Be Dazai's mother

The legs were still shaking, because the shaking was so severe that the roots of the thighs began to twitch slightly, and there was an unbearable, itchy pain.

My hands are very slender and fragile, and I can't even hold the knives used to make food in the kitchen properly.In terms of personality, he is timid and afraid of making troubles, and he can pretend that he doesn't notice anything for his own sake.

Not to mention my body, I often ached here and there just after working at Tsushima's house for a few days, and I asked Mami-san to borrow some plaster for me to use.

Not to mention the evil spirits that humans have to face at this time are difficult to defeat.

The timid, weak, and useless me, the me who foolishly dreamed of being the mother of the child because of my obsession.

Even so, I ran over with all my strength, jumped down the stairs suddenly when I saw that thing was approaching Master Xiuzhi, and grabbed it fiercely.

At this moment, a powerful force burst out from a certain organ in my body, giving me unprecedented courage and strength.

"Get out of here——!!" I yelled hysterically, my tears had already dried up, and my face showed a look like a beast, roaring as if I wanted to burn everything in me.

"Give me from Master Xiuzhi's side—"

From my child's side--

"Go away——!!!"

The thing was bumped violently by me, and I couldn't help taking a few steps back. I took advantage of this opportunity to entangle it and not let it go, not giving it a chance to take any step closer to Master Xiuzhi.

"... Xingzi?" Master Xiuzhi's confused voice came from behind, and I can imagine his expression without looking at him.

To be honest, I am more confused than he is.

Ahh, why is this happening?My body started to move one step faster than my consciousness. Before I, who had always been indecisive and hesitant, continued to struggle, the emotion bursting out from my body had directly dominated my brain and body, making me laugh like a praying mantis blocking a car. The posture stopped in front of Master Xiuzhi, and he grabbed the thing firmly.

Obviously thinking that he wants to live no matter what, even if he has to sacrifice something.I made the dumbest and least regretful decision ever.

The evil ghost's pitch-black body is covered with twisting and rotating vortexes, which look like human faces.When I held onto that thing tightly, the vortexes on its body opened up, crushing all my flesh and blood that touched it.I'm like an idiot running to grab a meat grinder.

The excruciating pain caused a blurry light to appear in front of my eyes.The sense of smell was dulled by the strong smell of blood.It is estimated that if it continues, I will die due to excessive blood loss.

Of course I can't defeat this evil spirit. After all, I'm just an ordinary person, and I won't heroically defeat the enemy with my own courage and wisdom like the protagonist in the book I've read, even if I die like a humble supporting role Not surprisingly.

Obviously, it was hard to get a second life, and it was hard to survive.

Obviously, I was scared to death, why did I run out?How stupid I am.

"...Why did you come here?" Master Xiuzhi's voice came from behind again.With the immaturity and confusion of a child, the small voice is like a dying bird leaving the nest.

yeah, why?I also want to ask.

Disgusting, rust-like blood foamed from my mouth, and the rush of adrenaline made my breathing quicken, and my heart beat like it was about to escape from my chest in the next second.

It's so painful, it feels like the lungs are about to explode, even if the flesh. The body shatters like a watermelon, it's not a very strange thing.

Even though it was such a painful situation, I felt that I had unprecedented firm strength.

"Because I can't leave you alone," I heard myself say.

——Because I can't leave you alone no matter what.

Even if it's just my own dream, I can't leave that child who calls me mother.

So I tried my best to hug that thing tightly, closed my eyes and shouted: "Master Xiuzhi! Get out of here!"

"Go to the rooftop!"

The body of resentment struggled and made an angry and indistinct sound.But because I didn't let go of it even though the pain was so painful that I was about to pass out. Instead, I clung to it like a irrational beast, even biting it.

The continuous, overflowing pain that the body can no longer feel made the time extremely long, and the pungent rust smell in the air also made my sense of smell dull. I was thinking about some things in a trance no.

Broken hands, broken feet, but it's okay, and there are still teeth that can bite tightly.

I don't know if Master Xiuzhi has left, but I hope my body can last a little longer, a little longer.At least he must have a higher chance of surviving.

My consciousness is gradually receding, probably because my body has become broken like a broken ceramic doll.

No matter who it is, please, at least let me protect you this time.

My boy, my boy, my boy—save him.

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...

...

"Sachiko! Sachiko! Wake up!"

Someone is calling me, it is a voice that should be unfamiliar but has become familiar in a short time together.

I slowly opened my eyes, and when my consciousness was hazy, Master Xiuzhi's face was reflected in my face.Noticing his worry-filled application, I couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"

I was still in a daze of consciousness, and subconsciously wanted to reach out and touch Master Xiuzhi's face to calm his emotions.

Master Xiuzhi didn't care about my overly presumptuous actions, he just looked a little unhappy and said: "This is my problem, okay? Sachiko. I can't wake you up no matter what."

It may have been a few seconds, or it may have been tens of seconds, but it was not too long. My consciousness finally became clearer, and I stretched out my hand back. The heavy and painful body made me let out a "hiss" " sound.

"When I woke up, I found that you had a fever." Young Master Xiuzhi looked extremely helpless and said, "Obviously I wanted you to take care of me in the hospital, but I didn't expect you to be sick yourself."

My head still hurts, and I haven't fully woken up yet, so I just instinctively accepted what Master Xiuzhi said, "Maybe it's because the work has been a little hard these days."

Before I came to Tsushima's house to work as a maid, I wandered outside in the freezing weather for a while, and when I finally came to Tsushima's house, I was sore from busy work, and my mood has been ups and downs in the past few days. It's normal to get sick.

Master Xiuzhi shook his head and said, "It really scared me when I woke up and found a 'heating stove' next to me."

I laughed a few times in embarrassment, looking at his calm face, I felt that "scared" might be a question mark.

But I don't know if it's my illusion, I always feel that Master Xiuzhi's attitude towards you seems to have changed subtly.

Although he always looked soft and lovable in the past, no matter who he gets along with, there will be an indescribable sense of distance, as if Shuji Tsushima divides everyone into different existences from himself.

He never expresses his emotions lightly, not only because of his personality, but maybe also because to some extent, everyone is a "monster" that he needs to be vigilant against.

But Master Shuji just now...should I say that he expressed a strange intimacy, or should I say that he expressed a different kind of interest in me—like watching a dissected frog.

Maybe it's an illusion, I thought.

Before my thoughts continued to diverge, some terrible pictures suddenly flashed in my mind, and I couldn't help but turn pale.

Master Xiuzhi noticed something was wrong with me, he frowned and asked, "What's wrong?"

As he spoke, he seemed to remember something, and said, "Speaking of which, did you just have a nightmare? You kept shaking."

With my brain still blank, I finally realized under the words of Master Xiuzhi that I probably had a very strange nightmare last night.

I can't remember many things clearly after I woke up, but I can still remember a few horrific scenes, as well as my own grief.

Of course, I still remember the phrase "Get away from Master Xiuzhi".

"..."

I covered my face in shame.

Ahhh, a servant who can barely survive by relying on the Tsushima family has the audacity to think of the little master as his own child.How thick is my skin?Fortunately, he only said "Master Xiuzhi" instead of directly saying "my child", otherwise it would be a crime that even death can't make up for.

...Speaking of which, I shouldn't have the habit of talking in my sleep, right?If so, wouldn't it be possible for Master Xiuzhi to hear it?

Where is the time machine?Give me a time machine and let me travel back to last night to wake up myself!

Perhaps because he looked at me covering my face, Master Xiuzhi thought I was frightened by a nightmare, he gently embraced me in his arms, and gently patted my shoulder with that soft hand.

"Okay, okay, it's okay." He coaxed so softly.

I was actually comforted by a child who was only eight years old-this incident made me feel ashamed, but I couldn't help but feel at ease in that little arms.

Master Xiuzhi is indeed a person who is much precocious than children of the same age.Even though he was just a child, he was able to hold someone in his arms and comfort him gently like an adult.

I closed my eyes, hugged him tightly, and thought to myself: This is just a dream, it's so good.

The interlaced scars I saw on Master Xiuzhi flashed across my mind.

...but if faced with the hell of this world, how should I choose?

Thinking this way, I didn't see the complicated look in Master Xiuzhi's eyes when he looked at me.

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