I'm in Delingha tonight

How did he get my phone number.

The moment this thought came to mind, Chi Nian's back felt cold.Cold sweat broke out on his forehead uncontrollably, he stared intently for a long time, and after confirming that it was Zhou Hengwen, Chi Nian suddenly took a picture of his phone on the bar.

With a crisp sound, Xi Shan looked over: "Are you all right?"

Chi Nian wanted to reassure him - it was not easy for Xi Shan to intervene in these matters, and there was no need to worry about them - but he opened his mouth, his throat seemed to be blocked and he couldn't speak.He already had a stress response to Zhou Hengwen. No matter how much he thought about it, he still panicked instinctively when he thought of the name, and then felt like vomiting.

As soon as he realized this, Chi Nian's stomach immediately churned, and he bowed and retched.

He reacted so abnormally that it was a little scary. After Xi Shan asked "what's the matter", he probably found that Chi Nian couldn't answer immediately, so he turned into the bar, picked up the cup next to him and poured a glass of warm water, and ran his right hand along Chi Nian's back.

"Can you drink it by yourself?" The water glass was handed to Chi Nian's mouth.

Unable to vomit, Chi Nian took a sip of water with a pale face, and returned to reality from the temperature of the palm on his back.Holding the glass, his fingers were still trembling when he sat on a stool at the bar, and the clear water swirled, and Chi Nian glanced at the cell phone thrown on the bar, almost feeling sick again.

Xi Shan asked, "Is your stomach cold?"

"No," Chi Nian calmed down a bit, but when he spoke, his voice was still extremely hoarse, his eyes dodged, "I...I'll tell you later, don't spoil the atmosphere today."

Xi Shan was silent, and suddenly said, "Come with me."

After saying that, Xi Shan turned around and left without touching him or forcing him, with a kind of chicness that love never comes.Chi Nian hesitated for a moment, biting the rim of his cup, followed Xi Shan without taking his phone.

Meng Qing had sharp eyes: "Brother Xi, what are you two doing?"

Zhu Yiming's ridicule came from afar: "Don't ask, asking is like a light bulb."

Its business hours start at 2:[-] p.m., and there is no lunch yet. The door is ajar. After turning out the partition where metal ornaments are hung, the noise is also blocked by the wall, leaving only the lapis lazuli color in the corridor. .

The sides are pure blue, and a large black-glazed porcelain vase stands in the corner, with a few dry reeds inserted in it.

Xi Shan leaned against the vase, thought for a while, and took out the cigarette case.He asked for one himself, lit it, lifted the box and reached out to Chi Nian: "Huh?"

"I don't smoke." Chi Nian shook his head, "Will the smell of smoke dissipate after a while?"

"The fresh air blower is on," Xi Shan said.

They were relatively silent for a moment, Chi Nian thought, Xi Shan might ask after seeing the content of the text message.He tried to tell the other party before Xi Shan asked, but the ideological construction was not in place, and he still couldn't say it—what should I say?Come out to Xi Shan first, and then tell him all kinds of weird things about his ex-boyfriend.

What would Xi Shan think?

You'll think he's an idiot.

Chi Nian pinched the corner of his clothes and remained silent, carrying out the dragging formula to the end to escape reality.

When he didn't speak, Xi Shan took the initiative to mention it, but it wasn't what Chi Nian thought: "Let's play a little game. You heard what I said in the store just now... So, I guess you have some questions you want to ask me." , Actually I have too, how about we exchange secrets now?"

"What?" Chi Nian didn't understand his intention.

"What I haven't told you, you can ask me now, and I promise to answer truthfully." Xi Shan raised one finger, thought for a while, and changed it to three, "You can ask three questions, what you want to know, what you want to know Confirmed... as long as it doesn't involve parents. But, whatever you ask, I just have one question for you."

"Hey……?"

"You come first." Xi Shan took a small card from his pocket that he didn't know when, and put the fallen cigarette ash.

He knows how to pinch his weakness so well, Chi Nian somehow felt that he was being manipulated, but Xi Shan left him far more choices than himself, and seemed to be able to accept it—he could ask a lot, are you gay, Do you have someone you like now, and why do you take care of me like this?

Can he ask?

As for Chi Nian himself, if he insisted on liking Xi Shan wholeheartedly, he really needed a chance to be honest about all these things.Now that Xi Shan mentioned it, he probably knew what the other party's "only question" was about.

To exchange, does Xi Shan want to know?

Then he should let the other party judge for himself. He can't say "I like you" in the end while being constantly upset by the harassment from his ex-boyfriend, right?

"Then, can I ask three?" Chi Nian asked him.

Xi Shan nodded his head with a cigarette in his mouth, and a lock of slightly curly long hair hanging on his forehead shook accordingly, and was pulled back behind his ears by his slender fingers.

The turmoil in the depths of my heart swayed like a dragonfly on the water, and the ripples spread, all of which were heartbeats.Chi Nian blinked, met Xi Shan's gaze, and saw that there was still a thousand-foot deep pool, but calmed down a little.

"Why haven't you been dating?"

Xi Shan stared blankly, but said honestly: "I don't think I've met the right one yet. I used to talk too often for a while, but later found that I just wanted to find a partner to vent my feelings. It's different now, I still feel that I would rather wait suitable person."

"What is a suitable person?"

"sense of security."

Chi Nian chewed on the three words, flustered strangely, and the final question also ended up in a knot: "Then you...would you mind being liked or...being, being glued to?"

Xi Shan didn't answer this question right away.

He accidentally flicked the cigarette ash, then laughed.This smile seems to be forgiving a naive child's unreasonable troubles, and he is extremely tolerant. Xi Shan thinks carefully, and waits for the other party to feel uneasy before saying:

"Very mindful."

Chi Nian couldn't help frowning, extremely distressed.

But Xi Shan slowly added the second half of the sentence: "However, if I happen to like him too, isn't clingy cute?"

What kind of double standard scene is this?

"I'm done answering, now it's your turn." Xi Shan smoked out his cigarette, and he stifled it out on the piece of paper. When he wrapped it, he acted as if the question was very insignificant, "The person who sent the text message just now is the same as you." what relationship?"

Chi Nian was stunned, the question he expected, but suddenly he was at a loss.

But Xi Shan emphasized: "Be honest."

"He..." The name was on the lips, and when Chi Nian was nervous, he would bite his lower lip too hard, and he let go only when it hurt a little, trying to separate this matter, together with the scars of coming out, confusion, and nervousness Together, they just showed Xi Shan carefully, "He is my...ex-ex-boyfriend."

Xi Shan wasn't too surprised, as if he had already guessed it.

Chi Nian bit his tongue, and the smell of blood spread in his mouth, making his words dripping with blood.

"We actually didn't mention breaking up in person, but what he meant, I was very sure and desperate at the time. We made an appointment to go to Qinghai together and open a gallery together... He just didn't want me."

Xi Shan's expression became playful.

Chi Nian met his gaze, trying to straighten out the incident from the depths of his memory: "In Delingha, I mentioned it to you, remember? It was him, together for several years, who came out cabinet, fell out with the family, and then he abandoned me—there was something I didn’t tell you before, when he left, he took my money.”

Hearing "money", Xi Shan frowned invisibly: "How much?"

It seems that what Xi Shan is concerned about is not the identity of this ex-boyfriend, nor is it that Chi Nian's ex is actually a man, but only focuses on the harm he has suffered.

This thought reassured Chi Nian a little, and his sentences became more fluent.

"It's less than 40. I thought about calling the police." Chi Nian emphasized the ins and outs, "I really thought about it, but I told him the bank card password, and we have a special relationship. It's enough for the police not to think it's ridiculous. , how could it be accepted? So..."

"Then he sent you a message, didn't he say he blocked you?" Xi Shan asked.

Chi Nian nodded.

Talking about feelings really hurts money, let alone this kind of thing.Xi Shan understood Chi Nian's difficulty, sighed, and his voice was much softer than before: "So he still wants to meet you now?"

"I don't know how he found Chongqing... He changed his mobile phone number, and there is no contact on WeChat." When mentioning this, Chi Nian began to tremble uncontrollably again, "He is watching me, right? No matter where I go, He will always come to him, and it's useless not to pay attention to him, he will send me messages and keep apologizing...I..."

"It's okay." Xi Shan pressed Chi Nian's shoulder, "You are safe now."

Chi Nian took a deep breath, and admitted his weakness as if giving up struggling: "...I'm really afraid of him. If I meet him, he's very good at talking, maybe I'm going to believe it."

"Even if you know it's a liar now?"

"You do not understand……"

"Okay." Xi Shan interrupted Chi Nian with a serious expression, "He knows you are in Chongqing, right?"

Chi Nian nodded woodenly.

But his expression was too hurt, Xi Shan paused, his eyes drooped, the hand on Chi Nian's shoulder tightened, and he hugged him without warning.

The embrace is warm. When the fleece sweater of the same material is attached, the too thick touch overlaps with the body temperature, and the hug on the back is also tight.Chi Nian smelled the clear sweet smell, and seemed to dispel his anxiety all at once, just like being grabbed by Xi Shan just before falling into the abyss.

Why is he hugging himself?

Chi Nian had no time to think about Xi Shan's motives, so he instinctively raised his hand and hugged him back forcefully.

"Don't be afraid." Xi Shan's voice came deep into his mind, "No matter what happened in the past, it was very brave to say to me 'to start a new life'. No matter what decision you make afterwards , at least no one here will hurt you a second time."

Chi Nian said incoherently, "Brother Xi, today is your birthday, and I don't want to make you unhappy."

"I'm not unhappy." Xi Shan let him go, bent his body slightly and approached Chi Nian, looked carefully, and made sure that the person with well-developed tear glands was determined not to cry this time, "Birthday is really not that important."

"It's very important." Chi Nian said.

"Okay, but your business is also important." Xi Shan didn't continue to entangle Chi Nian about his birthday, and asked, "Where did your ex-boyfriend know you were in Chongqing? Do you have a clue?"

"No..." Just as he was about to say that he didn't know, Chi Nian suddenly remembered something, "I have a personal homepage, which is similar to a blog. When I was in college, the teacher let me save my homework. There are also some design drafts. Later, some netizens will communicate with me on it, and occasionally, I will post the photos I took.”

And in September, he once posted the sunset that he and Xi Shan went to Nanshan to see.

The fog in the mountain city was soft and misty. Even though there was no grand occasion like the fire burning clouds that day, when Xi Shan pressed the shutter on the sea of ​​lights in Yuzhong, Chi Nian couldn't help but secretly took a picture of Little Hong Kong.

That night, he couldn't sleep, so he edited the photo with his mobile phone, imitating the style of old Hong Kong movie stills that Xi Shan liked, adding filters and coarse grain effects, and uploaded it to his personal homepage.

Zhou Hengwen knew what his homepage was called, but even so, it was still creepy for the other party to know his number.

After listening to Chi Nian's explanation, Xi Shan narrowed his eyes slightly and stood up straight: "Then let him come."

"what?"

"Let him come to Chongqing, not to meet? Let's meet in Lanshan."