Tsinghua University

At dinner time, Shen Tinglan and Lao Ba went to the cafeteria together.Jiang Xu was not there, but he actually ate half a bowl of rice too much.Even Yang Yan, who has always been dull, could see that he had a good appetite today: "Brother Lan, did something happy happen to you today?"

Shen Tinglan mixed scrambled eggs with tomatoes and rice: "It's nothing, I just want to understand one thing."

Yang Yan's curiosity was hooked: "What's the matter?"

"A trivial matter." Shen Tinglan smiled at him, "I won't tell you, just guess for yourself."

Yang Yan is a full-fledged gossip lover. Like a fish lured to the surface by bait, he opened his mouth impatiently: "You tell me? I promise not to tell others."

"Yang Dalou" is well-known. For him, all the students in the school are "his own people" and there is no "others".If he knows any secret, then this secret will become a consensus the next day.

Shen Tinglan choked for a moment, then thought of something, and his expression became more and more cheerful.With a teasing tone, he deliberately said: "I like men, okay?"

Yang Yan froze on the spot, curled his lips again, and poked the rice on the plate with his chopsticks: "You're so boring."

Shen Tinglan just laughed and didn't speak.Everyone thought he was joking, but no one guessed that he was telling the truth.He felt the absurdity of reality, and some feelings were doomed to be carefully hidden in the dark, never to be seen in the light of life.

Before the evening self-study, the sports committee stood on the podium and asked the whole class if anyone else wanted to participate in the boys' hurdles and relay.These two projects were originally for Jiang Sushengbao, but he obviously can no longer participate now, and someone needs to make up for the quota.

With a thought in mind, Shen Tinglan felt a strange sense of satisfaction at the thought of being able to complete something in place of Jiang Fusheng.He stood up and said, "I can't do hurdles, so let's report for a relay."

"Okay." The sports committee lowered its head, grabbed a pen on the desk, crossed out Jiang Fusheng's name, and wrote Shen Tinglan behind a string of numbers.

"1103"

This is Jiang Fusheng's number, and it will be pinned to Shen Tinglan's back on the day of the sports meeting.He rested his chin and imagined in his mind that he was running to the finish line wearing the numbers that once represented Jiang Susheng, and there might be applause on the field.

He couldn't help laughing, and began to draft his love letter to Jiang Fusheng.

Shen Tinglan has never had any experience in this field, but Jiang Fusheng gave him the first throbbing in his heart that had been calm for more than ten years, and this is the best inspiration for writing.Shen Tinglan had always been worried that the words he wrote would be too dry, but when he figured out the key to all the problems, he didn't need to think hard like usual in writing, and the emotions were all condensed at his fingertips, turning into a sincere sentence after another. words.

"Hello, Jiang Susheng.

"I haven't seen each other for a long time, and I have accumulated a lot of things that I want to say to you. I am afraid that I will forget them, so I will write them on paper and show you. I like the sketchbook you gave me very much. I recall many stories with you.

"I remember the first time I met you was in sister Pengpeng's barber shop. The beginning of this story was not good. You shaved my hair and made my head look like a bald potato. I hate you because of it Two days, um, two full days. Later we met again in the same school, in the same classroom, and you happened to be my deskmate. I believe this is a predestined fate, just like coming from different places in spring The two white catkins floating out of the willow stick together when the wind blows.

"To be honest, I don't like fate. It is born to be unfair to people. But I am grateful for its gift of mercy, which made me meet you. I talked to you about my name not long ago, Anzhi Tinglan They are all vanilla. The ancients liked to compare loved ones or lofty ideals to vanilla. I changed my name to a homonym for various reasons, thinking that I would never have anything to do with vanilla. But today I realized that you are what I want to find Vanilla is my passion and lofty ideal.

"I remember hazelnut-flavored chocolate, the frozen Haihe River, and the scenery on the Ferris wheel. They all sparkle in my memory. When you are by my side, I feel that everything is as lovely as you. You are not with me By my side, I feel that everything is quiet with me.

"Writing so much nonsense, I just want to tell you that I should like you, and I can't help liking you. Maybe in the eyes of many people, I am a monster with a twisted heart. But I am more inclined to be my soul. Imprisoned in a body that is basically the same as yours, but I don't think it's a pity, because if I were a girl, then I might not be who I am now. Shen Tinglan may not like Jiang Susheng, but Shen Tinglan will.

"I love you, I'm a monster, but I love you.

"I know that this road will be difficult to walk. In addition to the pressure from the outside world, I am not sure if you miss me too. So I decided to take a gamble. If I lose the bet, then I will not bother you again Life. I am a very sensible person, and I will never stalk you. I respect all your decisions.

"If I win the bet, you promise to be my boyfriend. Then I also ask you to think about it. The choice made on impulse is the most harmful. Now that we are young and have a lot of time to squander, I don't want you Fever and agree to my request. This can only bring temporary happiness, and when the passion fades, we will be in long-term pain. This is not the picture I want to see, I think we are all happy.

"First of all, we will face pressure from both families. Secondly, there will be various resistances. For example, after a few years, I will become a middle-aged uncle with a beer belly and a fat face. Can you face To me like this? Let’s say I’m too old to walk, and my face has more wrinkles than a dog ignores. Can you face me like this?

"I hope you not only like me when I was young, but also when I was fat in middle age, and when I was old. Of course, I can do all of this. I love you at any time.

"If there are no problems with the above, and you really plan to be with me, then we must become good enough to create more possibilities for our future. I heard from the class teacher that you will leave school early for Dunhuang. This is a good thing, I am happy for you. At the same time, I will study hard and try to find you in Tsinghua University.

"If you don't like me, I also wish you to realize your dream and become a great designer. I will not give up studying art, but I will not apply for Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts again. Painting is very rich, I have to save money, and I have to Buy a big house for my mother.

"It's a bit too much, if you are tired of these words, just pretend I haven't said it, okay?

"Your Lanlan."

The author has something to say: I love you, I'm a monster, but I love you. -Nabokov, "Lolita"