I'm in Delingha tonight

An off-road vehicle is not considered a top-level configuration, and the plateau national road is occasionally bumpy and uncomfortable, but this is Chi Nian's first good night's sleep since her boyfriend left without a sound.

He used to be carefree, but he suffered from frequent insomnia due to anxiety for a month.It's normal to stay awake at two or three o'clock. After finally feeling drowsy and falling asleep, the wind outside the window was louder and the voice was higher-pitched. Chi Nian woke up immediately, staring at a pair of red eyes. Wait for dawn.

Chi Nian almost collapsed when he found the bank card transfer records. The feeling of being betrayed is now clearly engraved deep in his mind, dormant, waiting on the edge of an abyss at any time, ready to push him again.

Sophora japonica in Beijing is full of branches, Chi Nian is sitting, and when he opens his palm, he sees a dense shadow.The boyfriend's cell phone couldn't be reached, Chi Nian was completely hopeless, and he didn't know why he accepted the fact so quickly.

Maybe when despair reaches the extreme, I can keep thinking calmly.

He didn't find a friend, let alone bow his head and go home, because he felt that saying "my boyfriend doesn't seem to want me anymore" was too embarrassing and he would rather suffer alone.

Chi Nian has such a character, when he shouldn't be stubborn, he bumps into the south wall and doesn't look back.

The money he had with him was not too much, so Chi Nian could only live in a small hotel wronged by himself.

The sound insulation effect of the door panels is better than nothing. He has heard couples quarreling, husband cheating and being caught by his wife in bed, one-night stands, drunk men fighting and causing the police... There was also a pornographic and illegal crackdown, two policemen knocked on the door in the middle of the night He walked through his door and looked around before leaving.

Chi Nian found it interesting at first, but after getting used to it, the various life conditions in the small hotel became the source of his irritability.

The noise, the screaming, and the ambiguous sounds of making love made him sick.

He only moved out of the hotel on the day he was going to Dunhuang, and he hadn't seen the sun for a long time. The sunny day in Beijing was generously spread on the asphalt road, making him dizzy.

Chi Nian took the bus to the Capital Airport and left Beijing, but the restlessness never left him.

Self-diagnosis results are not necessarily correct but can always explain the problem.

Because of the broken relationship, conflicts with the family, and the relationship that has been maintained for several years, the long-standing resentment suddenly radiated out, and the cheerful personality also became dull.

The Dunhuang desert and the Crescent Lake did not heal him, nor did the shadow of the grassland covered by white clouds on the plateau.As the time in the plateau increased, Chi Nian became more and more gloomy. He could not speak for a whole day, sat in a daze, and did not sleep at night, flipping through the phone over and over again to look at the previous chat records.

Sweet words turned into arrows, and he was riddled with holes before he gave up.He connected to wifi to send a message, but all he got was a red exclamation mark that was blocked.

So he deleted the contact information of his ex-boyfriend and went to buy the car.

So Chi Nian didn't expect the insomnia and anxiety to heal in a short time.

By the side of the salt lake, when Xi Shan watched him yawn to let him rest, Chi Nian thought that the embarrassment would pass quickly due to the trembling up and down, so he could get up and take over Xi Shan's driving for a while.

Unexpectedly, he fell into a deep sleep soon, and he didn't wake up no matter how bumpy the vehicle was.

Chi Nianhud dreamed chaotically, the pictures overlapped, like a montage collaged together and shown repeatedly: When I was young, I went boating with my parents on Kunming Lake, I was so nervous that I threw up in the piano exam in the third grade of middle school, and I didn’t pass it in the end. Once we broke up, he was almost splashed with milk by the same passenger on the green train from Dunhuang to Golmud...

Salt Lake, chasing the sunset, the plateau ridge sloped toward him.

The rhythm of the disco in the ear is from far to near, and the words are sung vaguely.Chi Nian was half asleep and half awake, as if he was dragged by the electric guitar and the interlude singing, and slammed his head against the edge of the car window.

"...I don't know where to go, where to go, I just want to be with you."

He was still staring in a daze, sitting up straight as if he couldn't tell the difference between east, west, and north, and then when he opened his eyes, he was stabbed by the sun and closed them again.

The off-road vehicle then stopped on the side of the road.

Chi Nian woke up completely, and the first thing he remembered was that he seemed to have failed to keep his promise.Because of the altitude sickness, the corners of his eyes were sore and swollen. When he swallowed a little, his nasal cavity and throat felt severe pain. The feeling spread to his brain. Chi Nian's nose suddenly turned red, and he looked as if he was about to cry.

His physiological reaction was like this, and he didn't care much about it. Instead, he looked at Xi Shan in the driver's seat and apologized hoarsely: "I'm sorry, I...I slept...why didn't you call me?"

Xi Shan supported the steering wheel with one hand, put his face on his face, and looked at him with great interest: "Seeing that you slept soundly, what did you dream about?"

Chi Nian was startled: "Huh?"

Wiping the corners of his lips with his thumb to signal him, Xi Shan whispered, "I'm drooling."

Chi Nian was trembling all over, if it wasn't for the seat belt that tied him tightly, he would have jumped up on the spot.He hastily lowered his head and wiped his mouth, the trace of "he's playing with me again" that he had kept completely disappeared after encountering traces, Chi Nian's face instantly flushed with shame, facing the sun, he was so embarrassed that he wanted to get under the car seat.

Xi Shan stretched his arms and pulled out a limp ball from the back seat. The plastic packaging was crumpled together, and the sound was crisp.He handed it to Chi Nian: "Here, wet tissue."

"Thank me……"

"Quickly wipe it off." Xi Shan said, loosening his seat belt, "After cleaning, drive for me."

Peppermint flavor, good smell and refreshing effect.

Chi Nian wiped it twice indiscriminately, and simply spread it on his forehead to keep himself awake. He and Xi Shan changed positions, and when adjusting the seat, he asked casually, "Did you not sleep all night?"

Xi Shan: "Slept, and woke up again in about four or ten minutes."

Chi Nian immediately apologized: "You should call me, you forgot to set the alarm clock."

Xi Shan didn't bother with him: "I wanted to wake you up, but I saw you looking like you haven't slept for several days, so I just bit the bullet and drove forward. If you are not in a hurry, you can drive for a while and stop for a while, squint. A few minutes. I went down and smoked a cigarette in the middle—it’s better in summer.”

Chi Nian paused for a moment: "Don't you say it's cold?"

"It's fine if the car is moving." Xi Shan said, and then magically took out a box of milk and a piece of naan from the storage in front of the co-pilot, "Eat something."

The sun is shining brightly on the plateau, so bright that there is nowhere to hide, and there is even a track of wind flow.

Chi Nian bit the dry naan and poured himself a mouthful of milk.From the corner of the eye, Xi Shan's eyes were black and blue, his distress from not sleeping well was beyond words, and the other party's speech was not as energetic as before, Chi Nian was suddenly overwhelmed by guilt.

Unable to apologize directly, he guessed that Xi Shan would answer that it doesn't matter.

But he felt ashamed that Xi Shan was forced to stay up all night, and he ate very quickly, not caring why there was no mutton this time, so he touched the steering wheel and the shift lever after eating.

"Go to sleep." Seeing that Xi Shan's eyelids were about to close immediately, Chi Nian asked again, "Where should I drive?"

Xi Shan pointed to the screen of the central control: "Dongtai."

After saying this, he weakly untied his hair tie and passed away directly.Chi Nian was not in a hurry to start it. After studying the car navigation for a while, his eyes fell on Xi Shan again and he couldn't take his eyes off.

The car window was opened a crack, and before eight o'clock, the wind had not been heated by the sun, and it poured into the car with the chill of dawn.

Chi Nian was afraid that Xi Shan would catch a cold if he slept like this, so he dragged the blanket that had been pushed to the front of the co-pilot at some point, carefully approached Xi Shan, put it on his knees and pulled it up until it covered his chest.

He was still wearing the thick coat he had added last night by the salt lake, with his hands folded across his chest.A black hair rope around his wrist conspicuously bound his protruding wrist bones. Xi Shan's hair was not as long as Chi Nian imagined after it was loosened.At this time, those bright eyes were closed, and his expression was a little aggrieved.

"I'm sorry." Chi Nian said softly.

Xi Shan snorted, maybe in response to his words, or maybe it was a conditioned reflex.

On the road again, probably because of the obstacles in various aspects of the plateau, the off-road vehicle seemed to lack oxygen and drove forward along a one-way road.

Heading towards the east at the beginning of the morning sun, the torment is no different from Chi Nian heading west under the fiery afterglow a few days ago.He didn't have sunglasses, and at first he was embarrassed to take Xi Shan's - even though it was hung under the rearview mirror - after a while in silence, he couldn't take it anymore, so he put it on without disturbing Xi Shan.

Chi Nian had a small face, and the sunglasses basically covered most of his face.Although it slides down from time to time, the light on the asphalt road is no longer dazzling.

Even if you don't go to the Gobi Desert, the off-road vehicle is much easier to drive than his second-hand car. Chi Nian has never driven off-road before. The advantage is that he has a strong adaptability. He quickly knows how to get the middle point between stability and speed.

Chi Nian drove even slower than the speed limit of 80 kilometers, and it seemed that their army green Wrangler was the only one going east on the entire one-way street.Separated by a 30-meter gully, on the other side, tourist minibuses, SUVs of various colors and self-driving cars flowed towards their road like flowing water.

Retrograde, Chi Nian thought for no reason: "It's kind of cool."

Xi Shan’s loop line does not seem to be any of the ones he has seen in travel guides.

And why go back to Delingha when you arrive in Golmud?

If possible, Chi Nian would really ask him once.

The place where Xi Shan and he switched drivers seemed deserted at first glance, but after Chi Nian actually drove for a while, he realized that it was very close to the service area of ​​Dongtai.Going forward about 90 kilometers from here, there is a recently discovered scenic spot, which is also a salt lake. It is clearer than the Emerald Lake, and it is said to be Tiffany Blue.

The salt lake they passed by last night had no name, and the most common one was amazing enough.There are countless surprises hidden in the hinterland of Qaidam. In about a few months, that lake will also be listed on the check-in list.

Chi Nian thought about it all the way, didn't turn on the music, didn't look at the phone, and concentrated on it until the car was parked.

The Dongtai service area was slightly larger than the service station where he first met Xi Shan, and the brightly colored bungalows gathered together to attract attention.Chi Nian found a parking space, and the supermarket was two or three steps ahead.

Several women in white skirts were changing poses for photos in front of the orange building wall. They were full of energy and kept changing their looks.The guy who took the photo might be one of their boyfriends, and he quickly said something impatiently, but couldn't hear clearly, which aroused the dissatisfaction of the women, and they were attacked by words.

Chi Nian lay on the car window watching the whole process as if watching the excitement, the corners of his mouth were raised with joy, and it didn't matter if he was exposed to the sun.

He thought that Xi Shan was too tired, so he didn't call him, and planned to let him sleep enough.Unexpectedly, Chi Nian only lay on the ground for two or three minutes, Xi Shan moaned in a low voice, hugged the blanket and loosened the seat belt.

"Don't call me when you get there." Xi Shan rubbed his wrists, his posture was wrong and he was numb from sleep.

Chi Nian brought him water: "You slept soundly too."

"Oh?" Xi Shan asked him vaguely while drinking, "Did I talk in my sleep?"

Chi Nian regretted: "No, you don't even snore."

Xi Shan raised an eyebrow at him triumphantly.

"I'll go down for a walk." Chi Nian opened the car door, half of his legs had already gone out, and he turned back to the companion who was grooming for confirmation, "Xi Shan, you will wait for me to go together, right?"

Xi Shan didn't answer, but only gestured "OK" to him, agreeing to tie them together during this journey.