I'm in Delingha tonight

"It hurts!" Chi Nian yelled half-truthfully, let go of his hand, and rubbed the place pinched by Xi Shan.

A little hot, I don't know if it's because the other party is too strong or because he is guilty and shy, Chi Nian frowned and pretended to be very unhappy, but his heart beat faster, beating his chest, making him tremble uncontrollably.

Being pinched by...Xi Shan.

The pain subsided quickly, but there was other evidence that this had just happened.

Chi Nian looked in the rearview mirror, he has a constitution that is easy to leave marks, and now that spot is very red.

And the redder one is that half of Xi Shan's invisible earlobe.

Xi Shan hadn't been too intimate with him before, except for pinching him a little last time, at most he only touched his fingers a little while holding something.But is he thinking too much?This kind of forceful face pinching is delicately between playfulness and teasing, more like a buddy's shoulder-beating action, which defines the degree of stability in friendship far beyond other.

Friendship, these two words fell down, Chi Nian couldn't tell whether he was happy or unhappy.

It's nice to be friends, but can he stand it?

Chi Nian's view of feelings is simple and pure: try to get along with each other as much as possible when you are together, and you can even wrong yourself. If you love each other deeply, you must have the idea of ​​​​going further—this is deeply influenced by the marriage of your parents, and there will always be sacrifices for perfection— —If there is an intolerable mistake, if we separate again, he will not bring the next relationship if he gets hurt.

He couldn't forgive his ex-boyfriend's betrayal, regardless of feelings or money, it was beyond the bottom line that Chi Nian could accept.Now he is in a bad mood and can't extricate himself, but he won't be depressed all the time as he goes up.

So when we return to normal life, what about another person we like?

Maybe... Like Xi Shan?

Although he only has a little undetectable affection for Xi Shan now, it is not stable, and it will disperse when the wind blows.

Chi Nian has never liked to provoke straight men. In the current situation, if Xi Shan really has a girlfriend or a "goddess" whom he has been secretly in love with for many years, he knows what to do, get out as soon as possible, and how to get along... or not get along, he has his own way.

I'm a little annoyed, I don't know what to worry about...

"You just always think too much, too far, too illusory." The ex-boyfriend's untimely words were deafening, and Chi Nian felt an unknown fire in his heart.

Gritting his teeth, Chi Nian felt the gaze from the co-pilot, and simply turned his head to stare at Xi Shan: "What are you looking at?"

"No, just now..." Xi Shan leaned forward, the seat belt was stretched very long, "I just pinched it, why are you still crying?"

Chi Nian was flustered by what he said, and frantically wiped his eyes: "Who is crying!"

Xi Shan restrained his smile: "Just now... your eyes were red."

"scared you?"

Xi Shan nodded: "Yes."

"Because that hurt a little bit." Chi Nian said haha, "I have been like this since I was a child. I can't bear hardships and pain. When I fall or hit something, I don't want to cry in my heart, but it just...'wow', It’s as if I have to howl a few times to feel comfortable, I’ve been spoiled and spoiled for too long.”

He adjusted his mood very quickly, and the redness around his eyes disappeared after a while, and he seemed to be fine.

Xi Shan was silent, and then asked softly: "Who said you were spoiled?"

"Many people, my mother, my grandfather, my ex... anyway, everyone older than me said, 'Chi Nian, you are so delicate, you cry so much, boys can't live independently like this.' Even Xiao My cousin has learned it."

"Living independently? This has nothing to do with coquettishness."

Chi Nian was too old to be eager to find a sense of approval, so he didn't speak up. He actually disliked that little ability to take care of himself from the bottom of his heart.

Perhaps seeing that his expression was much better, Xi Shan leaned back to the co-pilot, and awkwardly tried to comfort Chi Nian: "I don't understand the ability to live... But, I think it's okay to cry a lot. Everyone's physique is different, and some people Even with well-developed lacrimal glands, you can cry when you are happy, cry when you are sad...and cry when you are wronged."

His tone seemed to fall into a long memory, with earnest nostalgia.

Chi said "ah" and said, "Do you know anyone else like this?"

"No." Xi Shan seemed to sigh, and repeated it firmly, "No, I don't know." That means he didn't want to mention it.

"Do you think crying can solve all problems?" Chi Nian smiled, and told him about his bad luck when he was a child, "I used to think so, anyway, I cry easily, do children who make trouble have candy? .Later, my parents got used to it, and it was useless to make a fuss. They started to feel annoying..."

"Candy if you cry?" Xi Shan narrowed his eyes inexplicably, "That's right."

Chi Nian was still saying: "Before I came out this time, I had a big fight with my family. It's strange to say that I was really sad, but I didn't shed a single tear when I stood at the door to drag the suitcase."

Xi Shan keenly captured the key information in his words: "Run away from home?"

"Forget it...well," Chi Nian skipped the cause and effect, "I wanted to start my own business, but my parents thought it was a fantasy, and then I had some conflicts with...the people who started the business together, and something went wrong, so now I also... No money either. Seriously, now that you've pulled me out, I don't know where else to go."

Xi Shan asked: "Aunt and uncle really won't let you go home?"

Chi Nian blinked and slowed down the car: "It's me... I don't want to go back. The conflict this time can't be resolved by bowing my head. Even if I go back, I will be kicked out sooner or later when I encounter similar things next time."

What he said was cryptic enough that if the other party also understood the plight of the same kind, he might be able to understand it.

"Is that so..."

"So I really don't know what to do. My friends can't help me, and I don't know anyone. I drove to the Gobi Desert that day..." Chi Nian said, feeling the tip of his nose sore, and hurriedly wiped his eyelids to endure the physical reaction , laughed at himself, "Look, I... I really didn't mean it."

Xi Shan remained silent for a while, but did not continue to analyze the inevitable connection between grievances and lacrimal glands with Chi Nian.He lowered his head and studied the car navigation for a while: "There is a road ahead, do you want to take pictures?"

"what?"

Why did you mention the road all of a sudden?

Xi Shan added: "Anyway, many people like to take pictures there, the slope is beautiful."

Chi Nian didn't understand what Xi Shan meant by mentioning the highway at this time, so he still nodded: "If you want to pass by, then go and have a look?"

Xi Shan smiled softly when looking at him.

National Highway 315 curves into two huge U-shaped roads in the plateau Gobi. The black road and the yellow marking line lead to the blue sky.Walking along the road, it feels like going straight to the sky.

Chi Nian kept driving at a speed of around 70 yards. Xi Shan didn't rush him, and there were obviously more people when he approached the slope.

The woman in the red dress seemed to come in a group, standing in the middle of the national road and constantly urging people with cameras and mobile phones to take pictures of themselves.One after another, without stopping.There were so many people looking at the eyes and making noise, but Chi Nian didn't see many strangers for a long time, but he really felt that he had returned to society.

Even in a sparsely populated plateau, as long as you have a partner by your side, you won't feel too lonely.

"Stop on the side of the road." Xi Shan directed him, and after the stop was complete, he jumped off the seat belt and got out of the car, and climbed up the towering dirt slope beside the national highway in two or three steps.

The gravel rolled to one side, Chi Nian stared at it, standing on the edge of the road, hesitating whether to go up or not.

It was piled up for the construction of the road, and after being exposed to the wind and the sun, it looks very hard, but it will sink softly when stepped on.Chi Nian felt that he was very much like this pile of soil, his essence was still loose and fragile.

He raised his head, and Xi Shan made a solid footprint in the middle of the slope.Chi Nian didn't move, Xi Shan looked around, stepped down two more steps, and stretched out his hand to him.

"Come on," he said, "the scenery up there is beautiful, I want to take pictures in the middle of the road and I'll help you."

Chi Nian couldn't help smiling, and held him tightly: "I didn't want to take pictures."

At every step up, Xi Shan held onto him tightly, with his palms pressed against each other. I wonder if it was because Xi Shan didn't drive in the sun and his palms were not as warm as before, but the strength to hold him was real and firm.Chi Nian almost fell in the middle of the journey, knelt down on his knees, his trousers were torn open, Xi Shan put his arms around him halfway.

In fact, it is easy to lose balance, and the knee is scratched and starts to hurt, but Chi Nian drags his hand and short-sleeved T-shirt and thinks a bit reluctantly: If you fall, let's fall together.

The Gobi Desert made of gravel was difficult to climb, but he didn't fall after all, Xi Shan hugged Chi Nian's back and almost carried him to the last step.

Behind him was a sloping ramp full of footprints, and the spectacular highway stretched across the mountain depression. In front of him, Xi Shan patted him on the shoulder, Chi Nian took two steps, and his vision suddenly widened.

The Yadan landform in Qinghai is not as colorful as Zhangye, because of the high altitude and the winding mountain line at the end, these raised hills have a different sense of prehistoricity.

"Do you feel like Mars?" Chi Nian sighed inexplicably.

Xi Shan put his elbow on his shoulder casually: "It sounds like you have been there before."

Chi Nian: "Aren't those sci-fi movies like this?"

Seems to make some sense.

A large area of ​​desert, undulating mountains, and dry rivers meandering from the sand dunes, and a little meadow struggling to look up to the sky.The clouds are very thick, piled up and cast shadows on the surface of the sand dunes and mountains. The sun is too bright, so the shadows are deeper, almost blurred with ink.

"It's dark over there." Chi Nian seemed to be talking to himself.

Xi Shan withdrew his hand and stretched his waist for a long time. The hem of his T-shirt was pulled up a bit, revealing a small half of his narrow but tight waist.Chi Nian didn't see it, and just followed the trajectory of the cloud in a daze.

"Because," Xi Shan's voice is low and hoarse, and it will feel comfortable to listen to for a long time, "the clouds cover the sun, after this period, or after this moment, they flow forward, and the mountain will light up."

"In Beijing... I can occasionally see similar ones on sunny days, but the color is not so dark."

Xi Shan glanced at him, and said pointedly: "I think the shadow of the cloud on the ridge is actually the trace of the wind, just like the back of Yadan Hill, it is a mark left by the wind."

Chi Nian thought about it and agreed.

"Did you see the river over there?" Xi Shan pointed to the folds between the two sand dunes, which are sunken and continuous. "I'm not very good at reading, but there probably was a river there many years ago."

"I know, wind erosion and abrasion, and then the action of water... It's formed like this."

Chi Nian gestured, looking for the records in high school geography textbooks from his memory. When he was too involved, Xi Shan suddenly raised his arm and hooked him around his shoulder, with his wrist resting on his collarbone.

His pulse quickened, and Chi Nian's explanation suddenly came to a knot, and he bit his tongue.

"So look," Xi Shan rubbed Chi Nian's chin with his finger as he pointed to the distant hill, "That's the trace of water flowing, and the trace of wind blowing over there. After a few minutes or hundreds of years, we would know they existed."

"..."

"Anything that has existed will leave traces, no matter what it was at the time, and only when you see those traces later can you think, 'Oh, it turns out that existence is meaningful'."

He was comforting himself, Chi Nian thought, his little finger gently rubbing against his hot jaw.

"Besides, do you want to eat roast lamb?" Xi Shan raised his hand and rubbed the back of Chi Nian's hairy head a few times, "Drive well, and we'll have a good meal in Delingha."

Chi Nian buried her head with a smile, resisting the soreness in the corners of her eyes: "Do you do it yourself?"

Xi Shan said solemnly, "That's better than my cooking."

"All right." Chi Nian said, "For the roast lamb."

The deep shadows in the distance really brightened again with the flow of the wind, and the ridge line was clear and crisp, cutting the blue sky.

so good.

Chi Nian was not in the beautiful scenery, but only secretly took another look at Xi Shan.