Sheng Shi Merciful Light

The most admirable thing about Mu Ci is his calmness without changing his face when the mountain collapses in front of him.The most unbearable thing is his calmness, his heart is like a quiet lake under the moon, without waves and ripples, everything can only cast a reflection, and cannot stir up a ripple.

People who know him know that he is old and strong in heart, has experienced the vicissitudes of life, and his life is scattered... He is bearish and sees through, so he has a calm mind and is always calm and sober.

At the same time, because there is no result that he cannot bear, there is nothing to do, and it can still move him.

But Fang doesn't understand Mu Ci. As Mu Ruosong's mother, her heart must be biased. She only sees her son's fierce struggle, his resoluteness, and even betraying the family and hurting his mother and sister... And this person, But knowing Song'er couldn't win, he still let him fight.

There was no stopping, no rush, and no effort was made.

Don't care at all.

Fang had never had such courage before. She was indignant, pointed at Mu Ci and said sharply: "Do you have any feelings for Song'er? Why did you let him go when you knew he would lose? You actually wanted to get rid of him." Is it right?"

Even if his son fell in love with the wrong person, Fang wished they would be separated, but he didn't want his son's sincerity to be trampled into the dust.

"Of course I love him, and I also hope that he can win and be with him." Mu Ci's voice was calm, but his gaze was firm.

"You...I..." Fang was surprised to say something wrong, didn't this push her son into her arms?

"But there are some things that have nothing to do with winning or losing." Mu Ci said, "You don't have to do it if you can win, and you don't do it when you know you will lose."

Fang doesn't understand.

"What if, this is a real war?" Mu Ci's eyes were like a sinking abyss, all the light of love and hatred was deeply suppressed, there was no wind and no moon.

Fang Shi is a soft woman, she immediately realized that things were not that simple...so she quieted down.

"Give us another half a year, and Ziren will definitely win. But I knew early on that I didn't have enough time, and many things would happen without me being fully prepared... This is a cruel but real reality. But I can't do nothing just because I can't do it... The 30 soldiers at the border gate know that they may not win or even die in the battlefield, but taking a step back is their homeland, and they can only hold their chests up; Ziren is also a An excellent soldier... He is actually aware of the gap in strength between himself and King Ding, after all, he is the descendant of King Ding, isn't he?"

Fang's thoughts turned, and she was shocked: "You mean...Song'er...knows that he...can't win?"

"Yes, he knows." Mu Ci nodded calmly, neither sad nor happy, "but he wants to go, I respect all his choices, because we are all soldiers, no matter we win or lose, we will not back down. And I and him We all need this battle, he has no way to retreat, he loves me too much, he won't let me put down my dignity, kneel on the ground and beg someone for mercy and forgiveness. So, he will only stand up Keep your chest up, do your best, and fight for a chance for us."

Fang is a woman who has been trapped in the backyard all her life. All the love she thinks is the respect, tenderness, care and care given to her by Prince Zhen.Until now, she didn't know that there are many kinds of love, and there is one that can't have weakness and tears, but only needs courage and blood and sweat!

Mu Ci continued: "I promote military exercises to create opportunities for fair confrontations, not for the sake of winning or losing."

Fang's eyes are focused... She has always been a good listener.

Mu Ci has never said so many things in his heart to anyone. He stretched out his cold and pale hand and held Fang's equally cold, slightly trembling hand. His eyes were equally serious and focused, almost pious...

"Because I can't destroy him!"

"In the palace, Ziren once made an oath of 'I will not die in this body, and I will never be held accountable!'"

Fang looked at Mu Ci's eyes that were still calm up to this moment, and said words with strong meaning in such a calm tone, but felt a chill rushing into her heart, and trembled even more because of the danger contained in these words ...

"This body...is not martyred..."

"Don't be afraid! Zi Ren will not give up his life, he has grown up." Mu Ci comforted, "He knows what he is doing, and he can shoulder the responsibilities he should shoulder. If he wins, he can continue to fight with me. Go on, so he will try his best. In the end, there are many factors for not winning. It is not just because he is not strong enough, so even if it is painful, he can accept the result... If not, King Ding forced him to give up on me. , for the sake of the family mother and sister, he will break the oath of 'never disappoint', and he will feel unbearable guilt and pain... This relationship will completely destroy him!"

Fang clung to Mu Ci's hand tightly, and didn't notice when her fingernails dug into the tender flesh on the back of his hand: "You know everything, you know everything..."

"Yeah, what do I know, I also know that I love him. So, I let him go to this battle that can't be easily won. Because, we...don't want to lose him..."

Fang's face was stern: "You monster, you know he will be sad, why do you want to provoke him? How can you hurt him...you..."

Mou Yu moved, but Mu Ci stopped him by shaking his head very slightly...

Mu Ci spoke sincerely and looked sincerely: "You are right. I provoked him first. In the palace, I was precarious, and being with him was my only pleasure in the palace. Later, Ziren confessed to me that I I should have refused, I had foreseen today's situation at that time, but I can't deny that I was moved by him... It was my mistake that I agreed to be with him when I knew the way out was slim."

Mu Ci reasoned like this, and Fang couldn't help but become fierce, only to realize that he had pinched the back of Mu Ci's hand until it was dripping with blood.

"Sorry...I..." Fang panicked and took out a handkerchief to wipe.

Mou Yu covered himself with frost, snatched Mu Ci's hand, and took alcohol from his waist pocket for him to dispose of.

Mu Ci ignored the tingling pain on the back of her hand, her deep and peaceful eyes gradually softened, and gentle ripples appeared...

"Some people always say that when we are together, I pay more for him, and he can do less for me. It's just that I have too many things outside of me, and he seems to have nothing. But the power is great, and the responsibility is also heavy. I have to balance There are too many things for him, but not much for him... Few things are done purely for him, only for him, including this military exercise, which promotes the country's armed forces and deters its neighbors. But he treats me wholeheartedly and gives everything... He gave me his love, his life, his wisdom and even his future, without reservation."

When Fang heard this, she knew that she was deeply affectionate and burst into tears.But I can't tell whether it's distressed or moved. There are mixed feelings and I can't tell the difference.

"He deserves my deep love. So..." Mu Ci solemnly said to Fang Shi, "I'm sorry, you can blame me for being selfish, but I won't let go until the last moment."

Fang: "..." It was the first time she heard such a strong apology, but she couldn't blame her feelings.No matter how angry she was, she knew better that any relationship would not be the responsibility of one person.

Fang Shi is like everyone who deals with Mu Ci, she...has nothing to say.

No words can express her complicated mood.

Mu Ci suddenly pulled the corner of her mouth and smiled, and said: "Cousin, there is still a little time, can you tell me something about Ziren's childhood, no matter what it is, I want to hear it, is that okay?"

Fang didn't know why she nodded, maybe she couldn't bear to reject such a pair of beautiful eyes that were no longer plain, but slightly glowing with hopeful starlight.

Mu Ci just sat quietly, listening... Listening to Fang's memories of Mu Ruosong being conceived, born, walking, calling parents, crying when falling down, laughing when eating candy, bedwetting at the age of three, she was ashamed as spilling tea cute; when he was four years old, he became fat into a ball, and was cruelly cut off by his son, and cried for three days and three nights stubbornly; The younger brother is crazy about playing; he is still six years old... pestering Zhen Shizi to learn how to ride a horse, but because he was too young, he failed to fulfill his wish, so his father promised to teach him when he was older, but it never came true.

When he was eight years old, his wish to learn how to ride a horse with his father could no longer be fulfilled... But he didn't cry or make a fuss, and accepted everything silently. From then on, he became a little adult, shouldering the heavy responsibility of taking care of his mother and sister...

Fang's memories are gone here... She only realized at this moment that the stupid things the child did and the embarrassing things would make the mother's heart sweet, but after the age of eight, the son had grown up at an astonishing speed and never made mistakes again.Apart from being praised again and again, there is nothing worth mentioning.

And those praises, with the passage of time, become pale, and I can't remember the reason...

The son is so sensible and filial, because she is afraid of receiving the death notice again, just like his father Zhenshizi, so she doesn't want her son to join the army and prevent him from entering martial arts and entering the Northwest War Zone.The son was considerate of his mother's feelings, and forced him to delay for two years before he was selected into the palace and became Mu Ci's attendant.

Perhaps, this is fate, if she does not interfere, but supports her son's decision.Perhaps now the son has become a young player in the northwest border. Even though he is dark and rough due to the wind and frost, he is flying freely and full of pride.

He would never meet Mu Ci, so that his extremely filial son would rather break his mother's heart and fall into such a hopeless love.

Destiny goes round and round, only holding people in the palm of its hand.

Fang sighed... But he didn't realize that the two people with opposite positions, who should have turned against each other, but because they loved the same person deeply, spent this period harmoniously... It was an extremely torturous time for each of them.

Fang withdrew her thoughts, and saw Mu Ci listening quietly, her eyes were as gentle as water, and her expression was almost serene...

——The king of Chu really loved his son deeply.

——The son didn't love the wrong person, no... no no... love is right, the person... is wrong.

Fang didn't know Mu Ci's state of mind at the moment, came to hear about her lover's childhood memories?After predicting the ending of the future and knowing that he is likely to be separated from the one he loves deeply, what kind of mood is behind his peaceful and peaceful face?

Are you sad?Will it be painful?Will you regret it?Is there any resentment?

Fang couldn't tell that Mu Ci's eyes were dark and deep, and she couldn't see the ups and downs of sorrow and joy. The wind and rain will always pass, and everything will return to the calm and calm.Some just do what they should do well and do their best no matter whether they win or lose.

This scene froze into eternity and penetrated deeply into Fang's heart.Every time afterwards, whenever she thought of Mu Ci being so calm and calm, Fang couldn't stop feeling a vague and empty dull pain welling up from the depths of her heart.

At this moment, she even had an impulse, she wanted to say: "Don't cry, I promise you, let my son be with you."

Although Mu Ci's eyes were peaceful and she didn't shed tears, but...she always had an illusion...

—he was crying!

But in the end, Mu Ci had no tears.

Fang... didn't say anything.