The day I fell in love with the great god

Dark images emerged in my mind one by one.There was laughter, yelling, scolding, and the familiar hissing and lung-piercing crying.

The cry is shrill, with a strong nasal sound, whose is it?

He cried so sadly that Qin Chuan's chest felt a little stuffy, and the tip of his nose began to feel a little sore.

Oh, don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it.

Qin Chuan desperately closed his eyes, kept hinting to himself in his heart, then gritted his teeth, and pushed Yang Shu away in front of him.

"Okay, I don't want to recall any pictures of that time, maybe I was cowardly, I was timid, and I was not strong! I avoid, I like it very much, and even feel that I am an avoidant personality when dealing with certain things at certain times. But this is my right, isn't it? I don't want to make myself sad, is there something wrong?" Qin Chuan's eyes were slightly wet, he glanced at Yang Shu, lowered his head, and pushed Yang Shu out of the door.

The moment Qin Chuan was about to close the bedroom door, Yang Shu suddenly blocked the door.

"Qin Chuan, I didn't say you were at fault, nor did I accuse you or tell you what to do. Don't mention it if you don't want to mention it, let the past go." Yang Shu spoke slowly, pushing the door open a bit: "But now, I I also want to apologize for what I said just now, in fact, I have skimmed through your information in those two documents about you, but they are only brief ones, without any in-depth content, I have no information about your past..."

"Enough!" Qin Chuan raised his voice sharply, and then he kicked the bedroom door as if to vent his anger.

Yang Shu paused, and let go of the hand holding the door, and then the green bedroom door slammed shut, followed by the sound of the iron bolt moving quickly.

"Qin Chuan..." Yang Shu called softly, but someone in the door who was angry had already sat down on Li Hong's seat.

In the dormitory, Qin Chuan turned on the computer and stared at the game screen, his thoughts had already flown to the sky.

Yang Shu's words made him very angry, because just now a certain god of learning said grandly that he had not peeped into his past, but now he said that he had read a document inside.

To see is to see, whether it is more or less.Just like plagiarism is plagiarism, no matter a paragraph or an entire article.

The same goes for lying.

Qin Chuan did not expect that Yang Shu actually lied to him.

On the computer screen, the screen stayed on the page of the game hall, staring at the computer, Qin Chuan suddenly regretted for no reason, why he just shredded and deleted the two files.He remembered that the smaller file was named as personal information, and the larger file seemed to have other detailed information in the notes.

As far as personal information is concerned, Qin Chuan doesn't know if there are things he doesn't want to mention.But firstly, it’s privacy, and secondly, the neighbors basically don’t know the details about grandma, and the family members rarely mention it. As for Su Xiao...

Qin Chuan was slightly taken aback, a bright face gradually appeared in his mind, and the cheap and sunny Sunshine was even inexplicably proud.During the time when he was ignorant, Su Xiao was his best buddy. In those dark days, without Su Xiao's company, Qin Chuan really didn't know what he would become...

Although Su Xiao left without saying goodbye, Qin Chuan didn't blame him. It was just that after he was a child, he was thrown to his grandma and his mother, who hardly cared about him, suddenly appeared and made three chapters with him, saying that he must be admitted to a key university. , as long as he is admitted, he can do whatever he wants in college and work, and she doesn't care about him. During his college period, the living expenses will be paid regularly every month until he works.

As for grandma's funeral and subsequent funeral, Qin Chuan was not allowed to attend.It would be a lie to say that it is not sad, but it is also his responsibility that grandma passed away early, and even...

Green vertical eyes suddenly appeared in front of him, and Qin Chuan shook his head violently, breaking up the memories.

On the computer screen in front of him, the camouflage fortress covered with yellow and green flowers and plants is playing with the bird in his hand.Qin Chuan forced himself to divert his attention, and after staring at the bird-appreciating robot on the screen for a while, he suddenly smiled.

fortress……

Qin Chuan murmured, thinking of himself, he suddenly felt that he was very similar to the fortress.It looks powerful and powerful, but in fact, it is extremely fragile.

In the Overwatch game, as the fortress with the highest DPS (damage per second) and output value, it is very fragile. This is also the reason why there are few high-end fortresses. Because the firepower is too strong, the fortress cannot be erected at all.

Qin Chuan shook his head and laughed at himself a few times.It was the first time he felt that he had described himself so thoroughly.Although it is said that the most difficult thing for people to understand and recognize is themselves, but in fact, it is often themselves who understand themselves best.He is a seemingly ruffian and heartless person, but he cherishes pure emotion and family affection, because he has lost all of these together.

I understand because of the loss, this should be the most helpless and saddest thing in the world.Growth often requires a price. Breaking from the outside is destruction, and breaking from the inside is rebirth. To grow is to keep breaking the shells, face the past bit by bit, and accept the whole of yourself.

Qin Chuan knows this, but facing the past and accepting all of himself, he can't do it.

Because he couldn't forgive his past self.Forgive the grandma who killed him because of his willfulness, who depended on him for life and brought him up with her own hands...

He never cried when his parents divorced, he never cried when he was laughed at by his teachers and classmates, he never cried when he lost a fight, no matter how wronged he was when he was scolded by his grandma, his eyes were only red.But on that day, three days after he left home, Qin Chuan cried for the first time when Su Xiao accompanied him back home, and it was also the most heart-rending cry in his life.

Suddenly there was a wet feeling in front of his eyes, Qin Chuan came back to his senses, rubbed his eyes, and found a tear slipped from the corner of his eyes.

He wiped it dry and rubbed his nose, as if thinking of something, Qin Chuan stood up and glanced at the door of the dormitory.

"Hmph, I don't know if I'm going or not." Qin Chuan said casually, but then he sighed and even sneered.

What are you thinking, Yang Shu, how could he still be outside the door!Qin Chuan thought, then rolled his eyes, walked to the door in a low voice, flipped the latch lightly, and opened a crack to take a look outside.

A figure stood there outside the door, Qin Chuan was taken aback for a moment, then opened the door, and saw Yang Shu was still outside the door.

Yang Shu obviously didn't expect that Qin Chuan would open the door. He was a little at a loss while holding the phone. When he saw Qin Chuan's face, Yang Shu was obviously stunned.

"Are you crying?" Yang Shu's voice trembled slightly.

Qin Chuan was also taken aback, but he quickly realized that he rubbed the corners of his eyes and said lightly: "No, I'm just too sleepy and just yawned a few times. Why hasn't the senior left yet? He wants to wait for me to open the door, and then A deep apology? But I don’t accept it, lying is lying, peeping is peeping! I don’t accept your apology, hum!” Qin Chuan snorted softly, although his tone sounded cold verbally, pretending that he would not forgive Yang Shu's appearance, but in fact, he had already seen it in his heart, otherwise he wouldn't have opened it when he saw a figure outside the door.

But Yang Shu lied to him, he couldn't accept that, and Qin Chuan didn't know why, but he just felt that he had to get angry with Yang Shu just because of this.

"Sorry." Yang Shu said in a low voice.

"I don't accept it, hum. Liar." Qin Chuan turned his head and took a step back as if he was about to close the bedroom door again.

Yang Shu was a little anxious, he took Qin Chuan's hand on the door and pulled it away.Qin Chuan didn't expect it, and Yang Shu's strength was much stronger than Qin Chuan imagined. Before he could react, Qin Chuan was pulled out of the bedroom by Yang Shu.Immediately, he put his arms on both sides of Qin Chuan, and then his back slammed against the wall.

The sound of palms slapping the wall sounded. Qin Chuan raised his eyes and stared at Yang Shu in front of him. He suddenly realized that he had been slapped on the wall by Yang Shu in the corridor of the boys' dormitory...