Lemon Lightning

Compared with Qin Weihang's difficult progress in the tutoring law class, An Ning's progress in rock climbing can be described as leaps and bounds, and he can already do top-rope climbing exercises.He was very excited when he was about to go up that wall for the first time. Qin Weihang tied the safety rope connecting the two of them and fastened it to his own safety belt. Your life is in your hands, Protector."

Qin Weihang, who pulled down the hem of his clothes, looked up at him, then lowered his head and smiled calmly: "You know a lot."

An Ning also unconsciously followed his smile and smiled: "I also did enough homework."

Qin Weihang lowered his head and said "hmm": "As expected of a top student." He glanced at the rope on An Ning's seat belt, "The eight-figure knot can be tied once."

An Ning didn't tell Qin Weihang that he actually found a lot of teaching videos to watch in the past two days, so Qin Weihang just showed him a demonstration and he got it done.

However, climbing the wall for the first time was not smooth. It took him more than ten minutes to climb the artificial rock wall less than 15 meters to less than two-thirds of the height.

Qin Weihang raised his head and said to him, "You can be bold."

For An Ning, who is used to doing things steadily and steadily, this is a difficult suggestion to digest at once. He will habitually stay in one position and take the next step after completing a complete psychological construction. As the altitude gets higher and higher, He stayed longer and longer, although this prevented him from letting go or falling, but it also exhausted his strength.

At the height of [-] meters, An Ning felt that his arms were exhausted. Now he was facing a very difficult place. He could choose a close open point, or a small pinch point a little further away. It was all planned below, but when he actually came up, he realized that it was "beautiful thinking". With the current state of his fingers, there is a high probability that he will not be able to grasp the open point, because the face is too slanted and far away. One point and one pinch point, he might not be able to reach it even if he stretched his arms...

The thought of "do you want a dyno" popped into his head, and then he looked down, and the height and verticality made him back off again.

Qin Weihang seemed to see what he was thinking: "You can try both routes." Either way is fine, and it is better than the present one.

An Ning really wanted to know if Qin Weihang also encountered this kind of problem when he first learned rock climbing, but soon he figured out that Qin Weihang couldn't possibly encounter this kind of predicament, hesitation was not in his personality.

If it is 15-year-old Qin Weihang on the rock wall, and his teacher is pulling him below, let alone the top rope climbing, even if it is the first pioneer climbing, Qin Weihang will not hesitate for a second. Pinch further.

"An Ning," Qin Weihang's voice came from bottom to top, "I don't know what other rock climbers are like, but dynamics are very important to me. It can make you feel the charm of rock climbing," he said. Say, "I hope what I feel, you feel. Otherwise we wouldn't be playing the same thing."

The last sentence was useful, and the people who were stuck on the rock wall were a little shaken.

"Falling from the top rope is not terrible. The principle of leverage, if you want to fall, you have to pull me off the ground first. I weigh more than 70 kilograms. How much are you? Is this possible?" If you fall a hundred times, I can also hold you a hundred times."

An Ning looked down at him.

"Really." Qin Weihang raised his head and said.

There were only the two of them in the rock climbing gym, separated by three floors. An Ning could still see Qin Weihang's bright and deep eyes staring at him. Qin Weihang always had a stern aura, permeating his appearance and voice. , In this kind of occasion, it gives people a sense of security, but it seems to be more than that. When he said these words, he exuded a wonderful atmosphere, and his voice echoed in the empty rock climbing gym. Natural, deep reverberation, as if everything can be shaken.

An Ning didn't know how many times he felt that wonderful chemical reaction, but this time, maybe because he was clinging to the rock wall and half suspended in the air, the adrenaline intensified that reaction, and he heard the beating of his heart. sound.

"Okay," he took a deep breath, "then I'll jump!"

His eyes looked at the pinch point on the upper right, which was an arm's length away, and his blood was burning. He fantasized that he was Spider-Man, so he let go of his feet and jumped with all his might!

The feeling of the body flying into the air seemed to be accompanied by the sound of breaking through the air, but it was still a little bit short. The fingers only touched the edge of the stone, and they couldn't grasp it at all.

He fell down without accident, and Qin Weihang only yanked the rope to lock the momentum of his fall, and he didn't have the impact-like weightlessness of the pioneer climbing and falling in fantasy.

Thinking of Qin Weihang's phrase "Even if it's a pioneer climb, if you fall a hundred times, I can hold you back a hundred times", and I feel a little regretful.

It's just... I was so desperate to show this person some terrible courage, but in the end I still fetched water from a bamboo basket.

Qin Weihang asked him, "How do you feel?"

An Ning shook her head in frustration.

Qin Weihang laughed: "I didn't expect you to jump over, I just asked you to jump a bit, so that you can trust your partner."

An Ning's falling heart jumped into his throat again, and he couldn't help looking down. Qin Weihang was wearing an orange-red hoodie, which was made of the same fabric as the jacket. He put the hoodie on after putting on the seat belt before. Yes, zipped up, covered the safety belt, and when he got on the rock wall, Qin Weihang opened his coat again, revealing the black round-neck T-shirt and the safety belt on his waist and hips.

The first time I saw Qin Weihang wearing it like this while climbing rocks, An Ning didn't quite understand why he had to do so extravagantly, but he suddenly understood when he put on a seat belt for the first time.But at the Black Horse Rock Climbing Base, Qin Weihang covered his waist and hips because there were many girls at the scene, but now there are only two of them here, both boys, why are they still shy?

As he thought about it, he realized that he had some secret expectations and fantasies about Qin Weihang.

In the past 19 years, my life has been following the rules. Many of my classmates fell in love when they were in high school, and every day I can recall is spent in study and part-time work.There are also female stars I like, but I am embarrassed to say that I like them, because he has never spent much money for them.When he heard friends and classmates around him talk about a certain girl and the feeling of being attracted to a girl, he felt that he half understood and it was difficult to participate.

He doesn’t know what is the use of falling in love, but studying hard is really useful. He was admitted to the university of his dreams, and then found that he still couldn’t relax, and he still couldn’t take it lightly. To fight for work-study programs and scholarships, if you slack off, you will fall from poverty to abject poverty. He reduced his daily sleep time to six hours, and his extracurricular time was almost equally divided by the library and off-campus jobs.

But he is here now. He is not busy ordering food at the front desk of KFC, nor is he repeatedly explaining an electrical problem to Yuan Xiaoye at the villa in Lantian County. He is doing something that has nothing to do with his studies or life. , but it attracts me so much, it attracts me more than Marx's Das Kapital, and Qin Weihang attracts me more than the most attractive teacher he has ever seen giving lectures.

There are more and more people falling in love in the university, and there are many couples on campus. He doesn't know how they started talking. Could it be that one party has a crush on the other party, and then just tell the other party directly?What kind of good impression can confirm that it is love?Is his affection for female stars enough?The so-called feeling of heartbeat is still a mystery. Is it a sudden palpitation?Is the heart moving because the other person is good-looking? Isn't that a little too superficial? There are so many good-looking people, wouldn't it be nice to see one and love the other?Or are you attracted by each other's personality after getting along, but it's just a class together, and you can't talk about getting to know each other much, right?It's not that I have never been curious, but there is too little time, not enough time to study law, how can I be distracted to be curious about these things.It is poverty that limits the imagination.

To this day, he finds to his astonishment that he seems to have enlightened himself.

On the wrong people.

***

When he came out of the rock climbing gym that morning, the busy world outside seemed to have changed completely. They had been given a filter called "vivid", and the sounds, smells, and colors all became distinct and sharp.

He came to Lantian County in a trance, finished Yuan Xiaoye's lessons in a trance, and returned to school in a trance. He used to go to the library for self-study at this time. Today was the first time he went to the library. , but not to self-study.He went to the loan department, found a book about homosexuality in the bookshelves of sociology and anthropology, and was embarrassed to lend it out, so he just stood between the bookshelves and looked through it quietly.

How could he fall in love with a boy?Is he really gay?Obviously, he also had a crush on girls in high school, and never had such feelings for other boys. Could it be that he is bisexual?

But after this feeling arises, it seems that there is no way to treat it, and there is no way for him to hide from Qin Weihang, after all, he lives in the same dormitory.But do you want to hide?

Even with this condition, I don't seem to want to avoid Qin Weihang, not only don't want to hide, but also want to go rock climbing with him every week, isn't this really like liking?

It seems that many homosexuals are afraid to come out, especially to their family members. After thinking about it carefully, he doesn't seem to be afraid of this. He probably understands subconsciously that his family members don't particularly care.So if he likes a boy, he can accept all the inconveniences after that, he can bear anything.

He found himself thinking a long way suddenly, for an almost hopeless fantasy, Qin Weihang looked very straight.It's only me who is tempted, the two of them lack the linkage of levers.

He put the book back, and the world took off the "vivid" filter again.

Don't think too much about An Ning, that is, being able to share the same room with him for the past four years. Thinking about it this way, I really took advantage of Qin Weihang.

Do you want to avoid him?No, I don't want to hide. My whole body is protesting against this idea. Why do you want to hide from someone you like and indifferent to him?This is too strange, this is a secret that belongs to me alone, I think I will pay attention not to take advantage of him in the future, but I don't hide from him, and I don't let him know that I like him, so that's enough.