Be Dazai's mother

"Although I heard that you have to grab a seat when viewing cherry blossoms, but this number is too exaggerated." Holding the bento and snacks in my hand, I stared dumbfounded at the crowds of people.

"It's really good to come here earlier." Azhi couldn't help but sigh with emotion.

At this time, Aji and I were watching cherry blossoms under the trees in a nearby park.Because I have always been a person who likes to arrive early, and I thought that there would be many people in the place where the cherry blossoms are viewed, so Aji and I set off with a bento at dawn.

Fortunately, we came to the park early, otherwise, according to the number of people, I am afraid we would not be able to occupy a seat.

Of course, the advantage of coming early also allows us to sit under the cherry trees and enjoy the cherry blossoms.

After making sure there were no bugs underneath, I took out the picnic mat I prepared in advance and spread it on the ground, sat on it with Aji and took out the bento.I also prepared extra milk for Aji.

"You have to drink more milk to grow taller." I seriously urged.

"Really?" Ever since he found out that he had grown taller, Azhi began to care about his height for some reason.It's not that I'm obsessed with growing taller, but I feel incredible because of it.Kind of like a kid who marvels at a caterpillar turning into a butterfly.

"Okay." I spread my hands, thinking it's better not to be too categorical in order to let Azhi drink milk: "It's not just drinking milk to grow taller, you also need to sleep more and eat more nutritious things .”

After our life gradually stabilized and we no longer had to sleep together as we were before, Azhi and I slept separately.After all, it is necessary to cultivate children's autonomy and independence.

In the first few days, I was exhausted from work, and after saying good night to Aji, I threw myself on the tatami mat and fell asleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night because of the need to urinate, and I was worried that Azhi would kick the quilt and catch cold, so I tiptoed carefully to his room to see how he was doing.Unexpectedly, when I opened the door, what I saw was not Azhi who was asleep or awakened by my movement, but an empty bed.

I was startled for a few seconds, and after thinking about it, I immediately understood what was going on. I opened the closet beside me, and as expected, I saw Azhi curled up sleeping in the dark and narrow closet.

The closet was stuffy and cramped, and a few old clothes were squeezing the space. I don't know how Azhi was able to fall asleep in it.

I felt helpless, so I could only push Azhi to wake him up.After all, he is much heavier now than when he was still at Tsushima's house, and it has become difficult for me to carry him out of the closet safely.Although I don't want to wake up Aji, it's not good to sleep in the closet.

Azhi opened his eyes in a daze and woke up. After seeing that I woke him up, Azhi paused, sat up, lowered his eyes, and said nothing.I don't know why, but I can see a little obediently admitting mistakes on that calm face.

Faced with such a situation, what else can I do?I sighed, and said helplessly, "I'm sorry, I haven't noticed your situation because I've been busy with work recently."

"The sleeping wardrobe is too stuffy and narrow, and it's not good for your growth and development." I held my chin in annoyance, smiled and said to him: "Sleep together tonight, and we'll meet again when I come back from get off work tomorrow." Let's figure it out together?"

Aji nodded obediently, his originally calm face relaxed a little.

I held out my hand to him and said, "Anyway, come out of the closet first?"

In a trance, I suddenly remembered that the night when I left Tsushima's house, I reached out to Aji who was hiding in the closet in the same way.

Azhi obviously thought of the same thing as me. He looked at my hand in a trance, and then I grabbed him and walked out of the closet.

That night, I patted Azhi gently and hummed to him, and we both fell asleep before we knew it.When I came back from get off work the next day, Aji and I thought about how to get rid of his bad habit.

I think that Azhi sleeps in the closet because the dark and narrow space can bring a certain sense of security. To get rid of Azhi's bad habits, it is better to try to pile up the boxes next to his bed and surround the sleeping Azhi. Get up and form a relatively closed space.This increases his sense of security.

That night was a fiasco of course. Azhi tossed and turned on the bed, unable to fall asleep, and murmured irritably that he was sleepy but unable to fall asleep while hugging the quilt.Then Aji and I tried various methods, such as drinking some sleep-promoting milk before going to bed, changing to a reassuring quilt, soaking our feet before going to bed, and so on.

After tossing and tossing for a long time, all failed miserably without exception. Just as I was having a headache and wondering whether to ask other people for help, Azhi was able to fall asleep peacefully at some point.

I don't know what's going on, but no matter what, Azhi can sleep without being in the closet, so I feel relieved.

Because I couldn't let go, I often woke up in the middle of the night and secretly came to see if Azhi was asleep. When I saw Azhi sleeping obediently under the quilt, my heart softened.

The topic got far away. I came back to reality from my memory and said to Azhi: "Drinking more milk is always right. After a long time, you will probably experience growing pains. If you lack calcium, you will Cramps in the middle of the night until I can't sleep."

Azhi propped his face in boredom, snorted a few times childishly, and sighed like a little adult: "Grow up..."

I laughed out loud, and a few petals of cherry blossoms fell along the wind. I took out the food in the bento and ate a few mouthfuls. I looked at the lush cherry tree above my head happily, and murmured: " It's so beautiful."

Azhi also responded to me, with a happy look on his brows and eyes.

The blooming cherry blossoms always make people feel incredibly beautiful. Large pieces of pink petals are falling like snow with the wind. The air in the park is also good, and there is a faint aroma from other trees that makes people feel a little bit greedy.

I feel comfortable physically and mentally for such a situation, but as long as I think that the cherry blossoms will fall off and wither soon, I feel a sense of melancholy in my heart.

"Although the cherry blossoms are very beautiful, as long as the blooming time of the cherry blossoms is so short, and they will wither in a short time, it really makes people feel a little lonely." Looking at the brilliant cherry blossoms above my head, I couldn't help but sigh with emotion: " It's like a person's life, as if a crying baby will turn into a gray-haired old man and enter the coffin in the blink of an eye. Time and death are cruel and merciless."

Azhi glanced at me, and asked for some reason, "What is death after all?"

Hearing his question, I put my finger on my chin in distress and said, "Well, I don't know how to answer this question for you."

I stretched out my hand to catch the fallen cherry blossom petals, and said softly: "According to my own understanding, death is... nothing. Whether the unfinished things of the deceased, or the pain and struggles of the past, everything disappears. It's all gone. No matter how much the living cry and beg, the dead will not come back. Because death is death, and only pale bones remain in the end."

"There is neither heaven nor hell in this world, so death means nothing. At least that's what I think." I turned my head to look at Azhi, looked at him with soft eyes and said, "But no matter what, this is nothing. It’s just my own opinion. There are some things you have to understand by yourself, there is no correct answer in life, everyone has their own answer.”

I reached out and rubbed Azhi's head, and said, "No matter what, I will accompany you to find your answer."

Aji was silent for a while, nodded, and then said with emotion: "According to Sachiko's understanding, human life is also a lonely thing."

"Yes." I nodded earnestly, and said: "A person's life is like a cherry blossom that blooms to the extreme and passes away quietly. Even today, I am still deeply afraid of death and struggling to survive. .”

"But maybe one day I will be able to accept my own death." I said with a smile.

Azhi also laughed a few times for some reason, he nodded, took out a box of biscuits from the snack bag I stuffed him, tore open the package and put it in his mouth—then there was a loud noise from his mouth sound.

I followed the voice and looked at Azhi in a daze. He froze, with pain on his face.Azhi covered his mouth reluctantly, and then spat out the thing in his mouth—it was a small tooth.

"The teeth are broken." Because of the loss, Azhi's voice was indistinct, and he looked extremely pitiful and said to me.

"Oh, oh." I couldn't help sighing, resisting the urge to laugh, took out the package in my pocket, put the little deciduous tooth in Azhi's hand, and said with emotion: "This is Lost baby teeth."

Because of severe malnutrition, Azhi always looked small, as if he couldn't grow up.Recently, not only have I grown taller, but I have also started to lose my remaining deciduous teeth. I am very happy, thinking that there have been many good things recently.

"Why did you put the teeth in?" Looking at my movements, Azhi asked suspiciously, his face moved a few times, and he seemed to be licking the empty hole with his tongue.

"My mother once told me that the lost deciduous teeth should be thrown high, so that the teeth that grow in the back can grow healthy." I said with a smile: "It's not very convenient here, when we go home Find a place to throw this fallen tooth up high."

I carefully put away the wrapped deciduous teeth.Maybe this kind of behavior is superstitious, but I have tried my best to throw the baby teeth that fell out to high places, and then prayed with my mother for the healthy growth of my teeth. I want Azhi to try this "ritual" ".

A Zhi still covered his face, and replied vaguely, looking at the unfinished biscuits in his hand, showing a hesitant look.Looking at his appearance, it seems that he was taken aback by the scene where his teeth fell out while eating biscuits.

I reluctantly gave him the milk, and said, "Don't eat the biscuits, why don't you drink some milk?"

Aji nodded, picked up the milk and drank it "gurgling".

I comforted him and said: "When all the previous teeth are replaced, you will have another healthy and complete set of teeth, but you have to remember not to eat too much sugar, brush your teeth twice a day, and brush your teeth. Don’t use too much force when brushing, but brush slowly so as not to wear down your teeth.”

I couldn't help nagging a bit, and told Azhi there, Azhi waved his hand perfunctorily and said, "I know, I know."

I couldn't help but patted his head, and cursed affectionately: "Bad boy, don't perfunctory mother."

Azhi smiled at me, revealing the hole in his mouth, and subconsciously covered his mouth, showing a somewhat embarrassed expression.

I noticed the hole in Azhi's mouth, and I couldn't help laughing out loud. When he looked over complainingly, I raised my hand and surrendered: "Don't be so nervous, the teeth will grow out soon."

It's just that Aji's tooth is empty when he laughs, which is a bit funny.

Azhi didn't dare to open his mouth now, he responded vaguely, then turned his head as if remembering something, and wanted to say something to me, but his words were interrupted by the violent noise from outside .

I was taken aback, and subconsciously looked along the source of the sound together with other people present, and I could vaguely see someone fighting there, and it was obvious that it was not a picture that ordinary people could type out.

It seems that some people with special abilities have gone berserk again.Maybe it's because the world has just merged, and recently there have been quite a few incidents of people with special abilities going berserk.

Others who were quietly enjoying the cherry blossom viewing moment screamed, and quickly packed up their things and ran outside. Seeing this scene, I naturally couldn't stay under the tree to enjoy the cherry blossoms.

"Let's go." I said to Azhi, and quickly put away the things.

A Zhi responded, grabbed the hand I handed over, and fled the scene with me.

I ran out with Azhi along with the crowd, but what none of us expected was that a flame flew straight from not far away.That is the superhuman ability of the person who is fighting. Because it is flame, it is very lethal, but it also means that there may be sparks splashing to other places during the fight.

I opened my eyes wide, subconsciously hugged Azhi to protect him in my arms, closed my eyes and clenched my teeth, preparing to endure the pain of being burned.

And from the angle of view that I can't see, looking at the hell-like flames rushing straight, as if bewitched, Azhi's eyes reflected the blazing flames, as if facing Like his own instinct, Azhi yelled out.

"——The superhuman ability "Disqualification in the World"."

At that moment, the flames that were rushing towards us in a menacing way disappeared completely.