The evolutionary history from a scumbag to a loyal dog

I don't know if his body is really facing the same danger as last year, or he is always pessimistic thinking that he will not be able to escape this year, anyway, after that night, Lu Yingchen's condition became worse and worse.

He couldn't eat anything, couldn't drink a sip of water; his body and brain became tired together, and he no longer had the energy to think about some brain-consuming things; first, his hearing became far and near, clear and light, and then his vision diverged Fuzzy, only a rough outline can be recognized when looking at things in the distance.

Everyone knows that the more this is the case, the less you can think of the bad.

But no one can do it. At such a time, he can comfort himself without confidence but with confidence—even if the heart is still beating, other organs are telling him with practical actions that they seem to be aging and losing strength , and slowly it will no longer work.

Tang Yuchen always felt that he was going to die, maybe it was this second, maybe the next second, or the second that no one realized.When he slowly closes his eyes, this life will pass away without a sound, and when he opens his eyes again, it will be a strange next life with no previous memory.

So when he is awake, he will always recall those past events intermittently, and the memory is like a revolving lantern scene, which is silently staged in black and white film in his mind.There are good and bad scenes in it; some that I miss, and some that I never want to recall; some that were touched, and some that I later regretted.

People's hearts are always complicated and fickle, and so is he.

The impulsive decision he made once made him almost lose his life; although he finally recovered his life, he evasively chose to change his voice and hide his name, trying to live with an identity that didn't exist at all. Sever all ties to the past.

But he knew then that he couldn't.

And the reality doesn't allow him to do it.

If at that time he had chosen to take this new identity and leave CH01, leave China, go to a place where he would no longer have any contact with Lu Yingchen, and start his life anew, then one year or two years, ten years or twenty years, maybe he would still be alive. I can really slowly forget the unforgettable person that I fell in love with inexplicably.

But his body riddled with holes is absolutely impossible for him to go away. In summer, he is fine, but in winter, he is completely nailed to death by this body in CH01 area, unable to move an inch.He still can not see Lu Yingchen, for a year or two, to forcibly suppress the love and hatred for this person in his heart.But the environment around him still reminded him of the little things that happened in the past. He heard the stories about himself and Lu Yingchen from other people's mouths. Justify a sentence, or even half a sentence, for yourself.

Now he is lying on the hospital bed weakly, he is considered a half useless person, and he has lost the two years that he could have been himself in vain.

Very unwilling.

He despises his cowardice and uselessness, and will only run away; regretfully thinking that if everything can be re-elected, maybe all the directions will not be as passive as they are now, and there is no benefit at all.

He was suddenly afraid that life would come to an end like this, and there would be no next day.

Especially like now, he is the only one in the spacious and empty ward, there is no outside noise, so quiet that only the "beep" sound from the medical machinery.He was lying down, not waiting for his body to get better, but waiting for his life to slowly disappear bit by bit until finally exhausted.

He couldn't tell whether it was day or night, he choked, couldn't breathe, and coughed up a large piece of bright red blood.

Lu Yingchen was placed in confinement for fighting with Xu Muyi, and fined to copy the rules and regulations of CH01 area ten times, even if one punctuation mark was missing.

Before Xu Muyi took action, he didn't know about Tang Yuchen's sudden coma - so when he was locked up, there was only one thing on his mind, and that was to quickly finish copying these damn rules and regulations, and then go to see Tang Yuchen.

It was rare for Lu Yingchen to have a clear goal and focus on nothing like now, so he finally came out several days earlier than Xu Muyi, so he rushed to see Tang Yuchen in a hurry.

In fact, the CH01 area is busy with business and has long been understaffed. In addition, Lu Yingchen has been locked up for a few days, and his part has accumulated more things. According to the requirements, he has no extra time to see Tang Yuchen.

But Lu Yingchen must have no intention of doing anything other than Tang Yuchen, and at that time he always had a very bad premonition, it was so serious that if he didn't hurry to see Tang Yuchen this time, he would never see him again.

But the fact is not as serious as Lu Yingchen thought.

The day he went to see Tang Yuchen, Tang Yuchen was surprisingly in good condition.Although his vision and hearing still haven't improved, he can already speak. He may sound dumb and stutter, but at least he can speak.

It's just that there are strange places.

Lu Yingchen always felt that the scene when he walked into Tang Yuchen's ward seemed familiar, as if he had experienced it somewhere before, but unfortunately he couldn't remember where it happened—in fact, since Lu Yingchen came back from Infinity Paradise, He has gradually forgotten what happened in the paradise.

At that time, Tang Yuchen's spirit was not bad, maybe it was the return of his voice that made him feel that he was getting better soon, and his mood was no longer as pessimistic as before.

When eating at noon, he actually took a mouthful of porridge and didn't spit it out again - this surprised and delighted the little nurse who had been taking care of him, and said a lot of words of encouragement to him.

When Lu Yingchen came in, the little girl who had been talking with Tang Yuchen had just left, so Tang Yuchen's condition didn't look that bad.

Tang Yuchen heard the sound of Lu Yingchen coming in, but his vision was blurred and he couldn't recognize who this human silhouette belonged to.It wasn't until Lu Yingchen approached and sat down beside his bed that he recognized some of Lu Yingchen's face, and knowing who he was, he couldn't help but feel ironic in his heart—look, in fact, is there anything that can't be forgotten?I used to think that I could recognize the ashes of the other party, but now I can't even distinguish the outline that should be familiar.

When Lu Yingchen stepped into the ward, he saw Tang Yuchen looking at him, and was surprised that Tang Yuchen didn't say anything to drive him away.It wasn't until he really walked by Tang Yuchen's side that he realized that Tang Yuchen didn't recognize him.

At that time, he didn't expect that Tang Yuchen's eyesight had dropped significantly, and he thought that Tang Yuchen had lost his memory and really forgot about him.

This thought was like a heavy boulder, hitting his still empty head with a "bang", Lu Yingchen grabbed Tang Yuchen's hand without thinking, and asked anxiously: "Do you still remember who I am?"

He didn't dare to hold Tang Yuchen's hand too hard, because Tang Yuchen's pale face showed his frail body at the moment, like a fragile object that would break if touched.

But his little strength was enough to prevent Tang Yuchen from pulling back his hand.

Tang Yuchen could hear what Lu Yingchen's question meant, so he thought it was funny - Lu Yingchen was worried that he would forget himself, but he always hated himself for not being able to forget Lu Yingchen.

It's just that now he doesn't have the strength, and he doesn't want to argue with Lu Yingchen about some insignificant issues, he said slowly: "I just... can't see very clearly."

can not see clearly?

Lu Yingchen felt a stabbing pain in his heart, and he heard Tang Yuchen say again: "This is a sequelae, there is no cure, it happens every winter."

For some reason, when Tang Yuchen saw Lu Yingchen, he really wanted to tell him all the struggles and pains he was enduring now - the kind of pain that thinking about it is suffering and experiencing pain like hell can crush all the pain in his heart Persevere, he really wants another person to share this feeling, especially that person is Lu Yingchen.

Sure enough, after he finished speaking, he felt that Lu Yingchen's grip on his hand became lighter.

Although he couldn't see Lu Yingchen's expression clearly at this time, he knew that this was Lu Yingchen's reaction when he flinched, so he said even more cruelly: "Do you know how much damage my body has suffered after that accident? Even in winter, I feel like I’m going to die again, heh, just like now, I can’t move, I can’t see, and when it’s serious, I can’t hear or speak..."

It's just that Tang Yuchen's tone was too indifferent, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, but in fact his nails had already been imprinted on Lu Yingchen's fingers with the same intensity as the pain in his heart.

"...It will be fine, get up, there will be a way..."

It was the first time that Lu Yingchen was so poor at words, he wished that he was the one who suffered these things again, not Tang Yuchen.

"There's no way around it." Tang Yuchen pulled Lu Yingchen away one by one and held each of his fingers, "What you've heard is nothing more than what I've actually experienced, a ten-thousandth of the pain."

Lu Yingchen's palm fell on the white bed sheet, and he lowered his head: "...I'm sorry."

Tang Yuchen smiled: "Why are you sorry for me? It's not you who summoned that avalanche here, and it's not you who made my body what it is now."

Before Lu Yingchen came, he had prepared a lot of words to say, a belly full of apologies to confess, but now he couldn't even utter a single syllable.

"But you do owe me an apology." Tang Yuchen said suddenly again, "It's just that I will never forgive you for your apology."

"..."

Lu Yingchen stood there in a daze, watching Tang Yuchen's hands slowly approaching him, and then stroking his face, leaving a cold touch: "Can you imagine that I could recognize who you are by touching like this before? But it's been too long, and now you have become a stranger to me, Lu Yingchen, when I touch you like this, there are no more waves in my heart, no more touch... Do you know why?"

Lu Yingchen was afraid of hearing this answer.

"Because I don't love you anymore, Lu Yingchen." Tang Yuchen's voice was cruel, "I hate you, hate you for deceiving me, hate you for betraying me."

The sweet time that was once exclusive to two people seemed to disappear in an instant when the truth was exposed and conflicts were aroused.

No matter how much he loved Lu Yingchen in the past, his current state of mind is stuck at the moment when he can't forgive Lu Yingchen the most.

When betrayal is revealed, trust cannot be returned; when hatred is revealed, love cannot be returned.

Their past time can never go back.

The author has something to say: When I write about Tang Yuchen's blackening, I feel excited www

In fact, what this chapter wants to express is that Tang Yuchen's feelings for Lu Yingchen have changed from love to hatred.

When they didn't meet before, he must have been more reluctant to let Lu Yingchen trample on him.But now that I saw it, especially when my body was in a scrapped state, the negative emotions that had been suppressed in my heart came out, and when I saw Lu Yingchen, I felt more hatred.

So what follows is all kinds of conflicts and struggles of love and hate entanglement, tsk tsk tsk, although bloody, but I am inexplicably excited hahaha