[bulletproof SUGA] SUNAO

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"Shirase-kun, Shirase-kun..." Seeing that Mr. Sugawara couldn't wake him up no matter how he shouted, he could only turn around and apologize to Bai Chuan who had been waiting, "Sorry, he has been working overtime recently, so he may be very tired. You first Sit down and I'll wake him up right away."

Shirakawa smiled and said it was okay, and sat on the sofa with the production manager and waited for Shirase.

"Shirase-kun, Shirase-kun, Supervisor Shirakawa is waiting for you. Wake up quickly..."

Shirase washed his face, put on his glasses, and opened his eyes hard.The quality of sleep in the past two days is also too poor.Can't get enough sleep at all.The reason is of course... am I not a bad person?In this case why...

Shirase looked at himself in the mirror.Why can't I just attract women?Be it Heicun or Min Yoongi, they are all men.

Kiss, should it feel like that?Is that the same feeling no matter who you are with?Or is it special to the person you like... Physiologically, they should be the same?Mentally it may feel different.

So, what if the target is Hei Cun?Will it be the same as Min Yoongi?What if it is different?

Since that day, I often dream about that moment.For a long time, I have been hiding whenever I can, and others have no feeling for me.Maybe that day, if I don't push it away, I will still enjoy it.Those things suppressed by memories slowly come back, pouring out through the illegal way of dreams.

Then I really like it... Even if I really like it, so what?Will my parents allow it?Will my sister be touched?Will friends accept it?

"Good afternoon! I'm sorry to keep you waiting. I haven't had a good rest these two days." Shirase sat down in front of the computer and pulled out the first version of the compilation. "The storyboard of Chapter 5 is very detailed. There are very few places where I can play. Mr. Murawara's performance instructions are also very detailed."

"It's okay, I'm not in a hurry, people's health is the first priority... Wait, here, this cut and the cut just now, can you change it? Yes, start here..."

Supervisor Shirakawa was with a man, right?But he is no different.It's not as disgusting as imagined.On the contrary, I feel that he is very reliable and very talented.

Perhaps, there is no difference at all, but I think too much.But I am not like him, he has a loyal supporter like Bai Shui.No matter where he falls, Baishui will never leave him.And his boyfriend, Shintaro's classmate, seems to love him too.The change of Supervisor Shirakawa is the proof.

Min Yoongi might just be on a whim, maybe it's just a man's possession YU.He saw what Kuroimura did to him, so... do you expect him to be like Supervisor Shirakawa's boyfriend?He is a foreigner, and his occupation and experience are different from his own. How long can I last for his novelty?

Shirase doesn't like his sister marrying Owada.Because he is the only one who knows what kind of guy Yamato is.

Is it worth it for Min Yoongi to rebel against his parents?Of course it's not worth it.Yoongi can make promises, but they can also be ignored.All that remains is the possibility of being abandoned.He has already suggested to his sister, how can he not lead by example?

That being the case, why are you still so entangled?

……

Maybe it's because I really like him.

Minsheng once told himself that when he was young, he only knew how to choose what he liked, but when he grew up, he found that the way of choosing was really naive.Because people in society cannot make their own choices.

I can't choose my own future, and Min Yoongi's future in a childish way.While there is still a good time, you should enjoy more good things.Instead of doing something obviously wrong.

……

What about Supervisor Shirakawa?What about Baishui?What choice did they make?

When the production was in progress and went out to buy cigarettes, the two people who were still in the editing room took the opportunity to take a break.

"Ha~ I haven't slept very well recently," Supervisor Bai Chuan rubbed his arms, "When I close my eyes, I will think of the last words."

"Haven't you drawn the storyboard yet?" This has already been edited in 5 episodes, is it really all right?

Bai Chuan lay comfortably on the sofa, "I can't think of it... If you let him commit suicide, it would be too much like a movie. But if you don't, it won't have a strong impact, and the audience won't know what I want to show, okay?" Trouble~"

Supervisor Bai Chuan is a very reliable person, two years older than himself, and has experienced such things, so he should be able to discuss it with him.

Shirase and the chair with pulleys slid to Bai Chuan's side together, "Supervisor, can I ask you something?"

"Huh? Yes, you can ask."

"How... how do you get along with your boyfriend?"

"...You, how did you know!?" Bai Chuan immediately sat up, "I thought I was good at keeping things secret!"

"Mr. Shintaro told me... Ah, I won't say it, don't worry. That's it, I'm curious... What does it feel like to like a man? Don't you feel uneasy?"

Bai Chuan narrowed his eyes, staring at Shirase like a vigilant cat, "You, ask me this kind of thing? Don't you?"

"No! I'm just... sorry." Even if you lie to him, it's useless, right?

Bai Chuan let out a breath of relief, so it was like this, "There's nothing shameful about it, if you think you're abnormal, how can you let others think you're normal? Be confident!"

I just can't be as confident as you are!Supervision!By the way, where does your confidence come from?

"The first time I realized that I liked Mr. Zhe was when I wanted to do something for him."

"Do something?"

"At that time, Mr. Zhe had just lost his love, and I wanted to use my works to cheer him up! I hope he can be strong! Also to encourage the girl who broke up with him. Although Mr. Zhe didn't hate me at that time, I wanted to let him Mr. Zhe is proud! Then other people will say, 'His boyfriend is an enviable animation director!'. For Mr. Zhe, I can't lose to that girl Baishui."

"Which work is it?"

"Of course it was "Invisible Lover". I was just a show at the time, and PEASanimation also took me seriously...although they kicked me out after that because "Invisible" did not have high ratings."

Exactly the same as Suzuki thought.At that time, Supervisor Bai Chuan's sudden change was because of Mr. Zhe.In other words, the relationship between Supervisor Bai Chuan and Mr. Zhe didn't bother them, but instead helped Supervisor Bai Chuan?

"The Invisible Lover" did have terrible ratings back then.But there are also many reasons.Things like airtime and marketing.Two years after it aired, "The Invisible Lover" was rediscovered by a foreign film critic, who praised it greatly, and the reputation of Director Shirakawa improved.

"Mr. Zhe has always believed in me. When I was most disappointed, everyone only looked at Baishui. He beat me up because I didn't want to do animation anymore. No one believed in me and my talent. It was very painful at the time, and he showed no mercy. I wanted to repay his trust in me, so I stayed at studioBUMP.”

"But, you never thought about breaking up?"

"Hey? Break up? Please forgive me. It's not easy for me to find someone to live with, so cherish it! Besides, I'm not good-looking, and I'm not very rich. How difficult is it to have someone who can endure and believe in me? I'm not breaking up with him. Don't curse me!"

"……yes?"

Bai Chuan was very annoyed by Shirase's sudden question, he and Mr. Zhe were dating right now, and this man actually cursed himself for breaking up?

"Compared to me, you might as well worry about yourself." Are you angry with me?I'm mad at you too.

"What's wrong with me?"

"You don't know yet, do you?" Bai Chuan was surprised.

"What's the matter?" Recently, he was always thinking about Min Yoongi, and he didn't pay much attention to the surrounding situation.

Bai Chuan, who originally wanted to take revenge on Shirase, became serious, "It seems that you really don't know. It's Shigeru Nishikawa. It was discovered that he had been shooting pornographic movies for BELOVE Pictures. Now the Internet has exploded, because this This incident. Many filmmakers from Kurosawa University and Kurosawa University were attacked. Of course, Whitewater was also attacked."

... Xi Chuan?

No wonder, on the day of his wedding, Heimura asked himself if he had contacted Xi Chuan.Heimura knew what Xichuan was doing, so he spoke to him in that tone... But Baishui was different from Xichuan, she shouldn't be blamed.

"Cheer up, it should be fine after a while. I remember you also graduated from Kurosawa University, right? Shirakami and Mr. Minsheng both graduated from Kurosawa. PEAS is messed up now."

"...Bai Shui is different from us. She cannot be questioned."

"Are you okay?" Min Yoongi was browsing everyone's messages on the computer, and at the same time he was on the phone with Shirase... It's too much, it's all full of one-sided curses.

"Graduated from the best film and television academy in the country just to shoot that kind of thing? He still has no face!"

"Third-rate scum from a first-rate school."

"So ashamed of their school."

"Kurosawa University should be doomed too. Except for a Zhijia Baishui who is still half-dead, everyone else can't be saved. The acting is not popular, the supervision is unknown, and most of them have changed careers. They deserve it."

"The supervisors who graduated from Kurosawa University are probably not very good. Baishui's works are empty and tasteless. They are just the romance of a little girl. Where is there any art? If "Sahara" was not for the powerful original work of Mr. Bai Zijunyi, director Bai Chuan For her cultivation, what she has done is just a pile of rubbish. Hurry up and get out! Before your true colors are exposed!"

"Minsheng seems to have graduated from this school, right? The song she sings is the same as Shen chanting on the bed—mother! She looks like a lump, except for a nice voice, which is used for homosexuals to play FEI, she is completely useless. Now Being so famous, I guess the producer CAO was very ruthless, right? There must be a relationship with Baishui. It is really similar to Xi Chuan!"

"Students who graduated from Kurosawa University are all DIAO. Why are they pretending? In fact, they are still like this? They only have the resume of graduating from Kurosawa University."

"..."

Min Yoongi closed the webpage, rubbed his forehead, "Hello? Are you listening?"

These people are completely venting their personal grievances and have no rationality or logic at all.The guy who went to make a porn movie certainly disappointed his teachers and classmates, but that doesn't make the others hypocritical.At least Baishui and Minsheng, the people Min Yoongi knew who graduated from Kurosawa University were not like that.

Just like I was detained at the airport at that time.It was just a small accident. The customs only quarantined themselves for the safety of everyone in the territory.After confirming that he was not infected, he quickly let himself enter the country.But this cautious gentleness was not accepted by everyone.They want to beat themselves down, scold themselves for being so popular, tarnish their image, frustrate their careers, and get a sense of KUAI.

But they overlooked one thing.That is, how long did it take me to get where I am now?How much effort did you put in?How many injuries did you have?Want to break me?It's not that easy.

Because of self-blame, Youmu stayed with me all the time, although not face to face, but only through the camera hole.However, he is much better than those guys who want to discredit him.When my parents, friends, and brothers blame me, it is not easy for anyone to understand me.

So this time, in order to repay the favor, I can't ignore this matter because of my broken love.

"...I've read those messages, thank you for your concern." Shirase's voice has never sounded so cold, "You have a concert today, right? Don't let this matter affect your mood, and concentrate on performing. This It's our business."

"You're not that kind of person."

"I'm not that bad."

"I believe you, you are nothing like what they say."

"...but will you trust me, all the time?"

"Of course." If I don't believe you, who will believe you?

"..." The other party said something in a low voice and hung up the phone.Min Yoongi is not very confident in his Japanese, but with his language ability, he feels that what he hears is——thank you.

After Shirase hung up the phone, he stared at No. 9 in the hamster cage.I just bought it two days ago, and I am not very familiar with myself. I hid in the corner of the cage, looked at myself, and dared not walk towards me.

Can he take it seriously?Min Yoongi's promise.

He is different from Supervisor Shirakawa's boyfriend, right?What if the promise is broken? ...why am I so pessimistic?Like Supervisor Shirakawa, is it not good to trust the other party?

But Min Yoongi is not a hamster raised by himself, he has his own feelings, his own consciousness, he leaves when he wants to leave, can he still be locked up in a hamster cage?

Imagining the life with him in the future will give you a headache.

Parents will come to harass her frequently, friends can't tell the secret when they go out to parties, and family members are also suffering.Is this kind of thing happiness?

Supervisor Bai Chuan's relationship with his parents is mediocre, and his parents have long been disappointed in him, so he doesn't have to care.But can I do it myself?My parents said, don't let them down.If I am with men, I will definitely make them despair.

Is it really possible to ignore so many troubles?Just relying on trust in Min Yoongi?

As an adult, I can no longer choose what I like to do like before.Although it sounds sad, this is a social requirement, especially for people like myself.

Anyway, it's impossible, so forget it.

Shirase crawled into the bed.Let's just spend the day in bed...huh?Why did the doorbell ring just as soon as I thought this way... Who will come to my house?

Shirase lazily got up to open the door.It was Mrs. Shirase who rang the doorbell. She entered the room with a big bag, "Why are you so slow to open the door? Look, I made all the food I brought you this morning."

"Why did you send this here? I still want to sleep for a day today..."

"You like sleeping so much that you can't learn to get along with girls. Women don't like men who sleep late."

"Then you can tell Dad." Shirase sat on the edge of the bed and yawned a lot, watching her mother tidy up her kitchen... watching her, her eyes narrowed... and then fell asleep.

After a while, Shirase woke up from sleep, saw his mother sitting in front of him, and coughed very seriously, "Okay, explain."

"Confession?" What did she say?

"Who is SUGA?"

"?" Shirase blinked, but he was still not fully awake. When he really woke up, he was quite surprised, "What did you say?"

"Don't pretend to be stupid. That's the name you pronounced in your mouth when you were sleeping just now, and it sounds like a woman's nickname. Which girl is it? Tell me!"

"..." What did I do just now?Shirase felt speechless for his behavior, "It's sugar, I bought a new sugar number 9."

"Did you buy it again? A hamster...ah, no, it must be a woman!"

"They say no! It's sugar!"

Mrs. Shirase seemed to have no way to continue her questioning, so she got up angrily and went back to the kitchen, "...Cut, what a waste of my mood."

Fortunately, I'm smart, otherwise my mother would definitely scold me for liking men.

"Om~"

The familiar mobile phone vibration sounded.By the way, where is your mobile phone?Shirase stood up and found that his bed had been made.Mum should have sorted it out.What about the phone?

It's not on the bedside, so...huh?

"Mom! That's my phone!" Shirase snatched the phone from Mrs. Shirase angrily.It's a message from an instant messaging app.

A week ago

SUGA: I met Mr. Matsuda Aotoki at the concert a few days ago.He said he knew you and we chatted for a while and became friends.

SUGA: Picture proof. [picture]

3 days ago

SUGA: I'm really sorry, I misunderstood you.But I was really sincere at the time, please think about it, even if you don't like me, you can't be with Hei Cun!That guy is not a nice guy.

just

SUGA: I believe in you, always.There is also Baishui and Mingsheng.You are completely different from what you say on the Internet.I believe what I see myself... (5 lines omitted here.)

Shirase looked up and saw his mother's darkened face...

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You said that you would always believe in me, but you broke your promise... The promise is really unbelievable.So I can no longer trust you.

The author has something to say: I have been playing every night recently, speeding up, and this one is almost over.