After I retired, I became a Butei clerk

The person sleeping on the hospital bed was breathing evenly and his face was rosy, but even after being in a coma for more than ten hours, there was no sign of waking up.

The anxious Atobe Keigo went to discuss the situation with the doctor, and Dazai Osamu stayed in the ward to watch. Apart from him, there was no one else in the ward, and it became more and more cold and unpopular.

With a sullen face, he put his hand on Shiratori Eri's wrist, his steady and powerful pulse was beating, and even his heart was trembling, why couldn't he wake up.

Osamu Dazai thought of the scene he saw when he arrived. Eri Shiratori, who was holding the child, fell down bloody in front of his eyes. It was almost exactly the same as the memory a few years ago.

It's just a nightmare again.

He thought a little sadly, why he always had to see such powerless things, Oda Saku and Shiratori Eri, he thought he could control the overall situation, but fate always gave him unexpected places You have a fatal blow, taking away the people and things you most want to keep as soon as you make a move.

If human beings live in this world, they use their lives to experience eternal experiences, and then keep losing the most important things, then is it really meaningful to continue to live in pain?

Odasaku, you asked me to be a good person and come to the bright side, I did it, but now I really don't know what to do.

He buried his head in the palm of his hand and placed it on the edge of the hospital bed, Oda Zukuo, what should I do.

"It's dawn."

The small voice was unbelievably small, but Osamu Dazai, who was immersed in memories, heard it clearly. He raised his head suddenly, and saw Eri Shiratori opened his eyes, quietly looking out of the window.

At that moment, he felt as if he was in contact with a god who had no desires or desires, even though he was still holding her hand, but the distance was nine heavens away.

He couldn't help letting go of his hand timidly.

"Senior Dazai?"

Shiratori Eri felt her hand loosen, she looked back curiously, just in time to see Osamu Dazai staring at her in a daze, with light floating in his eyes.

Would Dazai-senpai also show such an expression? I thought he was used to hiding all his emotions with laughter. After all, none of us can understand him and understand his heart, so we can only let him find a way to protect himself.

Perhaps it was because of the trick of falling asleep to resolve it, but seeing the past in the dream, Shiratori Eri lowered her voice, and asked him in a tone that was afraid of disturbing a frothy dream, "Senior Dazai, what is the importance of thinking?" Is there anyone?"

"Eri-chan, why do you think so?"

Osamu Dazai tried to smile brightly, but he was really tired and had no strength at all. In the end, he just twitched the corners of his mouth and asked Shiratori Eri.

Eri Shiratori stared into his eyes, he had lost all emotions, and there was only desolation and a glimmer of light in his eyes, she suddenly understood a little bit, so the world he saw was like this.

So it was really hard work.

Because she also had a similar experience, Shiratori Eri could barely understand this feeling. She was obviously trying very hard to live, but she just couldn't resist the despair and discouragement. Nothing could arouse emotions. If you want to leave this world early, maybe you can still find a little peace.

But in the end, I survived, and so did Senior Dazai, and maybe there were some turning points in their lives.

Although she thought a lot, Shiratori Eri didn't want to utter her guess. What she thought was just a corner of her own experience, which might be completely different from what Dazai-senpai experienced. If she said it without thinking, use her own Telling him that I understand you in a redeeming tone will only make people laugh.

Everyone's ideas are different. If we can watch and help each other together, it would be great to meet each other by fate. There is no need to say anything else.

So Shiratori Eri just looked at her hand, on which there are sword patterns that ordinary people cannot see are changing and flickering, and smiled lightly, "Because, sometimes when I see familiar things, I will also be like Dazai-senpai , I can’t help but think about it for a while.”

"In my opinion, your expression is exactly the same as mine."

It’s all about losing important things, and they can’t get them back, and they can’t even cry, even if they see the existence of the resemblance, they can’t relieve this emotion, because they know clearly that what is lost will never come back up.

"is it?"

In the environment where the two were alone, all expressions of Dazai Osamu were restrained by him, his iris-colored eyes stared directly at Shiratori Eri, only to see the deep sorrow in her eyes, like a sky covered with dark clouds, oppressively heavy , but it is impossible to really have a heavy rain, so we can only wait quietly for it to dissipate slowly.

At this time, Osamu Dazai realized that he had never seen through Shiratori Eri, except for the sense of disobedience lingering around her, and her intelligent and transparent character who seemed to be indifferent to everything.

Sure enough, the complexity of human beings is endless, maybe one day, there will be a person that you can't spy on.

Osamu Dazai suddenly laughed, "Eri-chan is really interesting."

He returned to that energetic look, reached out to hold Shiratori Eri's hand again, and asked her seriously, "Eri-chan, for the sake of our similarity, do you want us to commit suicide together."

He made a rare suggestion to Shiratori Eri that hadn't appeared for a long time, and then Shiratori Eri seriously rejected it, "No, I don't want it."

Eri Shiratori looked at the medical bandages wrapped around her body, and suddenly found that she had a mysterious resemblance to Dazai-senpai's attire, but she immediately forgot about this unimportant thing, and continued to talk about her current wish, "I found that I haven't handled some of my previous work well, so I'm going to continue, please forgive me for not being able to agree to your request."

"Hey, is Eri-chan going to resign?"

Osamu Dazai turned pale with shock, "Then where do I go for food? Do I have to say goodbye to my delicious food. Don't wow."

He looked like he was about to say goodbye to his beloved crab meat forever, and his heart ached.

"If you don't resign, you don't know where what you want to find. Instead of trying to find it, it's better to wait for her to come by yourself."

Eri Shiratori shook her head, "I like simple and rough methods, such as waiting for her to come before cleaning her up."

"Hey~Eri-chan seems to have said something terrible. Sure enough, Erika-chan has learned martial arts and sword skills, right?"

"Ah."

"So......"

Osamu Dazai pretended that I was so weak and powerless, and even moved his body in front of Shiratori Eri, so close to her that Shiratori Eri could clearly see his curly eyelashes fluttering. , "Can I ask Eri-chan to protect me in the future?"

Shiratori Eri showed a smile. She was originally a clear and fair complexion, and she was a top-notch beauty, but she had been concealed by her faint presence. Now she smiled at Osamu Dazai from a very close place, which immediately made him feel It seems that there are epiphyllum blooming slowly in the dark night, which is amazing and moving.

"Okay, senior."

Even though he has seen many beauties, and he has been courted by countless women because of his outstanding appearance, Osamu Dazai was still dazzled by the beauty of Shiratori Eri at this moment.

He slipped away and went forward to show off his cuteness, but he heard the door of the ward slamming. Looking back, Keigo Atobe stared at the two with a stiff face, which looked like a kissing posture.

Atobe Keigo said with difficulty, "I'm sorry to bother you."

He closed the door with lightning speed, leaving Shiratori Eri and Dazai Osamu looking at each other.

"I was misunderstood, Atobe-kun is really interesting."

"Yes."

Shiratori Eri responded calmly.