The story of forest cultivation

I would rather turn into a fallen leaf, let the wind and rain blow and drift around; or a floating cloud, in the clear blue sky, no longer involved with the earth.

—— Lin Huiyin

During the vacation, Xiao asked me to go out to play several times, but I refused. I was really afraid that as soon as I left the house, my brother would lock the door and prevent me from coming back, so I never dared to leave the house, even the garden outside. Don't dare to stay too long.Every time I squatted in the corner and talked to those blooming roses, my brother would look at me through the glass window upstairs. I turned to greet him and he immediately closed the curtains. Was he watching me? Let's go, but I'm so shameless again, he must be a little lost!

This morning the doorbell rang, and my aunt received a letter, which was addressed to my brother.I took the letter, carried the breakfast, and went into my brother's bedroom. He was leaning against the head of the bed, smoking a cigarette with his eyes slightly closed. I put the breakfast and the letter on his desk without looking at him again.I went back to the bedroom, sat in front of the cello, plucked the strings with my hands, made messy sounds, and fell into deep thought.Suddenly, the sound of a broken glass interrupted my thoughts, and the sound came from my brother's room.I hurried to my brother's bedroom. As soon as I entered the door, I saw crystal shards of glass and spilled milk in front of the bed. A voice came from behind, making people shiver with cold,

"Mu Xiuyu, are you still lying to me?"

"What did I lie to you?"

"Who are you in love with?"

"Don't you already know that?"

"But I want to hear your answer,"

"..."

My brother threw the envelope in my hand to my feet, and I squatted down to pick it up. The contents of the letter were as follows:

I'm Wu Quyang, and I have something to tell you about Xiuyu.I remember Xiu Yu said that he was very satisfied with your selfless protection and infinite care. He worried that one day he would lose control of his feelings, so he decided to move out.However, you don't know that he once missed you so much that he looked like you when he closed his eyes, so that he needed sleeping pills to fall asleep. In fact, how many days and nights has he longed to embrace you, But he can't do it. Do you know how sad he feels when he hears that you want to send him abroad?In fact, Xiu Yu has always loved you submissively. He loves you too conservatively, and he doesn't even dare to have too much physical contact with you, for fear that you will notice his young heart, and actually hide such thoughts towards his brother.He thought that you would always be with him, and it would be good to be his brother all the time, but what he didn't expect was that you would keep hurting him. He suffered, he was too kind.Therefore, it is you who is really hidden in Xiu Yu's heart. If you can accept this heavy feeling and give him love, then be with him. Don't let his heart be scarred. If you can't accept it With this feeling, just pretend that you don’t know that he loves you, and please continue to simply protect and take care of him like a brother!Li Haozhe has kept the gems for you for a while, and now they are returned to their original owners.

I crumpled up the letter, and my brother finally found out. Someone finally spoke for me what I had been hiding for so long, and I must have really wanted to leave this house and him this time.I stood where I was, hoping that time would freeze at this second. It is enough for him to know that I love him. I don’t want his answer, just love him silently. In the next second, he only said three words ,

"why?"

"I'm sorry, I haven't dared to tell you, and I can't tell you, I just want to keep this secret, but..."

"But what, but who do you love?"

"I'm sorry, brother, this is my biggest secret. I don't expect brother's forgiveness. I just ask him not to drive me away, don't leave me alone. I really have nowhere to go except here,"

"You don't want to leave, is it because you don't want to leave me? Or are you afraid that you have nowhere to go?"

"If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be afraid of sleeping on the street,"

"do you hate me?"

"How can I hate you, you are my dearest person."

The secret I had been hiding for a long time was revealed alive, all my humbleness was fully exposed, I stood there daring not to move, even afraid to turn my head and see a face that hates me and disgusts me.I wish someone would tell me what to do next, but no one can help me, I am helpless to the extreme.Once again, I felt that body temperature, the kind of warmth that only belonged to him. I just depended on this kind of tenderness, I couldn't hear any sound from the outside world, I couldn't feel the temperature from the outside world, and my feet were no longer able to support my body.

"Xiu Yu, stay with me,"

"Brother, what did you say?"

"It's only now that I realize that the person who has been silently bearing and accompanying me is the one I love the most. I'm such a fool that I didn't realize that I fell in love with him unknowingly. I want to make up for this happiness, so I won't let him go, can't let him go, "

"elder brother,"

"Do you still want to call me brother?"

"Brother, no, leisurely!"

A few months ago, You Ran took the precious stones and processed them into necklaces, but was robbed by Li Haozhe. Li Haozhe wanted to give them to the Lin family when Li Haoren married Lin Xi. Unexpectedly, Wu Quyang was Li Haoren's only true love. Lin Xi's marriage also turned into a bubble.So now Li Haoren returned the things to Youran, and Youran gave him to me.

"I wanted to give you him as a birthday present after your college entrance examination, but it's not too late now,"

"Isn't this the ruby ​​you auctioned? It's so rare, why don't you collect it?"

"No matter how rare it is, it is just a stone. At the beginning, I just wanted to use the gem to suppress the prestige of E company. Later, I found that its value should not be limited to this, it should have another meaning, so, do you like it?"

"You gave me such a valuable thing, of course I like it,"

"Xiu Yu, you are my most precious thing, I always hope to make up for something, although this gift is far from enough, I hate myself for only now realizing that I love you so much, enough to love you, Xiu Yu, it's okay You are still here, if you leave, I will scold myself for the rest of my life, "

"I said earlier, no matter how difficult the road ahead is, I will accompany you on it."

I finally heard the words I had been thinking about day and night, and the person who spoke was no longer my brother, but my lover—Mu Youran, it seemed a little uncomfortable to call him by his name for the first time!I leaned against his chest and rubbed against his shoulders, the faint fragrance of roses was no longer alone, but my heart belonged.

"Xiu Yu, let me hug you for a while longer,"

"what happened?"

He kissed the side of my cheek,

"I'm sorry, I want to say sorry to you. I treated you like that two days ago. My heart is bleeding. I can't sleep because of the pain. Actually, I don't want to do this. I just think of your kindness to Wu Quyang. I'm jealous. , but Xiuyu is a fool, he is good to everyone, but he is better to me, and I have ignored it, that's all."

"It's not too late to know now, I still love you, nothing has changed,"

"Thinking of the things I did in the past regardless of your feelings, I'm not as sensible as Xiu Yu,"

"Then, did brother actually love Bai Yang?"

"No, how could I love him, just use him to anger you, are you angry?"

"I didn't care much about these before, I just didn't like you bringing different people into the house, but later I realized that I wanted more than that. Well, of course, you actually faced me in front of me that day. I was angry when he moved his hands and feet, "

"Then why didn't you tell me earlier? I was so angry for nothing,"

"I dare not, you are my elder brother, how can I think of you like this, I'm afraid you will be angry after you say it,"

"So you kept it from me for so long,"

"What about brother, brother, is it true, does he love me?"

I turned my head and asked him cautiously, expecting him to say that he loves me, and also afraid of him saying that he loves me. The expectation is because I desire or beg to be with him, and the fear is because this relationship may be full of thorns, and if I am not careful, I will be covered with bruises. .

"I-I'm sorry, Xiuyu, it's just..."

"what are you doing,"

"It's just that from now on, you will be my man."