The evolutionary history from a scumbag to a loyal dog

Tang Yuchen lingered in his dreams, stepping barefoot on the mossy ground covered with gravel and dead branches, pushing aside the willow branches that swayed in the wind, passing the wooden bridge with gurgling water, and arriving at the other shore under the moonlight.

He saw that the person sitting on the natural swing formed by the intertwined vines was Xie.

That's what she looked like when she was really beautiful, delicate and innocent, with a pair of autumn pupils and water-cut eyes, looking around lingeringly.

"Good evening." She greeted him with a smile.

Tang Yuchen pinched his face and found that there was no pain.

"This is in a dream." Seemingly amused by his actions, she moved to one side of the swing to make room for her, "Come and sit next to me."

Tang Yuchen walked over, sat next to the concubine, and first greeted politely: "Good evening."

Then he asked, "Excuse me, are you in my dream?"

"No, it's not that I'm in your dream." Xie replied, "It's that you are in my dream."

"Ah? Why did I come into your dream?" Tang Yuchen asked thoughtfully, "Is it the same in the previous dreams?"

"Why? It's probably because I'm too lonely." Concubine expressed the most sincere thoughts in her heart for many years in a casual manner, "For so many years, I have never been in contact with people or the outside world. My dead insects are my companions, and my dreams are my sustenance..."

Tang Yuchen knew the reason why she didn't contact the outside world.

Dead bugs are non-worldly things, and once they come into contact with too many worldly people and things, their abilities will continue to weaken.It is the power of the dead insects that can survive in the world, so she can't do anything to harm the abilities of the dead insects.

"So, do you want me to talk to you?"

"It can be counted, or it can't be counted." She stretched out her hand, pointed to a place not far away and waved it lightly a few times, and the scene they were in immediately changed dramatically—it was obviously sitting on a swing under the moon They suddenly came to the top of the snow-capped mountain, and then descended to the dark edge of the deep sea. The instantaneous transition between these two extreme scenes made Tang Yuchen feel a huge shock in a flash.Fortunately, in the end, the scene returned to the original place. They sat on the quiet and leisurely swing, quietly admiring everything under the moonlight.

"...What were those just now?"

"It's just some scenery I want to see." Xie's tone was very gentle, "Because this is in my dream, so I can do whatever I want here."

After she finished speaking, she asked Tang Yuchen, "If this was in your dream, what would you want to do?"

Tang Yuchen thought about it, and found that there was nothing special in his heart that he wanted to do, so he said, "I should not want to do anything, have no dreams, and sleep comfortably."

"Eh? Isn't that a waste?" He said, "Isn't it wonderful to entrust dreams to fulfill some wishes that cannot be fulfilled in reality? At least when I wake up the next day, my heart will be satisfied." of."

"But dreams are always dreams. When you wake up, you will know that everything is fake. The gap between it and reality will only make you more desperate." Tang Yuchen stretched out his hand and let a firefly fly to his palm, "Because it is a dream, so No matter what happens, anything is acceptable. The same is true of nightmares, except that the content of nightmares is disgusting."

"Do you often have nightmares?"

Tang Yuchen nodded: "I used to do it often for a while, and I was prone to insomnia, which greatly affected my mood and spirit the next day. So later, I used tranquilizing drugs to help me sleep, and the situation got better."

"That was indeed quite hard work." Xie said.

"……Um."

After being silent for a while, Tang Yuchen asked: "Is that person who appeared in my dream and was holding hands with you your lover?"

It's not that Tang Yuchen asked this question because of gossip, but he felt that the atmosphere when the two of them were sitting here dumbfounded and not talking was too embarrassing, they were just looking for something to say.

"..." Fortunately, Xie was honest enough, and readily admitted, "Yes, he was my former lover."

"Before?" Tang Yuchen grasped these two key words.

"Well, we've been separated for a long time." There was no sadness or joy in her expression, and she said to Tang Yuchen jokingly, "Why, are you curious about our story?"

Of course not.

Tang Yuchen thought so in his heart.

But before he could say what he was thinking, he heard the concubine say, "Actually, it's okay to tell you, after all, it all happened so many years ago."

... Then listen to it, Tang Yuchen said, "Huh?"

"He is a Chinese-Japanese mixed race boy I met when I was studying in Japan." Xie asked him, "What do you think of this background?"

"It's a little embarrassing." Tang Yuchen said the truth.

"Yes, it is indeed a little embarrassing." Continuing, "Our family has been famous since the Ming and Qing Dynasties, and has been respected until the Republic of China. But it gradually declined because of the Japanese invasion. When I was young, My great-grandfather who lived through those troubled times kept telling me that we were killed by the Japanese and everything was destroyed by the Japanese.”

"His father is Japanese and his mother is Chinese... In fact, I sympathized with him at the beginning, because her mother was forcibly possessed by him. So I know, he has never seen himself I don’t like my own biological father, and I don’t like my own biological mother.” She seemed to recall that time while talking, “I was born in a peaceful age, and I lived a smooth life since I was a child. I don’t understand the sufferings of the world at all. Seeing him so With a dejected look, he kindly helped him."

"But it turned out that he took advantage of me." He smiled slightly, "He is different from me. He has experienced the hardships of life early and he no longer believes in the so-called true feelings. For him, being able to truly see I realized that everything in my hands is absolutely everything I can have... Everything else is just a floating illusion. So when I realized that I was just being used by him, I hated him very much."

When she was talking about this, she suddenly asked him: "Do you believe that there are gods, ghosts and ghosts in this world?"

"I didn't believe it before, but there are indeed many things in this world that science cannot explain, so I can only be regarded as neutral. But now I am in your dream, and I have seen your dead insects when I woke up, so Right now, I am taking a more neutral and more trusting attitude.”

"This kind of thing is like this. Most people who believe in it are devout, and those who don't believe it are also in awe." He said, "We are a psychic family. Yes, we still passed on a lot of skills. However, the development of technology has made us, who are already low-key, almost transparent, so in this world, fewer and fewer people believe in us, and our development is becoming more and more difficult. In my grandfather’s generation, after the family switched to business, the living conditions improved. I was born later, and my family no longer wanted to get involved in this field at that time, but I was born with extraordinary spiritual power. I was very interested, so I went to study in Japan—although no one in our family has a good opinion of Japan, but many things were taken away by the Japanese, so even if I didn’t like it, I still went.”

"I can be considered a rich lady, but he is just a street gangster... By the way, what do you think he does?"

"……I have no idea."

"He is also a 'psychic' like me." She shook her head helplessly, "But I really rely on my strength, and he is just a so-called deceitful stick."

"..."

"At the beginning, he didn't know what I was doing. He told me that Japan really had Hyakki Yakō, and he would take me to see it in the future. I told him that 70.00% of the monsters in Hyakki Yakō were passed down from China. , so the so-called Night Walk of Hundred Ghosts is actually just these immigrant monsters holding fellow villagers’ meetings.” He smiled, “In the end, he believed what I said, and asked me seriously how it was recorded in Chinese history. of."

"But whether these myths and ghosts are real or not, we separated before we had time to confirm." He sighed, "After my family found out, they strongly opposed us being together. He used to be a person who didn't care about anything, and even Using me, cheating on me; but then he literally did everything to be with me."

"What happened later?" Originally, Tang Yuchen just listened to it with the attitude of complaining like a concubine, but when he got here, he couldn't help being moved.

"And then he died."

"died?"

"There are not so many things in this world that can be taken for granted after going through hardships. He has been homeless since he was a child, and he has no one to help him. When he grew up, he became an anti-social character and did many wrong things that violated laws and morals. People like him People don't know what life is for, so when they find the purpose of life, it's time to die."

When a person regards another person as the only sustenance for living, it should be the deepest love.

"I want to help him more than anyone, but I know better than anyone that no one can help him. Death is an unwelcome end for many, but for some, it is a release. The release point... I know that, in fact, it is the best choice for him to die and leave this world."

Xie's tone always made Tang Yuchen feel like she was going to cry in the next second.

But in the end, Xie still controlled her emotions very well. She took a deep breath, exhaled it slowly, and then spoke in the usual indifferent manner before.He said, "Since I've finished my story, it's your turn to tell yours?"

"...Why?" Tang Yuchen didn't remember that he had such an agreement with her concubine.

"Just listening but not talking, it seems that you are very rude."

"..." Tang Yuchen sighed, "Then what do you want to hear?"

"Just tell me about you and your ex-lover?" Yu said bluntly, "Although I can't remember his name, I still know something about what happened between you two."

"..." Tang Yuchen looked at her, "How do you know?"

"What a stupid question. Since I can get to know Shan Yu, I can also get to know other people in CH01 area. You guys caused a lot of trouble back then, and anyone with a heart for gossip will know if they ask."

"..." Tang Yuchen actually felt a little uncomfortable when he said that.

But Xie didn't seem to notice, and continued: "Tell me, after you chose to separate from him, have you ever regretted it?"

Tang Yuchen thought that he would never tell anyone about this.But at this moment, after listening to the story of the concubine, the memories of the past were unknowingly evoked.

Some things have been held in my heart for too long, and I still want to say them.

Some things can only be told to strangers.

Some things are never forgotten, just never mentioned.

"Everyone thought I was breaking up with him because of his cheating. But I knew in my heart that it was just a secondary reason."

"Then what is the main reason?"

Tang Yuchen looked up at the pale moon, and said with a wry smile: "At that time, I always thought that I was the only one in his heart, but in fact, there was another person who lived there for a long time. I didn't find it, not because he hid that person How good it was, but from the beginning to the end, I didn't really walk into his heart..."