Morbid Addiction

Back at Ning Junyan's house alone, Chen Yuncheng sat on the bed and saw Long Zhanyu replying to him: "I will try my best to make them speak."

He typed a few words, hesitatingly deleted and corrected them several times, but in the end he still didn't send them out, and lay down on his back on the bed.

The next morning, Chen Yuncheng went out before Ning Junyan came back from the night shift. He still went back to the store to tidy up, and went to the dry cleaner opposite to pick up Ning Junyan's washed down jacket and the scarf that he sent for washing later. up.Later, someone called him and wanted to see the shop. He waited for nearly an hour until the person who visited the shop came and gave him a brief introduction of the surrounding environment.

When the man left, Chen Yuncheng felt that he was not satisfied.

There are old houses around here, and the flow of people is average, but the environment of the shops is not good, and the shops are narrow and crowded.There is a newly built commercial area less than 1000 meters away, and the environment in that area is much better than this section.

Before Chen Yuncheng left, he handed over the key to the owner of the lottery shop next door. If someone came to visit the shop for two days, he would ask the lottery shop owner to open the door for him. He began to seriously consider finding a new job.

In the past, when Chen Yuncheng still had some savings, he also thought about selling his grocery store and using the money to partner with others to start other businesses, but now that he has no cost in his hands, even if he sublets out the store, the rent he can get is too much. If he wants to hand over to Ning Junyan to repay the debt, he can only find a job that he can do.

He looked for job advertisements on his mobile phone, chose the ones that did not require academic qualifications, were a little tiring but cost more, and contacted the recruiters if he could do it himself.

I bought two omelettes for lunch and squatted on the side of the road to solve the problem.

Chen Yuncheng has no regrets for not studying well before. In fact, his foundation is too weak, and his studies are completely unable to keep up with others' progress, and he has no financial support. It is an inevitable choice to go out to work.

However, he used to think that when he was about 30 years old, he would be able to stabilize himself. Maybe he would not be able to become a big boss, but at least he could start a small business and start a family.

I went to two interviews in the afternoon, Chen Yuncheng felt that none of them were too reliable, and made an appointment with three companies to continue the interview tomorrow.

Later, when he received a call from Ning Junyan, asking him if he would go back for dinner, Chen Yuncheng responded, "Okay, I'll be right back."

When he got home, Ning Junyan was cooking dinner.

Chen Yuncheng washed his hands avoiding the wound, and came back to the kitchen to help him.

Dinner consisted of two stir-fried vegetables and a bowl of soup. Chen Yuncheng and Ning Junyan sat down face to face and ate their food for a while. Chen Yuncheng raised his head and said to Ning Junyan, "I'm interviewing for a job."

Ning Junyan asked him, "Is there anything suitable?"

Chen Yuncheng shook his head and said, "However, I'm going to interview a logistics company tomorrow. They do intercity long-distance logistics."

Ning Junyan looked at him and said nothing.

Chen Yuncheng said: "I have a B license, I can drive a large truck, maybe I can try it."

Ning Junyan asked him: "How long will it take to go out?"

"I don't know yet," Chen Yuncheng smiled, "I haven't interviewed yet, and I don't know if the company wants me."

After dinner, Ning Junyan went to the kitchen to wash the dishes. Chen Yuncheng felt that he was not very happy, so he followed in, leaned against the cabinet, and said to him: "I have to find a job, tell me what else I can do?"

Ning Junyan asked him, "Do you want to study?"

Chen Yuncheng laughed when he heard the words, "Did you start from junior high school?"

Ning Junyan said, "There are training classes."

The smile on Chen Yuncheng's face did not fade away, "And then? Take the college entrance examination or go abroad?"

Ning Junyan said, "Don't go abroad."

Chen Yuncheng looked at him, "After studying the training class, others will not recognize your academic qualifications. What will you do then? Besides, I'm almost thirty and I need you to pay for my education? When will I earn enough money to pay you back?" ?”

Ning Junyan wiped his hands and walked to Chen Yuncheng.

Chen Yuncheng subconsciously wanted to retreat, but there was nowhere to retreat. Ning Jun stretched his hand to brush his hair and said, "It can be cut."

"Well," Chen Yuncheng lowered his head slightly, "I'll cut it tomorrow."

Ning Junyan said to him: "I don't want to interfere with your freedom, I hope you can do what you want."

Chen Yuncheng raised his gaze and landed on his face.

Ning Junyan said: "But I can't let you leave me. This makes me feel that there are two contradictory mes tearing each other apart."

"Jun Yan," Chen Yuncheng couldn't help but grabbed his wrist.

Ning Junyan said to him very gently: "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you, so there will only be one I will kill the other first, and which one do you think will win?"

Chen Yuncheng felt that he was too nervous to say these words, and wanted to stop him from continuing: "Don't say that."

Ning Junyan said: "I must want to protect you more." After speaking, Ning Junyan turned and left the kitchen.

Because of Ning Junyan's words, Chen Yuncheng was restless all night. In fact, he has always had a lot of thoughts recently, and he hasn't calmed down for a long time.

It was past eleven o'clock in the evening, and Chen Yuncheng was about to go to bed when he received a strange call on his mobile phone.

He stared at the phone number for a while, sat up from the bed and connected the phone.

Zhou Yan's voice came from over there, "Brother Cheng, can you come out and meet us? Can you come here alone?"

Chen Yuncheng immediately felt a sense of relief, he knew that Zhou Yan would not leave in such a reckless manner, he asked into the phone: "Where are you?"

About 10 minutes later, Ning Junyan drove Chen Yuncheng out together.

Chen Yuncheng sat in the co-pilot and said, "I'm sorry, I have to trouble you at such a late hour."

Ning Junyan did not respond to his words.

The address Zhou Yan gave Chen Yuncheng was in a remote suburb. Chen Yuncheng originally wanted to borrow a car from Ning Junyan, but Ning Junyan insisted on going with him.

There were very few cars on the road, and the car drove smoothly. Ning Junyan only stopped occasionally to wait for the traffic lights.

When parking the car, Ning Junyan asked Chen Yuncheng: "Do you think Zhou Yan will listen to your persuasion and surrender?"

Chen Yuncheng said: "Since he is willing to see me."

Ning Junyan asked again: "What if he killed someone?"

Chen Yuncheng did not answer this question for a long time.

After a while, Chen Yuncheng said to Ning Junyan: "Do you think I'm useless?"

Ning Junyan said: "How to say?"

"Self-righteous," Chen Yuncheng said slowly, "I want to help Zhou Yan, but in fact I can't do much. I have no money, no ability, no contacts;" when he was speaking, he leaned on the back of his chair and looked out of the car window with a somewhat Lonely, "Just like Guan Anlin back then, I don't know whether I helped him or hurt him."

Ning Junyan didn't speak.

Chen Yuncheng continued: "You know that after I left school and went to work, I met a lot of people, some of them were lazy, they played games online every day, they had no plans or ideas for the future, and some people liked to brag at the wine table , boasting that they are omnipotent, and now they are down for a while, and they will always be able to make great achievements in the future, but I have never seen them really fly."

Ning Junyan just glanced at him.

Chen Yuncheng said: "At first I felt like a bystander, but later I realized that I was just one of them. It's not that you can get rid of this kind of life if you clearly see your situation, you still can only watch. Let your friends either go down, or go astray for money."

Having said that, he was quiet for a moment, "People like us may have been doomed for the rest of our lives from the day we left school."

"What kind of people are you?" Ning Junyan finally opened his mouth and asked calmly.

Chen Yuncheng looked at him.

Ning Junyan said: "You are not the same kind of person as anyone. Without you, I might have been buried alive by the old man when I was ten years old, and Zhou Yan's son couldn't have the operation, so he could only wait to die on the hospital bed."

Chen Yuncheng couldn't help but said, "That's not because of me..."

"Who is that because of?" Ning Junyan asked him, "Because of me? I am because of you anyway."

Their car stopped and waited for the red light at the intersection. At the same time, an electric car was parked in the non-motorized lane next to it. A middle-aged man wearing a food delivery uniform was also waiting for the red light. While the man was waiting, He took off the helmet and wiped his forehead with his sleeve, as if wiping sweat, but the weather was so cold, he shouldn't be sweating.

Ning Junyan and Chen Yuncheng looked at him silently until the green light came on, and the middle-aged man hurried across the intersection on his electric scooter.

"You asked me today what you can do in the future," Ning Junyan stepped on the accelerator and said as the car drove out, "I can't answer you because there is something I can't say."

Chen Yuncheng rested his head on the car window and said softly, "Speak, I'd like to hear from you."

Ning Junyan said: "I want to say that you can do whatever makes you happy, and I can support you. But you don't need this sentence, because you have your dignity. If I say this, you will be unhappy. .”

Chen Yuncheng couldn't help laughing, "Do you know that I will be unhappy?"

Ning Junyan did not answer.

Chen Yuncheng turned to look at him, and asked: "Then I told you to stop doing your job, and I will deliver food to support you, will you agree?"

Ning Junyan replied without thinking, "I can, are you serious?"

At that moment, Chen Yuncheng had the urge to cry and laugh at the same time. He wanted to ask Ning Junyan why he was so attached to him, but he didn't ask, just laughed and said, "I'm just joking."

The author says:

Ning Junyan: Disappointed... I thought I could doi when I went back