The story of forest cultivation

At the beginning of the second year of high school, we were divided into liberal arts classes. Unexpectedly, Xiao Junhuai and I were assigned to the same liberal arts class. At that time, I asked him:

You are so good at science, why didn't you choose science?

His answer to me was:

Science classes without you, who would I teach.

Just because of this casual joke, I regard him as my closest confidant, unlike my elder brother.Logically speaking, brothers should talk about everything, but he doesn't understand me, at least he doesn't understand me yet, he just does what I say, thinking that if I do what I say, I will be happy.As it turned out, he was wrong, but I don't blame him, because he didn't realize that the underlying feelings were slowly taking root.

In the second year of high school, I came to a new class and met new classmates. The head teacher was still teacher Zhang Shenkeng, and Xiao Junhuai was still at the back table.Xiao Junhuai and Du Yunfeng reconciled as before. Du Yunfeng came to pick him up almost every Friday, and often took him to various places to enjoy life. It can be seen that they have changed from "trying" at that time to a formal couple, and their relationship is also good. Don't want it.And I, from Monday to Thursday, I hang out with Xiao Junhuai, I don't want to go home, I just want to stay in the classroom, there is a stranger at home, that's his home, it's inconvenient for me to disturb his life.

Then again, if I don't go back to that home, where else can I go?At least now when I enter the door, I don't see my brother, so I feel a little relieved.

"Xiu Yu, you're back. Your brother asked me to tell you that he won't be coming back tonight because he has something to do. He wants you to have a good meal and rest early,"

"Understood, Aunt Xu, I want to eat cheesecake tomorrow, please bring me a piece, just the shop I often eat."

after a few days,

"Xiu Yu, your brother is out on a social occasion and won't be coming back tonight,"

"Aunt Xu, I don't have to cook tomorrow, I want to eat pasta, please buy me some."

I haven't seen my brother for half a month. He's been very busy recently, so he doesn't come home. Did he forget my brother, or he simply ignored my existence.

"Xiu Yu, your brother is out for a meeting today and won't be coming back,"

"Aunt Xu, don't come here tomorrow, I won't eat at home."

The next day, I ate something casually and went home. My expectations and worries were superfluous, and the house was of course empty.I just lay down at eleven o'clock in the evening, quietly looking at the ceiling, listening to my heavy breathing to hypnotize myself.After a while, the phone rang, it was my brother.

"Hey,"

"Mu Xiuyu? I'm Bai Yang. Your brother got drunk and made a fuss all night. I couldn't find anything to call you on his cell phone. Come and see him. We're at 1510 in Hotel S."

My brother was drunk again, I don't know how many times I got drunk in the days of avoiding me.After hanging up the phone, I put on my clothes, went to the main road to take a taxi, and soon got into an empty car and arrived at S Hotel.

"You are Xiu Yu, he is inside,"

"Why did you call me here? Isn't it easier to do things when he's drunk?"

"That's right, but he was drunk because of others. I don't do this kind of thing that takes advantage of others. I called you here because you are his younger brother and his closest relative. Take good care of him. I'll go first. "

In the eyes of outsiders, you regard me as the closest person, but in fact, only you know who is your closest person.I pushed open the bathroom door, and he was lying on the edge of the bathtub alone,

"Brother, you're drunk again. Didn't you promise me not to drink? I'll help you to rest,"

he pushed me away

"Do you tube."

He picked up the wine in his hand to drink again, I snatched it and drank the rest of the wine in one go,

"Mu Xiuyu, who taught you to drink?"

"I have a brother who is often hungover. It's hard not to drink. I have already known how to drink. I often go to bars and hook up with men. I learned from my brother,"

"What, Mu Xiuyu, are you still hooking up with men? Who did you hook up with?"

"Too many, I don't remember, I'm afraid my brother can't remember how many people he had sex with!"

My brother raised his hand and slapped me. He had never slapped me, not even when he spoke loudly. The slap made my ears go numb.

"Mu Xiuyu, what do you know, you dare to fool around with those men, do you know who they are and you just flirt with them casually, and you don't want your life?"

"Then brother tortured himself for a scum all day long, is he going to die? Or is it because he doesn't want me anymore, forgets his promise at the beginning, and wants to be with me forever?"

"I didn't forget, of course I didn't."

I hugged my brother, and pressed my brother's face tightly, tears seeped into my mouth, I don't know if it was his or mine.The first reaction of the taste buds on the tongue is bitter and then astringent. My brother has too much bitterness in his heart.I kissed the corner of my brother's mouth, but dared not touch his lips, because that was not a place I could touch.

After my brother calmed down, I helped him to the bed. I didn't go to class the next day, and Xiao Junhuai asked for leave for me.After my brother woke up, I sent him home and let him stay quietly, and I sat next to him. He would naturally say what he wanted to say, and he would not say what he didn't want to say even if he was forced to say it.After half an hour, he finally spoke,

"Yesterday I saw Yan Mo with another man. He was smiling, and his smile seemed familiar. Wasn't that exactly what he had smiled at me before? It turned out that leaving me didn't matter to him. Tears and apologies were just a specific template. At that time This is the template that should be used. If it doesn’t work, then someone else will follow suit. At that moment, I realized that I was a stupid idiot. I almost believed him. Without myself, I really wouldn’t fall in love with other people. Now I understand that there is no one who can’t live without leaving, only the one who leaves is still in circles.”

"Brother, it's not too late to move forward. As long as brother is willing, Xiuyu will accompany brother. No matter how bumpy the road ahead is, Xiuyu will accompany brother."

Some things, if you understand it, you understand it, if you don’t understand it, you don’t understand it, and it takes a second to get the hang of it.Perhaps Mu Youran really thought it through, stopped doing unnecessary harm to that man, stopped drinking and going to bars, went to and from work on time, took time to accompany Xiu Yu on weekends, didn't make secret calls, and didn't have strangers to send him home Home, and a new set of sofas, everything is undergoing qualitative changes quietly.The whole semester of the second year of high school seemed to be arranged in advance, and it was going on in an orderly manner. Xiao Junhuai and Du Yunfeng would still quarrel and lose their temper, but Du Yunfeng would still look for him everywhere because he was angry, and try to make him happy. Ye Wei and Ling Susu also In the same class, they lived together. Lan Che went to Canada and lived a fairy-like life there. Fei Cui was still a top student, and Zhang Shenkeng was still so pitiful.

The second year of high school is a transition period, which is the product of the transition from the first year of high school to the third year of high school. In order to make the slack people more relaxed and the nervous people more nervous.The same is true for feelings. It takes years of accumulation to transition from a stable state to a white-hot state. Some people are already in the white-hot stage from the very beginning, while some people will not reach the white-hot stage after accumulating for a lifetime, but they have spent their entire lives to go to the white-hot stage. Stay safe and secure.I just want to imagine an ordinary life like now, ordinary walking on the road will not be noticed, ordinary to enjoy a person's love, ordinary to love a person, ordinary will make people addicted.Now I realize what Shakespeare said:

A love that is not too passionate will last forever!