guilty of [entertainment]

Du Yeqing always felt that his feelings for Chen Mo were half brother and half lover, and they supported each other all the way to come, and the stream flowed long, and they were together logically.It's not like Hao Ziqian's love at first sight, or TV drama's vigor and vitality; it's not like other ordinary bed partners, who go to bed to hug, and get out of bed to go their separate ways.A month ago, he was still thinking that at Chen Mo's age and family background, he would not be able to get along with him after all, but they were just keeping each other warm for the time being, and one day they would get together and part ways.But now everything is like a great irony, he provoked Chen Mo with the determination to get together and leave, and when the matter came to an end, it hurt like being cut by a blunt knife, so blood dripped from his heart that he couldn't let go.

The wine in the goblet was illuminated by colorful neon lights, reflecting on Du Yeqing's ashen face.He was sitting in this dark corner thinking about things in his dreams like a loser who just woke up from a big dream. Chen Mo took care of him meticulously, with a dark and silent face when he was jealous, and just right acting like a baby when he wanted to please him... It turned into a colorless and odorless poison, which penetrated into his blood completely at some point, hypnotized him, and made him deceive himself into thinking that he was awake and had a big dream.His chest was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, he drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, and wanted to cry in this corner covered by the noise, but the tears couldn't flow out, as if they were blocked by a stopper, One by one, they flow inward, into places where no one can see them.

During this period of time, everyone who felt strange understood why Chen Yu hurriedly held the annual meeting and why he was sent to France.The reporter who exposed him installed a bug in the psychiatrist's room. Most of his conversations with Chen Mo and the things he inquired about Chen Mo had leaked to the Chen family, and they blocked them from posting to the media.The Chen family sent him to France and started to deal with Chen Mo, that's why Chen Mo disappeared strangely, didn't come to see him off, lost contact... But he didn't care about these, because the result of this battle he didn't know was already in his hands In front of him: Even though he had so many opportunities to explain to him, Chen Mo never told him a word about his family from the beginning to the end, and finally chose to abandon him and get engaged to a woman.

Before he had time to prepare to face the resistance on the road to the future with Chen Mo, he had already been abandoned knowing nothing.

Du Yeqing smiled wryly, stopped the waiter, and ordered another glass of wine.When Chen Mo confessed to him in the villa, he accused Chen Mo that you were playing with fire, and in the end he was the fool who caught fire.Those who play with fire are young and sensible, while those who burn themselves will be 31 years old in half a month, and they are alone in the entertainment industry...

The waiter brought the wine over, looked at him hesitantly for several times before leaving.Du Yeqing raised his head and poured the wine into his stomach, and drank another glass in the blink of an eye, the inside of the esophagus was hot, and the inside of the stomach was also hot, as if the pain in his chest was relieved.He stretched out his hand to call the waiter again, but a man in a bartender uniform walked up to him and softly called out in disbelief, "Mr. Du?"

With the light behind him, Du Yeqing couldn't see who was coming, but he didn't want anyone to see this embarrassed look. He lowered his head and put on his sunglasses, stood up without saying a word, and wanted to leave, but he hadn't stepped He turned around and knelt down on his knees.The man hurriedly supported him, and said worriedly: "Be careful." Du Yeqing wanted to push him away, but he said: "It's me, Mr. Du, Yang Junlin."

Du Yeqing didn't hear what he said clearly, the cold sweat on his back had already come down, and after he stood up, his stomach started to hurt like a cramp.In a daze, he was helped from the bar to the back street by this man.It was already past one o'clock in the morning, and there was no one in the back street, and the street lights were also on or off.Du Yeqing squatted under the telephone pole and retched, unable to vomit anything out of his empty stomach, instead he vomited tears from his eyes.The man patted his back and handed him water. He fell and sat on the side of the road. His internal organs seemed to be burned by sulfuric acid. There was a big hole in his heart. It was like a switch was turned on. It flowed out unstoppably.

The night wind was blowing, blowing through one end of his numb heart and blowing out the other.He didn't even cry when he broke up with Hao Ziqian, but he squatted on the street like this because of Chen Mo, whom he had been dating for less than a year.The people around him seemed to be frightened, and hugged him vigorously, saying in a mess, "What's the matter?...It's all over, it's okay, I...it's all my fault..."

There was no one on the street, it was silent.Du Yeqing's voice was tightly suppressed in his throat, it didn't sound like a cry, it was intermittent, very light, and it seemed to weigh a thousand catties, making both of them breathless.

That night, Du Yeqing was sent to the hospital. He was exhausted and his mood fluctuated too much. He went to the bar to get drunk after not eating for a day. He drank directly and developed a high fever in the middle of the night. Like a human being, curled up fragilely like a child, occasionally saying a few unintelligible sleep words.Yang Junlin stayed with him at the bedside all night and drank several bottles of water, but the fever still showed no signs of subsiding, but the fever was getting higher and higher.

The doctor said: "He is not emotionally stable yet, so he has to take his time."

Du Yeqing's phone has been very quiet, only rang once on the third day.Yang Junlin picked it up for him, and his manager asked him why he hadn't returned to France yet.He didn't say anything about Du Yeqing's getting drunk, he only said that he fell ill and was in the hospital, and his consciousness hadn't recovered yet, so he was terrified.After hanging up the phone, no one came to greet him for three whole days.

Yang Junlin felt a bit of secret pleasure in his heart, so he took a few days off work and didn't go to school to stay with him in the hospital.Du Yeqing fell asleep drowsily most of the time, and sometimes woke up without talking much.Yang Junlin could vaguely guess what was going on, so he didn't dare to ask him what was on his mind. He just brought food over every time and chatted casually with him about school affairs.He thought that Du Yeqing would let him go, but he didn't expect that he didn't mention it from the beginning to the end, and stayed with him in the hospital for five days. When he was discharged from the hospital, the two went out to eat together.

Du Yeqing became ill this time, and she lost a lot of weight like a different person. The contours of her face were deepened, and there were shadows in the eye sockets. , Even the most senior paparazzi can't recognize it after wearing a mask.The two went to eat hot pot on the top floor of the department store in a fair manner. Yang Junlin asked him what he planned to do next, and Du Yeqing said: "Just do what you want, and you have to live alone. What about you?"

Yang Junlin smiled gently: "You'll be a senior next semester, let's hang out with the crew."

Du Yeqing said: "Based on your appearance, it's easier to go on the big screen after signing a company debut, forming a band, filming TV dramas, once you become popular. Director Bai doesn't plan to support you?"

"He said that good actors are made from the bottom step by step." Yang Junlin poured fruit juice for Du Yeqing and hesitated with the cup in his hand, "You...go back to France?"

Deep exhaustion appeared on Du Yeqing's face, and he propped his chin with one hand, and said, "I'm tired... Maybe I will stay in France for a while after the filming. If you need a line, call me."

Yang Junlin hesitated to speak, lowered his head, said "En", and smiled to himself.Du Yeqing didn't say anything more, after eating the meal together, Yang Junlin sent him to the airport, the two hugged and said goodbye to each other.Du Yeqing returned home empty-handed, and boarded a plane in a foreign land empty-handed.The bustling and cold city slowly disappeared under him, and there was no unnecessary pain in his heart, only a large numb hole was left, which was dark and had no end in sight.

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