I'm in Delingha tonight

Chi Nian doesn't have much luggage, a backpack is full.

I also asked the hotel service staff to wash and dry the T-shirt I wore when I met Xi Shan. I changed it back now, and it is the same as when I first arrived in Golmud a few days ago.It's just that the despair on his face at that time is gone. Although he is still a little sad, at least he is still energetic.

Xi Shan went to the hospital in the morning, and when he came back, Chi Nian had just packed up.The two of them didn't say anything, and drove straight to the airport. All the way, the poplar trees swayed in the sun, and they passed a small sand field. There were a few children squatting on the edge and playing with the sand. The castle they built had vaguely taken shape.

Chi Nian closed his eyes slightly and pretended to be asleep, but actually he didn't know how to face parting.

Xi Shan didn't expose him.

The proposal to separate was too sudden, and Xi Shan felt a little bit unwilling for a short while.But he is a person who is used to being unrestrained, and he has been walking alone for a long time. Now he has just returned to the state of being alone from a partner he can chat with.

It was like being pricked by a thorn suddenly, and it was always uncomfortable until it was pulled out, but the crux could not be found.

Xi Shan used the drive to the airport to build himself mentally. When he saw the "Delingha Airport" sign, his heart was completely peaceful, and he persuaded himself to accept it calmly and say goodbye to Chi Nian.

"Everyone can only walk with you for a certain distance. When you arrive at the station, others get off, and you are the one who walks forward in the end."

Xi Shan was deeply impressed by this sentence, and he took it as his life creed after those things happened.He implements the principle of not causing trouble to anyone, and his personality is troublesome. He will try his best to help others solve difficulties, but Xi Shan does not leave any contact information, just like the girl who was molested in Dongtai but did not know how to fight back. Son.

My friend Zhu Yiming said that he just likes to be a good person, and immediately poured cold water on people's hope.

But Xi Shan knew that was not the case. He solved the problem because he did good deeds, and he didn't want to meet new friends just because...he didn't want to reconnect with everyone.

Leaving hope will trip you up.

Otherwise, if one day he suddenly feels that he has no life left and is alone, he could take nothing with him, but he will be forced to be missed by others.

Chi Nian was an accident, because he was too innocent, Xi Shan couldn't help worrying about what he would do if he met a bad person, so he relaxed the bottom line with Chi Nian again and again.

But now it's different.Xi Shan thought, since the other party proposed to leave, he would stop the loss in time, and neatly agreed to part ways with Chi Nian.From now on, no matter how Chi Nian's family is or what his lover is, it has nothing to do with him.

Xi Shan stepped on the brakes, and after thinking about it, he still drove in the direction of the parking lot.

...take it to the airport.

This little confused, in case he loses everything, at least I can give him a last helping hand.

Probably it was Chi Nian's pitiful appearance squatting in the Gobi that impressed him deeply. Xi Shan always felt that Chi Nian hadn't grown up and couldn't do anything, completely forgetting that sometimes Chi Nian's thoughts were already very mature.

Well-thought-out people stumble, but they don't let themselves fall forever.

"Are you there?" Chi Nian opened his eyes and struggled needlessly.

Xi Shan didn't make a sound, and stretched out his hand to press the button of his seat belt. When it bounced back, it hurt a little as it flew over quickly, like a casual prank.Chi Nian pouted and got out of the car, holding her bag.

Is it time to say "goodbye"?Xi Shan didn't look like he was going to leave immediately.

Xi Shan looked at him for a while, then got out of the car, walked around the front of the car and pushed Chi Nian's shoulder with his fingertips: "I'll go with you to go through the formalities, I don't feel at ease when you're alone."

"I can..." Chi Nian laughed out of anger after being underestimated, "I used to fly by myself, so I will do this."

Xi Shan stopped and stood where he was.

A sunset red tour group just passed by behind them, and the tour guide waved a small flag to prevent the uncles and aunts from going to the airport entrance. The crowd was full of voices, and they left behind them in a bustling manner, making Xi Shan and Chi Nian feel like they were silent.

The sun was shining brightly, illuminating Xi Shan's eyes, and there was an ambiguous inseparability in them.

Look at me again, I don't want to leave.

Chi Nian threw the backpack behind him and decided to say goodbye first.

He smiled at Xi Shan, very cheerful and warm: "Thank you these two days, after arriving in Xining... I will send you a message, don't worry too much, really."

"En." Xi Shan nodded.

"You go first?" Chi Nian asked, "It's almost an hour before takeoff, so don't accompany me."

Parting is usually easier for the person who leaves first, Chi Nian thought, no matter how Xi Shan arranges his position, there must be someone who is worried about Xi Shan at this time, so let him care about Xi Shan.

Xi Shan didn't say yes or no, the corners of his eyes drooped, showing a gentle arc, and when he laughed, he raised his hand to rub Chi Nian's hair, like he had done many times.Then he agreed: "Okay, then be careful by yourself, watch your things, and don't let someone take your wallet and phone."

"I know." Chi Nian said, not avoiding him.

Xi Shan didn't let go, and kept touching his head: "After arriving in Xining, if you can't find a place to live, you can go to the Xining Building in the east of the city. The VIP building there is a bit older, and the fees are not as expensive as the newly renovated ones, but the conditions are not bad."

Chi Nian said, "Okay."

"It's very close to the train station. It's only a kilometer away. If you want to go to the airport, it's a bit farther. If the time doesn't match, you can take a taxi. It's about 100 yuan, and Didi may be cheaper."

Chi Nian smiled: "Why do you look like an old father?"

So Xi Shan immediately slapped Xi Shan on the cheek: "Speak once and for all, you'd better remember it quickly! Also, there is a Muslim area near where I live, and there is also food, such as haggis soup, beef noodles, and hand-caught mutton , what you like are all there, search for yourself which has a good reputation..."

"Okay," Chi Nian pinched the place where he pinched, and smiled even wider, "In your eyes, I'm just a foodie, right?"

Xi Shan also laughed: "Isn't it?"

He withdrew his hand and stuffed it into the pocket of his jeans indifferently, and took two steps back, as if reluctant to give up.But he didn't say anything, and nodded to Chi Nian when he reached the front of the car.

"Be careful on the road." Chi Nian waved his hand, but didn't say goodbye in the end.

Saying "goodbye" means that there will be another meeting, but he is standing here, the sun is shining, and the parting is not painful, but he and Xi Shan don't know whether they will meet again in the future.

After watching the army green wrangler disappear at the end of the road, Chi Nian looked away.

Delingha Airport seems to have only one flight to Xining every day. It is so small that it is not even as spectacular as the railway stations in some big cities.There is only one terminal, and even the artificial counter has only three positions.When Chi Nian entered, the sunset red tour group had already flocked to the security checkpoint.

He glanced at the flight departure and landing information, and walked to the self-printing boarding pass machine.Chi Nian took out his ID card and put it up. After a while, the flight information was displayed, and he could select a seat with another click.

Chi Nian hesitated for a long time and did not press it.

He suddenly regretted it.

I don't want to leave, I don't want to be separated from Xi Shan like this.

There is a WeChat account to contact, but Chi Nian began to think it was not enough.He hit his head with a sap, as if he had no nostalgia when he was bid farewell by Xi Shan, and he was sure that if he left like this, they would never meet again for the rest of their lives, so everything he experienced in Qinghai-salt lake, sunset, roast lamb, Delingha Evening Movies——

It's just his regret.

His heart beats.

The other party knew nothing, and even forgot about him after a few months.

Chi Nian suddenly felt that this was terrible. He remembered Xi Shan unilaterally, whether it was out of gratitude or other emotions he had not yet determined, but if Xi Shan quickly forgot about him, the two of them would become friends in the WeChat contact list. The "zombies" of the "zombies" have nothing to do with each other except sending congratulatory messages during the New Year and holidays...

It became his own secret dream, never to wake up again.

No, after leaving, there will be no more Xi Shan.

I want to go back and find him...

Find Xi Shan.

"Hey, young man, what are you dawdling for?" A voice behind Chi Nian's fugue was torn apart, "There's still a line behind, don't be inked!"

He hurriedly put away his ID card and flashed to the side, apologizing frantically: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I... I... It seems that there is an error in the information."

Behind him was about a small group of freelancers. The leading man was in his 30s and was slightly fat. Seeing him anxious, he put away his impatience and enthusiastically offered a suggestion: "Go to the counter and see if there is anything else you can do? Check it manually, if it’s just a name or something wrong, you can change it.”

"Thank you." Chi Nian said, and quickly took two steps outside.

The knuckles holding the ID card were almost white. Chi Nian looked out the glass door. There were no cars on the road and the sky was blue.Gritting his teeth, he simply picked up his backpack and walked out.

After the first boarding announcement finished, Chi Nian walked out of the airport gate, and a gust of wind filled his T-shirt.

He sat on the side of the road for a while, trying to exhaust the last dead line but failed, first took out his mobile phone and clicked on the chat box with Xi Shan.They haven't chatted since they became friends, only a solitary message, Xi Shan told him to "go downstairs for dinner" yesterday, Chi Nian touched the screen, not knowing where he got the courage from.

Chi Nian doesn't know if he will regret his decision in the future, and he doesn't want to entangle too much.

He only has eyes for the present.

"I seem to have bought the wrong flight." Chi Nian entered these words, closed his eyes and clicked send.

Xi Shan didn't reply right away, he was full of nervousness, and waited until the phone vibrated for the first time, so he managed not to stand up on the spot - the first time, and the second time, Xi Shan made a voice call for him.

Chi Nian picked it up, making his voice sound calmer, not like lying: "Brother Xi."

"What's going on?" Xi Shan didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"I just... bought the wrong one, and I can't leave today." Chi Nian said in a low voice, "I seem to have made it yesterday, and I didn't pay attention when I bought it. I just found out that the date was wrong when I couldn't print the boarding pass."

Xi Shan laughed out loud: "Look at you, are you confused again?"

Chi Nian didn't speak, he thought for a while and continued to ask: "I'm still at the airport now, isn't it time for the flight to take off?"

"No, but it's coming, I just heard the boarding announcement."

Xi Shan paused for a moment, and asked him, "Can you change your ticket, for example, to today's trip?"

"No, special air tickets, and special circumstances."

Xi Shan sighed, as if he was extremely helpless at his foolishness, and remained silent for a long time.Just when Chi Nian thought he was about to lose patience, Xi Shan's low voice rang in his ears:

"Forget it, wait for me in place for a few minutes, and I will come back to pick you up."

"……thank you."

Xi Shan ignored his thank you, and felt like talking to himself, but Chi Nian heard it.

"Stupid child."