I'm in Delingha tonight

Question, when you reunited with your boyfriend who has just confirmed the relationship and is still in love but had to separate after a long absence, should you kiss him directly or hug him for 5 minutes with restraint before kissing him?

Xi Shan had seriously thought about the long voyage.

He managed to have it both ways, and it was a beautiful idea.But when he landed, he ran out of the arrival gate panting, and when he saw Chi Nian, he was shocked by the lady next to him before he could get excited——

The eyebrows and eyes are dark, the makeup is exquisite, the coat and leather bag cannot see the brand LOGO at first glance, but the texture is good, and there is a low-key luxury everywhere.This lady is quite old, and skin care products and medical beauty items can slow down the speed of aging on the face to the greatest extent, but her eyes are extraordinary, and she can tell that she is a strong woman who has been "battlefield" for a long time.

He guessed that it was Chi Nian's mother. Not only did her temperament fit Chi Nian's description in a few words, her genetics made her look a little like Chi Nian.

Xi Shan pulled the backpack strap to calm down his fast heart rate, and stopped his unsteady footsteps like a boy.

Because Chi Nian hadn't mentioned his parents for a long time, Xi Shan wasn't sure how much she knew about him and Chi Nian, and he wasn't mentally prepared—he even wondered for a moment, is this a child's vengeance?

At that time, he let Chi Nian meet Bai Xiaowan without any notice, and now Chi Nian gave the same scene.

But why is Chi Nian's expression so ugly?

Random guessing is not his style, Xi Shan walked over directly.

He is full of travel and dust, and has just returned to the Yangtze River Valley from the cold plateau. He has not yet adapted to the change in air pressure, his clothes are slightly uneven, and his hair is not well styled.But thanks to Xi Shan's appearance, he relies on his face and figure to support his appearance, otherwise the superficial "unconventional and uninhibited" will become a sharp brother, Chongqing Branch.

Let Chi Nian's mother think that he is usually dressed in this simple way, Xi Shan secretly convinced himself that it is better than being a gaudy male peacock, which seems too unsteady.

"Brother Xi." Chi Nian called out to him, his face pale and his body language full of embarrassment.

Xi Shan nodded at him, and turned to the understated and well-maintained lady.He didn't care at all whether his image could leave a good first-time experience, and he said hello to her neither humble nor humble.

Chi Nian's voice became even softer: "This is my mother..."

"Just call Auntie Ding." Ding Li stretched out her hand, "How are you?"

Out of politeness, Xi Shan shook hands with her.The other party is pampered and pampered, there is no trace of hard work on his hands, and his fingers do not touch the spring water, which is completely different from Bai Xiaowan.

He called "Auntie Ding", and seeing that Chi Nian was still embarrassed, he simply said generously, "My name is Xi Shan."

"I heard that our baby can't keep a secret—Jiu Yang." Ding Li pursed her lips and smiled, she seemed to be indifferent to this love, maybe it was tolerance, maybe she didn't put Xi Shan in her eyes at all.

Chi Nian pulled the corner of her clothes, trying to stop Ding Li from getting more yin and yang.But the effect was limited, so he had to turn his head and hurriedly explained to Xi Shan: "Brother Xi, she also just arrived..."

Xi Shan knew it well, and gave him a "nothing" look.

"I've already booked a hotel." Ding Li didn't think there was anything wrong, and instead walked in front of the two of them, "Someone came to pick me up, but isn't that just right? Baby, do you have a car?"

Chi Nian patted hesitantly: "I drove, but..."

"I'll see you off." Xi Shan said.

As soon as he finished speaking, Chi Nian immediately handed over the car keys, then stepped aside and stood next to Xi Shan.The clear-cut banner gave him a lot of comfort.

Ding Li was probably used to being swift and resolute, even if she didn't know where the car was parked, she walked in front of them in high heels and went straight to the parking lot.With her here, Xi Shan didn't dare to be intimate with Chi Nian, as if they had just held hands, they would immediately be caught by the other party - in fact, it's okay to be caught, but Xi Shan didn't want to embarrass Chi Nian.

Just suppressing the urge to hug Chi Nian and kiss him, the hand in the jacket pocket was poked through the fabric.

Xi Shan turned his head, Chi Nian kept his eyes on the side, pursed his lips, and said in a voice that almost drowned out the noise of the airport: "I really didn't know she was coming..."

"Okay." Xi Shan seemed to be comforting, and touched Chi Nian's arm with his elbow.

"I'll tell you later." Chi Nian was sullen.

He couldn't move too much, so he had to touch Chi Nian with his elbow to make people feel relieved.

For Xi Shan, meeting Ding Li was not entirely a bad thing.

The relationship between the two of them had just been established, and before a stable transition period came, he was forced to expose his untidy self to Ding Li. To a certain extent, the procedure of pretending to each other was omitted.

In winter in Chongqing, the nights are long and humid.

The black Toyota probably wasn't the model Ding Li was used to sitting in. She glanced around in the back row, picked up the IKEA Shark as a cushion on her waist, and managed to maintain her expression.Xi Shan took a rough look at this expression and body language from the rearview mirror. He was still holding a trace of luck, but now it's all gone.

Ding Li was not a good person, and she was dissatisfied with her son's "love affair" all over her body, and she probably didn't have a good opinion of herself.

Chi Nian also felt the almost condensed atmosphere in the car in the co-pilot, he laughed dryly, and regardless of being tied up by the seat belt, grabbed the seat and leaned back: "Mom, are you hungry, do you want some supper? "

"I'm losing weight, baby." Ding Li smiled softly and generously.

Chi Nian said decently: "It's a pity...Then let's take you to the hotel first. I originally planned to have a barbecue with Brother Xi today."

Ding Li changed his words without changing his expression: "But we're all here, let the guests do as they please."

She and Xi Shan actually had similar mantras, and they spoke very smoothly.While Xi Shan was driving, he tried his best to suppress the smile on his lips—that sentence made Ding Li break free from his noble and graceful shell, and it made him more cordial than the previous warm greeting.

Through the night, scattered buildings weave dots of light, like a fragment of a literary film.

Ding Liding's hotel is on the South Bank, not far from the Nanping business district, and the high-rise rooms can see the entire Yuzhong and the Yangtze River.Chi Nian helped her carry her things upstairs, while Xi Shan waited in the hotel lobby.

He found a place to sit at random, and took a look at the hotel's glamorous walls. His face was normal, and he stroked the hair on his forehead casually.

Along the way, Ding Li didn't say much, and sat upright in the back row, occasionally grabbing the phone to send some messages.In front of his mother, Chi Nian couldn't chat with Xi Shan, yawned one after another, and finally fell asleep on the co-pilot.

But even so, Xi Shan could tell that Chi Nian and Ding Li should have a good relationship.

Ding Li came to Chongqing in person "disregarding previous suspicions". When she saw her son's so-called boyfriend, she didn't immediately lose face, and accepted their supper invitation calmly—although her expression looked like a supervisor guarding the school gate to catch a puppy love member.

Xi Shan has never had a close relationship since he was a child. He is not like a spoiled child between his parents, but like a bystander who understands the meaning of "love" by himself.

Over the past 20 years, the rift between Xi Shan and his parents has been torn deeper and deeper by his own hands. Today, even if the surface is passable, it will not take three days to completely repair it.He didn't think about positively changing anything, and he didn't usually care much about it.It was only when I saw Chi Nian and Ding Li that I thought, "So this is how a mother and son who have a good relationship are like this."

The mother and son who are in a good relationship have conflicts that can shed tears. After half a year of cold war, no one cares about the other, but their conflicts are like a layer of foam on the sea surface. When the wind blows, it will shrink a lot.

When the day comes, we can let go of our guards and have a nice talk with each other, and soon we can pretend nothing happened.

This kind of "nothing happens", Xi Shan has never experienced it, he has only been caressed about in his current life because of a little sesame.I thought it didn't matter when I didn't compare, but now I see...

A little lost, and a little unbalanced grievance.

Xi Shan didn't have time to feel the sudden melancholy, so Chi Nian and Ding Li came downstairs soon.The elevator door opened, and Ding Li still walked ahead forcefully, but his face softened a bit.

"Waiting for a long time, where is the barbecue you mentioned?"

Ms. Ding was going to a barbecue banquet, so she changed into a less formal attire, and her coat changed from a crisp coat to a goose brand down jacket, and she wore a woolen hat. The face looked more than ten years younger than her actual age.

Upstairs, she and Chi Nian experienced some kind of communication, this time when they got into the car, Ding Li changed his politeness and alienation just now, and took the initiative to start the conversation: "The last time I came to Chongqing was several years ago. "

Chi Nian remained silent, Xi Shan's eyes flashed as he was talking to him, and he answered, "What did Auntie come here for?"

"Come and play." Ding Li straightened the cuffs of the down jacket, and said in a relaxed tone, "Lao Chi doesn't like to go abroad. At that time, the baby finished the college entrance examination and went to Japan with friends. I was tired from business and wanted to rest. I pulled him to pick a place. Lao Chi was tired of staying in the north, so he said that we would come to the south for a walk—passing through Chongqing for three days.”

"I heard from Xiaochi that you and uncle are very powerful."

Xi Shan's compliment was not very clever, but Ding Li was furious when he heard it: "Did he tell you about us? What did he say?"

Sensing Xi Shan's hesitation, Chi Nian immediately opened his mouth and said, "Say you're beautiful, that's fine!"

"Fuck you." Ding Li smiled deeper, and the jokes in her words were not as serious as the elders, "How many years have you said that I am beautiful, I want to listen to Xiaoxi."

In fact, when Chi Nian mentioned it, he always complained. When Xi Shan heard this sentence, he also knew that riding a tiger would be difficult.He was about to make up some good-sounding jokes to fool him, but he suddenly thought of Bai Xiaowan for no reason.

If it is said that all mothers in the world always love their children, why does he never feel that Bai Xiaowan loves him?But she must categorically deny it, thinking that she has no family relationship at all, and why did Bai Xiaowan insist on maintaining her marriage relationship with Xi Dongyang back then, so that the two finally completely broke up?

Xi Shan doesn't think that her love for Xi Dongyang can be great enough to support a green hat for many years. If face is an issue, in these years after the divorce, no one has done what should be done, no matter whether it is smooth sailing or going through ups and downs.

That year...was it for him?

Even if he doesn't appreciate it at all?

The distorted love of his parents changed Xi Shan's values ​​from "staying together for life" to "no one can live without him", so that he restrained his heart, and only carefully released a little not long ago.

What's so special about Chi Nian?In the final analysis, but to be sincere to him, to be persistent to him, to have pure love for him.

These are the loves Xi Shan longs for.

Now, Xi Shan is driving the car smoothly, but the Yangtze River is upset in his heart out of thin air.

He had introspected himself, whether he had really gone too far at that time, only thinking about the urgent need to release his inner anxiety, and did not put himself in Bai Xiaowan's place.So these years, he tried to ease the relationship between himself and his mother, and he never gave up until he returned to Delingha a few years ago.

He can't speak, can't handle things, and the closer he is to the people, the more frightened he is.

Bai Xiaowan accepted all his overtures, and would also take care of his life, from the duvet to the greetings during the New Year and holidays.But they are still not like mother and child.

Xi Shan used to be unable to guess what Bai Xiaowan was thinking, but now he suddenly doesn't want to guess.

Maybe they have all learned to take a step back, Xi Shan will stop talking about that marriage and give her what is due.As for Bai Xiaowan, she no longer indulged in it, and no longer chose to calmly accept her son's choice "for Xi Shan's good".

Family affection is different from love, there is no one-to-one loyalty.So he and Bai Xiaowan ended up like this, neither close nor very distant... Let's call it "seeking benevolence and gaining benevolence", right?

Xi Shan couldn't help but laugh.

Ding Li also urged curiously: "Xiao Xi, what did he say about me?"

"Sometimes," Xi Shan said again, "he said you were very good to him. Even if nothing seems irreversible, you are still his mother, right?"

These words made Ding Li startled slightly, and blinked his eyes.

Chi Nian, the co-pilot, wore headphones and pretended to be deaf and dumb. He turned his head to look at the rapidly receding street scene, but the corners of his mouth slowly raised.

He is not Ding Li, he only knows the incoherent "persuasion" on the surface.After understanding Xi Shan's hint, a stone was quietly disappearing from Xi Shan's heart.Xi Shan finally reconciled with his impulsive, mean, extreme and black and white self.