachiko can love herself more.Not as the mother of "Dazai Osamu", but just as "Sachiko" to achieve happiness.

Fukuzawa Yukichi looked at him, and suddenly sighed: "You really hope that Miss Sachiko will be happy."

Osamu Dazai laughed and said, "Isn't this a matter of course? She is my mother. If I don't want her to be happy, who else should I want to be happy?"

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"Gentle, beautiful and inexplicably gives people a very reassuring feeling. I like this kind of Sachiko very much." Mr. Sato said.

Being praised so bluntly made me blush with embarrassment. I scratched my cheek and said, "I'm not that good."

Mr. Sato laughed a few times, and said: "Why? Don't look at me like this. I have been watching you in the store. When you are with other people, you are always used to taking care of them. Xiaoye also I like you very much, probably because you always have a kind of aura that makes people can't help talking and acting like a baby."

Hearing what he said, I frowned in some trouble, but quickly said nonchalantly: "Haha, in fact, Xiaoye also likes the other sisters in the store."

"But she still likes Ms. Sachiko the most." Thinking of his fussy daughter, Mr. Sato laughed helplessly, and continued: "She is always making noises and telling me that she wants to see Ms. Sachiko and play with you. Xiaoye, who is obviously so noisy, is always extraordinarily well-behaved in front of Ms. Sachiko, and I, a father, am a little jealous."

Mr. Sato said jokingly.

Mrs. Nana froze for a moment, and asked, "Could it be that Xiaoye also has reasons for wanting to be with Sachiko?"

This is not something difficult to say, especially when Xiaoye likes me very much, Mr. Sato nodded and said: "There is indeed a reason, if you can be with Miss Sachiko, let Miss Sachiko become Xiaoye's new mother , she must be very happy."

"Of course." Mr. Sato looked at me with gentle eyes: "I know that Ms. Sachiko has a son, if you don't mind, can I bring it out to meet with you next time?"

I pursed my lips, smiled and said, "That kid is so busy every day that I don't know if he's free. If I'm free, I'll take him to the store."

Mr. Sato wanted to continue to say something, but his words were interrupted by A Gang who was silent at the side.

A Gang looked at Mr. Sato, and said word by word: "...but Miss Sachiko doesn't like children, does she?"

Mr. Sato and I were stunned.Sato-san aside, I was really surprised by Tsuna's sensitivity.

Although I am always misunderstood as liking children because of my weak and gentle appearance, and because I have a natural affinity with children, I can always win the favor of children, but I don't actually like children.They also bother me a lot of the time, making me think kids are really troublesome creatures.

Of course, Azhi is not in this range, or I have never seen a more precocious and rational child than him, and his kind of place even makes me wish that Azhi would be more willful.But Mr. Sato's daughter Xiaoye is actually the type that troubles me, but I can't lose my temper with children—or the guests' children, right?Therefore, I can only talk to Xiaoye in a soft voice.

I think this is probably the reason, Xiaoye, who feels that she has been treated tenderly, likes me so much.Although Xiaoye is very noisy, she is actually a very lonely child-but even so, I still feel at a loss for her noisy.

I thought I was hiding it well, but I didn't expect that A Gang, who had never seen me getting along with Xiaoye, could see it... No, although this child has been clumsy since before, in some places he has an extraordinary keen.Aji seemed to be complaining to me about Agang's intuition that can be called cheating.

But no matter what, it would be embarrassing for Ah Gang to say such words in front of Mr. Sato. I quickly wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but Ah Gang frowned as if very unhappy and continued: "And Being with the other party is not thinking that I will definitely give her happiness, but thinking that if I am with her, my daughter will be very happy—don’t you think it’s too selfish to think like this?”

"When you are together, you should first think about liking each other instead of what you can bring yourself when you are with her, right? You are obviously being irresponsible to Ms. Sachiko and yourself."

"And you think that if you can be with a woman your daughter likes very much, your daughter will be very happy-have you asked her yourself?" A gang, who has always been timid and timid, stared at Mr. Sato with those slightly angry eyes , blinded by his firm eyes, even I was suddenly speechless.

Mr. Sato shook his head subconsciously, and said as if he wanted to refute something: "But Xiaoye likes Miss Sachiko so much, she must—"

"That's just 'you think'?" A Gang looked at Mr. Sato disapprovingly, and said, "For your daughter, for Xiaoye, for her——you are just thinking about it under the guise of someone, but in fact It's just for yourself, what a selfish thought."

"You just thought you were good to your daughter, but you didn't think about asking her. Obviously she is not your pet or item, and she has her own thoughts. Even if you like Miss Sachiko very much, it doesn't necessarily mean that she wants Miss Sachiko to be her stepmother. , You say that, you are just touching yourself, your behavior is too selfish and arrogant."

"..."

Seeing Mr. Sato's completely stunned expression, Gang, who had a serious expression, suddenly became flustered. He covered his face in embarrassment as if he had just realized what he just said, and said, "Ahhhh Ah, sorry! What the hell am I talking about?"

Mrs. Nana also quickly bowed and apologized: "Sorry! This child is too rude!"

I was also a little embarrassed, and said to Mr. Sato: "I'm sorry, this kid, Gang, has no malicious intentions."

Mr. Sato came back to his senses, and said with a smile: "It's nothing. Children, I'm still at an age where I don't know the world. I really miss it when I think about it. I also had a time like this."

"Is Sawada-kun still in the first year of junior high school?" Mr. Sato shook his head as if remembering something from a long time ago, and said with emotion in a trance: "At that time, I still imagined being with the girl I liked. For the rest of my life, of course, that's nothing but the unrealistic delusion of adolescents."

"The reality is not so beautiful. There are always many things to consider. Likes can't be eaten as food. The most important thing is that two people can live together with each other. Sawada-kun, you will always understand." Mr. Sato said kindly : "Of course, I also had things that were not thoughtful, and I didn't ask Xiaoye carefully. But I did this because I thought someone could take care of her. After all, Xiaoye is still young, and after her mother divorced me and remarried into a new family, she had to concentrate on it." With my current husband, I can't continue to take care of her."

"What do you think? Ms. Sachiko." Maybe it was because seeing Azuna still looking down with a sad expression, Mr. Sato looked at me a little embarrassed, wanting to get a response from me.

Listening to Sato-san's words, for some reason, I remembered the words of Rena-san who worked together in the restaurant.

"Oh, everyone is trying to match you and Mr. Sato." Ms. Rena said at that time, showing a somewhat helpless expression: "Mr. Sato is so nice, not to mention, don't you already have a child, Sachiko? That child has no actual blood relationship with you, but in the eyes of many men, you are just a fool."

"Mr. Sato is rich, handsome and gentle. Although he has a daughter, Xiaoye likes you so much. What are you afraid of?" Miss Linnai said, "It's always hard for you to take care of a child by yourself. Find someone to rely on. Is it okay?"

"You two are so suitable. When you marry into Mr. Sato's house, he will go out to work, and you will concentrate on taking care of Xiaoye and your son at home. Maybe you can have another child with Mr. Sato."

"What a happy thing this is." Miss Reina said with a smile.

Yes, in the eyes of the world, this is a "natural" thing, right?I, who is alone with my child, and Mr. Sato, who is divorced and needs a woman to take care of his daughter, must we be a very suitable couple in the eyes of the world.

Of course, even if it's not with Mr. Sato, I should be with someone who is suitable for life.Even if it's not with me, Mr. Sato should be with someone who can help him take care of his daughter.Even if they don't like each other that much, even if the other party can be easily replaced, as long as it is suitable-this is a matter of course in the eyes of the world.

I responded with a smile.

After all, he is no longer a child.

However, for some reason, there seemed to be a small voice in the depths of my heart making a weak, desperate cry.

"But I don't want to do this!" said the crying voice, with indistinct sobs: "Is this kind of natural thing right?"

"If you really follow this "naturalness", the personality of "Sachiko" will also be wiped out by yourself."

The voice wailed, "No! I don't want this!"

I was silent for a while, raised my head, smiled and said to Mr. Sato: "Well, I also—"

——"Sachiko!"

Suddenly a familiar voice came from behind.

I looked at the back in a daze, and saw Azhi who was stretching out his hand and shouting loudly. He closed his eyes and shouted: "I hate taking things for granted! Do you remember when I told you this, how did you Reply to me?"

How did you reply?

At this moment, I suddenly remembered what happened when I first met Azhi several years ago. In the cold winter that kept snowing, the boy standing outside my window gently knocked on the door like a bird visiting others in a fairy tale. the door.

He showed me a childish and soft smile like a dream to me who was surprised in the room, and said to me: "Want to go see the cherry blossoms together?"

And I told him dumbfoundingly that the cherry blossoms were invisible at this time, and the young boy said dissatisfiedly, "I hate taking things for granted."

How did I reply back then?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help sighing, and then I showed a slightly apologetic smile to Mr. Sato, and said, "Sorry, I don't quite agree with this kind of 'natural' thing."

——"Yeah, I also hate this kind of thing for granted."

That's what I said at the time.