Huanzhu's love life

The queen's poor health can no longer be covered up by makeup.Her energy can last, but anyone can see that the queen's cheeks are gradually thinning.

The queen must have a low-grade fever every afternoon, and it will return to normal in the evening of the same day.Repeat the process again the next day.

The imperial doctor came to ask for the pulse every day, but there was no good way to cure it.

In the end, several imperial physicians discussed and concluded that the humidity in Chengde Li Palace was too heavy, it might be better to go back to the capital to recuperate, change the air, and wait until autumn is clear, or it will be fine.

After hearing this "prescription", the queen said: "It's not so serious."

One day, the empress asked Nanny Rong to accompany her for a walk outside, and was about to step up to the corridor from the courtyard, when she saw a figure leaning against the wall in the distance, and two court ladies turned their backs to this side, seeming to be supporting her.

Nanny Rong's eyesight had deteriorated, and she couldn't recognize who it was.

But the queen recognized at the first sight that the person was Ling Guifei.

Ling Guifei went through childbirth, bereavement and other things, and then rushed to Chengde to leave the palace, it is unavoidable to lose her recuperation.

Concubine Ling knows that others like to make a fuss about her background, so over the years, she has gradually developed that kind of personality with strong self-esteem, no matter who she is in front of, she will never show any weakness or sickness.

The queen didn't go any further, she turned around and led Nanny Rong to leave the place.

That night, Nanny Rong watched the queen lay down, and after a while, there was a steady breathing sound from the tent.

Nanny Rong thought that the Queen had a good night's sleep after a long absence.

Unexpectedly, the queen could not get up in the early morning of the second day.

When everyone rushed over to see, they found that the queen's limbs were limp and her eyes were dazzled.

The people who served the queen were all terrified, and rushed to inform the imperial physician, as well as the queen mother and Qianlong.

But Nanny Rong knew that the empress had accumulated so many days of exhaustion, and she sent it all out today.

Both Qianlong and the queen mother came outside the queen's house, waiting for the doctor's diagnosis.

Although Qianlong also saw that the queen's health was not very good recently, he was still surprised when he heard that the queen had fallen ill.

Yesterday morning, the Empress, Concubine Rong and Ming Gui had accompanied him for breakfast.

Nanny Rong listened to the imperial physician for a long time, but she didn't understand why.

She only heard the imperial physician finally say that it is best to leave Chengde as soon as possible and change places.

Nanny Rong even wondered if this imperial physician was bribed by Concubine Ling, otherwise how could she say such words.

Qianlong and the queen mother were relieved when they heard that the queen was not suffering from any serious symptoms, and went their separate ways.

On the morning when the Empress fell ill, the ones who accompanied Qianlong for breakfast were Concubine Ling, Concubine Rong and Lady Yonggui.

The queen was dizzy, and seemed to see herself again, still thirteen or fourteen years old.

At that time, when I encountered troubles and resentment, I would cry a lot. After that, I only needed a piece of candy, and I didn't worry about it anymore.I don't understand anything about greed, anger, ignorance, and resentment.

But now she is mature enough to understand what it means to wish for something.

So before she finally made up her mind to follow the example, she began to deceive herself, as if he had never been here or been there—it’s fine if he came, and it’s okay if he didn’t—just to treat him as casually as possible.

The queen did not fully regain consciousness until evening.

Before Nanny Rong told the empress what the imperial physician had said, the empress first said: "Ask the emperor and Lafayette for orders. I am not feeling well. I want to go back to Beijing to recuperate."

When Mother Rong heard this, her face turned pale with shock, and she was about to say something more.

The queen closed her eyelids tiredly and fell asleep steadily.

She thought a lot in the dream, and when she woke up, her mind was clear.

Her attitude of not coming and not going with a fluke before was like a wildfire that never burns out, spring grass that grows again when the spring breeze blows, at first glance it looks free and easy, but in fact it has more stamina.

That kind of attitude is not free and easy, it is clearly unwilling and unwilling to admit defeat, does not believe in fate or luck, insists on fighting for a breath, and does not even set a deadline for the struggle.Endless free and easy, equal to day and night persistence.

She once thought, when she gave up her heart for the first time—when she was still Concubine Xian, if she could leave him and this place, would her life have another trajectory?

If she can say goodbye that day, although she will be sad, but at the same time, she also has the opportunity to learn to be strong, and at the same time learn to let herself go.She may be lonely, she may be working hard, but she will never have the struggle and pain of sitting in a sad city in the following years.

But of course she couldn't leave.Not to mention the queen, even Fujin from an ordinary prince's family has no reason to leave her husband.After marriage, life and death, can only be attached to the husband.

So she can only close the door and continue to torture each other with a group of women, otherwise, not to mention status and children, she will be killed one bite at a time just by being bored - because she can't do anything except this.

Just because there was no possibility of leaving or escaping, she never dared to really give up on him over the years.

Loving him is equal to loving yourself.She doesn't believe in Buddhism, she regards him as her faith.Her strength and courage flow from him.Because that person is no longer just a person, he is a light.

She was afraid that once the light was gone, her life would be as lonely as dead wood and ashes.

Once she sees through that person, it means she sees through the rest of her life.The fresh vitality will also leave her.Family and son, could not calm her fear and anxiety.

The moment the light disappeared, it also illuminated the reality she had been avoiding: a closed, dark, hopeless, never-ending life.

However, after surviving this faint, she instead developed strength in this frightening darkness and despair.

True faith and courage can only be produced in one's own heart, not in gods, buddhas, relatives or lovers.

All immortal gods and Buddhas rise from the hearts of believers.

True belief and hope must be maintained and held fast by one's own courage.True love is not the bondage and entanglement of grievances, torture, and self-pity.

The fainting this time only shows that life is limited.She will die too.

She doesn't want to make the same mistake again for the rest of her life.She doesn't want to linger in self-pity and resentment again.And stop going back and forth between feeling good about yourself and feeling wronged about yourself.

I will recognize it from now on.

Although I still can't get rid of it, I can't leave.Although nothing can be changed, fortunately, there is still "the three armies can win the commander, but the common man can't lose the ambition" can comfort her.

She would rather recognize the reality. From now on, even if she is a dead tree, she will still have the beauty of a dead tree.

Don't continue to deceive yourself, don't be afraid to open your eyes.

Regarding the Queen's serious illness, let's stop for a while, and let's take a look at a few young girls who don't know how to feel sad.

The daily worries of Ziwei and Little Yanzi are not just about which dress to wear and which kind of snacks to eat, but to be honest, they are almost the same.

Little Swallow used both hands, feet and mouth, gesticulating there.Ziwei wrote for her before the case.

"Jun's gate is nine layers deep, and the tomb is thousands of miles away. I also plan to cry and have a poor journey, and I can't afford to die."

Little Yanzi pointed to the "jun" and said, "This one seems to be smaller."

He clicked "Cry" again and said, "Its eyes were lost by your writing."

Ziwei was so angry that she threw her pen and said, "You can speak so well, write it yourself!"

Little Swallow hurriedly smiled and said, "Stop talking, don't talk. It's not that I can't see it, it's very itchy. You write it, I'll satisfy my greed."

The two of them worked hard for half a day, but they failed in the end.

Ziwei coaxed her: "The ones that haven't been written are the best. Think about it in your head, and you will be addicted to it."

Little Yanzi was naturally dissatisfied, but unfortunately he didn't have the ability to write, so he finally picked up a brush and drew a piece of bastard on a piece of paper.

Ziwei casually flipped through Little Swallow's book, and in a geometry book, a piece of paper fell out.

Ziwei picked it up, looked at it again and again, and then said to the little Yanzi who was immersed in drawing the turtle: "Whose handwriting is this? Let him try it, maybe he can draw something."

Little Swallow looked at Ziwei's hands unabashedly, it was none other than the last half of Fu Chang'an's poem written in school.

Little Yanzi then said: "That's Fu Chang'an. He hasn't seen "Cold Food Post" yet."

Ziwei smiled and said: "I remember who he is. But it's weird, Fu Chang'an and your handwriting are written together, you can keep it until now; but you burned Fu Kang'an's letter cleanly."

Little Yanzi sighed distressedly and said: "If I had opened my eyes, I would have known that Fukang'an and Fukang'an would be able to get to this point, and I would never have burned those letters. Just thinking about it makes my heart ache." Then said: "Fu Chang'an This, um, I forgot if you didn’t tell me. Probably because I have no ghosts in my heart, so I’m not afraid at all.”

Ziwei frowned and said: "This is a big problem. I told you not to take it seriously. I thought I was doing the right thing, and there was nothing wrong with it, so I was careless. I didn't mind getting caught. I was so stupid that I was caught in the pigtails, and I didn't even know I was dead. How did you die?"

Little Yanzi stuck out her tongue and laughed, "It's so scary."

The two were chatting and laughing when Xiao Fuzi came to pass the decree, telling Xiao Yanzi to go to the queen immediately.

Little Swallow went there to see that Qianlong had been waiting there for a long time.

She listened for a while before she understood the situation. It turned out that the queen suddenly fell ill and needed to return to the capital immediately.Qianlong asked her to accompany the queen back and take care of the queen on the way.

Little Swallow is stupid at other times, but at this time he is easy to understand.What Qianlong meant was to make her "wind tight and scream".

The Empress Dowager is not pleasing to her eyes, if she wanders around Chengde Li Palace at this moment, there must be no good fruit to eat.

Things were decided hastily, and I left the next day.The forehead Fu Long'an was sent to escort the queen back to Beijing.

Little Swallow told Ziwei about it.

Ziwei said: "Then when we meet again, it will be autumn."

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "What's the matter? I've tidied up Shufangzhai and waited for you to come back."

Ziwei didn't say a word, sat there thinking for a while, then looked up at Little Yanzi and said, "We have to call Jinsuo, Mingyue, Caixia, Xiao Dengzi and Xiao Zhuozi to come here."

Little Swallow knew what Ziwei was going to do.There is no feast that lasts forever.

Everyone is here.Ziwei and Xiaoyanzi made it clear that they were going to get married, Shufangzhai was going to leave, everyone had to go somewhere.

Mingyue, Caixia, Xiao Dengzi, and Xiao Zhuozi all knew that Jin Suo's identity was different, so they all waited for her to speak first.

Jin Suo said: "I was bought by my wife since I was a child, and I have been with the lady for so many years. I am called a master and servant, but in fact, the lady treats me as a sister. Since I am not going to be the dowry of the lady, I have no other wishes. I just want to return to my hometown. Set up a few acres of Susukida. I don’t ask for anything, but I don’t want to be sold and bought for the rest of my life.”

The other people in the room were silent when they heard Jin Suo's words.

Unique Ziwei said: "You have been with me for so many years, I already knew what you were thinking. Don't worry."

Caixia and Xiao Zhuozi looked at each other after Jin Suo had finished speaking, then both knelt down and kowtowed to Ziwei and Xiaoyanzi.

Little Swallow was startled and hurriedly pulled them up.

Caixia and Xiao Zhuozi refused to get up, but still kowtowed and said: "We are willing to go to Mongolia with the princess, and we will never enter the capital again in this life."

After listening to their words, Little Yanzi and Mingyue understood what they meant.Entangled and entangled, in the end refused to let go.The rarest thing is that both of them are responsible.

Little Yanzi laughed and said: "Princess He An is the kindest and most beautiful, she will definitely agree, right?"

Ziwei squinted at Little Swallow.Little Swallow's careful thoughts are well known to passers-by.

Ziwei only said to Caixia and Xiao Zhuozi: "Even if you regret the path you choose in the future, you have to be responsible and bear it yourself. Whether it is suffering or happiness, you just know it yourself."

Caixia and Xiao Zhuozi kowtowed to Ziwei again before standing up from the ground.

Seeing that Ziwei agreed, Little Swallow smiled and said, "I did something willful and reckless that day, and now I have to make up for it, or I won't have a chance."

Then little Yanzi said to Xiao Zhuozi: "I remember your surname is Du. Back then I was self-willed and changed your surname. I am really embarrassed. When you leave the palace, you can call it whatever you want."

Xiao Dengzi's home is in Wanping, he doesn't want to leave his family, as long as he is still in the palace, he can always see his family every once in a while.

Mingyue already had a home, she smiled and said: "I have made up my mind, I will leave the palace and go home at the age of 25."

Little Yanzi is the most gossipy, seeing Mingyue's eyes full of smiles, she must ask clearly before giving up.

It turned out that Mingyue had a childhood sweetheart, who had already made an engagement, and only waited for her to leave the palace to get married when she was old enough.

Little Yanzi smiled and said, "What are you waiting for to be 25 years old. You come with me, and when I leave, you go out together, wouldn't it be cheap."

Mingyue is naturally happy.

Ziwei shaved her cheeks and smiled at Little Swallow, "How soon do you want to leave the pavilion?"

Everyone agreed.

Little Dengzi and Mingyue followed Little Yanzi and returned to Beijing with the queen.

Jinsuo, Caixia and Xiao Zhuozi accompany Ziwei in Chengde Li Palace, and return to Shufangzhai in autumn.

That night, the seven of them closed the door, sat around the same table for the first and last time, and had a good drink.

Of course, Little Swallow was useless, and after drinking, she vomited again shortly after, which made everyone so busy that they didn't dare to spread the word to the imperial physician.This is of course a later story, so there is no need to say more.

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