Rich and negative

"Brother, don't~ Listen to me, although Xu Zecheng is a bit cold, he is still very nice. I think you two are a good match! Besides, you know everything, and you are afraid that my sister will deceive you! "

That person Xu Zecheng... In fact, Shen Xingyu knows it. He has seen Xu Zecheng two or three times. He has a poker face that impresses him deeply. .

Sigh... just deal with it casually, Shen Xingyu thought that Xu Zecheng would definitely look down on him.

Not self-deprecating, just a strange intuition.

"Are you sure they want it?"

"Why don't you want to, my brother has such a little face, he can't catch up."

Shen Xingyu really couldn't laugh or cry, "Okay, just torment me."

"Shen Xingyu! It's not my sister, I said you, thinking about such a bad thing every day, and the other party still looks like that. I don't know who told me to give up completely when I came back that day. I'm not happy to find someone for you after it's over. Can you let it go?"

Shen Xuan's words touched the softest part of Shen Xingyu's heart, and what came out was all sour water.Yes, since he came back from that bar, he really wanted to give up. When he didn't see Bai An, he still had unfounded fantasies.Thinking that even if it is impossible for him to fall in love with him, at least he will not hate him, even if he is a friend, Shen Xingyu knew from a very early age that there seemed to be a magnet on Bai An's body, just to make Shen Xingyu unconscious close.He had admitted it at first, but after actually seeing it, Shen Xingyu was deeply hurt by Bai An's slightly disgusted eyes.

No one likes that feeling.

Although Shen Xingyu decided to give up, it was impossible for the emotions buried in his heart for so many years to dissipate in just a second. Maybe Shen Xuan's approach was not bad, and maybe she would get in touch with others again, at least she would no longer be so obsessed.

Not to mention the white saddle, sometimes Shen Xingyu himself felt that the idea of ​​not giving up was terribly stubborn.

"..."

"If you don't say anything, I'll take it as your agreement. Sunday afternoon at 04:30, don't miss the appointment!"

Shen Xingyu sighed and agreed.

Lying in bed at night, thinking about it, I still feel inexplicable.My mind is full of messy thoughts, sometimes there will be the self who is always being bullied, and sometimes there will be the radiant white saddle. Whether it is the first meeting or the last meeting, it seems that there is nothing good about it.

What was the reason why I couldn't let it go? Shen Xingyu stroked the phone, feeling extremely melancholy.For so many years, I have been used to chasing him silently. In fact, before meeting in the game, Shen Xingyu secretly followed Bai An's Weibo. Naturally, he didn't dare to take the lead. He could only watch the things he reposted over and over again, or liked them all. What, Bai An doesn't post on Weibo very often. Most of his attention is not on games, but on more professional ones.I don't know if it's because of the frequent girlfriend changes, so I don't post photos with any girls. Except for the group photos, Shen Xingyu didn't know whether to be happy or sad at that time.

The deepest memory is that once I played Debussy's album, which made the time go back to the day when he saw Bai An for the first time.

At that moment, Shen Xingyu had the answer in his heart.

But one day you will understand that people should not live to the past.

The meeting on the second day was not as embarrassing as Shen Xingyu imagined. Xu Zecheng's personality was cold and indifferent, but after years of experience, he treated people with a degree of relaxation, and his smile and politeness were just right.Coupled with Shen Xuan's nagging, the whole scene was quite lively.

In the end, they left each other's phone calls under Shen Xuan's gesture, which was really funny.

Sure enough, Shen Xingyu's premonition was correct, Xu Zecheng was not interested in him, because he had seen the look in the other party's eyes countless times in the mirror.

Surprisingly, Xu Zecheng offered to send Shen Xingyu home, but Xu Zecheng rejected what he wanted to be polite, and even Shen Xuan fanned the flames, "That's the decision, Brother Xu, I'll leave my brother to you!"

After finishing speaking, the person pretended to be profound and blinked his eyes.

Shen Xingyu looked at Xu Zecheng's wry smile, and felt that Shen Xuan was going to make a mistake.

Xu Zecheng drove very steadily. Originally, Shen Xingyu was worried that he would get motion sickness just after eating, but it turned out that he was worrying too much.

"It's a bit polite to say that, but thank you anyway." Xu Zecheng saw Shen Xingyu get off the car, and followed him.

"Mr. Xu, don't send any more."

Xu Zecheng paused for a moment, "Sorry, I have something to say."

Shen Xingyu was obviously acting affectionate just now, and was instantly embarrassed, his face was slightly hot. "Oh, tell me."

"I heard Xuanxuan said that you have never been in a relationship before. If you want, can you tell me the reason?"

In fact, although this question sounds offensive, many people have asked Shen Xingyu, especially after college, it is not unusual for him to like boys as much as him.There were also people who wanted to chase Shen Xingyu, but they just couldn't tell, Shen Xingyu didn't feel touched at all.

He wasn't angry, but Shen Xingyu didn't want to answer. Fortunately, Xu Zecheng was not the owner of the dyeing workshop for Sanfen Pigment, so he gave him the option.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to."

After confirming that he had smiled with all eight teeth, Shen Xingyu waved goodbye.

Unexpectedly, when I went upstairs, I received a text message from Xu Zecheng, "I'm sorry." Shen Xingyu moved his fingers a few keys, and pressed Enter, "Drive carefully." In fact, Xu Zecheng has nothing to apologize for. Afraid of being used as a spare tire.

Shen Xingyu couldn't talk about his mood at the moment, it was not very good anyway.It's not that I feel depressed, but an unspeakable complex emotion, and more of it is disappointment with myself.

Prepare to live your life with self-esteem and self-pity, Shen Xingyu knows that this is the life he should have.

Of course it didn't work in the end, Shen Xuan pouted and complained that Xu Zecheng was too ignorant, Shen Xingyu smiled and remained silent.In fact, Shen Xingyu already knew that the possibility was almost zero. After all, neither of them were proactive, and it was difficult to be friends, let alone lovers.

Shen Xuan said a few innocuous words, which turned the page.

Shen Xingyu never thought that meeting Xu Zecheng again would be three days later.