[bulletproof SUGA] SUNAO

08

Min Yoongi opened the door with all his keys, and an unfamiliar mildew musty smell filled the whole house.I don't know how long this house has been unoccupied. Could it be that he has been in the hospital for so long?Or is the musty smell spreading too quickly?

The things in the house haven't changed too much, it's almost the same as the day I left.From this came the idea that made him feel scared... Could something happen to him the day he left?Because I was angry with myself, it caused my blood to attack my heart...

But, having decided to say goodbye to him, why did the legs come back unconsciously?

Ah, by the way, I want to get something, and I will leave after I get it.where is it?Where?What is Min Yoongi looking for everywhere... Where are you?

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"Can't he come over?" Min Yoongi was a little lost, listening to Arai's explanation to him.I've been there twice, but I didn't see anyone.But, he doesn't work here, and he doesn't live here, so it's normal not to see him.But, after knowing my identity, I still can't see... Could it be intentional?I don't want to see myself...why does he insist on seeing me?

That's right, why do you have to see me?

But I want to see you! !

Even if you kill yourself, you will never say this.Min Yoongi sat in the waiting room, looking at the photos on his phone, his thoughts went elsewhere.As far as good-looking people are concerned, he has seen quite a few.The boys around him, the company's trainees, other idols in the TV station, and actors with their favorite looks.Having seen so many treasures, why are you suddenly interested in the fragments that fell from such a dirt wall?Lost your taste?

But you can't hurt him like that.In fact, many couples are not the ideal type of each other.Couples who can withstand decades of torture are definitely the most suitable people for each other.It doesn't mean how good-looking the other party is, but that it's the easiest, happiest, and happiest to live with yourself.

So Min Yoongi gave up doubting his own taste from the perspective of looks...then why that guy?Min Yoongi suddenly had a flash of inspiration when he saw the photo of the man and his sister on Twitter!Had a horrible thought.

He longed for someone older than him who he could rely on.His family members don't fully support him in his career in music, and he doesn't want to have too deep a conversation with them.My friends are basically in the music industry, and many of them don't see each other when they look up.Tell me what's on your mind, and it won't be awkward when you meet next time.Friends who don’t know each other well are afraid to speak out what’s on their minds, and then use it to make money.What's more, it's not suitable to be the person to confide in at all. Before being friends, they were colleagues with relevant interests... Thinking of this, Min Yoongi suddenly doubted his social circle.

He doesn't care about anything, and he doesn't care about anyone who doesn't interfere with his interests.That's why he doesn't have a bosom friend.He didn't want to be seen through, not at all.This is a habit developed from childhood.It's not all about being handsome, but that others don't need to know about themselves.Min Yoongi doesn't care about other people, so naturally, he feels that other people don't need to care about him either.He uses his own thinking to simulate the thinking of others.

Simply put, it is self-centered.

Min Yoongi held his forehead, extremely haggard.In desperation, did I target a man who was thousands of miles away from me?what am i doingIt looks so pathetic.

"Shirose-kun recently took over the editing work of PEASanimation's "Sahara Dream", and is very busy, so I can't come here. I had to come here more than a year ago because of the server problem."

"Is his name Shirase?" In other words, I don't even know his name.Min Yoongi repeated the pronunciation of the name several times in his mind.

"Ah, yes." Didn't I say that when I came to sign the autograph two days ago?Arai squinted at the far window in the hallway.

The two were standing in the corridor on the third floor of the building.Sunlight penetrates the windows at the end of the hallway and reflects off the hallway floor.But no matter how it is reflected, the beam is still a small beam.

"I told him about you, and he said he was really sorry that he couldn't come here. But he said he could give you the contact information." The man took out an A4-sized paper from his pocket.There are two or three strings of numbers written on the empty side, and the previous periodic table is on the other side.

Min Yoongi took the paper and looked at the string of numbers on it.The second row is the phone number, the third row is the e-mail address, and the first row is of course his name...Shira, Shirase, YUU, YUUSHOU?right?It's very uncomfortable to read.

"This," Min Yoongi pointed to the only four Chinese characters on this side, "YUUSHOU? Is it YUUSHOU?"

"Speaking of which, I don't really know how to pronounce his name. But if you pronounce it that way, you will become a winner! Although I don't know, it is probably TOMOAKI, SHIRASE (白素) TOMOAKI (Friend Akira)."

"..." The name is so hard to pronounce.Min Yoongi's eyes twitched.Why do the Japanese insist on using such difficult-to-pronounce characters as names?Moreover, why does this name look like Uncle?It's completely different from him!Shouldn't it be a cute name like "YUKITAI" or "RYOHEI"?People and impressions don't seem to coincide.

But even so, it's the first time I've heard his name, so I'm a little excited.However, I will never show it, it would be too embarrassing, absolutely!I'm not a little girl in love!A big man must not be happy about this!

……

What should I send over?Min Yoongi looked at the screen of the private message that had been opened for half an hour.He also didn't post any conversations.Really embarrassing.Min Yoongi was afraid that the other party was still working, or that it was inconvenient, and also worried that he would care about his time.

"Brother, what are you doing!" Park Jimin watched sitting on the stool for half an hour in a daze, and tapped Min Yoongi's shoulder curiously, "Who are you chatting with? So focused. Who? Ah, you don't know how to talk to South Korea Send text messages to your friends? It’s very expensive.”

"Tsk, go find Taehyung and Jungkook over there, don't disturb me."

"Cut!" Park Jimin pouted and walked away, looking for other people to play.

Min Yoongi bit his lower lip.You can't procrastinate, procrastination means that you have something on your mind.

SUGA: SHIRASESAN, KONICHIWA! WATASHIWABODANSHONEDANNOSUGADESU. (Mr. Shirase, hello! I am Suga from BTS.)

Min Yoongi is not that good at using pseudonyms, so he simply expresses himself in Roman alphabet.I hope Shirase can understand.Jimin asked him, Shirase was born in 91, two years older than himself, so pay attention to the age gap.

After waiting for a long time, the other party did not send back a message.Probably at work, so I can't reply to the message.

SUGA: IMAISOGASHINO? (are you busy now?)

As soon as Min Yoongi sent out the message, the staff of the show came to call for someone.

"Everyone from BTS, let's get in."

Hey... Min Yoongi threw the phone on the table, and then left the waiting room with the other members.

Min Yoongi has debuted for so many years, no matter what, he is still a professional, and it is absolutely not allowed to affect the recording of the show because of his mood.But when Min Yoongi watched the relaxation of that interview afterwards, he still felt that his expression was dull.Although Min Yoongi usually has this kind of virtue.

He was looking forward to going back soon and turning on his phone to see if there was any message from the other party on the screen.The recorded program is released before, no matter how late, you can always receive a message after a program is recorded, right?

After confirming, Min Yoongi thought to himself what the other party would send back. "Are you the one following KUANG?" or something like that? "I'm not interested, why are you looking for me? Is it annoying?" or something like that? "Who are you?" and the like?The scariest thing is "I like you too! Master SUGA!"

Min Yoongi lowered his head and chuckled.Kim Taehyung, who was sitting next to him, looked at him, blinking his eyes.What are you fantasizing about?

"Thank you everyone in BTS! Thank you!" The host nodded and sent the 7 people away.

Min Yoongi, who is usually always at the end of the 7 people, actually walked in the front today. When he got back to the waiting room, he hurriedly checked his mobile phone... The last column of the chat history is "Are you busy?" sent by himself.

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Min Yoongi took a few steps back and sat down on the chair.

Are you still working at this time?Min Yoongi looked at the watch on the wall, the hour hand pointed between 10 and 11, and the minute hand pointed between 5 and 6.

Why not send a message back?can't read?What I wrote is so basic that I can't even reach the grade of elementary school students!Does that mean you don't want to go back?Does he hate himself?

Probably not.At least he is the group that his sister likes, and he doesn't have much connection with him, so it doesn't matter if he hates himself...

... Min Yoongi lowered his head and put the phone lock screen into his bag.No matter what, if he didn't reply, he must have expressed something.Maybe he just wanted to perfuse himself so that he would not bother the people in the editing room.

Min Yoongi was lying on the hotel bed, looking at the ceiling without a soul, humming in a low voice without a soul.He comforted himself that it must be because he was busy with work, so he didn't reply.But the psychological thinking with excessive MIN feeling is thinking - don't you want to talk to me?Because I don't know who I am?Because I'm doing something weird?

In fact, I also hated myself at that time. In "DOPE", I said that I am a generation of six abandoners. I have given up on love, marriage, and social circles. Why bother others for the comfort of my heart?A broken tooth must be swallowed hard to be a successful man.

Although he might not have meant it, Min Yoongi also knew something.That is, you must never expect gentle things from strangers. Where can there be such cheap things in this world, and when you are lost, there will be kind strangers who care about you?Also, don't forget that it is your own decision to discard those things.

Jung Hoseok, who shared the same room as Min Yoongi, came out of the shower, saw Min Yoongi lying on the bed with soulless eyes wide open, and patted his calf in distaste, "What do you want to do with such a lack of energy! Get up and take a shower ! Then everything will be fine!"

"Hoseok, sure enough, people in this world are very selfish, including myself."

"Ah?" Zheng Hoseok wiped his hair with a towel, heard Min Yoongi's words like a will before committing suicide, then patted him twice angrily, pulled Min Yoongi up from the bed, "Go!! I don't want to take a bath with you! I'll listen to your philosophy class after you take a bath!"

Min Yoongi drooped his head and crawled unsteadily into the bathroom.Zheng Haoxi looked at Min Yoongi's back, and inexplicably connected with an animal - Grandpa Turtle.

Am I being sentimental?Did I put my mood before work?Am I overreacting?

Min Yoongi looked at himself in front of the mirror and wiped it messily with a towel.

Jung Hoseok outside had already fallen asleep.But light sleep.He promised to talk with Min Yoongi later.Why did he suddenly think of selfishness!People of the world or something?These are all well-known social laws...something must have happened.

As soon as the water in the bathroom stopped, Zheng Haoxi sat up in a daze.He rubbed his eyes and looked at the empty bed on the opposite side.It should be cleaning and changing clothes.Zheng Haoxi sat on the head of the bed, leaning his back against the head of the bed.When he was about to pick up the phone that was charging, he saw the light of Min Yoongi's phone blinking, he smacked his mouth a few times, picked up his phone, and turned back.

"Brother! Your phone is on."

Min Yoongi heard Zheng Ho-seok's voice, wiped his head and walked out to look at Zheng Ho-seok, "What?"

"Your phone."

Min Yoongi finally came to his senses, hurried to pick up the phone, and swipe the screen a few times... It turned out to be a text message from Shirase.

He wrote back?

SHIRASE (Shirase): Mr. Suga?Good evening, I'm Shirase.Sorry, I was working just now, and the supervisor is a perfectionist, so it dragged on for a long time.

SHIRASE: Are you not online?

SHIRASE: Well, I will go to bed at one o'clock in the morning, and if I don't have time to reply, I will definitely get back to you tomorrow.

Min Yoongi raised the corners of his mouth with an imperceptible arc, saw the time marked on the upper right corner of the phone, and quickly sent a series of texts.

SUGA: It's okay, I can understand.

SUGA: Sometimes I stay up all night writing songs.

After a while, he sent a message.

SHIRASE: Are you still awake?often like this?Bad for your health.If you don't pay attention to your health when you are young, you will regret it when you are old.

SUGA: Well, I know.

Ever since that time, when he fainted because of his poor body management, Min Yoongi blamed himself very much.He had always thought that his body was his own, and how he wanted to torture it was his own business.

But after he fell ill and passed out, he realized that since he became an idol singer, his health is not just his own.After his illness, many people will be troubled by it, and it will also affect the work of many people.Min Yoongi always wanted to be a lonely man, back then he hadn't connected his fans with himself.Even if the singer I like dies of illness, I may have nothing to do with myself, but others will not.

He feels sad.Why didn't I understand it before?He is no longer his own Min Yoongi, but everyone's SUGA.When he is happy, fans will be happy too; when he is sad, fans will be sad with him.

But in this way, the sign of self is indeed lost.Because you are no longer your own.

SHIRASE: I don't have time today, let's talk about it tomorrow.You go to sleep too.Staying up late is bad for your health.

SUGA: Well, thank you.

Min Yoongi couldn't sleep.

He actually wrote back?I have been thinking sentimentally for so long just now, I am too idiot...