self-awareness

After a while, Ye Tang closed his eyes, suppressed his breathing, and said in a low voice, "Would you let me go if I promise to start over with you?"

Li Mingchuan almost covered Ye Tang's body under his own, trapped him in the gap between himself and the wall, and said, "That's natural."

Ye Tang lowered his eyelashes, making it difficult for others to see the expression in his eyes, "Okay."

Li Mingchuan was biting Ye Tang's neck at first, but when he heard this sentence, he suddenly raised his head. He turned Ye Tang over and looked seriously into the man's amber eyes, "What do you mean?" Really? You said yes?"

Ye Tang looked at the person in front of him expressionlessly, "You can let me go now."

Ye Tang had endured for three weeks, and by this moment he was physically and mentally exhausted.Li Mingchuan is a domineering bastard. He never knew how to write the word "respect", so he couldn't reason with him.

He couldn't resist Li Mingchuan. The first was that he understood Li Mingchuan's temperament more or less. Li Mingchuan had a man's desire to conquer in his bones. The more he challenged him, the more his interest was aroused. That's why he Li Mingchuan quickly lost interest earlier, and turned his attention to other people.

All his pandering, understanding, and expressions of admiration in the past undoubtedly made him look cheap in Li Mingchuan's eyes. It's no wonder that Li Mingchuan had a new goal and would leave him behind without hesitation.From this point of view, perhaps this time Li Mingchuan was condescending and willing to give him face again, but he didn't feel grateful and offended someone, so he was treated like this.Looking at this posture, if he didn't follow Li Mingchuan's wishes, he might not be kind.

At this point, Ye Tang has already embraced the idea of ​​breaking the pot. He is not a chaste woman, who has no dignity, no integrity, and was smashed to pieces as early as when he was willing to have a relationship with Li Mingchuan. It's hypocritical to pretend to be inviolable.

Faced with Li Mingchuan's capriciousness, Ye Tang didn't understand and didn't want to bother to guess.He thinks that he has no charm to make Li Mingchuan change his mind. It's not that he's underestimating himself. He's just a person who is used to the romance of games. It's really impossible for him to suddenly become in love overnight.

Li Mingchuan wanted to restore the flesh-and-blood relationship, and Ye Tang already hated it from the bottom of his heart, but after all, the best way for him to protect himself wisely at the moment was to obey Li Mingchuan's wishes first and let Li Mingchuan set him free.As for the future, it probably won't take long for Li Mingchuan to find him boring like before, and continue chasing new goals.

So facing Li Mingchuan's question, Ye Tang answered emptyly: "Yes."

When Li Mingchuan got this answer, his heart was filled with great satisfaction. He hugged Ye Tang into his arms, not knowing how to express the joy at this moment.

Li Mingchuan inserted his fingers into Ye Tang's soft black hair, and said in the man's ear, "I'm so happy, Ye Tang, Ye Tang."

Ye Tang heard Li Mingchuan calling his name one after another, but his heart felt chilly. In the past, Li Mingchuan would always say some touching words of love, especially when he came back to him after a relationship just ended. His words are even more emotional, he knows how to comfort people's hearts, make people feel happy for him, and forget the unwillingness and troubles before, but at this moment, after experiencing all kinds of nightmares, he can no longer be moved by any words of Li Mingchuan .He used to draw the ground into a prison by himself, and was willing to fall into deep trouble for Li Mingchuan, but now, his mind can no longer be clear, he is not a masochist, and it is impossible for him to accept Li Mingchuan again from his heart.

Ye Tang was strangled in Li Mingchuan's arms, unable to move, and said, "I'm a little out of breath, let me go first."

Li Mingchuan realized that he was too emotional, and let go of Ye Tang reluctantly, but there were smiles on the corners of his eyes and brows.

He was already handsome, and his smile was dazzling. Ye Tang lowered his eyes calmly, and then said: "Ming Chuan, I have an important audition today, I don't want to miss it, I can go back to the company first ?"

Li Mingchuan was in a bright mood now, and agreed on the spot, "Of course, I'll take you there."

Ye Tang didn't refuse at all, since he made up his mind to cooperate with Li Mingchuan, he had to do a full set, so under the surprised eyes of Gu Piao, he and Li Mingchuan walked out of the villa where he was imprisoned for three weeks in pairs. Finally regained his freedom.

Ye Tang returned to the company, and soon saw Zhang Nan. Everyone in the company thought he was on sick leave, and when they saw him back, they didn't ask much.

Zhang Nan was very happy to see Ye Tang, "Have you recovered completely? I thought you won't be able to go to the audition today!"

Ye Tang smiled, "Of course I won't miss such an important audition. I'm much better now, thank you, Sister Zhang."

Zhang Nan looked at his watch, "It's getting late, if you're okay here, let's go there now? Director Wu is also hard to serve, we have to make some arrangements in advance."

Ye Tang then said to Li Mingchuan who sent him to the company: "Then let's go to work first, and you can go to work too."

Li Mingchuan: "What time does it end? I'll pick you up."

Ye Tang: "I don't know what time it will be finished. You don't need to pick it up. Sister Zhang and I have a car here."

It was rare for Li Mingchuan to persist, watching Ye Tang and Zhang Nan leave.

When Ye Tang arrived at the audition location, he had already changed his clothes. The role he was going to audition for was the male lead of a web drama. This was also Gu Biao's strategy for him. Today's web dramas are not as rough and weird as before. Cong Sheng has produced a lot of well-made works in recent years, and has really made a lot of newcomers popular, maybe it can also become Ye Tang's breakthrough.

Ye Tang can't do it overnight if he wants to completely clean up his crimes, and accumulating word-of-mouth from online dramas is a good way.

This modern urban-themed web drama is titled "Nowhere to Escape". It starts with the protagonist's experiences in school, until he enters the society and goes his own way, working hard in the workplace, interpreting the stories of growth, conspiracy and love.

Ye Tang's clothes were changed to match the characters in the play. It was a blue and white high school uniform, the tailoring had been improved, and it fit very well. It fit the character's student image in the play.

When Ye Tang arrived at the scene, he realized that he was not the only actor who came to audition for the male lead that day, and there was also a familiar face among the male actors on the scene, which was He Yang.

Obviously, He Yang's team also fell in love with the big cake of online dramas, and wanted to take this opportunity to push their own artists. When Ye Tang was led into the audition room, he happened to meet He Yang coming out of the room. .

When the two met each other, they were both stunned for a moment. He Yang was also wearing a blue and white high school uniform, the style was similar to Ye Tang's.

Ye Tang nodded to He Yang and walked into the room.

It was rare for Director Wu to audition by himself and choose the actors himself. He sat in the middle behind a row of tables and squinted his eyes when he saw Ye Tang.

All the way into the room, Ye Tang had already heard a lot of whispers. He calmly stood still in the middle of the room, glanced around in a graceful manner, and the room quickly became quiet.

The assistant director next to him sighed: "Everyone came prepared today! Do all of you costumers borrow clothes from the same place?"

Several people in the room laughed and cheered. Director Wu also snorted and told Ye Tang that he could start anytime.

Ye Tang had already memorized the two-page audition script by heart. It was a scene in which the hero and his classmate and best brother broke up due to a misunderstanding.

This is a monologue of the leading actor, and Ye Tang quickly got into the mood, "Do you still remember the time when we ran away from home together when we were young?"

His eyes were turbulent, like recalling, like nostalgia, there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, but there was bitterness in his eyes.

"You don't believe in me, don't you believe in yourself?"

Ye Tang's monologue quickly brought everyone into his emotions. His lines were sometimes high-pitched and sometimes low-pitched. After a period of ups and downs, they reached the peak of emotion.

"I, Li Tianyang, will never betray my brother!"

Ye Tang said loudly, the look in his eyes infected everyone in the audience, and it was still unsatisfactory until long after the end.

Director Wu held his chin and didn't say anything. The assistant director moved his body and spoke first: "Very good, thank you."

Ye Tang was then led out of the room, Zhang Nan came up to meet her and asked, "How was it?"

Ye Tang thought about Director Wu's expressionless gesture just now, and said honestly, "Maybe it's not going to happen."

"Is the director dissatisfied?"

"It's not very recognized anyway."

Zhang Nan frowned, and analyzed: "No, what I heard outside just now is that everyone thinks that your image is the most suitable for the characters in the play, except that you are He Yang, but the two of you have already collided with each other. Xing, the director is not satisfied with you, did he choose He Yang?"

Ye Tang looked puzzled, "Bump?"

Seeing Ye Tang's puzzled face, Zhang Nan relieved and said, "It's nothing. He Yang has indeed clashed with you. They are both niche types. Don't tell me, his eyebrows and eyes are really similar to yours. Before There is also a wrong photo of the two of you in the media, but it is also because of the angle of the photo, the photo was not very clear."

Ye Tang nodded half-understood. He didn't notice the similarity between He Yang and him before. Even if Zhang Nan made it clear, he didn't feel that he and He Yang looked alike.

But since Zhang Nan can tell, maybe the director team must also think so. He Yang is younger than him, and he is basically better than his black body. If he chooses among actors of the same type, He Yang will definitely the chosen one.Thinking about it this way, all the reactions I encountered in the audition just now are also reasonable.

Ye Tang didn't have high expectations for this audition at first. In the auditions he participated in the past, it was actually a high probability that he didn't get it. With his current rank, this is the reality he has to face every day at work.Ye Tang didn't bother about anything, and quickly packed up things with Zhang Nan, and walked out of the building.

Li Mingchuan was leaning on the car to smoke a cigarette, when he saw Ye Tang walking out of the TV station wearing a high school uniform, he was dazed for a moment.

He had already inquired about the location of Ye Tang's audition, and rushed over after finishing the matter at hand, ready to pick him up and go home, but he didn't expect to see such a scene.

Ye Tang's hair was loosely scattered in front of his forehead. The cotton school uniform on his body fit well and outlined his slender figure. The zipper of his jacket was pulled all the way to the neckline. He casually carried a double-sided backpack on his side shoulders, put his hands in his pockets, and went down the stairs with his head slightly lowered, talking to the people around him from time to time, with a relaxed and happy expression.

Li Mingchuan just watched Ye Tang walking towards him from a distance, and he didn't recover until he was burned by the ash from the cigarette in his hand.

Zhang Nan noticed him first, and asked when he got closer, "Ming Chuan, why are you here?"

Li Mingchuan stared intently at the school uniform on Ye Tang's body, his mind was already fantasizing, imagining how Ye Tang would peel off the coat by himself on the bed, and suddenly felt his blood spurting.

At this time, He Yang also came out of the building with his manager and assistant, and they bumped into each other.

Zhang Nan greeted He Yang and his party first, and Ye Tang was also polite afterward.

He Yang walked up to Li Mingchuan, "Mingchuan."

Li Mingchuan reluctantly pulled away from the picture of Yi/**Ye Tang, seeing that He Yang was also wearing a school uniform similar to Ye Tang's, he actually felt a joyful feeling of looking like a cat, a tiger, and a dog.

Seeing He Yang and Li Mingchuan talking, Ye Tang thought of the friendship between the two, and said to Zhang Nan tactfully, "Sister Zhang, let's go."

Zhang Nan hesitated, "Shouldn't you say hello to Ming Chuan?"

Ye Tang helped the backpack on his shoulders, "Let's go, don't disturb them." Then he walked away first with a wink.

When Ye Tang walked up to Zhang Nan's car and was about to open the door to get into the car, the car door was closed behind him with a "bang".

Ye Tang turned his head, but saw Li Mingchuan following.

"I'll just talk for a while, why are you sneaking so fast?" Li Mingchuan said angrily.

Ye Tang was puzzled, where did he slip away, did he just call it a day and go home?

"Let's go, I'll see you off." Li Mingchuan took Ye Tang's hand and was about to leave.

Ye Tang stood still and declined, "No need, I'll take Sister Zhang's car."

Li Mingchuan immediately said to Zhang Nan: "Sister Zhang, I'll see Ye Tang off, you go back first."

Seeing Li Mingchuan holding Ye Tang's hand, Zhang Nan was already thundering in his heart, thinking that this is a TV station courtyard, if it was on the main road, in broad daylight, what would it be like to ask someone to film it?

"Ah? You're here to pick up Ye Tang. That's fine. I have other things to do, so I'm leaving first." Zhang Nan considered the situation and decided to dodge first.

"Sister Zhang—" Ye Tang wanted to call people back, but Zhang Nan flashed away in seconds, leaving only a spring breeze behind.

Ye Tang had no choice but to bite the bullet and get into Li Mingchuan's car under the watchful eyes of He Yang and his group, and drove away from the TV station.

In the car, Li Mingchuan brought a bag from the back seat and handed it to Ye Tang, "Here for you."

Ye Tang took the bag, took out the box inside and opened it. Inside was a mobile phone that had just been released overseas and hadn't entered the Chinese market yet.

Li Mingchuan offered a treasure and said: "Your mobile phone card is already installed in it, and it can be used after turning on the phone."

Ye Tang turned on the phone, and sure enough his address book was there, even the photos and videos that were saved in the phone that was thrown away. He was not sure if Li Mingchuan really took his phone from the road I found it next to him, but it is not difficult for Li Mingchuan to do such a thing.

When Li Mingchuan stopped at the red light, he observed Ye Tang's expression: "Do you like it?"

Ye Tang let out a "hmm", he didn't feel much about the style of the phone, but he was relieved to be able to return to the days of using the phone.

Opened WeChat, and soon several messages popped up. Ye Tang replied one by one. He didn't receive Qin Yan's message. Since Li Mingchuan was by his side, he couldn't take the initiative to contact Qin Yan.

Li Mingchuan drove the car calmly, but walked in the opposite direction of Ye Tang's residence.

Ye Tang cautiously said: "Mingchuan, I want to go back to my place tonight."

"Come back to me tonight." Li Mingchuan said incredulously, and then unexpectedly stretched out a hand to hold Ye Tang's hand in the palm of his hand, making a gesture of interlocking fingers, "Are you angry just now?"

Ye Tang looked at his hand being held, and felt that Li Mingchuan was acting more and more deviantly.

"He Yang and I have already broken up, don't think too much about it." Li Mingchuan explained seriously.

Ye Tang looked at Li Mingchuan as if he had seen a ghost. When did Li Mingchuan need to tell him about his ex?He tried to pull his hand back, but Li Mingchuan held it tighter, so he could only say, "You're still driving, one hand is too dangerous."

However, Li Mingchuan took Ye Tang's hand to his lips and pecked lightly, like a baby, and smiled triumphantly, "Are you jealous? Because of He Yang?"

When Ye Tang was kissed by Li Mingchuan on the back of his hand, the pores of his whole body exploded. With the relationship between Li Mingchuan and him, this kind of behavior that can only be seen between lovers has almost never happened before. Li Mingchuan suddenly became so numb. Uncomfortable to the extreme.

"There was nothing between me and him. I went to pick you up today, and I just met him by chance." Li Mingchuan explained tirelessly.

"You don't have to think about me, it's okay." Ye Tang said.

The relationship between the two of them has always been like this. Ye Tang never felt that he could restrain Li Mingchuan. He did suffer from such things before, but in the end it couldn't change anything. Now that he and Li Mingchuan are like this He didn't want to ask for trouble anymore.

Li Mingchuan raised his handsome eyebrows and glanced at Ye Tang, "It doesn't matter?"

Ye Tang nodded, and quickly began to study his new mobile phone. There are several functions that the previous mobile phone did not have, which are quite new.

"I picked up He Yang in front of you today, do you think it's okay?" Li Mingchuan asked.

Ye Tang thought for a while, he was going to take Zhang Nan's car to leave today, and he didn't need Li Mingchuan to pick him up in person, so he answered truthfully: "Yes."

"He Yang and I have an appointment to go out alone, do you think it's okay?" Li Mingchuan's voice was a little high.

Ye Tang looked at the clock on the phone, "What time is the appointment? I can go back by myself, just drop me off at the intersection ahead."

"Ye Tang! Did you do it on purpose!" Li Mingchuan couldn't bear it anymore and growled.

Ye Tang didn't understand what Li Mingchuan was making a fuss about, but seeing people seemed displeased, so he could only confess his selfishness: "Mingchuan, I haven't been home for three weeks, and I have something to take care of at night."

Li Mingchuan has been watching him too closely lately, he has almost no freedom for a moment, he really wants to go back to his residence.

Li Mingchuan held Ye Tang's hand a little painfully, and said, "You move to live with me in the future, and the rented house will be returned."

Ye Tang didn't say anything more, he naturally didn't intend to leave his house, otherwise he would be kicked out by Li Mingchuan again in the future and he wouldn't even have a place to stay, but right now it was really hard to argue, so he could just shut up .

Ye Tang was brought back to the apartment by Li Mingchuan, and when he entered the door, Li Mingchuan went straight to the point and asked Ye Tang to wear his school uniform, and ate and wiped Ye Tang clean.

Ye Tang saw that Li Mingchuan was looking at him with glowing eyes, and his breath was a little unstable. Fortunately, he didn't resist any more, and it wasn't long before Li Mingchuan led him into extreme frenzy.He felt that he had become more and more proficient in this way, and after separating his body from his mind, he actually obtained physical pleasure from Li Mingchuan, which he never dared to imagine before.

At night, Ye Tang woke up from Li Mingchuan's big bed, and found that Li Mingchuan was not in the room, so he quickly got out of bed with his sore waist and found his mobile phone.

He called Qin Yan and found that the number had been suspended.Ye Tang took a chance and sent a message to Qin Yan's WeChat, but there was no response, and felt a little strange.

He called Ye Feng again. He originally wanted to explain that he missed sending the living expenses at the beginning of the month, but Ye Feng said that the living expenses had already been received, and someone helped them repair the old house that had long been in need of renovation. Ye Feng and Aunt Qin naturally thought that It was the person arranged by Ye Tang, and he didn't know what happened to Ye Tang in the past three weeks. Ye Tang gave Ye Feng a few more words, and then hung up the phone, completely confused.

"Who are you calling?" Li Mingchuan asked when he appeared at the bedroom door.

Ye Tang's back was facing the bedroom door, and Li Mingchuan was startled suddenly. He put the phone aside, and said casually, "Call Xiaofeng and ask them how they are doing."

"En." Li Mingchuan snorted, and didn't ask any more questions.

Ye Tang looked at Li Mingchuan wearing light-colored home clothes, and realized that he was still not wearing a thread, so he quickly bent over to find his clothes on the floor beside the bed.

Li Mingchuan brought a set of clean pajamas from the closet, put them on for Ye Tang himself, and under Ye Tang's astonished eyes, he half-kneeled beside the bed, fastened the buttons for Ye Tang, and faced the man. He kissed at the corner of his mouth and said, "Come and eat, I've prepared the dishes."

Ye Tang was pulled by Li Mingchuan to sit down at the dining table. Li Mingchuan really had a good meal on the table. I remember that the last time I was lucky enough to have Li Mingchuan cook was when my career was at a low point. He did spend a lot of effort, but today, with a different state of mind, Ye Tang actually felt a little bit right and wrong.

Li Mingchuan has never been stingy with tricks with his lovers, he can easily coax people to the sky, and he is devoted to him, but he doesn't know how long this game of pretending to be a house can last this time?