guilty of [entertainment]

"Okay," Chen Mo said, "Even if you hate me, I won't let you go.

Du Yeqing laughed, pulled Chen Mo's hands in front of his eyes, shook them, and said, "Where's your ring?"

Chen Mo raised his chin, and unbuttoned the top two buttons of his shirt, revealing the ring that was strung by a black rope and fell in the middle of the collarbone.As if unexpectedly, Du Yeqing let out a guilty "ah", Chen Mo frowned, and touched his empty fingers instead: "Where's yours?"

Du Yeqing looked away and stared at the garden downstairs: "I threw it into the Mediterranean Sea three years ago."

Chen Mo didn't speak. Du Yeqing waited for a while and didn't get an answer. Turning his head, he saw Chen Mo untie the black rope around his neck and hold it in his hand, and walked to the edge of the balcony.

"Wait," Du Yeqing stood up and strode towards him, "Don't..."

However, the ring had already drawn a silver parabola under the moonlight, the light was faintly visible, and quickly fell silently into the mirror-like lake, leaving only a few leisurely ripples, like a shattered dream.

Du Yeqing turned to look at Chen Mo angrily: "What are you doing, so stingy?"

Chen Mo was actually laughing, his always dark pupils were shining brightly under the moonlight, he stared at Du Yeqing's eyes with some heat, and said, "Next time, put on a real ring."

Du Yeqing was stunned for a moment. The excessively naked burning in Chen Mo's eyes made him want to look away subconsciously, and he seemed to be tightly attracted by a magnet and couldn't move no matter how hard he looked, his chest became hot as well. , the words were ruthless, but the corners of the mouth were hooked up: "There are still many things to do before then."

"En," Chen Mo repeated what Du Yeqing said during the day, "Take your time."

Du Yeqing smiled, turned around, and leaned his elbows on the copper railing.Chen Mo walked up to him and gently hooked his little finger.

In the quiet garden on the first floor, Lan Yuan, who had changed into a white dress, walked among the unknown flowers in full bloom.She seemed to have just taken a shower, her hair was wet behind her back, and she was holding a shower-like thing in her hand, standing in the garden watering the flowers and plants, and she was in the sight of the two people upstairs.Du Yeqing slowly stood up straight, his fingers twisted together unconsciously, and Chen Mo held them in his hands.

After a while, Alex also followed, walking slowly beside Lan Yuan, bowing his head and talking to her.Lan Yuan stopped for a moment, turned sideways, and the moonlight illuminated her face.

The smile on Du Yeqing's face had disappeared, but he didn't show any pain or sadness. He just looked straight at the two people in the garden and Lan Yuan's face expressionlessly.Chen Mo frowned, and followed his gaze to look downstairs. The people in the garden seemed to be arguing about something. Lan Yuan threw the sprinkler on the ground, turned around and ran into the room, Alex walked quickly He caught up with her, held her tightly in his arms, and let her struggle without letting go.

Du Yeqing just watched without moving. Chen Mo shook his hand and said, "What are you looking at?"

Du Yeqing withdrew his gaze, turned his back, and leaned against Chen Mo: "Look at the scar on her face."

Chen Mo hugged him: "The current technology should be able to..." Before he finished speaking, Du Yeqing suddenly walked out of his arms, took a change of clothes in his backpack, and went into the bathroom without saying a word .Chen Mo was stunned for a while. Hearing the sound of splashing water coming from the bathroom, he also opened the door and walked into the bathroom.

It was close to four o'clock in the morning, and it was still dark. Chen Mo, who had been in a light sleep due to jet lag, felt the bed surface move. When his brain fully woke up, he was the only one left in the room.

Chen Mo felt his chest suffocate almost reflexively. After sitting quietly for a few minutes, he slowly recalled what Du Yeqing said last night, calmed down a little, and got up to find someone.The whole building was quiet, Du Yeqing was not found on the first and second floors, and he called his cell phone, only to hear the phone vibrate from the bedroom.When Chen Mo wanted to go to the third floor and the rooftop to have a look, he met Alex who was also in a hurry on the stairs.

"Hey, buddy." Alex turned on the light with a look of surprise, "wake up so early?"

"You are also very early, what's the matter?"

"I'm looking for her... Wait, are you looking for Du?"

The two looked at each other and saw the same thing in each other's eyes.After a few seconds of silence, Alex immediately relaxed, shrugged his shoulders, and smiled at Chen Mo: "I'll go back and sleep."

Chen Mo was still anxious, and couldn't help frowning: "Aren't you worried?"

Alex patted him on the shoulder, his voice was unexpectedly gentle: "They are mother and child, there is nothing to worry about."

Chen Mo was stunned for a moment, Alex blinked at him with a smile, waved his hand slightly, and really turned around and went back into the bedroom.

Chen Mo felt a little unspeakably disturbed. He didn't know whether it was because he couldn't find Du Yeqing, saw Alex who didn't care, or both.Du Yeqing was reluctant to mention his mother's matter to him, but Alex knew everything about their past entanglements, was it because he couldn't open Lan Yuan's heart like Alex did?Or is it because of the ditch in his heart that Brother Qing said?

That feeling of uneasiness surfaced again, and Chen Mo went back to the room alone, sat where Du Yeqing sat yesterday, while smoking a cigarette, thinking over and over again what Du Yeqing said in the living room yesterday, trying his best to I want to suppress the wavering in my heart.The dark blue sky outside gradually became brighter. After sitting helplessly on the balcony for two hours, Chen Mo finally went to the rooftop on the third floor, but there was still no sign of Du Yeqing.

He more or less knew Du Yeqing's purpose for bringing him here suddenly, and also knew that his anxiety, possessiveness and panic had exceeded the normal range, but the long separation made something deeply engraved in his bones, almost Became something like instinct.Why did Brother Qing change his attitude all of a sudden and make such an affectionate confession?And why has Brother Qing been reluctant to bring up the painful past with him?Why did he get up before dawn and leave him alone in the bedroom?Was he insomnia last night, thinking about when, regretting his decision?

Chen Mo sat down in the rocking chair on the balcony again. It was seven o'clock and it was already daylight, but Du Yeqing still didn't come back.He was smoking a cigarette, feeling that he was simply crazy, and no matter what, he couldn't control the dark thoughts that grew like weeds in his heart.He remembered a short story called "Tony Waterfall" that he had read a long time ago. He kept getting and giving hope, just to make the protagonist fall into eternal despair and loneliness. Emotions went to freezing point.When he reached out to touch the cigarette again, he found that the cigarette box was empty.

At eight o'clock, Alex made breakfast and greeted Chen Mo for dinner.Chen Mo put on a mask as usual, ate like a normal person, and even chatted with Alex in English for more than ten minutes.At [-]:[-], they washed the dishes together, but Du Yeqing didn't come back, neither did Lan Yuan.

Alex went to the garden to take care of the plants. Chen Mo asked him for a cigarette. While smoking, he tidied up the room, threw all the dirty clothes changed yesterday into the washing machine, and hung them in a row on the balcony. Cleaned every corner.After everything was done, it was already ten o'clock in the morning.

A big golden-haired dog ran into the garden from a distance. Alex put down his hoe and played with it for a long time, and then went into the house to feed it.Chen Mo was sitting in a chair, watching this from upstairs, the anxiety of waiting made his heart start to clot, as if he had sunk into it during this long morning.

At eleven o'clock, two tall and short figures came from the end of the path. The tall one was holding a big fish in his left hand and a big bag in his right hand. The short one was wearing a floral dress and carrying a bag. shoulder bag.The gloomy Chen Mo finally had light in his eyes. He jumped up from his chair and leaned on the railing to look at Du Yeqing's familiar figure.Soon, he realized something, turned around, dumped the cigarette butts and ash into the trash can as quickly as possible, opened all the doors and windows to let fresh air in, went to the bathroom to wash his face with cold water, and even sprinkled A little perfume by the sink to cover the strong smell of smoke on my body.

There was the sound of opening the door from below, and then the voice of Lan Yuan and Alex talking.Familiar footsteps came upstairs. Chen Mo leaned back on the chair, with the light behind him, and watched the door of the room being pushed open. Du Yeqing, who was slightly tired with dark circles, finally walked in. In sight.

Du Yeqing poured himself a glass of water, poured it all into his stomach in one breath, walked over and took Chen Mo's hand, fell into the chair, and let out a long sigh of relief.

"Traveled downtown. Tired. Have you eaten?"

Chen Mo smiled nonchalantly: "Well, Alex made breakfast, cleaned the room after eating, and washed all the clothes yesterday."

Du Yeqing glanced at the clothes on the balcony and laughed. When he turned his head to look at Chen Mo again, his heart suddenly jumped uncomfortably.

Chen Mo still had a smile on his face, watching him affectionately and tenderly like many days and nights before.Du Yeqing couldn't help frowning slightly, Chen Mo's mouth moved slightly, and asked him, "What's the matter? Sudden frown."

Du Yeqing looked at him: "Did you wear perfume?"

"do not like?"

Du Yeqing stood up, shook his head, hugged Chen Mo into his arms, lowered his head and kissed his lips: "I like it."

Chen Mo hesitated for half a second, Du Yeqing noticed it sensitively, frowned, buried his head into his neck, and sniffed the strange smell of perfume.

"Are you smoking?" Du Yeqing raised his head and looked at his face carefully, "There are so many bloodshot eyes, what's going on?"

Chen Mo flashed a nervous look, held Du Yeqing's hand, and said naturally: "Jet lag, a little insomnia, it's nothing."

It's just some small and dispensable details, but when Du Yeqing recalled what the psychiatrist said, his heart sank, he pushed Chen Mo away, and turned to look for the cigarette he put on the bedside table yesterday. The boxes are gone.Chen Mo followed closely behind him, and called out: "Brother Qing." Du Yeqing took a deep look at him, walked around him, walked around the room a few times, and found the most inconspicuous place. Trash can in the corner.

The trash can was full of ashes and cigarette butts, almost the amount of a pack and a half of cigarettes.

The room fell into silence. Du Yeqing turned to look at Chen Mo. Chen Mo stood by the bed, pursed his lips, and looked away.

Du Yeqing's anger burned, his hands clenched into fists, and he wanted to punch the person in front of him hard in the face.Chen Mo seemed to know what he was going to do, walked up to him quickly, and pulled his fist: "If you are angry, hit me."

Du Yeqing punched the cotton, helplessly extinguished the fire in his stomach, and lightly thumped his shoulder: "Have you forgotten what you said last night?"

"……give me some more time."

"I don't have this plan." Du Yeqing said, "Let me guess, you woke up after I got up, and then smoked while waiting for me to come back? Why did you smoke so much? When I was away, you were thinking what?"

Chen Mo did not speak, lowered his eyes, and straightened Du Yeqing's somewhat messy collar.

"Let me guess again, wondering what Lan Yuan and I will do? Think I will leave you behind and never come back?" Du Yeqing looked at Chen Mo's face, "Or, want to imprison me, let me Can't leave you forever? Or is he so irritable that he wants to burn this place down? Of course, if you don't tell me, I can guess forever. In the morning of a certain year, a certain month, Chen Mo kept something from me, and in my Pretending to be peaceful, just like how he tricked me into going to France..."

"...all of them." Chen Mo's movements stopped, his voice trembling imperceptibly, "all of them." Du Yeqing gave an "En" and waited for him.

"I'm wondering if you're regretting it again, regretting what you said yesterday. I'm thinking about whether you really forgave me for what happened five years ago, and also, are you jealous of Alex." Chen Mo said one by one , "I also want to throw [-] roses from the plane to propose to you. I want the whole world to know that you are my lover. I want you to love me only in the next life. Don't take a step away from me, and I'm afraid You are angry..."

The following words disappeared in Du Yeqing's kiss, the two hugged each other tightly, and fell into the strange, soft double bed.Chen Mo eagerly stroked Du Yeqing's body, bit his lips, earlobe, and Adam's apple, panting and whispered: "You are angry."

Du Yeqing rolled over on top of him, pressed his forehead with one hand, and looked into those dark eyes seriously: "You shouldn't have lied to me, you did it five years ago, and you do it today. Don't lie to me again, These are the limits of what I can bear.”

Chen Mo hugged him tightly, buried his head between his necks, and muffled "I'm sorry", Du Yeqing sighed softly: "Don't do this next time, I will also Will pay attention to..."

……

At noon, Lan Yuan and Du Yeqing were still in charge of the cooking. They moved all the barbecue equipment into the garden and held a small family barbecue party.The almost one-meter-long fish that Du Yeqing brought back was made into fillets of various shapes, together with beef, mutton and various vegetable beers, it filled three tables.The meal lasted from 11:30 to [-]:[-] in the afternoon. The four of them ate all the food on the three tables, chatting while eating, and the atmosphere was rare and hot.Alex asked Lan Yuan inadvertently on the way: "What did you mother and son do two mornings?" Lan Yuan also replied with a smile: "Together we went for a stroll in the garden, took a walk, and met the neighbor next door to go shopping in the city." Alan, I took his ride and went downtown to drink coffee and do some shopping. Ye Qing also accompanied me to a facial treatment, and the beautician praised me for taking good care of me, right, Ye Qing?"

Du Yeqing nodded, and Alex asked again, "What did you talk about?"

Lan Yuan just laughed and kept drinking, but Du Yeqing didn't answer.After a brief silence, the topic turned to another direction, eating and chatting, halfway through the beer, Lan Yuan brought out the expensive red wine from her collection, and at the end of the drink, she herself was so drunk that her cheeks turned red , dazedly pulling Du Yeqing and sticking to him, calling his name.Chen Mo stood up first and began to clean up the messy table.Alex on the side also came to help, leaving Du Yeqing alone.

Du Yeqing helped Lan Yuan up and wanted to send her back to the room, but Lan Yuan was holding his arm unwilling to move, her face was covered with sweat, the corners of her eyes were red, her eyeliner and mascara were a little dizzy, and Du Yeqing There were dark brown marks left on Qing's white shirt, and he said "not drunk", "don't go" and "regret" in a confused manner. Du Yeqing comforted her in a low voice, and hugged her up .This action seemed to make Lan Yuan feel dizzy, she stopped resisting, and obediently buried her face in Du Yeqing's chest, revealing a half-slap-sized scar near her ear.

The person who is 1.6 meters five is surprisingly light, but Du Yeqing is almost out of breath.He forced himself to look away from the scar, feeling tight in his chest, carefully carried Lan Yuan into the bedroom, put her on the bed, and wiped her face with a cool towel.

Chen Mo and Alex watched Du Yeqing's back disappear, there was a brief silence, and Alex suddenly said: "She rarely goes to the beauty salon."

Chen Mo put all the garbage into the garbage bag, and couldn't help asking again: "That scar, the current technology should be able to heal it?"

Alex shook his head: "She doesn't want to, she says she deserves it. It's really...whether you deserve it or not, like a child, so stubborn that you can't persuade it..."

The two fell into silence again, quietly thinking about their respective concerns, and cleaned up the mess after the barbecue.About 20 minutes later, when they carried the table back together, Du Yeqing came out alone.

Alex asked, "What about her?"

"Sleep."

Du Yeqing helped lift the table, turned around and went back upstairs without saying anything.When Chen Mo chased after him, he saw him packing their few luggage.

Chen Mo was a little dazed: "Aren't you going to say goodbye?"

Du Yeqing said "En", and quickly put away all the things and put on the backpack.Chen Mo frowned, and blocked the door: "Auntie will be very sad when she wakes up."

"I know," Du Yeqing turned his head slightly to prevent Chen Mo from seeing his whole face, with an extremely sad expression in the corners of his eyes, "I don't know how to say goodbye. I'm not even qualified to come here, she said However, if you want to sever the mother-child relationship with me, it is best never to meet again..."

Chen Mo was stunned, he didn't expect Lan Yuan to say such a thing: "How can you count what you said at that time?"

Du Yeqing shook his head: "She still has that scar to this day, and she must have not forgotten what she said at that time. Let me tell you, on the eve of her wedding, when a fire broke out, I was crushed under the collapsed solid wood wardrobe , she rushed in to save me, my heart was ashamed, and I told her to either let me die here, or give up marrying that man, she kept crying, promised me that I would never marry anyone in my life, and rescued me from under the cabinet When he came out, he was hit on the cheek by burning wood..."

Chen Mo's heart sank.

"I regretted it afterwards, wishing I had died in that fire. When I went to see her in the hospital, she said that it would be better for us to cut off the relationship between mother and child, and never see each other again in this life. Not long after saying this, She quit the entertainment industry and came to Sweden alone." Du Yeqing smiled bitterly, "I don't even have the right to say I'm sorry, I just wanted to take you here to have a look, staying overnight is already crossing the line, now Just go, staying any longer will disturb her current life."

Chen Mo frowned: "Have you ever thought that she actually thinks the same thing as you?"

Du Yeqing just shook his head, without saying anything, went out from Chen Mo's side, and went to the first floor to say goodbye to Alex.Chen Mo quickly followed him, and couldn't help but said again: "Is that really the way to go?"

Alex smiled, not caring at all: "It's okay, come play again next time."

After exchanging a few pleasantries, Du Yeqing led Chen Mo away from this paradise-like wooden house.

All the way silent.It was almost night when they arrived in the urban area, and the two of them who didn't sleep much at night reached the peak of exhaustion.Chen Mo proposed to stay in the hotel for one night before going back. Du Yeqing insisted on booking a night flight, ate something casually in the cafe at the airport, and caught the plane back to J City.

In just two days, whether it was for Chen Mo or Du Yeqing, it seemed like a long time had passed.