I'm in Delingha tonight

It took a long time to take the photo. Chi Nian stood beside him and smoked two cigarettes before they started on the road again.

Xi Shan changed seats with him and volunteered to drive.Holding Xi Shan's camera in his hand, Chi Nian shared the photos just now with Gonpo and Dolma from the small preview frame.

Xi Shan's photography skills are really good, Chi Nian's eyes as a layman seem to be at least perfect in light, shadow and composition.He said that he is not good at taking portraits, but in the pictures, the Tibetan couple's smiles are innocent and bright, without any artificiality, and there is no trace of posing, just feel natural.

They arrived in Xining that evening, and Xi Shan sent the Kampot couple directly to the hospital.

Kampot's mobile phone is not high-resolution, and it is very slow. Xi Shan asked for Kampot's phone number and address, and promised to print out the photos and send them to them.

He was thoughtful, and Gongpo thanked him countless times, and took out the Tibetan knife he was carrying with him to give to Xishan.

But Xi Shan refused to ask for anything, and urged the other party to go to see his son.After all, caring is chaotic. After he reminded the two couples, remembering the purpose of the trip, they rushed to the hospital with their luggage - parting without a hug is not difficult to accept.

Kampot and Dolma only accompanied them for a day's journey, as if they had formed a deep friendship.

After parting, Chi Nian leaned against Xishan with a crooked body, stood up straight again when the other party stretched out his hand, and said teasingly: "There are turquoise and red agate on that Tibetan knife. Brother Gongbu said it was inherited from his family. Knife, don’t you want any of this?”

Xi Shan knocked him on the head: "You can't have it because it's passed down from your ancestors, understand?"

Chi Nian groaned a few words about doing good deeds without leaving a name, opened the car door and went back to the co-pilot: "Is there something good to eat tonight?"

Xi Shan couldn't help laughing: "What's the rush?"

"I'm going to fly away tomorrow!" Chi Nian deliberately exaggerated, hoping to see if the other party would show any hesitation.

There was nothing unusual about Xi Shan, so he closed the car door for him and leaned against the window: "Then go and have some supper, I know a local speciality, you can try the eight-treasure tea here."

Chi Nian: "..."

Chi Nian thought coldly: Oh.

Whether intentionally or unintentionally, this person will really tease him, but what happens after teasing?

When he was about to give up, he used a small movement or two to catch his heartbeat, and then politely stepped back to a safe distance when he tentatively poked his head out of the turtle shell.

What he felt was ambiguous, perhaps in Xi Shan's view, it was just a normal exchange of courtesy between friends.

And this conclusion frustrated Chi Nian.

The dinner was as rich as ever but not exaggerated. The hand-caught mutton was delicious, and the eight-treasure tea mixed with tea leaves, dried fruits and rock sugar was also very fresh, but Chi Nian lost his appetite for some reason.

He ate a little sloppily, fearing that Xi Shan would find out that something was wrong and forced himself to eat about the same amount as usual.

Fortunately, Xi Shan didn't ask much.

The hotel was booked early in the morning, Chi Nian washed up, lay down on the bed, took out his mobile phone and started counting the money.Xi Shan didn't ask him to give money, this action was somewhat angry, like a child gaining attention.

Chi Nian himself knows that this is too pretentious and childish, but he just can't help but find a sense of presence in front of Xi Shan - first of all, because the parting is imminent, he has no time to escape this time; Gonpo Dolma met on the road as the same status.

If it was really the same politeness, the same point to the end, Chi Nian might not be persistent at all.

Halfway through the calculations, Chi Nian started to lose consciousness, Chi Nian didn't notice that Xi Shan had already taken a shower, and sat at the end of his bed by the way.He wiped his hair, and with the other free hand dishonestly tapped the soles of Chi Nian's feet.

"What are you doing? Still whispering."

Chi Nian almost ejected from the spot.

He bent his legs and lay sideways on one side, angrily: "Can you not touch your feet!"

Compared with the usual soft resistance, this time the tone is especially heavy.Xi Shan was stunned for a moment, then got up silently after a while and returned to his bedside, ignoring him.

Are you angry?

But when Chi Nian peeked at him from the corner of his eyes, Xi Shan didn't show any reaction, his face was expressionless.The embarrassment caused by Chi Nian couldn't bear to apologize immediately, so he closed his eyes and pretended to be dead.

The footsteps became distant again, and in the bathroom, Xi Shan began to dry his hair.Chi Nian came back to his senses, his face was burning hot, and his heartbeat speeded up unconsciously.Just now he was stimulated by Xi Shan's action, and he almost wanted to say something, but he bit the tip of his tongue, and in the end only he was the one who hurt.He was sad and wanted to cry, and buried his face in the pillow aggrievedly.

"Can you not move your hands, I want to misunderstand that you like me." —— Xi Shan probably won't want to hear the second half of the sentence. When Chi Nian said it, their relationship would immediately deteriorate, making the first night in Xining cold And ruthless.

Does he like Xi Shan?

Chi Nian re-reflected on himself, and finally came up with an affirmative answer.

It's not the same as the hazy fondness when watching the sunset, what he has for Xi Shan, apart from gratitude and dependence, is still more of a desire to be with him.And after dozens of hours of being together day and night, this heartbeat swelled like a cloud, covering every corner of his consciousness, repeatedly reminding——

You like the person in front of you, how close you want to get to know him, and how much you want to know.

I want to talk to him about a love that is best to have a beginning and an end.

You even take this person as a fantasy to accompany you for the rest of your life because of your high-frequency heartbeat in a short period of time.

These thoughts may not be able to support Chi Nian to continue to love him for the next few decades, but at least for now, when Chi Nian thinks of the parting and the reunion after the parting, he is too sad to speak.

The fortune teller said that he was unable to pass the mountain, Chi Nian thought, his heart was still trapped in no man's land.

At that sunset, Xi Shan looked at him with deadly eyes.

Chi Nian didn't know when he fell asleep in a daze.

In a daze, he felt that someone had turned off the light, and helped him pull the quilt to the neck to expose his head, so as not to suffocate his breath.He turned over, and the man helped him tuck the corner of the quilt again.

He didn't sleep well, as if he had split himself to listen to the shallow breathing beside the bed.

Someone stood by the bed for a long time, and finally brushed Chi Nian's cheek lightly with his fingertips, and retracted it restrainedly.

At seven o'clock the next day, Chi Nian was woken up by the alarm clock.

It is rare for him to have no dreams, but when he wakes up, he feels lost and a little bit down.Xi Shan still didn't take the initiative to communicate with him, and Chi Nian's temper immediately turned up - he was spoiled when he was a child, even if he was compliant with his boyfriend later, Xi Shan was not his boyfriend.

Also because he is not a boyfriend, he can't say anything, and he has nowhere to vent his anger.

The contradictions between the two sides were added together, Chi Nian was very strong in packing things, and wanted to step on the floor when putting on his shoes, Xi Shan finally noticed that his mood was not right, and asked half-jokingly: "What's the matter, don't you want to leave?"

I don't want to leave, but I also don't want you to talk to me like this.

Chi Nian tied his shoelaces without even looking at him: "No, get angry!"

Xi Shan: "...Okay."

I ate breakfast in the hotel's cafeteria. Chi Nian turned grief and anger into appetite. He even ate two of the steamed purple potatoes and boiled eggs that he usually hates, oatmeal soaked in milk, cantaloupe, coarse grain bread with strawberry jam, and a little kimchi, Chinese and Western The combination of eating method, in the end it seemed that it was not enough, so I drank less than half a bowl of wheat kernel porridge.

Xi Shan was stunned: "Didn't you have dinner last night?"

Chi Nian stared at him confidently, and said silently: "What, what."

Xi Shan tactfully withdrew his eyes and all his teasing thoughts, and silently ate the noodles he had just brought back.There was a lot of noise around them, and their table was almost dead silent. Chi Nian wanted to continue eating, when two small tomatoes suddenly appeared on the plate.

He raised his head, and Xi Shan withdrew his hand irrelevantly.

The pent-up discomfort dissipated a little, and Chi Nian finally realized that he had let go of his emotions since last night.He shouldn't have used his "favor" to kidnap Xi Shan for a response, lowered his eyes, and said thank you.

If there is still dignity left, he should happily remember the last two hours with Xi Shan.

The flight took off at 8:55, and after a hasty meal, Xi Shan drove Chi Nian to Caojiabao Airport.

"What a pity." Chi Nian said suddenly, looking at a plane taking off.

He broke the deadlock, Xi Shan answered naturally: "What's wrong?"

Chi Nian lowered his head and played with his mobile phone: "This time I came to Qinghai, I haven't been to Kumbum Monastery yet. I thought it was too hot and I was not in the mood... If I fly back from Delingha the day before yesterday, I can go."

After a while, Xi Shan said softly: "Next time, let's go to the viewing meeting next time."

Chi Nian responded with a perfunctory "hmm" first, swiping back and forth on the game interface several times, and found out that what Xi Shan said just now was "we".

Let's go next time.

Is this the first time that Xi Shan has made some kind of promise for their future?

Chi Nian was a little overjoyed, and his thoughts immediately drifted to the "next time" that has not yet been determined - there is a next time, he and Xi Shan can still meet, they will not become zombie friends who have been lying in each other's mobile phones after they parted.

If this is the case, he will ask Xi Shan to go to Beidaihe to watch the sunrise, go to Diaoyutai to enjoy the autumn, and go to the Forbidden City to encounter the first snow in Beijing... He has thought about the beautiful memories of the first 20 years of his life, and is waiting to meet Xi Shan again Experience it again.

"Then you should call me next time." Chi Nian said.

Xi Shan lowered his eyes and nodded in agreement.

The scale of Caojiabao Airport is not too big, and there is still an hour before the plane takes off when we arrive.Xi Shan sent him to the departure hall, saying that he was afraid that he would lose the plane again. Chi Nian thought to himself, how stupid is he in Xi Shan's heart?

"I'll go to the bathroom."

After hearing this, Xi Shan reached out to him for his ID card: "Then let me print your boarding pass for you."

Chi Nian didn't have the slightest sense of guard, and directly gave Xi Shan his ID card.He ran back and forth, waiting in line for a while, Xi Shan stood at the security checkpoint waiting for him with a slightly stunned expression.

"What's wrong?" Chi Nian took back his ID card and boarding pass, the destination printed on it was particularly conspicuous.

——Chongqing.

Xi Shan seemed to ask him casually: "What are you doing in Chongqing?"

"Be a teacher." Chi Nian took it for granted, but did not mention too many details about Tao Zi and the studio to him, "Is there anything delicious and fun in Chongqing?"

Xi Shan's dark eyes moved.

When he saw Chi Nian's destination, there was an earthquake in his heart, shattered, and the aftermath continued. He felt that he should not succumb to the coincidence, but he couldn't help but feel the secret joy of this "coincidence".He followed Chi Nian's words: "There are many interesting things in Chongqing... I'll send them to you later."

"No need, haha, I just asked casually." Chi Nian patted him on the shoulder, "Sister will take me to eat, drink and have fun!"

Xi Shan said so, and tried to explain: "Chongqing...is pretty good."

Then fell into silence, Chi Nian guessed something from his hesitant tone.

The broadcast started to broadcast a flight delay notice. Xi Shan looked at the time and took the initiative to break the deadlock between the two: "I'll leave after you enter the security check. It seems that the time is almost up. Shall I take you there?"

Chi Nian answered irrelevantly: "Will we meet in Chongqing?"

At the airport, there are people coming and going, and the daily flight information scrolls on the big screen behind it.Some delays, some cancellations, but most still take off on time.

Xi Shan looked at him, raised his hand, and lightly brushed off the non-existent dust on Chi Nian's right shoulder.

"It's hard to say." He took a step back, "Maybe."

Every farewell often ends with a hug.

They didn't hug each other, and parting became Xi Shan's blurred shadow behind the frosted glass door of the security check.

When the plane leaped into the clouds, Chi Nian looked down, and the row upon row of buildings in Xining were like small cubes, storing his sadness, sorrow, loss and an indescribable heartbeat.

But how long will this excitement last?

—Golden World? End—

Part II: 29.35°N, 106.33°E

"I have a hunch that he will like me."

—— "Chongqing Forest"