guilty of [entertainment]

The psychiatrist looked about 35 years old, wearing glasses, unexpectedly good-looking, with a gentle temperament like a university professor, poured tea for them both, Du Yeqing looked at Chen Mo in a daze, the latter did not sit down, He just stood behind him, put his hands on his shoulders, and said, "I'll go out for a walk, so I won't disturb you."

The doctor said: "My daughter just made some snacks. Mr. Chen can sit in the living room if you don't mind."

Chen Mo nodded and turned to leave.Du Yeqing reached out to hold him, frowned slightly, and asked the doctor, "Teacher, I don't know about today's appointment. What should I do now?"

The doctor smiled and said, "Mr. Chen told me about your symptoms. I don't think there is any major problem, so I won't do any complicated treatment. Have you seen a psychiatrist before?"

Du Yeqing said: "I've seen it a few times, but it wasn't aimed at me, it was watched with my...EX."

Chen Mo's eyes met Du Yeqing's. Du Yeqing let go of his hand and patted the chair beside him: "It's okay, you can stay here."

Chen Mo looked at the doctor solicitingly, and the doctor nodded and said, "Today I just had a brief chat with Mr. Du. If Mr. Du doesn't mind, it won't have any effect."

Chen Mo sat down beside Du Yeqing.The doctor dimmed the light a little and offered them both tea.This tea is very fragrant. I don't know if there is something else added. After drinking it, I feel a very stable feeling. It is a bit similar to the essential oil that Chen Mo applied to others last time.Chen Mo sat quietly on the side without speaking, while Du Yeqing and the doctor started chatting.The doctor seemed to be very interested in the EX he just mentioned, and asked about Hao Ziqian for a while, and also concerned about Hao Ziqian's symptoms, and asked him when he began to show sex addiction.Du Yeqing thought about it for a long time but didn't remember it. He shook his head helplessly and said, "He seems to be like this all the time. If I insist, it probably started at the beginning of last year."

"When I was studying for a Ph.D., I was researching in this direction," said the doctor. "His symptoms are very typical. If possible, we can try to persuade him to see a doctor earlier. If we keep procrastinating, there may be a more dangerous change. "

Du Yeqing was stunned for a moment, his heart sank.After Hao Ziqian went to the United States, I don't know if the people around him did it on purpose. He really hasn't heard from Hao Ziqian for a long time, and he rarely sees him in the news...

"A little digression." The doctor pushed his eyes and drew his attention back. "I see that you look a little tired. Are you tired from work recently?"

Du Yeqing's eyebrows moved slightly, and he glanced at Chen Mo from the corner of his eye, who also smiled slightly.Seeing the change in the expressions of the two of them, the doctor laughed first, and skipped the topic: "I have seen your news, have you been shooting movies in Island H these days, right? Director Bai Yunju's new work, my daughter Been looking forward to it for a long time.”

Du Yeqing nodded, and when he talked about movies, his spirit lifted a little.The doctor actually watched many of his works, and chatted with Du Yeqing for more than ten minutes. After seeing that he had relaxed, he began to slowly touch on some sensitive areas, such as some details and feelings in filming, which were mentioned several times. female character.The way he spoke was very soft, with an irresistible gentle force, he began to disarm Du Yeqing little by little.

The doctor added tea for him once, and changed to a very natural posture, standing with his waist leaning against the desk, like a friend chatting: "You seem to have put a lot of energy into this drama? Does it remind you of anything? ?”

Du Yeqing leaned back on the sofa, smiled, but didn't speak.The doctor stood for a while, didn't wait for his answer, then returned to the chair and said, "You know, some things have been held in my heart for too long, and they will grow bigger and bigger like fermentation, and they will change again after they are spoken out. Take it easy, because you are no longer the only one who bears this weight. My job is to help you share the pain, and you can tell me with confidence."

Du Yeqing shook his head, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I know, I just don't know where to start... It's like the scar that has been with me for more than ten years when I fell down when I was five years old. , I'm used to it, and it doesn't hurt anymore."

"It doesn't matter," the doctor said, "we'll just talk slowly from the moment we fell, there's plenty of time."

The doctor's daughter came in once and brought them freshly baked biscuits. She was a girl of seventeen or eighteen years old.Du Yeqing just sat motionless on the sofa, his pensive face was illuminated by the soft light, which made Chen Mo feel a little nervous.The doctor was very patient, and waited for him quietly for almost 10 minutes. Du Yeqing seemed to have sorted out his entire life, and slowly said: "It happened a long time ago, my darling Part of my memory is a little fuzzy, I grew up in an orphanage before I was seven years old."

Chen Mo was startled, turned his head to look at Du Yeqing's side face, his pupils shrank slightly.The doctor made an appearance of listening carefully, nodded, and encouraged him to continue talking.Du Yeqing paused for a while, and began to speak intermittently: "In an orphanage with poor conditions, the aunts are very fierce. Apart from giving us three meals a day, they seldom care about us. Let's do some physical work for them. The older kids will bully the younger kids, like grabbing food, making them do their own laundry, or just bullying for fun."

Du Yeqing frowned: "It's a terrible environment. I grew up in it until I was seven years old. The older I got, the less people would adopt me. But on my seventh birthday, it happened to be Lixia, and there was a very young woman I took me away, I thought someone was willing to adopt me, but the woman took me not far away and squatted down on the side of the street not far from the orphanage, and said to me, 'I am your biological mother, it is me. I threw you in it, and now I have found you back, and we will live together in the future', she was very beautiful and very young at that time, what impressed me the most was that she wore A sky blue low-cut dress, the skin seemed to become transparent in the sun. When she bent over me, I could see half of her full breasts and the delicate collarbone below her neck. I didn’t call her Mom, call her sister."

The doctor listened carefully, Du Yeqing paused for a while, then the doctor asked, "Is it similar to the character in the script?"

Du Yeqing shook his head: "Lin Ge is much luckier than me. Lin Qinglian is a very responsible mother, patient and gentle. My mother is a child who can't even handle her own affairs well and doesn't understand anything. When she brought me back, she was only under 22 years old. She didn't study anymore. She lived in a rented house with poor lighting. It's like having a pet. Occasionally, it will tease me when it thinks of me. Sometimes it won't come back for a week, leaving me alone in the room. It wasn't until I was nine years old that I remembered that I should go to school. At that time, she had made several tertiary films, made a little money, and gained a little fame, so she threw me into a boarding primary school as a transfer student. I went back every month, and often bumped into her and different When I opened the door once, I saw her lying naked on the sofa with a man..."

The doctor moved with some concern: "Did you know this at that time?"

"I don't know. She also behaved very naturally. She even stood up in front of me, pulled the man into the room, and closed the door. So I thought that lying together was like having a meal until I was in junior high school." Same normal thing, just not interested in any girls. I hated my mother back then, but when there were girls standing in front of me, I couldn't help but compare them to her and feel like they Ugly and naive. I didn’t talk much to others throughout junior high school. When I grew up and reached puberty, I gradually understood many things. For example, I don’t have a father. For example, my mother is only 15 years older than me. I also understand a little bit about her work. There was a physical education class in the second year of junior high school. When I came up after playing basketball, I saw a few boys in the toilet watching something together, and vaguely heard her voice. I rushed When I passed by, I saw on the phone screen that she was lying naked on the bed, posing a very provocative pose, and the boys around her all had green eyes, and one of them put his hand directly into his crotch. I felt sick at the time When it got to the extreme, I literally rushed to the edge of the sink and vomited it out, and I didn’t eat for three days after that.”

When Du Yeqing talked about these things, his logic was very clear, and his voice was calm, without any strong emotions, as if he was a little helpless, and a bit like remembering these gloomy pasts.Chen Mo couldn't help but sat up straight, wanting to hold his hand on the edge of the sofa, but afraid of interrupting him.After Du Yeqing finished speaking, he fell into a long silence. He seemed to recall many things after that, and a somewhat illusory expression appeared on his face.