Back to the past to fall in love [system]

It was probably on the day when the grades came out that Xu Ziran found her mother's reaction was a little strange.

First, in the morning, she suddenly asked, "You got your grades today, do you want to go out?"

Xu Ziran was at a loss.

The results can be checked by phone, so why did she go out?

So she shook her head and said, "Forget it, it's so hot."

Her mother continued: "Don't you want to know Rourou's grades?"

Xu Ziran didn't think too much, and replied: "It's okay, she will call me."

Her mother didn't say anything more.

But Xu Ziran didn't turn around until the afternoon and realized that there seemed to be something wrong with her mother's expression or the content of her words.

Xu Ziran is not a sensitive person, but after all, she has been outside for a long time, she still has this level of observation, but at this time she only thought her mother was curious about Qiu Yurou's grades, after all, Qiu Yurou's grades in the past were so good that they were exaggerated .

In the afternoon, things got weirder.

Her mother sat on the sofa with a serious face, her face was as dark as a dark cloud, Xu Ziran didn't know why, and said: "Don't be so serious, I didn't lie to you, I really did well in the exam."

Mother Xu just nodded.

Xu Ziran is not the first time to take the college entrance examination. She still remembers that when her grades were much worse than this time and she was very anxious, her mother didn't react like this.

Could it be that because she acted too relaxed, her mother became nervous for her?

——It doesn't make sense.

Xu Ziran cut a watermelon in the kitchen, and when he was cutting a watermelon, a call came from his mobile phone, it was from Qiu Yurou.

Qiu Yurou didn't say anything on the phone, she just asked if she was going to check her grades today, and then asked if everyone should go out for dinner after checking the grades.

Xu Ziran was ready to agree at first, but then changed his mind and said: "Anyway, there is a class dinner, so we can discuss anything at that time."

Qiu Yurou said something softly on the other end of the phone, but Xu Ziran didn't hear clearly, so she said "ah?"

Qiu Yurou slightly raised her voice and said, "But I want to see you."

It was obvious that he mustered up his courage to say this, so once the words fell, there was no sound.

Xu Ziran could almost imagine Qiu Yurou blushing on the other side of the phone, because she herself was similar.

So she coughed and said, "Well, I think so too, so let's meet tonight—shall I go to your house?"

Qiu Yurou said, "Really?"

Xu Ziran laughed: "There's nothing real or fake about this."

But after she finished speaking, she thought of something and said, "Why don't you come here, my mother is not in a good mood today, I'm worried that she doesn't want me to go out."

As soon as the words fell, someone suddenly said in her ear: "Of course, come out with me."

Xu Ziran's hands trembled in fright, and the fruit knife in his hand fell on the cutting board.

Regardless of the watermelon juice in her hands, she patted her chest with her hands, and her voice changed: "Mom, you scared me."

Her mother didn't respond. She glanced at the phone in her hand and said, "How long will it take?"

Xu Ziran was inexplicably flustered by her mother's gaze, said "Talk back" and hung up the phone.

At this time, she didn't know if it was some kind of blood instinct, but she already had some guesses in her heart.

It is also because, among the things she concealed, there is only one that deserves her mother to show such an expression after she finds out.

Although I have made preparations long ago, the idea in my heart is completely different from the mood when I actually face this situation.

Uncontrollable, cold sweat broke out on Xu Ziran's back. She looked up at her mother's face, but felt that she was looking at the most terrifying person in the world.

——It wasn't the first time she felt like this.

Many years later, her mother also looked at her like this, and said in a disgusted tone: "You are not normal if you are not married. Can you stop disgusting me in front of me?"

If even not getting married has already been classified as abnormal... then what about now?

Does she really know?

Xu Ziran's thoughts turned around, but her expression was calm. She knew that if she was too excited or reacted too much at this time, it would stir up her mother's emotions. This is a long-term experience after many years, so she just pretended to be calm: "Why Now, what are you going out for, let me pack the watermelon first."

Xu's mother seemed to want to say something, but she opened her mouth for a long time, and finally she just nodded, turned around and said: "Then come out quickly."

Xu Ziran took the watermelon to plate, and found that his hands were shaking non-stop.

She swears that she has absolutely no hidden Parkinson's disease, but even if she squeezes the wrist of her right hand with her left hand, the result is nothing but shaking of both hands together.

So she had to admit that she was feeling scared.

After many years, she felt this familiar sense of fear again. This fear was only because she would be questioned and spurned by her mother, and she also——absolutely could not regress.

Finally, she held the plate in both hands until her hands stopped shaking, then she walked towards the living room, put the plate on the coffee table first, then sat on another sofa beside her, and said with a smile, "Do you want to ask me something?"

The back of her hand was pressed between the sofa and her back, and then tightly clenched into fists, but the neatly trimmed nails were still able to embed into the flesh.

Mother Xu asked: "Did you call Rourou just now?"

Xu Ziran looked up at his mother with a calm expression: "Yes, what's wrong."

"I always thought you had a better relationship with Jiaqi," Xu's mother said.

Xu Ziran nodded: "There is nothing better or worse, I have a good relationship with both of them."

Xu's mother raised her eyes: "I know, the relationship between girls will always look closer before, just like your Aunt Chen and I, we have always had a good relationship since we were students."

"Yes, I know." Xu Ziran pretended to smile easily.

However, the more she pretended to be relaxed, the heavier she felt.

She knew that her mother had guessed something.

It was as if the previous whitewashed cloak was suddenly removed and the naked truth was revealed, Xu Ziran suddenly felt that even he who was now hypocritically responding was unbearable.

She suddenly had an urge to simply admit this matter here again, and loudly announce her relationship with Qiu Yurou in front of this person who loves her without a doubt but also cannot understand her without a doubt, and tell her , this matter absolutely cannot be changed.

Then what? ——As for the next thing... Xu Ziran has already experienced it once.

She may be kicked out of the house, locked into a room, or declared to have severed relations——she has experienced all these things.

Because of the vast difference in concepts, this short period of peace and happiness will eventually come to an end, this is what Xu Ziran already knew from the very beginning.

She tried to change, she said a lot to her mother, and said a lot of words that seem deviant because they are ahead of schedule, but these words are still too much for a person in his 40s with fixed ideas. Too superficial and superficial.

The weight of words may be enough to change a teenage girl, but for adults who already have their own worldview, they can only be said to be children's ramblings.

Therefore, although Xu Ziran was convinced that he had brought up the topic of homosexuality more than once in front of his mother, Xu's mother still said at this time: "...a good relationship may give you an illusion, but the real feeling is between a man and a woman. It's only produced by women, you should know, right?"

Xu Ziran knew that he might have to play dumb at this time, but when the words came out of his mouth, they still turned into——

"That's not the case, love can also arise between the same sex."

After these words came out, Xu Ziran realized that saying these words at this time was like admitting something. She suspected that there would be a storm, but unexpectedly, her mother's expression did not change.

The other party only said coldly: "You are still young, you may not understand it, but you will know it later."

Xu Ziran didn't know whether he should breathe a sigh of relief or sigh.

The reaction from her mother was much smoother than that of her not wanting to get married in her previous life, but at present, it seems that the reason is only because she is not yet an adult.

Because he is still underage, all ideas are of course not worth mentioning.

Although the boundary between adults and minors is only one day.

Xu Ziran suddenly calmed down.

She realized that she already had more opportunities than in her previous life.

She may have had more time for her mother to adjust and understand—or she may not have had more time to adjust to the disappointment.

So she stopped talking and just nodded indifferently.

Xu's mother breathed a sigh of relief: "I knew it, you will figure it out."

Xu Ziran wanted to swallow his anger, but seeing Xu's mother taking it for granted, he couldn't help but want to refute, and when he was about to speak, the doorbell rang.

Xu Ziran stood up faster than Xu's mother. For some reason, she immediately thought of Qiu Yurou.

But she soon realized that even if she drove here, Qiu Yurou couldn't get to her house so quickly, so it was undoubtedly because she was thinking too much.

But she still went out to answer the door, because if she didn't go out, she couldn't help arguing with her mother again-this would definitely lead to some unmanageable consequences.

She crossed the yard and opened the door, and saw Tian Jiaqi standing impatiently at the door.

Sure enough, it was mixed with a slight to imperceptible disappointment, Xu Ziran cast aside in his heart how could he have the idea of ​​living in a TV series.

Tian Jiaqi was wearing a T-shirt printed with cartoon patterns, she folded her chest and said, "Why, your phone is broken, ask Qiu Yurou to call me and ask me to come over."

As if drinking sweet spring water while thirsty, Xu Ziran suddenly laughed: "Did Yurou call you?"

Tian Jiaqi raised her eyebrows with questioning eyes: "Didn't you call me over? What are you doing?"

Xu Ziran shook his head: "It's nothing, I just asked if you want some watermelon."

Tian Jiaqi had a ghostly expression on her face, and finally followed Xu Ziran to eat melons with the mentality of not eating for nothing.

Because of Tian Jiaqi's arrival, the original calm atmosphere gradually dissipated, Xu's mother was cooking dinner, Xu Ziran and Tian Jiaqi were watching TV in the living room.

Xu Ziran saw two text messages from Qiu Yurou on the phone that he hadn't noticed just now——

:What's wrong?Was it Aunt Xu just now?

: I won't be here at night, you can call me.

Xu Ziran looked at the phone screen, his eyes could not help becoming gentle.

If there is a person who is so smart and considerate to such an extent, is he really worthy of her?

At the same time that this thought flashed by, Xu Ziran edited the text message and sent——

: Everything will be fine.

As soon as the text message showed that it was sent successfully, Tian Jiaqi patted her on the shoulder and said, "Ah! You can check your grades..."