Clear Feather of the Ring

That morning, when Long Tianyu woke up, the car was parked on the side of a narrow gravel road, and Yi Qing was squatting on the side of the road, smoking.The wind blows the loose short-sleeved T-shirt close to his chest and lower abdomen, his slightly arched back bends into a beautiful arc, the morning light hits his side face, reflecting the white smoke Floating from his mouth, it looked desolate and lonely.

"Here." Long Tianyu walked to him and handed over a small bag of toast, "I'll drive later, you sleep."

Yi Qing took the bag, but didn't open it to eat, just frowned and finished smoking, then stood up and said to Long Tianyu: "Just find a hotel to rest, I have to take a shower and change clothes."

"Okay, I'll check the map."

Long Tianyu noticed that his face was a little pale, and just about to ask him if he was okay, Yi Qing had already got into the rear compartment, pulled a blanket over his body and closed his eyes.

Maybe it was because it was too hard to drive late at night, so he didn't bother any more, and drove towards a nearby town as the navigation said.

The road conditions are really bad, there are potholes every few meters, and you can't avoid them even if you want to avoid them. Long Tianyu tried to drive the car as gently as possible, so as not to be too bumpy and affect Yi Qing's sleep. Even so, when he found a hotel in the town, Long Tianyu still found that Yi Qing's face was more ugly than before.

"Are you okay? Are you feeling unwell?" Long Tianyu carried the suitcase and went upstairs with him. When he entered the room, he saw Yi Qing sitting on the edge of the bed in a daze.

"It's okay, I'm just a little tired. Can you go out and buy some breakfast? I'll take a shower first."

"it is good."

Long Tianyu left the hotel to buy breakfast outside, Yi Qing watched his figure disappear into a small alley across the road from the room, then closed the door and went downstairs.

He asked the front desk about the location of the nearby pharmacy, then hurried out, trying to get back before Long Tianyu.

At three or four o'clock at night, he felt a little uncomfortable in his stomach. He just thought it was because of the wind blowing before, so he reluctantly continued to drive.By dawn in the morning, the pain from time to time had turned into a constant throbbing pain, which made his head sweat and he couldn't concentrate on looking at the road ahead, so he had to temporarily park the car on the side of the road to relax.

On the part of Long Tianyu's drive to the town, he was lying on the back, clenched his fists under the thin blanket, his whole body was sweating from the pain, how could he sleep.He went to the town to find a reason to send Long Tianyu away. Now that he went out to buy medicine by himself, he just felt that he was walking on the street, and seeing people was a little blurry.

Fortunately, the pharmacy was not far from the hotel. Yi Qing bought medicine in it, and ate it with boiling water on the spot. When he sat up from the chair, he was top-heavy, and he couldn't support himself and sat down heavily.

He slowed down for a while, feeling that the pain was not as bad as before, and then stuffed the medicine he bought into his trouser pocket, and then walked out of the pharmacy slowly.When he entered the room, Long Tianyu had already bought breakfast and put it on the table. Seeing him enter the door, he hurried over.

"Where have you been?" He glanced at Yi Qing's clothes, which were still the same as before, "Didn't you take a bath, why didn't you wash them?"

"Go out and answer the phone." Yi Qing avoided Long Tianyu, took his clothes and went into the bathroom.

When he came out, his complexion seemed to be a little better than before.Long Tianyu watched him sitting at the table eating breakfast slowly, stared at him for a long time but didn't see any discomfort in him, so he took his clothes and went to take a bath.

After taking a shower, I saw that Yi Qing had already slept on the bed, and the breakfast on the table had been cleaned up and thrown into the trash can.Long Tianyu took a special look at the trash can, and frowned when he saw that there was more than half of the breakfast left in it.

He walked to Yi Qing's bed, leaned down and called in his ear: "Yi Qing?"

Seeing that Yi Qing didn't respond, he reached under his pillow, poked inside, and found several boxes.He gently took it out and saw that it was stomach medicine.At that time, seeing him enter the room and put something under the pillow when he turned around, Long Tianyu felt that it must not be as simple as answering the phone when he went out just now.Now holding these medicines in his hand, looking at the person lying on the bed, he suddenly regretted that he was so dull that he didn't realize until now.

He has a stomach problem, Long Tianyu knew it from the medicines he found in the drawer of his bedroom that time, but he didn't expect the pale face he saw this morning to be the reason.

He stretched out his hand to touch Yi Qing's forehead, it was a little cold, he didn't know if it was a sign of getting better or worse, so he moved a chair and sat beside Yi Qing's bed, always paying attention to the movement of the person on the bed.

The medicine he took had the effect of calming and calming the nerves. Yi Qing slept for a long time, and Long Tianyu stayed by the bed until the afternoon before seeing him wake up.

As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Long Tianyu leaning forward to look at him. The sudden sense of oppression made Yi Qing uncontrollably turn his face to the side, avoiding the other party's direct gaze.He sat up, took his phone and looked at the time: "Why didn't you wake me up? Wasted so much time."

"Does it still hurt?" Long Tianyu got up, bent over and put his hand towards Yi Qing's forehead.

Yi Qing was about to throw off the quilt and get out of bed, when Long Tianyu's back of his hand was pressed against his forehead without any warning, he raised his head in surprise, and stared at Long Tianyu blankly.

Both of them stopped for a moment, staring at each other.

Long Tianyu didn't know what kind of madness he was having for a while, but when he saw Yi sober coming, he wanted to make sure that he was okay, his hands were all on Yi Qing's forehead, and then he felt that it seemed a bit abrupt for him to do so.

With his hand stuck there, he gradually felt that the back of his hand was leaning against a ball of fire. When it was hot, he quickly retracted it, grabbed the hem of his clothes and rubbed it unnaturally, and walked to his bed pretending to cough .

Yi Qing got off the bed, went into the bathroom to change clothes, and came out, the awkward atmosphere in the room couldn't dissipate.

"Pack up your things and check out." He shouted to Long Tianyu over there.

"Okay." Long Tianyu rushed to pack all the things he took out into the box, and when he went downstairs, he grabbed the two boxes in his hand. Yi Qing wanted to take them and carry them, but he blocked.

When getting into the car after checking out, Yi Qing was about to get into the driver's seat naturally, but Long Tianyu stopped him: "I'll drive."

"Did you rest in the morning?" Thinking of the face she saw when she woke up, Yi Qing felt that it must not be a coincidence.

"Well. You have a rest, I'll drive in the first half of the night, and you come in the second half of the night."

"it is good."

After getting in the car, Long Tianyu turned on the navigation, and the machine issued an instruction on the distance from here to City S.

"What? You want to go back?" Yi Qing could clearly hear the words in City S.

"Well. I want to go back."

"What happened?"

"No."

"What's the matter? I haven't been out for a few days. If you drive forward, maybe you can see other different things."

Long Tianyu turned his head and stared at Yi Qing: "Why don't you say you have an upset stomach. Go back and take care of your body."

"Small illness, it's okay, just take some medicine."

Long Tianyu didn't speak, and the car drove towards S city according to the instructions in the navigator.The past few days were like a dream. Yi Qing pulled him out of the nightmare of losing his mother, and led him to escape all the way. There was no embarrassment of throwing away his armor, nor ecstatic relief, only the silent relieved.

During these days on the road, he thought of something.He would think of his mother from time to time, remembering the days when mother and son were dependent on each other a long time ago, thinking that he would never get out, remembering what she had said to him the night she died, remembering that she was lying in the cold bed at this moment. In the dark land...

Occasionally, he would also think of himself, the sad and lost self when he was bored in the bed and whispered "Dad" when he was a child, and he remembered standing on the balcony on New Year's Eve and watching the neighbors and their families happily sitting together for the New Year's Eve dinner The lonely self at that time, he still thought of the helpless self who sat in front of his mother's hospital bed and held her hand tightly and refused to let go... the lonely self who had no father since childhood, and now even has no mother Own.

It was as if he was standing in the middle of the sea, and all he could see was the boundless sea. Standing there, he became an isolated island, filled with boundless despair and sorrow.

It was Yi Qing who pulled him out of the water, and accompanied him to vent in silence.He remembered waking up from sleep countless times, no matter it was pitch black night or bright and dazzling day outside, as long as he opened his eyes and saw Yi Qing sitting in front driving the car, he knew that he was by his side, Just as I was taking myself away, those losses and sorrows that reappeared repeatedly in my dreams were like the scenery that quickly disappeared along the way, and they were quickly thrown behind my head, and I could never catch up or affect them.

Even though he is still sad, he will think of his mother frequently, and for a long time to come, maybe for the rest of his life, he will still be like this now, whenever he thinks of his mother, tears will come to his eyes to flow out.However, he began to learn to let go, to accept, to face, and then bravely and strong to move forward.

Therefore, he feels that he can go back and face everything, whether it is condolences from company employees, visits from social media, or concern from friends, he feels that he can face and accept all these calmly.

Always going back, always going to end it all.For everyone, the sooner this thing is over, the better.As for him and Yi Qing, Long Tianyu had to admit that he also had some selfishness, and hoped that it would never end and never go back.Just keep driving like this, until the end of time, until he and Yi Qing grow old together, it would be great.

The car stopped at an abandoned fork in Panshan Road, Long Tianyu turned his head and looked at Yi Qing who was sleeping behind him, there were stars in his eyes that were brighter than those above his head.

At this speed, he could return to City S tomorrow afternoon.He stopped the car, just wanting to prolong and slow down the time he and Yi Qing were together.Once I go back, maybe there will be no such opportunity again.

He opened the door, lowered the seat back so he could straighten his legs as much as possible, and smoked a cigarette.It was so quiet all around, and the woods beside the road were pitch black.He was smoking a cigarette, quietly listening to Yi Qing's gentle breathing from behind, and felt that in the whole world, he and Yi Qing were the only two people left, possessing and accompanying each other.Long Tianyu looked up at the stars all over the sky, and thought silently in his heart, it would be great if the sky never dawned.

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