self-awareness

Ye Tang hadn't heard from Li Mingchuan for several months, and the scandal between Li Mingchuan and Lai Zhen was quietly suppressed, and was quickly covered up by a new batch of gossip news.

Li Mingchuan no longer appeared in the public eye. Ye Tang thought that Li Mingchuan had finally given up the idea of ​​coming out under the persuasion of the Li family, but unexpectedly received a call from Tan Chen.

"Ye Tang, what's going on between you and Ming Chuan!? Why did his father lock him up??"

Ye Tang was confused, he rarely had any personal contact with Tan Chen, and asked, "Is he locked up?"

Tan Chen said furiously: "Ming Chuan was almost beaten up by his father and sent to the hospital with several broken ribs! After he left the hospital, he was locked up by his father immediately! He escaped once, but Mr. In anger, he broke his leg again, the matter is so big, don't you know?"

Ye Tang's heart skipped a beat, "I don't know, the last time I saw him was in March."

The last time they met was when Li Mingchuan came out with Li Yang and his wife. When he left the Li family mansion, he did see Li Yang do something to Li Mingchuan.

When Li Yang taught Li Mingchuan a lesson, he would never be merciful. Ye Tang had seen this before, but he was still shocked when he heard that Li Mingchuan went to the hospital for this. What, he didn't know.

Tan Chen said anxiously: "I said Ye Tang, you can really hold your breath! Ming Chuan was pinched to death by his father because of you? How dare you hang on to it because it has nothing to do with you?"

Ye Tang really didn't expect Li Yang to be cruel this time, nor did he expect Li Mingchuan to go all the way to the dark when he became stubborn, "He really doesn't have to be like this."

There was no possibility between him and Li Mingchuan, so why did Li Mingchuan get into such an awkward fight with his family?

Ye Tang asked: "Have you had a chance to persuade Ming Chuan? Tell him not to rebel against the elders and take care of his health."

Tan Chen said incredulously: "Is my persuasion useful? It's not that you don't know his temper! That old man Li is really cruel! Why don't you go yourself? He is doing this because of you!"

"..."

Tan Chen sighed, and said: "He is very bad now, I have visited him, his father asked someone to watch him, the guards are very strict, he has no contact with the outside world at all, I also took advantage of his father's absence, quietly Sneaked in and took a look, his mother was quite reasonable and let us meet. I said, if I don't call you, are you really going to ignore him?"

Ye Tang also felt very helpless, it was really inappropriate for him to go to Li's house under such circumstances, not to mention how Li Yang and his wife treated him, he himself felt ashamed.

"Ye Tang, let me tell you the truth. It's the first time I've seen Ming Chuan care so much about a person after so many years. You should understand that he is serious about you, right? What do you think about him? Are you stunned by this posture?"

Ye Tang didn't understand when Li Mingchuan became so devoted to him, and he didn't know why Li Mingchuan suddenly changed his attitude towards him, as if it was him.

In front of Li Yang and his wife, Li Mingchuan confessed bluntly. He said that he was not shocked. He was lying. Li Mingchuan was playing with fire. If he were himself, he might not have the courage to confess his secrets under such pressure. , But unfortunately, this confession came too late.

In the past, when he still had infinite longing for this person, he might not be moved clearly, but love really has a quota, and Li Mingchuan has exhausted all the quota with him, and he has nothing to give.

"Ye Tang, if you are still a man, don't be so cowardly, Mingchuan is fighting to the death there, you have to make a statement anyway!" Tan Chen urged.

Ye Tang didn't want to understand, he had indeed expressed his position in front of Li Yang and his wife last time, he had no intentions towards Li Mingchuan at all, didn't he say it clearly enough?

Feelings are something that cannot be slapped, but as long as he stands firm, the things that Li Yang and his wife are worried about will not happen. It is really meaningless to shut Li Mingchuan like this. Could it be that everyone in the Li family is wrong?

That night, Ye Tang went to the Li family's mansion alone. He lingered outside the nursing home for a while, hesitated again and again, and decided not to intensify the current conflict, and prepared to leave.

A black car drove past and stopped beside Ye Tang, the window was rolled down.

"Xiaotang?" Li's mother's expression was not very good, as if she was full of worries.

"Auntie."

"To see Mingchuan?"

Ye Tang waved his hand, "I'm leaving now, goodbye, auntie."

On the way here, he thought that this time he must explain the whole story to Li's family. He didn't want Li Yang and his wife to misunderstand that he really had any unreasonable thoughts about Li Mingchuan, and he didn't want Li Mingchuan to be in a stalemate with his family again because of him. go down.After all, the Li family was kind to him. Even if this incident didn't happen because of him, it had a great relationship with him. Ye Tang always felt that he couldn't make the family run wild and stay out of it. Yu Li couldn't explain it.

But when he arrived at the Li family's mansion, he was a little uncertain. Did he take himself too seriously when he came here so rashly?After all, this is the Li family's housework. The father wants to teach his son a lesson, so why is he messing around here?

"Xiaotang!" Li's mother stopped Ye Tang, opened the car door, "get in the car."

Ye Tang was then taken all the way into Li's house by Li's mother.

"Aunt……"

Li's mother took Ye Tang directly to Li Mingchuan's bedroom, and there were actually two bodyguards standing in front of the door, "Don't say anything, his father is not here now, go and see him."

Seeing Ye Tang hesitate, the two bodyguards hesitated, but Li's mother said, "He can go in, and I'll be the guarantee."

Then Mama Li pulled Ye Tang again and instructed, "Persuade him to eat, he hasn't eaten for several days." Then she said, "Please."

Seeing Li's mother's eyes were red, Ye Tang couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable, "Auntie, I will persuade him well, don't worry."

Li's mother nodded and opened the door for him.

Ye Tang walked into Li Mingchuan's bedroom, saw the person sitting on the bed clearly, and couldn't help but gasped.

Not seeing him in just a few months, Li Mingchuan was already thin and out of shape, his hair was messy, his mouth was covered with blue stubble, and there were two black spots under his eyes. Although his body was not in plaster, he looked haggard. His eyes suddenly brightened when he saw Ye Tang.

Seeing that it was Ye Tang who came, Li Mingchuan immediately turned over and got out of bed, but just as he stood up, he fell back on the bed.

Ye Tang nervously stepped forward to help, fearing that Li Mingchuan's broken leg hadn't healed.

Li Mingchuan showed his white teeth with a smile, and said with some shame: "I haven't eaten for a long time, and I feel a little dizzy."

Ye Tang asked Li Mingchuan to sit back on the bed again, dusted the pillow for him, and asked, "Why don't you eat?"

Li Mingchuan's eyes seemed to be glued to Ye Tang's body, shining brightly, "I want to see you, but they won't let me, so I can only go on a hunger strike. I'm so happy that you really came."

Ye Tang frowned, "Why are you doing this? There's no need to make trouble with your own body."

Li Mingchuan grabbed Ye Tang's hand and held it tightly, "Ye Tang, I know what I'm doing. If I want to be with you openly, I must first get the approval of my family," Li Mingchuan grinned. Grinning badly, he said, "I think I'm about to succeed, but my mother has already softened her heart."

Just as he was talking, Mama Li opened the door and came in, put a bowl of fragrant meat porridge on the bedside, looked at the two worriedly, went out again without saying anything.

"Look, what I said is right, my face is full of soft-heartedness." Li Mingchuan rubbed Ye Tang's hand and said with a smile.

Xu Shi smelled the aroma of porridge, and Li Mingchuan's stomach growled.

Ye Tang hesitated to speak, thinking of Li's mother's instructions, he thought to persuade Li Mingchuan to eat something first, and it's not too late to talk after eating.

"Drink the porridge, Auntie specifically asked me to let you eat something, she is very worried about you." Ye Tang said.

Li Mingchuan was reluctant to let go of Ye Tang's hand, "What about you? Are you worried about me too? I haven't seen or contacted you for the past few months. I miss you so much."

Ye Tang looked away, took out his hand, and brought the porridge to Li Mingchuan.

Li Mingchuan took the porridge, but because his blood sugar was too low, his hand holding the spoon was trembling, and he almost spilled the porridge on the bed.Ye Tang looked distressed, and simply said: "Forget it, I'll feed you."

Li Mingchuan smiled, took a mouthful of the porridge Ye Tang fed, and added Ye Tang's fingers by the way, with a look of success, "Actually, I want to eat you more."

Ye Tang's face froze, but he didn't care about the weak body, he just sat up straight and kept a distance from Li Mingchuan.

While drinking porridge, Li Mingchuan looked at Ye Tang with a smile, restraining his urge to take advantage of Ye Tang.

During the days when Li Yang locked him up, he never stopped thinking about Ye Tang. He realized what it meant to not see each other every day. Keep the pain of lovesickness.

Ye Tang vigorously fed the porridge into the man's stomach, and got away from the bed and stood up.

"Don't go!" Li Mingchuan hugged him by the waist, his expression tense.

Ye Tang sighed, "I won't be here for long, uncle should be back, it's not good to see me here."

Li Mingchuan buried his head on Ye Tang's waist, and said in a muffled voice, "I know, but I just don't want you to go."

Ye Tang put the porridge bowl on the low table beside the bed, "Ming Chuan, why did you suddenly..."

Ye Tang wanted to ask why Li Mingchuan turned into such an unrecognizable appearance. He always felt that human nature is hard to change. Some people are born with the ability to clearly separate the joy of sex from the feelings in their hearts. Li Mingchuan may be That kind, whether it's playing in the world or being ruthless, everyone has their own way of life, and it's hard to completely change themselves for someone. That's why during this period of time, he saw Li Mingchuan's various Very strange behavior and very puzzled.

But having said that, Li Mingchuan treats him with some kind of sincerity and some impulsive deduction, and he has never seen it clearly. He is really not as good as Li Mingchuan in this kind of game of falsehood and half-truth. , I don't want to fall into it anymore.So halfway through the question, Ye Tang already felt a chill, and stopped talking.

"You want to ask me why I like you?" Li Mingchuan continued.

Ye Tang: "..."

"I don't know." Li Mingchuan rubbed his head against Ye Tang's body, and said with a wry smile, "Maybe I fell for your way, was seduced by you, and was fascinated by you."

This answer made Ye Tang feel that his question just now was even more ridiculous. He sighed and tried to push Li Mingchuan away, but Li Mingchuan hugged him even tighter.

Li Mingchuan took a deep breath, and said in a deep voice: "Ye Tang, I don't know when I fell in love with you, I just know that now I want to see you every day, and I want to give you the best in the world, I don’t want to see you sad, I want the whole world to treat you well, but you only treat me well, I’m very selfish, right?”

In the past, he had failed Ye Tang's sincerity, and he didn't realize how precious Ye Tang's presence was until he was about to lose it.Now for Ye Tang, he is willing to change, he only hopes that his epiphany will not come too late.

But there were thousands of emotions in his heart. When he faced Ye Tang at this moment, he felt that he was at a loss for words again. He wished he could let go of his heart and show Ye Tang, lest the other party would not believe him anymore. , no longer give him a chance.

Ye Tang was dumbfounded, it was the first time that Li Mingchuan confessed his feelings to him so seriously.The coming out in front of Li Yang and his wife was shocking, but it was more like a declaration of war, but this time it was different, Li Mingchuan lowered his posture, took a breath, and even cautiously, humbly flattering him, such a Li Mingchuan has never never seen it.

"Ye Tang, forgive me for not falling in love with you sooner. As long as I think of what I have done to you, I will turn green with regret, but time cannot be turned back. I don't know how to erase those bad memories of yours. What I can do is to treat you twice in the future, give me a chance to make up for you, and don't leave me again, okay?"

Ye Tang looked at Li Mingchuan's always invincible face with an undisguised fragility, like a beast with its fangs put away, willing to expose his fatal weakness in front of others, for people to trample on, and worried that this would not be enough, I have mixed feelings at the moment.

Between him and Li Mingchuan, one fell in love early and the other fell in late. This misplaced timing created their misplaced relationship, but at its root, Li Mingchuan in the past was just being himself, asking him to force an opposite The person I don't love is serious, it is indeed forcing.

Love cannot be compromised. It is impossible for a person to accept each other just because others treat him well. To put it bluntly, in the past, he and Li Mingchuan were willing to fight and suffer. He is not very responsible for himself, and cannot Blame everything on Li Mingchuan.

But now, after everything is over, Li Mingchuan keeps saying that he has been sincerely moved by him, which really makes people feel that God's will tricks people.

"Mingchuan, I don't have much time, but listen to me." Ye Tang said seriously.