Be Dazai's mother

Time went back to a few hours ago, because Akiko told me that it was useless to be anxious now, it would be better to rest and refresh myself, so I forced myself to sleep.

When I woke up after sleeping, I said goodbye to the members of the Armed Detective Agency and went to Mrs. Sawada's house alone.

In my impression, Mrs. Sawada is an extremely gentle and kind woman.Knowing that Aji and I were victims of Fuyuki City and had nowhere to go and no money, she actively introduced me to work, lent me money and let me stabilize my life, and then slowly returned it to her. Late.

It can be said that she is the most gentle, tolerant and compassionate person I have ever met.I never thought that a woman like her, who seemed born to live in the sun and laughed happily and happily, would be the wife of a powerful core member of the Mafia.

And according to the meaning revealed in Edogawa Ranpo's words, Mrs. Sawada didn't know about it.Her husband protected her very well, so that even if Mrs. Sawada became the wife of a mafia, she could stand under the sun and laugh without worry.

I knocked on the door of Mrs. Sawada's house with trepidation, and with the sound of footsteps, Mrs. Sawada, who has brown hair and an innocent and gentle smile, opened the door.

"Sachiko!" Mrs. Sawada looked at me in surprise and said, "Why are you here suddenly? Don't you have to go to work?"

Having said that, she looked at me with some doubts and said, "Oh, didn't you bring Azhi with you?"

Seeing Mrs. Sawada's carefree smile, I paused, and said in a suppressed voice, "Mrs. Sawada..."

Mrs. Sawada looked at me worriedly and asked, "What happened?"

I opened my mouth, not knowing how to speak for a moment.Mrs. Sawada's smile is so contagious that I can't help but tell everything: "Mrs. Sawada..."

Mrs. Sawada looked at me with soft eyes and said, "Just call me Nana."

I nodded and said, "Then Mrs. Nana...I'd like to ask you a favor if you can."

Mrs. Nana looked at me blankly, then asked with a smile, "Please tell me."

"I heard that your husband is back, so I would like to ask you to help me meet your husband." I prevaricated with the excuse I had thought up before: "You know, I am not actually from here, but I took Aji around and wandered here. Then I was separated from people I knew during this period. Mrs. Nana, isn’t your husband traveling around the world? So I thought he should have a good network and can help I'm looking for someone."

Mrs. Nana smiled softly and said, "Okay." She didn't suspect me at all, and believed my lame lie without hesitation.

"Come in and sit down first, my dear, I just went out with my subordinates, and I won't be back until later." Mrs. Nana took me to the living room to rest.

When we sat down together, she made tea for me to drink again, and I drank the tea slowly, and suddenly felt that my anxious heart became calm again.

I looked at Mrs. Nana, she smiled and asked me, "Would you like dessert?"

In fact, she is not much older than me, and she still has a baby face. Every time she talks to a child in this way, I still feel a little delicate.

I froze for a moment, and changed the subject: "No need, what about Ah Gang?"

Agang is Mrs. Nana's child. She is several years younger than Aji. She is about six years old this year. She is as soft as a glutinous rice dumpling.

"Going to school." Mrs. Nana said with a sad face, "I don't know if I will be bullied at school?"

I thought about how A Gang was almost scared to cry by A Zhi the last time I came to Mrs. Nana's house, and I couldn't help feeling a little sad, and said, "I hope not."

"It would be great if I could make friends." Mrs. Nana said helplessly.

We sat and chatted for a while, and Mrs. Nana's husband, Iemitsu Sawada, returned home not long after.

"Nai Nai! I'm back!" It was a tall blond man about 1.9 meters tall. As soon as he got home, he hurriedly called Mrs. Nana's name and hugged her warmly.

"Honey!" Mrs. Nana also hugged him very warmly. She smiled happily and said, "Welcome back!"

Seeing this loving couple embracing each other so inseparably, I felt like a light bulb with a few hundred watts.

Fortunately, Mrs. Nana did not forget me. She let go of Sawada Iemitsu, introduced me to him, and said, "Honey, this is Miss Sachiko. She seems to want your help with something."

Sawada Iemitsu still had a smile on his face, but the way he looked at me was not one-tenth of what he did when he looked at Mrs. Nana. He nodded politely and distantly, and said, "It's our first time meeting, I am Nana's husband, Sawada Iemitsu. .”

I quickly stood up, nodded in a panic, and said, "It's the first time we meet, I'm Sachiko Dazai, just call me Sachiko."

In front of Mrs. Nana, I had a polite conversation with Sawada Iemitsu, and then Iemitsu Sawada said as if he suddenly remembered something: "Nana, isn't it almost time for Tsuna to leave school? Didn't you say you wanted to Do you want to encourage Ah Gang to muster up the courage to go to school and make a rich dinner today?"

"Yeah." Mrs. Nana smiled and said in a soft and innocent tone: "It's not only to encourage Ah Gang to muster up the courage, but also to celebrate my dear's return. Ah Gang will be very happy to see you .”

"Nana~~" Sawada Iemitsu looked at Mrs. Nana with a happy face, and said in a sticky tone: "Being able to marry you, I really saved the earth in my previous life."

"Oh." Mrs. Nana blushed and covered her face, and said, "Xingzi is still here."

Sawada Iemitsu laughed heartily, which made me feel even brighter.

Mrs. Nana also laughed, and then she looked at me with some embarrassment, and said, "I'm sorry, Sachiko, I forgot that you still have business. If you want to tell Jiaguang, just say it."

Mrs. Nana looked at me with gentle eyes, and under those eyes, I felt a little swayed.

If it is such a gentle Mrs. Nana, I told her that Aji was taken away by the port mafia, and asked her to ask Mr. Sawada for help, Mrs. Nana would definitely agree, and she would do her best to help Aji and me .

Mr. Sawada, who loves Mrs. Nana deeply, must not be able to refuse her request.

But if so...

For some reason, the figure of Edogawa Ranpo suddenly appeared in my mind. At that time, he said as if he said casually: "The lady who helped you at the beginning has a very close relationship with Peng Gelie, and I am afraid it is the core For the family members of the members, she may not know exactly what her husband is doing, you'd better not tell her directly, if you do, I'm afraid her husband will resent you."

I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again, I smiled nonchalantly and said, "Mrs. Nana is going to cook a sumptuous dinner for the children and husband tonight? You go ahead and don't worry about me. I will talk to you if you have something to do Sawada-san said."

Mrs. Nana looked at me apologetically, and said, "Then I'll go shopping first, you two have a good chat."

Mrs. Nene walked out of the room.

The moment Mrs. Nana closed the door, the gentleness on Sawada's face disappeared completely. Although he was still smiling, his eyes were cold.

"I already know what you want to do here." Sawada Iemitsu didn't even intend to continue the conversation with me, he went straight to the point.

Iemitsu Sawada sat on the sofa, sighed, and said, "Anyway, I have to thank you for not revealing my true identity in front of Nana. Only Nana, my wife, I want to do my best so that she can Smiling carefree, I don't want her to worry about me all the time just because she knows my identity."

The tall blond man said so, crossed his fingers and smiled at me, stared at me with a pair of eyes without any emotion and said, "You should be able to understand?"

I swallowed unconsciously and nodded.

Because of Edogawa Ranpo's words, coupled with my own intuition, I did not choose to use Mrs. Nana's gentleness to ask her to help me convince Sawada Iemitsu. It seems that I made the right choice.

Sawada Iemitsu's Nirin is his wife Nana, no matter what the reason is, he will not let the person who uses his wife continue to stay by her side.

As for helping me, he could superficially promise Mrs. Nana to help me, but how much and how to help is another matter.

Instead of trying to convince Sawada Iemitsu myself, instead using Mrs. Nana to take shortcuts will only make Sawada Iemitsu feel disgusted with me.

I looked at the man in front of me, and according to the news behind Edogawa Ranpo, he was Peng Lie's outside advisor, and his status was usually second only to the leader, and even equal to the leader in a crisis situation.No matter how gentle he is in front of his wife and children, Sawada Iemitsu is just "Vongola's young lion" in front of others.

This is a mafia with an untold amount of blood on their hands.Even if he didn't deliberately show anything in front of me, just sitting opposite him like this made me feel like my heart was caught by the god of death.

Sawada Iemitsu ignored my thoughts and said bluntly: "I have checked the information of your mother and son."

I was secretly startled, and realized that this "check" was probably the first time Aji and I met Mrs. Nana.

When I was with Mrs. Nana before, Azhi often looked distracted. I thought it was because he didn't have a good rest. Now it seems that Azhi at that time found that someone was following them and investigating them.

Thinking about it, Mrs. Nana was able to smile carefree all the time, except that Iemitsu Sawada protected her news very well, and it was also because he sent someone to guard Mrs. Nana at all times.All people who are close to Mrs. Nana should ensure safety, so it is not surprising that Aji and I will be investigated.

"Osamu Dazai, whose real name is Tsushima Shuji. He was supposed to be killed by robbers along with the other servants who stayed at home, but for some reason he didn't die, but instead stayed at Tsushima's house, which was turned into a haunted house. After that, I left the Tsushima house with you and became a mother and son."

"And you, Takahashi Mei, ran away from home when you were young, withdrawn and rebellious. You didn't go to the hospital when you were pregnant a few years ago. It seems that you had a difficult delivery. For some reason, you went to Tsushima's house, which is called a ghost house, and stayed there. After a while, Shuji Tsushima was brought out."

Sawada Iemitsu spoke calmly about the general news about me and Aji, touched the table with his finger, and said coldly: "Although you are Nana's friend, I'm sorry, I don't plan to intervene in this matter. "

He rejected my request before I even said it, which made me panic and say, "Please—"

Sawada Iemitsu stretched out his hand to stop me, and said, "Needless to say. Vongola and the Japanese mafia are inseparable from each other. I only want to reunite with my wife when I come back to Japan. I don't want to interfere with other things. "

"What's more, it's not good for me to help me. Instead, I find something to do for myself." Sawada Iemitsu sighed, supported his forehead with some headaches, and said, "It's better to be busy with such things during vacation. forgive me."

"Although I also sympathize with you." Sawada Iemitsu looked at me and said, "But I can see that Osamu Dazai is born to belong to the dark."

Sawada Iemitsu's eyes became extremely dark, and even his voice was like ice, he said: "I can see that Osamu Dazai has an extraordinary intelligence, even at such a young age. The stalking of those subordinates. You must know that they are all very good at concealing their aura, but Dazai Osamu can easily find them. Even I feel horrified when I know this."

"A few days ago, I observed you from a distance, especially Osamu Dazai." Sawada Iemitsu closed his eyes, as if recalling the memory of that day, he said: "I can see him at the first glance. He is a born genius, but at the same time, he is also a genius who is out of tune with the world. The world in the eyes of Osamu Dazai is completely different from that of others. For example, when we see flowers and marvel at their beauty, he can directly see to the death of flowers."

Sawada Iemitsu sighed with emotion in a very low voice: "He is a person who was born to live in the dark. Although because of your existence, he suppressed and disguised himself as much as possible, and wanted to be a good boy in your eyes. But the so-called nature is more than This is more cruel, as if eating corpses is a matter of course for ghouls, trying to force ghouls to eat things other than flesh and blood will only make them crazy and painful. Not to mention Osamu Dazai unconsciously In pursuit of death and blood."

As expected of a man with a very high status in the other world, he has much more information than I thought, and his sharp sharpness made me tremble.Sawada Iemitsu shook his head and said: "What's more, Osamu Dazai, who now has the ability to nullify aliens, is destined not to live a peaceful life. It can only be called fate to be forced to join the port mafia at this time."

I bit my lip, took a deep breath and said, "That's not it."

"Oh?" Sawada Iemitsu looked at me like that, feeling a little funny, and asked me: "Then what do you think? Well, probably for mothers, their children will always be pure and innocent angels, so there is no way thing..."

"It's not like that. From the very beginning, when I first met him, I knew what kind of nature he had. If he wanted to join the port mafia from the bottom of his heart, I wouldn't stop him. Just like the analogy you made, it is natural for a ghoul to eat corpses, but for that child, if he cannot find the meaning of life without stepping on death and darkness to witness death himself, then neither will I. will stop his nature," I said.

Sawada Iemitsu showed a slightly surprised expression, he felt it was incredible and said: "Do you really understand the darkness that Osamu Dazai is in? Even so, did you take him and leave the Tsushima house together? Like you Such an ordinary person should be horrified to see such a different, overly intelligent child."

"When human beings face creatures that they can't understand, they should regard each other as evil spirits, especially when he meets you when he is still quite young, this fear will increase exponentially."

"But why do you..."

"Because he was asking me for help." I said, "Since the first time we met..."

When Aji was still Master Xiuzhi, he always looked at me in pain as if he would disappear in the next second, and silently shouted: "Help me".

And I originally wanted to ignore him being dragged down by the black vortex like others, but I found that I couldn't do it, I couldn't ignore that pain like others.

Sawada Iemitsu looked at me like he was looking at an ignorant child. He sighed helplessly and said, "Anyway, this kind of words can't convince me. I'm sorry, I have to go out and see my subordinates. Please get out of here."

With that said, he stood up to leave.And because I thought of A Zhi who was still in the mafia at the port, I couldn't help but panic, and shouted: "Please wait a little longer."

Sawada Iemitsu shook his head and said, "No matter what you say..."

With a "plop", I knelt down.

Sawada Iemitsu looked at me with some astonishment.

And I knelt on the ground, wondering what should I do?Because Sawada Iemitsu wanted to leave with all his heart, and I could see that he really didn't want to cause trouble for himself and wanted to leave here, so I was anxious and couldn't help kneeling down.

But after I really knelt down, I didn't know what I should do next.

Although Ranpo Edogawa told me to go with the flow and just be myself, I don't know what kind of person I should be.

What should I do?

My mind was in turmoil, broken words and memories kept flashing through my mind, and I was on my knees, stiff as a small, ubiquitous rock that could be easily kicked away.

I opened my mouth and said——

"...that kid lost a tooth yesterday." I said in a dry voice.

"Huh?" Even Sawada Iemitsu showed a blank look.

To be honest, even I don't know what I'm talking about anymore, my mind is blank, I just subconsciously utter the broken words in my heart.

"I measured his height the day before yesterday, and he has grown a lot taller than before." My voice was a little bumpy at first, but it gradually became smoother in the end, and at the same time, tears fell from my eyes.

I was afraid that my appearance would make Sawada Iemitsu even less willing to help me, so I couldn't help lowering my head even lower, gritted my teeth and continued with sobs: "Obviously when he was brought out from Tsushima's house at the beginning, he was still so small. It’s a small one, covered in injuries and severely malnourished, but it has recently started to grow taller and eats a lot.”

"He couldn't sleep alone on the bed. When he was at Tsushima's house, he kept sleeping in the closet, but now he can sleep well on the bed alone."

Sawada Iemitsu didn't interrupt me, he just looked at me in silence.

In the illusion that winter would never pass, I entered Tsushima's house by mistake and met a broken and scarred heart.

He was wrapped in bandages all over his body, and under the bandages were all staggered scars. He showed a mask-like calm expression as if he couldn't cry or laugh, and called me softly: "Sachiko."

And I carefully picked up this heart, took it away from the winter in the illusion, and tried my best to repair it.

He grabbed my hand, he got up, he started running, he grew taller, he...  

Aji stood there, turned around and looked at me with a smile, and shouted, "'Mom'——"

I trembled uncontrollably, whimpering like a beast driven to a desperate situation: "Aji was covered in wounds when he was still at Tsushima's house, as if no one caught him, he would die immediately It’s the same. And I couldn’t let him go like that, so I grabbed his hand and left Tsushima’s house, letting him call me ‘Mom’.”

"Maybe it's all just my self-righteousness and self-righteousness, but he calls me 'Mom', he grows taller, he tries to understand the meaning of life, everything makes me very happy."

"I hope to be able to watch that child grow up well, and I hope he can be happy."

He will grow taller and grow up slowly, get rid of my protection, have friends, people he likes, maybe get married and have his own children. When his children grow up slowly, I will probably It's old and dead.

Parents probably have to watch their children's backs fade away forever, but even so, I feel very happy.But no matter what, it was based on the fact that Azhi left out of his own choice, instead of being forcibly taken away from me like now, and before leaving, he showed a crying expression and asked me for help.

"No matter what price I have to pay." I opened my eyes wide with my head down, and shouted loudly with all my strength: "Please! Please help me! Even if I fall into ten Even among the eight hells, only that child, only that child—”

"He was crying for help! As a mother, how could I ignore his cries for help!"

He was crying and reaching out to me and shouting, "Help me, Mom!"

How could I let the child who was crying for help be ignored?

"No matter what the price is, I also hope that he can grow up well, get happiness well, and call me 'Mom' again."

I couldn't cry, I begged softly: "Please, please..."

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"..."

Sawada Iemitsu looked at me from top to bottom. With my head down, I couldn't see his expression clearly, I could only feel that he didn't take his eyes off for more than half a minute.

"..." The man called "Vongola's Young Lion" was silent for a long time, then he sighed and said, "Oh, you are such a good woman, if A Gang could be born ten years earlier I can make you my daughter-in-law in two years."

I was bewildered by the sudden change of atmosphere, I couldn't help but looked up at Sawada Iemitsu helplessly, with tears still on my face.

The originally indifferent and terrifying man looked at me with a smile and said, "Stop kneeling there, sit down, if Nana sees her, she will scold me to death."

Iemitsu Sawada spread his hands helplessly, and then said with a look of obsession: "Of course! An angry Nana is also the cutest in the world~~"

Sawada Iemitsu seems to belong to the type of natural leader, making people want to listen to his words from the bottom of their hearts, and I also subconsciously got up from the ground following his words and sat down on the original sitting position.

Sitting on the sofa again, I couldn't help but look at Iemitsu Sawada anxiously.

Sawada Iemitsu crossed his hands, scratched his hair in distress, and said, "No matter what, you knelt down and cried and begged me like this, and I am too embarrassed to refuse."

I opened my eyes wide and looked at Iemitsu Sawada in disbelief.

Sawada Iemitsu laughed a few times, looked at me with a gentle expression, and said: "In short, I agree to your request. I will help you. Of course, this is not the help of consultants outside Pengo Li's door, but only me, Sawada. I hope you can understand Jiaguang's personal help."

I nodded ecstatically and said, "How come? It's very good that you can help me. No matter what price I have to pay."

"The price..." Sawada Iemitsu nodded and touched his chin again, and said, "As for the price, it is to help me take care of Nana."

Having said that, Sawada Iemitsu sighed with some guilt, and said: "Because of the things on Pengo Lie's side, and because I don't want Nana's existence to be exposed to the outside world, I have rarely been able to accompany her. Although she has always been Believe in me firmly, love me deeply no matter what, and wait for my return, but you will still feel lonely."

"If possible, I hope you can chat with Nana as much as possible."

I was at a loss for the price that was a hundred times easier than I imagined, and Sawada Iemitsu over there was still saying: "Ah, of course, don't get me wrong. I didn't ask you to stay with Nana 24 hours a day to protect her, I just hope you Chat with Nana like a normal friend."

Perhaps seeing me in a daze, Sawada Iemitsu said with a smile: "Miss Sachiko, you are really working hard."

Sawada Iemitsu said so, rubbing my head like a father, and said with a hearty smile: "But next time, please cherish yourself more, I always feel that you seem to be the type who tends to go to extremes."

"In addition to children, love yourself more, you have really worked hard."

The crybaby stared at him blankly for a few seconds, and then couldn't help crying even more fiercely. I lowered my head and choked up in embarrassment: "Thank you, thank you, thank you very much..."

Iemitsu Sawada patted me on the shoulder and said, "Thank you for your hard work, let's think about how to bring the child out."

I reached out to wipe some of the tears off my face and said, "Okay."

Next is the conversation with Mr. Mori.