Thousands of years

Cold sweat broke out on my forehead, and the blood dripping from my lips dripped on the remaining snow on the ground, it was dazzling red, and Juque fell from my hand. I covered my stinging heart, and called softly: Ruoqing, where are you?

During the day, I try to keep myself busy and don't think about her. I patrol the streets for everyone, and I work hard to investigate cases no matter how big or small. I refuse every word that tells me to rest. I don't want to stop. I I'm afraid I'll stop, there is her shadow in every corner of Kaifeng Mansion, in the corridor, under the parasol tree, beside the stone table, beside the window sill, I dare not think about it, for fear that when I think about it, the deep lovesickness will overwhelm my heart. The heart is riddled with thorns.

This situation lasted for half a month, and one day I couldn't bear it anymore and passed out on the road patrolling the streets. When I woke up, I saw a sad-faced adult. His eyes with deep sighs and pity burned my heart. , I suddenly realized my selfishness, adults are taking care of everything for the country and the people, but I still make him worry about me.

I stood up and said in a hoarse voice, "Your subordinate is tired and worried."

"Son, it's hard for you." The adult said in a deep voice: "Let Mr. Gongsun prescribe some medicine for you to rest and rest." At that moment, I clearly saw tears in his eyes. It's time to try to forget.

Three months after Ruoqing left, I just mustered up the courage to walk into the small courtyard where she lived. I didn’t resist everything related to her like I did at the beginning, even her name. At this moment, I actually wanted to find her Everything, I stepped into the small courtyard, here is her breath, there is her figure, she is standing by the window practicing calligraphy, she bends down to water the chrysanthemums in the house, she is lying on the bed weakly after her poisonous hair, I hold the Holding the writing brush she took, I thought of myself laughing at her ugly handwriting; I looked down at the chrysanthemum on the window sill, and at this moment the chrysanthemum sprouted again; I stroked the pillow she had been lying on, thinking that she was still strong after such pain. Make a smile.Tears finally welled up in my eyes. It has been three months without any news of her, and I don't know if she is alive or dead.How cruel is God?Send her to me and take her away.If she really returns to her own time, does that mean she can survive?If this is the case, as long as she lives, it is good.I swallowed my tears, and a smile appeared on the corner of my lips, as if she was right in front of me, and we looked at each other and smiled every time.Really, Ruoqing, it is good for you to live.

I found time to visit old man Lin a few times, and Dai Yuanju was still open. Although the business was unusually deserted, old man Lin was persistently waiting for his daughter to come back.I don't know how to comfort him, Ruoqing disappeared in Kaifeng mansion, and there is no news of her until now.All I can do is to take care of him from time to time, but such a lonely old man has lost his most reliable daughter, nothing can make up for it.Finally, on a windy spring day, old man Lin fell ill. I asked the doctor to hurry to the small courtyard where he lived. Grasping, Old Man Lin's old and thin face was full of sadness: "Master Zhan, tell me, where did Ruoqing go? Is she no longer alive? Tell me the truth, I can bear it."

I didn't dare to look into his eyes, and said in a low and hoarse voice: "No. Ruoqing has returned to her hometown. Her hometown is far away, and she will not come back." I closed my eyes in pain, Now I can only use these words to comfort this old man who lost his beloved daughter, and also to comfort my broken heart. I hope she really lives in her time, peaceful and peaceful, without pain.

Uncle Lin let go of my sleeves, sighed heavily, and lay back on the bed. I didn't dare to stay, so I went out and grabbed the medicine, and went to the kitchen to decoct it. After passing Ruoqing's room, I stopped in my tracks, as if by accident , I walked into her room, and what caught my eye was the lavender bed curtain she likes, the simple and generous furnishings, as clean and tidy as she was when she was still there, presumably Mrs. Lin would come to clean it from time to time, maybe everything here will be cleaned again. Can't wait for its owner.I smiled wryly, and was about to turn around and leave, but my footsteps were pinned by the Mohele on the small table in front of the window. That familiar appearance touched the softest part of my heart, and I walked forward step by step carefully, for fear of being alarmed. I caressed the sweet and cute doll with a smile on its face, and stroked its eyebrows, eyes, nose, and lips, just like touching the face of my beloved girl. Tell me you're safe too.

In the early summer, news came from the empty island that Bai Yutang and the eldest lady of the Minglan Sect, Ye Youlan, would get married soon. Can this noisy white mouse finally settle down and live?He and that Miss Ye are really happy friends.No matter what, he was able to stay with the one he loves for the rest of his life. I was happy for him. I prepared a gift and bid farewell to Mr. Bao. I hurried to Xingkong Island without stopping. Sleeping in the wild like every time you go out to handle a case.

If you have been driving for a few days, the empty island will be close in front of you, and when you come to a small hillside, the horse seems to be a little tired, and it neighs, and turns around on the spot, refusing to take a step forward. In desperation, I had no choice but to get off the horse, patted its back and let it walk around by itself.

Looking around, I suddenly found that this is the place where Ruoqing and I went to Xingkong Island to search for medicine last year. Does the horse know what I mean?Knowing that there are sweetness and bitterness between me and her here, do you deliberately stop for me to reminisce?

I searched in the grass, trying to find the slightest trace of us, but there was nothing, nothing.She ran into the depths of the grass without knowing the depth, and when I said be careful of snakes, she stuck out her tongue in a playful look; she could eat roasted hares with a smile and a sweet look; she accidentally touched her head in the carriage and made a sound of grievance Appearance: and her shy and infinite appearance in my arms.I close my eyes and recall a little bit, everything seems like yesterday, the scene is still there but the person is no longer there.She said that she likes to travel around, but she has never had the opportunity to see the vast grassland or the vast sea. She said that she has many wishes that have not been fulfilled, but she is really unwilling to die.Will God give me another chance?Let her return to my side, I would like to take her to travel all over the country, see all the scenery in the north and the scenery in the south, so that she will have no regrets in her life.

Ruoqing is back!Come back to me, let me fulfill your wish little by little, and make up for my guilt and self-blame.

Ruoqing is back!Aren't we promised to be together forever?How can you bear to break your promise and leave me here alone to taste the deep-rooted lovesickness?

I don't know when it will rain in the sky, but are you crying?If you really miss, why didn't you come into my dream once?

I should forget it after all, I have decided to keep her and her bits and pieces in the quietest corner of my heart, but for some reason, when I am touched by a familiar person or thing inadvertently, the memories flood in like a flood, It messed up my already calm heartbeat again.

I turned around and led the horse, turned on the horse, pulled the rein, and the horse kicked away slowly. I didn’t look back, life must go on, and there are more important things for me to do. People can’t live forever. in memory.

As time goes by, my hope fades away, she really really won't appear again, as she said, she has really become a passer-by in my life, and this passer-by has left the deepest memory in my heart Branding, this life can never be healed again.

When I went to Xiangzhou to handle the case, I rescued the miss magistrate of Xiangzhou who was murdered by the enemy, and escorted her all the way back to the capital. This is the only witness in this case. I tried my best to protect her. There was a sudden change at home, and I was at a loss for a while. All I could do was try my best to comfort her and take care of her as much as I could. to Kaifeng.This kind of thing happened before, and I didn't pay much attention at first, but I gradually realized that something was wrong. This Miss Li would wash, sew and mend my clothes specially, and then fold them and put them on my bedside. I will find out when I return home The tea in the teapot is always warm, and when I return at night, she can always bring me supper at the right time. She will secretly look at me from behind, and when I realize that I turn around, her eyes will be avoided in a hurry.Seeing everything she has done for me, how can I not know her thoughts, but there is only one person in my heart, no matter how good others are, it is not her after all.

When I found a suitable time, I politely rejected her intention, showing that I already had my heart, but who knew she didn't care and said, "I know, but isn't that Miss Lin long gone?"

A trace of anger welled up in my eyes, and my voice became cold: "Who told you that she is dead, she just returned to her hometown."

Ms. Li seemed to be taken aback by my appearance, but she was a little unwilling, and whispered: "But she will never come back no matter what."

When she said the pain in my heart, my eyes darkened, yes, she will never come back.I said in a hoarse voice: "Zhan can't forget her in his heart, I'm afraid he can only let the girl down. If the girl insists on pestering Zhan, don't blame Zhan for being ruthless."

"You!" As if she didn't expect me to refuse so bluntly, Ms. Li's eyes were red, she stomped her feet and turned away.

I looked at the phoenix tree in the courtyard, and I seemed to see her looking up at the bird's nest on the tree again. A trace of sweetness came to my heart: Ruoqing, I can't do it, I can't have you in my heart, but I accept other women.

In the days that followed, although Ms. Li came to express my feelings from time to time, I couldn't help but keep my cold face to her and keep a distance from her deliberately.