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, I secretly felt that my legs were weak.Her palms were covered in cold sweat, and she finally breathed a sigh of relief.Cai Wanyun had sharp eyes and quickly supported her, "Mistress, be careful."

"I'm sorry, Nanny Cai, I can't do this." Concubine Ke quickly braced herself and stood up, letting the mammy in charge of Kunning Palace help her, Concubine Ke couldn't bear it.

Seeing Cai Wanyun looking at the Queen's back and sighing with a complicated expression, Concubine Ke said softly, "Today there are only four people in this Qin'an Palace, and no one knows what happened after leaving this gate."

Concubine Ke's voice was extremely soft, but it made Cai Wanyun's whole body tremble, and her face turned pale.How could she not understand the seriousness of this matter?Concubine Ke hurriedly saluted, "I understand." Concubine Ke is not a troublemaker, and has always been very measured. Even Concubine Ke pretends to be ignorant no matter how much she understands. How could Cai Wanyun care? Blind enough to not know the pros and cons?She looked back at the side room of Qin'an Hall, and thought to herself, I just hope that Sang Zhi can leave quickly!Once Sangzhi is gone, everything will return to normal.

After returning from Qin'an Hall, there are still piles of matters waiting for the empress to decide.The queen empress did not have the slightest abnormality, and handled it methodically.Until lunch time, there was still no sign of stopping.Cai Wanyun came forward to say hello, "I'd like to inform you, Ma'am, it's time for lunch."

"En." The queen replied coldly, but she didn't intend to leave, she was still buried in the mountains of files.According to the usual practice in previous years, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, all matters have already been arranged, and only some finishing work is left, the empress can do it or not.Cai Wanyun invited her several times in succession, but the queen just said "um" every time, but didn't move once.It wasn't until the sun turned to the west that Cai Wanyun finally felt that something was wrong with the empress.But she didn't dare to say a word, every time she wanted to open her mouth to persuade the empress to have a meal, but when she saw the expressionless empress' face, Cai Wanyun was so frightened that she swallowed all her words.

Even on such a cold day, the empress didn't even drink a sip of hot water.Every time Cai Wanyun brought hot porridge and hot tea over, they would always be served piping hot and then brought back cold.

"Alas..." Cai Wanyun secretly sighed again and again, her mood was extremely complicated.She couldn't help but think, what would she do if she was replaced by Sangzhi?Just thinking about it, Cai Wanyun shook her head vigorously.She probably guessed that Sang Zhi would try to lure the empress to eat with a little bit of coaxing—but then again, if Sang Zhi was around, would the queen not even touch a drop of water?Cai Wanyun smiled helplessly, she is not Sang Zhi, she would not dare to be so indifferent anyway.For a moment, Cai Wanyun was inexplicably sad.

Since the little queen came to the palace, she was appointed by the queen mother as the mother in charge of Kunning Palace, and she watched the little queen grow up all the way.No one knows better than Cai Wanyun the grievances suffered by the little queen and what kind of life she lives.Although the little queen has always been taciturn and seems indifferent to the palace people, Cai Wanyun waits on her personally, knowing in her heart that the little queen is kind-hearted after all.Although the queen didn't say anything nice, she was extremely generous in rewarding the servants, especially Cai Wanyun.Cai Wanyun knew that the empress had a steelyard in her heart, and the empress knew who was good to her and who was false to her.The empress will not treat anyone who works for her and is sincere to her. Because of this, Cai Wanyun is devoted to the empress and Kunning Palace.It's not that Cai Wanyun doesn't know that since Sang Zhi came to Kunning Palace, the empress's face has been smiling almost every day, and as long as Sang Zhi is not there, this smile seems to disappear with the vacancy of Sang Zhi.Since the birth of mulberry branches, the atmosphere in Kunning Palace has become warmer, and the empress is also radiant.In addition, the empress is an outstanding person, so it is almost reasonable to get the favor of the emperor later.

Cai Wanyun saw all this, but the more it happened, the more terrified Cai Wanyun was when she recalled it.The empress's smile can only be for the emperor, because what's the matter with a slave?But she dared not say anything.She just wanted to let Sang Zhi go, even if the empress would never be so happy after Sang Zhi left, at least it would be better than smiling with a slave.This is really too dangerous.The only thing that kept Cai Wanyun from worrying was that the empress was confused about feelings, and the empress was not a permissive and disrespectful person like Concubine Jing.Cai Wanyun knew that this was because the empress was young when she entered the palace, and the emperor didn't like her, and the Kunning Palace had never been able to have too much affection, so the empress was extremely slow to her own feelings—even though the empress The smile and all the mannerisms gave her away long ago.But for Cai Wanyun, the only hope is the slowness of the empress and the burden of Kunning Palace.Regardless of status or youth and ignorance, all the shackles that can bind the empress are life-saving straws for Cai Wanyun.Because, the lives of the entire Kunning Palace are tied to the empress.Cai Wanyun even thought that it would be best if the queen could remain a fan of the authorities all her life.

But what Cai Wanyun didn't expect was that only when Sang Zhi was by the queen's side would the queen feel at ease and not think too much about it, and would be fascinated by the authorities.But once faced with the fact that Sang Zhi was about to leave, once faced with the fear that she could not control at all, how could the Empress not think carefully?

Thousands of predictions, did not expect a wrong move.Cai Wanyun couldn't help wiping away her tears, she was very afraid that she would be buried with this Kunning Palace.Slave, a slave whose life is as cheap as worthless, life and death are not up to him!Mammy Cai lamented while wiping her tears, if she can't be reborn into a wealthy family in the next life, let her be a livestock, even if she suffers and suffers, she won't be afraid and trembling every day.In fact, what is the difference between them and livestock?In the end, he is still allowed to be oppressed and slaughtered, and life and death are all decided by the master.

The empress had been sitting by the desk all day, and the files waiting for instructions had long since disappeared, but the empress was still bending over the files except for Chu Gong.Seeing that the dinner time was gradually passing by, Cai Wanyun finally plucked up the courage and said, "How about...the old slave goes to Qin'an Hall—"

As soon as the words "Qin'an Palace" came out, the empress interrupted her, "Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, so I must be very busy. Madam will go to bed early tonight."

Cai Wanyun's words were cut off in her mouth, she hesitated for a long time and had to back down, "Old slave complies."

The empress didn't even raise her head, she continued, "Let everyone go to rest when we leave, there is no need to keep anyone here tonight." After a pause, she added, "No one is allowed to disturb this palace."

Cai Wanyun is used to it.Every time the empress felt unhappy, she would drive away the people in the inner hall of Kunning Palace and stay alone.Cai Wanyun had no choice but to follow her advice, walked out of the inner hall and greeted everyone outside the gate.

When the hall was empty again, the empress slowly raised her head.Looking at the empty inner hall, looking at the lingering fragrance, even looking at the scroll at hand, everything here seems to have traces of mulberry branches.However, the queen felt an indescribable sadness and bitterness in her heart.The tingling pain in my heart seemed to fade away with the boundless emptiness, so light that no trace could be seen.She thought, that person always wanted to leave the palace, and it was a good thing to be able to leave.However, just when this thought popped up, the stinging pain that had just dissipated seemed to come back with a mighty force, causing her heart to twitch in pain.

The sudden pain, but it seemed like a blow to the head, made the empress finally understand something.Why are you afraid?It's the fear of losing.The queen's complexion turned pale instantly, with mixed feelings in her heart.Her heart was trembling, and she subconsciously picked up a pen and wrote two words tremblingly on the paper, but it was not the word "Mulberry Branch", but... Jinxiu.Jinxiu's tragic death was still in front of her eyes, and Concubine Jing's sorrow was still in front of her eyes, the queen finally understood Concubine Jing's mood in an instant.At that time, I asked Concubine Jing, is it worth it for a slave?

does it worth?Thinking of this question now, the queen couldn't help laughing wryly at herself—what a ridiculous question!

How did Concubine Jing answer back then?Concubine Jing said that Jinxiu was not a slave at all in her heart, and Concubine Jing also said——Sangzhi.

At that time, the queen replied subconsciously that Sang Zhi was different.

What's the difference?What's different?Now the queen knows it.But what is the use of understanding?Sangzhi is too tired, so why isn't she tired?Sang Zhi is tired of the palace, so why isn't she tired of it?If she could leave, why didn't she want to leave?

Hot tears fell down, and were already cold when they hit the scroll.The queen's face was pale, with a desolate smile on the corner of her mouth.For a moment, she hated that she was not Concubine Jing, even hated that she was a queen, hated that she was a daughter.She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and the file in her hand was deformed due to excessive force.

"Let's go." She thought a little desperately, just go if you want.However, just as soon as he said it, another voice came out from the bottom of his heart - don't!She thought she couldn't be let go.Don't let her go, don't let her go, don't let her go anyway.However, the queen can no longer decide whether Sang Zhi will stay or not.

Late at night, more leaks.The time has passed.

Suddenly there was a voice outside the main hall of Kunning Palace, it was the maid who guarded the gate talking.The queen's heart skipped a beat. It's so late, who could it be——

She stood up abruptly.Just walked out quickly, but stopped at the door - what if the people outside were not Sangzhi?The queen thought to herself, even if she had to leave, she should at least come over and say goodbye to her, right?At any rate... At any rate, he treated her well.

"Has the Queen gone to bed?" A low voice came from outside the door, even though it was deliberately low, it was still familiar like thunder.The queen was a little dizzy for a while, she quickly supported the pillar to stand still, took several deep breaths to stabilize herself, and stepped forward to open the door.

The maid who was watching the night was about to scold Sang Zhi, when suddenly the queen opened the door from the inside, and the two fell to their knees in fright.

The queen didn't see them, she just stared intently at Mulberry Branch whose face was reflected by the lights in the hall in the night.It's a mulberry branch, it really is a mulberry branch.From morning to now, it was only less than a day, but to them, it seemed like half a lifetime had passed.Su Le's eyes turned red instantly.

"Empress," Sang Zhi said with a hoarse voice, smiling, "It's really offensive to come here late at night."

Su Le turned his face away so that Sang Zhi could not see her wet eyes, and smiled with a sour nose, "Are you offended less?"

"It was so rude before, thanks to your generosity—"

Before Sang Zhi could finish speaking, the empress interrupted her in a panic, and said to the two kneeling maids, "Pingshen, you go down." She couldn't hear Sang Zhi's familiar yet unfamiliar tone, as if she was coming Say goodbye to her.Just listening to Sang Zhi's words, Su Le felt that her heart was being hollowed out by those words, and she couldn't breathe due to the pain.

"It's cold, come in and talk." The queen never looked up at her, only opened the door for Sang Zhi, and walked forward by herself.

Sang Zhi's eyes were bloodshot, looking at the queen's figure, hesitated for a while, and finally followed.

"Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, so it has been four years since I entered the palace." Su Le said with a smile, "When I first entered the palace, I was only 15 years old and didn't understand anything. Less than three months after entering the palace, Concubine Dong E She entered the palace. As soon as she entered the palace, she was directly named a virtuous concubine, and at the end of that year, she was promoted to the imperial concubine. Everyone told me that the imperial concubine of Chengqian Palace is a seductive concubine, and she has never been promoted. So fast."

"In the blink of an eye, four years have passed." Su Le said with a light smile as if chatting, "I never thought I would become such an old man. Other people's children are running around the palace, and I am still alone."

Sang Zhi could not help but feel distressed when she heard her talking about the past, "Where is the old man. In my hometown, it is a good time."

"I remember, when someone said I was old and poor."

"Empress, forgive me!" Sang Zhi hurriedly stood up and saluted, "At first it was——"

She didn't finish speaking, but stopped.Because Su Le grabbed her arms to prevent her from continuing to move, and when she looked straight at her, she couldn't stop the tears from welling up in her eyes, "Do you have to be so unfamiliar with me?"

Su Le's tears fell and fell on the back of Sang Zhi's hand, but it seemed as if a hole had been punched in Sang Zhi's heart.

She knew she shouldn't have come in.Sang Zhi gritted her teeth, and forced herself to control the urge to hug Su Le.But the wet marks on the back of the hand made Sang Zhi uncontrollably soft-hearted, and finally smiled with tears in his eyes, "I'm kidding you, Su Le."

With a "Sule" out of the mouth, the queen immediately broke her merits.Without any warning, she suddenly threw herself into Sang Zhi's arms, choked up on Sang Zhi's shoulder, "Don't leave me... Sister Sang Zhi... I only have you... Don't go... Don't go, okay..."

Sangzhi froze, the thing in her chest hurt so much that she couldn't speak.She couldn't even raise her hand to hug Su Le's back.

Su Le hugged her hard, as if he wanted to embed her in his body, until Sang Zhi felt pain all over.

After a long time, when Sangzhi felt suffocated, Sangzhi said slowly, "I will come back to see you."

"..." Su Le's body froze, "You really came to say goodbye." She actually held Sang Zhi's body tightly, "I don't agree."

"I'll come back to see you." Sang Zhi murmured, "Su Le."

"Come back?" Su Le smiled wryly, "What do you think the palace is, you come and leave as soon as you say you want? That is Wang Changyue, who is qualified to enter and leave the palace." Su Le said quietly, "It's easy for Wang Changyue to take you away. It is difficult to bring it in again. The palace is not Baiyun Temple, and what he said doesn’t count. Moreover,” Su Le hugged her more tightly, “If you go with him, the only way is to become a monk. You are a palace maid, and Wang Changyue wants to take her Let you go, even if the empress dowager agrees, they will not let you go in vain, they will issue an imperial decree for you to become a monk and pray on behalf of the palace." In the end, Su Le's voice was hoarse, "You would rather become a monk than stay with me by your side?"

"Why should I stay by your side!" Sang Zhi began to lose control of her emotions, "Staying by your side...is too...tortured." She pushed Su Le away cruelly, "I can't stand the palace, I can't stand the eyes of you masters... Higher than the top, I am not a human being. I can't stand the slaves here bowing their knees and flattering me. If I can't stand it, I will kneel at every turn, and I will lose my head at every turn. You can come and go when you call me. I don't live like a person. Humans and ghosts are not like ghosts. Su Le..." Sang Zhi covered her head in pain, "I don't know why I appeared here, why I became a court lady, but I hate this place. I'm sorry...I'm sorry, I insist not Go on. Even...Even if it's for you, I can't hold on...I'm not as great as I thought..."

Su Le was frightened by her, "Sang Zhi?"

"Especially by your side...you are so kind to me, but too far away..." Sang Zhi was vague, but looked at Su Le with a wry smile, "This is more tormenting than all the depression. You let me do it for you." You stay, but...why...who are you to me? What am I to you? No matter what, I am just a slave. If you are happy, I can stay by your side to be happy with you. If you are not happy, I will go to the outer courtyard to die. This is too ridiculous."

Su Le's face turned pale, "You still blame me."

"I don't blame you," Sangzhi shook her head, "I blame the Qing Dynasty, I hate myself for being here. I've had enough." She backed up as she spoke, and walked straight to the door, "But I never blamed it You, you are already fine. But... I'm sorry, Su Le." She rushed out the door and fled almost in a panic.

Su Le stared blankly at the creaking and shaking of the door, and the cold wind came in at night, making her dizzy for a while.

The movement here had already woken Cai Wanyun up, and Cai Wanyun didn't come out until Sang Zhi left and no one could be seen.At a glance, she saw the empress straightened up and fell to the ground. Cai Wanyun was so frightened that she was so frightened that she rushed forward, "Empress!"

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☆, choose

Sangzhi didn't know how he got back to Qin'an Hall.But as soon as he entered the guest room, he saw Wang Changyue who was meditating with his eyes closed.She hurriedly bowed her hands, "National Teacher."

Wang Changyue slowly opened her eyes, seeing her sunken eye sockets with a haggard face, she couldn't help but sigh softly, "Have you thought about it?"

Have you figured it out?Sang Zhi's heart was suffocated, Su Le's prayer just now seemed to echo in his ears again.Su Le was actually begging her, with such a nostalgic tone, even though she ruthlessly rejected her emotionally at the time, but now in retrospect, Su Le's words seem to be connected into a thread, twisted into a ball and circled. Wrapped around her heart in circles, her throat was so tight that she opened her mouth a few times but couldn't answer.

Seeing this situation, Wang Changyue sighed, "You still have time to think about it. It's just that Pindao wants to explain something to you first—"

"Master, please speak."

"Pindao wants to take you away because he has a relationship with you as a teacher and apprentice. If you want to leave this palace, you must become a monk." Wang Changyue said, "But you have to be clear, becoming a monk is not a child's play. You have to become a monk , we must abandon the secular relationship. The Quanzhen Longmen Sect is not the Huoju Dao of the orthodox sect. To join our Longmen Sect, you must abide by the rules and regulations. I have the "Three Halls of Great Precepts". In addition, you must abide by the 'Nine Precepts of Jurchen'. Here in the imperial palace, since you have entered my Taoist sect, you must sever it, practice lifelong meditation, and do not enter this filthy place." Wang Changyue looked at her, "Can you do it?" In the imperial palace, only people like Wang Changyue who have advanced to a certain level will not be infiltrated by the turbid air, otherwise ordinary people from the Taoist sect will lose their minds sooner or later when they enter this place where the rich, the wealthy, the treacherous and the evil gather.In history, there are not a few Taoist priests who have achieved a lot of cultivation, but lost their minds and committed evil and pleasure because of accompanying the king.

Sang Zhi bowed, "The younger generation has heard a little about the Longmen School, and also knows that the Longmen School has strict laws and regulations, and dare not blaspheme."

Wang Changyue said sternly, "There are no rules. The palace has rules, and the Longmen sect also has the rules of the Longmen sect. The promise made by the poor Taoist is definitely not to give you a chance to escape from the palace. If you want to leave with the poor Taoist, you must Sincerely and sincerely, there is nothing to worry about." He said and sighed, "You are originally a savvy person, but it is a pity that your fate is weird. In the early years, Pindao wanted to accept you as a disciple to save you, but it was a pity. Now your fate has changed. Although the bones are still there, the evil roots are deep, and the poor can't bear it, so I have today's words. Wen Lan—”

Hearing Wang Changyue's name suddenly, Sang Zhi's heart skipped a beat, "You...you knew me in the early years?"

"Your small characters are still given to you by Pindao. Those who are gentle and weak are also weak. Your life is strange and turbulent, so Pindao named you the word 'Wen'. Take it easy."

Sang Zhi's heart was pounding, "Daozhang, what do you mean by strange fate? You...I..." She shook her hands excitedly, "Can you let me go back to the original place?"

"The original?" Wang Changyue shook her head and smiled, "What is the original, what is the past? You have to understand that people in the world are like guests, and they stand alone in their own form. Your presence is your original."

Sang Zhi was downcast, full of disappointment, but inexplicably relieved.

Wang Changyue said, "You have to think carefully about it. If you want to leave, you have to be resolute and have no regrets. You must devote yourself to the Tao and abandon the world. The poor Tao will take you away, not for you to escape. There is always a balance between gains and losses." After all, Wang Changyue got up and left.

Only Sangzhi was left alone in the guest room, and it became more and more difficult to choose.

She is a woman, leaving the palace to go to the outside world, the world of the Qing Dynasty cannot accommodate a single woman except temples.She has no roots and foundation, and is alone. If she does not leave the palace, she will leave the palace. What is the way out?This is the era when women are not treated as human beings. Even the noble queen is just a man's plaything, let alone the daughter of a slave-coated family.She thought too well of the outside world.The imperial palace belonged to the Qing Dynasty, and the world also belonged to the Qing Dynasty. It was difficult to live in the palace, but it was even harder to live outside.Sangzhi thought of Sangu——

In the outer courtyard, I felt that those days were unbearably miserable, but Sangu was actually grateful for this, fortunate to be able to work in the palace.It is conceivable that how many women like Sangu in the world live what kind of life!Thinking about Sang Zhi's own life experience, she was sold to the palace by her family, who exchanged her for some money.Every year, the Chuxiu Palace selects maids, how many poor people have no livelihood, and sell their children and daughters just for a bite to eat.

She also remembered the historical materials she had read, which were not Qing history, but only recorded the exploitation of tenants by landlords before the founding of the People's Republic of China.For the tenants who depend on the landlord for survival, the children in the family are at the mercy of the landlord.Especially the daughter, who always has to be sent to the landlord's house to break the melons before the wedding. To put it bluntly, she is reduced to the landlord's plaything.It had been a long time since the fall of the Qing Dynasty, not to mention that it is the right time now.This is an era when ordinary people have no human rights, let alone freedom.

Unless you become a monk.Being a monk is the only way out, but becoming a monk is not as good as imagined.There are only a handful of masters who have achieved Taoism, and Taoism and Buddhism have finally entered the secular world. Some people have rivers and lakes, and there will be no disputes of interests in the rivers and lakes.The advantage is probably that it is less suffocating than in the palace, but after becoming a monk, can she really concentrate on it?Needless to say, the rules and disciplines are just a single word - the word "Sule" is engraved on it stroke by stroke, how could she have no regrets?Even now, thinking of Su Le's tears, she was in so much pain that she didn't know what to do.It is easy to say cruel words, but it is really not easy to do cruel things.

Leaving means becoming a monk, giving up Sule, and giving up feelings.Feelings are not child's play, and becoming a monk is even less child's play, there is no room for maneuver.Sang Zhi smiled wryly, so it turned out that no matter what, there was no way to escape.

No matter what choice you make, you have to face the twists and turns.Alive, there is no retreat.

At most, it was just a short break to catch my breath.People need to recognize the reality.

Sang Zhi unconsciously followed Wang Changyue's appearance, sitting cross-legged and meditating with eyes closed, but his thoughts were flying wild.She peeled away the clouds and mists layer by layer, looking for her sanity layer by layer, and suddenly understood Wang Changyue's intention for her to take off her clothes.People need skins and layers of self-protection, but they must not be fooled by foreign objects and lose their innocence.Wearing the queen's clothes does not mean that she is a queen, she is a slave in her position.Confucius said, walk in the ordinary position, and do what you do in that position.This is the need of social order.The current social division of labor requires her to act in this way, but... it doesn't mean she has to submit to this order.

Thinking about it, she fell asleep.When I woke up the next day, I opened the door, and there was already a young Taoist cleaning the house.

Sangzhi stepped forward and saluted her, and the Taoist returned the salute.Just as Sang Zhi was about to leave, she suddenly thought of a question, "Dare to ask, but is the master a master?" She wanted to find out what was going on with the monks.

"I don't have talent because I'm poor, but I come from Baiyun Temple." The Taoist asked, "I don't have the chance to study under the teacher of the state."

Seeing that the young Taoist respected Wang Changyue so much, Sang Zhi purposely chatted with him if he wanted to inquire, and suddenly heard him say, "A while ago, Bai Yun contemplated human life, and the national teacher personally practiced the method to save people."

Sang Zhi's heart skipped a beat, "Human life?"

"Ah!" The young Taoist priest sighed, and said in a low voice, "Because the poor Taoist stayed in the palace all year round, I only found out that the one who died was Jinxiu from Yongshou Palace. Poor her, she was already miserable in the palace, and she didn't get anything when she was about to die." A good death." He said again, "However, having a national teacher save her is considered a blessing."

Sang Zhi was startled, "Splendid?!"

The young Taoist priest glanced at her, "Don't you know? Everyone in the palace knows that the corpses have been buried long ago."

"Everyone knows?" Sang Zhi was extremely shocked, she clearly remembered that what the queen told her was that Jinxiu went out of the palace to get medical treatment.how could be!Her heart was beating too fast, and she pretended to be curious and asked about the case in detail. All she knew was that Jinxiu went to Baiyun Temple to seek medical treatment, but unexpectedly died in the back mountain.Sang Zhi was probably sure that the half of the silver note that the third aunt gave her that day was Jinxiu's, and then he thought about Jinxiu's last words - he did not blame her.

--green.

Sang Zhi was struck by lightning for a moment, got up and went straight to Yongshou Palace.

☆, every night heart

Tonight will be New Year's Eve, but now Yongshou Palace is still strictly prohibited from entering and leaving.Sangzhi stood at the door, looking at the two serious guards, his heart sank.The guard said that no one is allowed to enter without the order of the empress.

In other words, it is equivalent to putting Concubine Jing under house arrest here.

The Empress must have known about Jinxiu's death, Sang Zhi's eyes darkened, it seemed that Su Le deliberately lied to her about Concubine Jing.Even though she could find 1 reasonable explanations for Su Le's behavior, her heart still turned cold for a moment.

Her heart was ups and downs, undecided.My thoughts on Su Le also gathered and scattered, and I wanted to talk about it.

There will be a New Year's Eve banquet on New Year's Eve. It stands to reason that Concubine Jing will also be present.Tonight the emperor will join hands with the empress to observe the new year and stay overnight in Kunning Palace.Thinking of this, Sang Zhi was a little out of breath.The light in her eyes finally dimmed completely, and she secretly made a decision.

But she still has one thing on her mind, about Jinxiu and Concubine Jing.Jinxiu's last wish was held in her hand, just to tell Concubine Jing a word.Sang Zhi didn't dare to think about why Jinxiu's last words were "I didn't blame her", and she didn't want to guess what happened in Yongshou Palace.She just stood at the gate of Yongshou Palace, looking at this lifeless palace, thinking of Concubine Jing who seemed to be buried alive here, and desperately wanted to escape.She couldn't enter Yongshou Palace, she stood silently for a long time, and had no choice but to leave.

It was almost noon, and Wang Changyue had already returned.Sangzhi, who had been silent for a long time, bowed, "May I devote myself to the Tao and become a monk with the national teacher." She knelt down.

Wang Changyue looked at her aggressively, "Have you thought it through?"

"Yes, I've figured it out." Sang Zhi lowered her eyes and kowtowed deeply.

"That being the case, let's leave with Pindao tonight." Wang Changyue said, "Do you have other things?"

Sang Zhi thought for a while, "I wonder if the national teacher can give me half a bank note?"

For such a strange request, Wang Changyue didn't ask anything.He winked at Dao Tong beside him, and that Dao Tong took out a bank note, tore it in half and handed it to Sang Zhi.Sang Zhi hurriedly thanked her, but she heard Wang Changyue say, "Since you are determined to leave, this matter has nothing to do with you."

"I still have one thing on my mind."

"Death is not a sure thing, let alone life. If you want to let go, let it go."

Sang Zhi shook his hands, kowtowed and said, "It's about the last wish of the deceased, if I can't do this, I'm afraid I'll be restless for the rest of my life."

"Alas!" Wang Changyue let out a long sigh and let her go.

Sangzhi wrote the character "Qing" on the bank note according to the appearance in his memory. After thinking about it, he found the three characters "I will live up to you" in the corner of the bank note according to the book.On New Year's Eve, Yongshou Palace was also entered and exited by people sent by Kunning Palace, Sang Zhi waited until the deliverer stopped him, and quietly stuffed half a silver ticket in.There is not much she can do, so she can be said to be doing her best, and she has lived up to the last wish of the deceased.

It's not a big deal to take Sangzhi away, Wang Changyue doesn't need to mention it, just say it before leaving.He is now accompanying the emperor in the Qianqing Palace, and will go to the Cining Palace with the emperor later.We have to go back to Baiyun Temple before dinner.

Sang Zhi silently waited in the Qin'an Hall, feeling that time passed very slowly.Every minute and every second seems to be stretched infinitely, as if there is no end to it.While waiting, she became more and more anxious.Obviously leaving should be a relief, but why did she become more and more uneasy.As if looking through the autumn water, she couldn't help looking towards the direction of Kunning Palace, and sighed for a long time - she knew why she was uneasy.

Yes, she told Wang Changyue that she would become a monk, if there was no Su Le.

She hated the palace, even with Sule in it.

However, once she thought that she was going to leave Su Le alone in such a terrifying place, she seemed to lose her soul.Stay, difficult, not stay, also difficult.She refused to give up the chance to leave, and always felt that if she missed this opportunity, she would regret it for the rest of her life.But now I feel that if I leave, I am afraid that my life will be uneasy.

Sang Zhi didn't move, but her mind was in a mess.Something should be left for Sule, something that will be useful for a lifetime, and you can't just leave like this.Sang Zhi became more and more anxious, and suddenly a flash of inspiration-Xuan Ye!Her life was too humble and rough, and she had long forgotten about Emperor Kangxi. After all, the rank of the prince was too far away from her, and she could not get in touch with it at all.Suddenly thinking of it at this moment, Sang Zhi's heart was pounding. She had wanted to tell the queen to catch Xuan Ye, the prince. She wanted to say it when she met Su Le and it was not so realistic, but she never did. Find the right opportunity.It's too late to say no more now!

She stood up abruptly.Seeing that the sun was setting and dusk was coming, the national teacher was about to return, but Sang Zhi couldn't wait to go to Kunning Palace.As for whether she wanted to tell the queen about Xuan Ye, or just had an irresistible desire to see Su Le, she could tell the difference, but she didn't want to.But right now it doesn't matter whether she is clear or not. The important thing is that she wants to see Su Le.I went to see Su Le last night, was it really to say goodbye?He just wanted to find enough reasons for his departure from the queen.Now that she really decided to leave, all kinds of emotions came to her head, and her heart was full of nostalgia.She couldn't let Su Le go at all.

Sangzhi hurried out.But as soon as she stepped out of the room, she saw Wang Changyue had returned from a distance, accompanied by an eunuch from the [-]th yamen.Sang Zhi froze, knowing that the eunuch from the Fourteenth Yamen was going to Kunning Palace to ask for her slave status.

"I have seen the national teacher." Sang Zhi hurriedly saluted.

Wang Changyue took a look at her, "Let's go."

"Where are you going?" Sang Zhi panicked.

"Go back to Baiyun Temple."

"Now?" Sang Zhi asked anxiously, "Don't you want to cancel your slave status first?"

Wang Changyue said indifferently, "Of course the people in the palace will handle the trivial matters in the palace, so don't worry about that." In fact, because of Wang Changyue's special status, he can take Sangzhi away directly.As for the follow-up matters, the Taoist priest of Baiyun Temple in the Qin'an Hall of the imperial palace will take care of them one by one.It was nothing more than some formalities, such as obtaining slave registration from Kunning Palace and handing it over to the Fourteenth Yamen, and then the Fourteenth Yamen reported it to the Empress Dowager, ordering her to become a monk.In the end, this decree will be handed over to Baiyun Temple together with Sangzhi's slave status.

Sang Zhi felt suffocated, when the time came, the queen would have to hand over her slave status, and then... from then on, the two had nothing to do with each other.

As soon as the word "two irrelevant" comes out, Sang Zhi's nose becomes sore.It seems that a heart is also pulled together with these four words.Sang Zhi couldn't stand still, her hands trembled uncontrollably.Last night, Su Le's expression appeared in front of her eyes, and she couldn't help thinking that Su Le would hate her.How could she just walk away like this!

"Let's go." Wang Changyue's voice was not loud, but it was like a giant bell hitting Sang Zhi's heart, she took a step back subconsciously, "No..."

Wang Changyue looked at her, and Sang Zhi said in a panic, "I...I still have something to do, I..." Before Wang Changyue could answer, she gritted her teeth and ran towards Kunning Palace.

Looking at her back, Wang Changyue shook her head and sighed softly, then said to the eunuch beside her, "Excuse me, come over here, I'm sorry to say goodbye."

The eunuch was surprised, "Don't you wait for Sang Zhi?"

"She can't go." After saying that, Wang Changyue clasped her hands and saluted, and left by herself.In fact, Wang Changyue just invited the eunuchs from the Fourteenth Yamen to test Sangzhi.Is it easy to be an apprentice of a national teacher?Numerous tests are essential.Wang Changyue knew that she was sinking more and more now, and it was impossible for her to leave sincerely if her mind was not clear.Therefore, he didn't mention it to the Empress Dowager, but brought the fourteen yamen eunuchs who came to look for him. Such a test of Sang Zhi made a mess.Wang Changyue knew that this girl had become a part of the palace.Things in the world cannot be forced.Especially the matter of becoming a monk cannot be forced.

Sangzhi ran around in this palace, the closer he got to Kunning Palace, the more at ease he felt.She walked all the way, and finally calmed down completely.Standing at the gate of Kunning Palace, Sang Zhi's mouth curled up slightly, but her eyes were full of complex bitterness. The tip of her nose was sour, her eyes were warm and she smiled with relief, and whispered, "This is my hometown."

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But the queen empress in Kunning Palace seemed to have changed overnight.She fell down, and Cai Wanyun invited the imperial doctor.Ever since she woke up, the Empress has been silent, her eyes fixed on