self-awareness

After Ye Tang left Li Mingchuan's apartment, he hailed a taxi and drove straight to a bar.

The owner of the bar, Jake, had some friendship with Ye Tang. As soon as Ye Tang sat down at the bar, he began to pour himself a glass of wine, purely as a compliment to his friend's business.

Because he drank too much, the alcohol quickly got to his head, and Ye Tang felt his body began to float. The feeling was not uncomfortable, but his blood was rushing forward. It made people want to do something that they would not normally dare to do to vent Some unknown emotions.

He remembered the scene when he saw Tong Xiao in Li Mingchuan's apartment just now. He should have thrown two bags of vegetables on Tong Xiao's face on the spot, and then yelled at Li Mingchuan, "I'm quitting!", but he didn't say anything. He did it, and cooked a meal for two people in a useless manner, and was cleared at the end, like a bereaved dog.Ye Tang wiped his face, feeling that the whole thing was really ridiculous.

The appearance of Ye Tang pouring himself alcohol like a self-abuse was already a little abnormal. In the end, Jake finally couldn't stand it anymore and took the wine from Ye Tang's hand.

"Don't drink like that, it will hurt you."

Ye Tang narrowed his drunken eyes and smiled, "Why, are you afraid that I will renege on your bill and not pay you for the drink?"

Jake wanted to say something more, but was called away by the waiter.

But soon a man sat beside Ye Tang. The man patted Ye Tang on the shoulder lightly and said, "You've drunk too much, I'll take you home."

Ye Tang rested his elbows on the bar and rested his palms on his forehead. He turned his face to look at the man who came to strike up a conversation, and narrowed his eyes.

The watery light in Ye Tang's eyes made the man suffocate, the moisture in his eyes seemed to contain infinite charm, if there seemed to be nothing, it hooked his three souls and six souls away .

"You look very unhappy," the man approached Ye Tang, put one hand on Ye Tang's thigh, and whispered in his ear, "I can find a way to make you happy."

Although Ye Tang's hair is a little heavy, he can still tell the man's intentions. Although this bar looks inconspicuous, everyone familiar with it knows that it is a gay bar. Some people who come here are inevitably looking for one-night stands like this , the man said it directly.

Ye Tang has always been very cautious towards *, but at this moment, he suddenly didn't want to be cautious anymore.

He exhaled hot air and said with a smile: "Okay, take me away."

Seeing Ye Tang's appearance, the man breathed heavily in an instant. He helped Ye Tang up, wrapped his arms around Ye Tang's waist, and hurriedly slapped a few big bills on the bar, then put his arms around Ye Tang to send people take away.

In the next moment, the man felt his nose was hit hard by a punch, and the beauty who had just been hugged in his arms was ripped away.

"what--!"

Li Mingchuan pulled Ye Tang into his arms with a gloomy expression. The man who was knocked down on the ground covered his mouth for a long time and couldn't stand up, cursing and swearing non-stop.

Jake also rushed over. Although the lights were dim, he still recognized Li Mingchuan's star face, and was very surprised when he saw Ye Tang in Li Mingchuan's arms who was limp and without muscles.

Li Mingchuan looked at Jake, "Are you the boss here?"

"I am, my name is Jake." Jake met Li Mingchuan's gaze, and felt that his gaze was very fierce, as if he was about to swallow him alive.

"I took my person away. As for the one on the ground, how to deal with it, I don't think I need to say more?"

Jake was also very happy, with just a wave of his hand, two sturdy men in black stepped forward, picked up the man on the ground, and threw them outside the store.

The man yelled angrily: "He came with me voluntarily! What do you think of me? Do you know who I am!! ^%#$%^&"

The people in the bar were aroused by the commotion for a while, and many people had already cast their eyes on Li Mingchuan. At this time, Li Mingchuan was wearing a hat and his back was facing most of the people, and he could already feel that someone was making a commotion.

Jake suggested in time: "I'll take you out through the back door."

Although Li Mingchuan held undisguised hostility towards Jake, he had no choice but to agree to Jake's proposal at this time.

Ye Tang's head was hanging on his chest, as if he had fallen asleep, Li Mingchuan simply picked him up and hurriedly followed Jake to the back of the bar.

After leaving the back street of the bar, Jake took Li Mingchuan to the alleys where no one was around for a while, and finally came back to the place where Li Mingchuan parked.

Li Mingchuan carefully put Ye Tang down on the back seat of the car, took off his clothes and covered it for others, and then closed the car door.

Jake said: "Ye Tang is my friend, I can understand why you did it today, it was my fault for not noticing his condition before, but what is your relationship with Ye Tang, why have I never heard him mention it?"

Li Mingchuan's eyes were cold, and he cherished words like gold and said: "It has nothing to do with you."

He is still very angry now, seeing someone messing with Ye Tang, he feels angry all over his body. Fortunately, Ye Tang didn't ask anyone to take advantage of him, otherwise he might not be able to level the bar.

Jake had a good temper and didn't take Li Mingchuan's rudeness to heart. He looked at Ye Tang in the car and said, "He's not in a good mood today. He drank a little too much. You need to worry about it."

Li Mingchuan left a background for Jake, and drove away quickly.

Ye Tang had a series of strange dreams. In the dream, Li Mingchuan's face suddenly approached and then moved away. He felt hot and dry all over his body, and finally he was woken up by his stomach churning.

The burning of his esophagus made him immediately aware of his body's reaction, he didn't even bother to put on his shoes, he hurriedly got up and rushed into the toilet, holding the toilet bowl and throwing up for a while.

After vomiting cleanly, Ye Tang felt much better in his stomach. He flushed the toilet, washed his face in front of the sink, and rinsed his mouth with a handful of water in his palm.After a lot of tossing, Ye Tang turned off the light in the bathroom, leaned on the wall and walked towards his room in the dark.

When passing by the hall this time, he suddenly felt something unusual, Ye Tang's heart skipped a beat, he touched the switch on the wall, and turned on the light in the hall.

Li Mingchuan was sitting on the sofa in the hall with his arms folded, staring at him fiercely.

"Mingchuan, why aren't you asleep yet? Why don't you turn on the light?"

Li Mingchuan stood up, walked up to Ye Tang, wrinkled his nose, "Are you sober?"

At this time, Ye Tang had already passed most of the alcohol, "Ming Chuan, I'm a little tired, and I have work tomorrow, so you should go to bed early."

Li Mingchuan put one hand on the wall to block Ye Tang, "Why didn't you answer my call earlier?"

It was only then that Ye Tang remembered that he probably drank too much just now and never heard the phone ring. He was in a daze for a moment, unable to recall how he got home. He slept on the bed without changing his clothes. past.

Turning a blind eye to Li Mingchuan's phone call, it was the first time he had experienced it. Ye Tang had a terrible headache, so he could only make excuses and said: "My phone is out of battery, I didn't hear your call before."

Li Mingchuan raised his eyebrows, but Ye Tang actually lied to him.

He found the bar where Ye Tang was based on the satellite positioning of Ye Tang's mobile phone. It was an app he had installed before. It had a precise positioning function. It was originally for the convenience of work, but he didn't expect it to be used for a while. Of course Ye Tang's phone was not dead, otherwise he would not be able to use that app to successfully locate Ye Tang.

Ye Tang quickly changed the subject and asked, "Mingchuan, why are you still awake? Are you looking after me?"

"Who's going to take care of you! I can't sleep too early!" Li Mingchuan denied it.

Ye Tang nodded, he also felt that it was impossible for Li Mingchuan to stay up late to take care of him.

He looked in the direction of the bedroom in the back room, "Where's Tong Xiao? It's nothing important for you to call me before, right?"

"Leave early! Of course I have something urgent to call you, and all my calls to you are for something important! You are my assistant! If you dare not answer my calls in the future, you should stop doing it! There are people I want to be my assistant!"

Ye Tang nodded again. He fully believed in this point. Li Mingchuan paid his assistant a lot of salary. If he could bear his temper, the job list is not bad in terms of remuneration. Li Mingchuan is also very popular. The big stars who are prosperous, and the assistants of big stars naturally also have a little bit of status. In this circle where seniority is quite serious, this status is enough to embarrass many people, so what Li Mingchuan said is right, there should be some Few people are vying to be his assistant, and there is no shortage of him.

"I'm sorry." Ye Tang said, he was indeed dereliction of duty today, as long as he thought that he might have to endure the picture of Tong Xiao and Li Mingchuan having a good time together, he would really feel his feet and didn't want to come back. "It's my fault today. What's the matter with me? I'll do it now."

Li Mingchuan looked at his assistant. Ye Tang leaned against the wall and looked up at him slightly. The man's eyes were flushed, and his eyes were full of his own reflection. He looked very wronged. The fire was extinguished by most of it at once.

"Forget it, it's so late, what else can I do? Nothing can be done."

"I'm sorry. Then I'll..." Ye Tang's eyes were indeed sore, but it was caused by wearing contact lenses for too long.

"Can tomorrow be the same as today? Today is only once a year, and tomorrow is already tomorrow." Li Mingchuan said.

Question marks filled Ye Tang's mind, "Only once a year? Is it a special day?"

Li Mingchuan's fire that had just been extinguished suddenly rose to Lao Gao, and he shouted angrily: "What day? Lao Tzu's birthday!"

Ye Tang was stunned for a moment, Li Mingchuan's handsome face was puffed up, his handsome eyebrows were frowned, this man looks good even when he is angry, Ye Tang felt that he was hopeless.

"You don't remember??" Li Mingchuan asked in disbelief when Ye Tang didn't respond.

It was only then that Ye Tang remembered that the day that just passed was September 9, which was indeed Li Mingchuan's birthday.

Li Mingchuan's birthday was announced in the media on November 11. The company explained that when he debuted that year, he considered that the information that Li Mingchuan was a "Virgo" would affect his image as an idol. This day was not good for the career, just like changing the name and surname, Li Mingchuan's birthday was also changed, and it was postponed for a few months. Li Mingchuan himself had no feelings for horoscopes and numerology, so he let the company do it.

Every year on November 11rd, Li Mingchuan's fans will hold various activities in various places and send all kinds of gifts. Sometimes Li Mingchuan will also hold a fan meeting on this day to thank everyone for their long-standing support. support.But only people close to Li Mingchuan knew that his birthday was not in November.

Ye Tang grew up with Li Mingchuan in Li's parents, so he naturally knew Li Mingchuan's real birthday.In fact, during the years when he lived in the Li family, he would prepare birthday gifts for Li Mingchuan every year. Although Li Mingchuan became estranged from him after middle school, he was never invited to participate in Li Mingchuan's birthday celebrations. But none of the gifts he sent were returned. Year after year, it became a habit. Even when he went to other places to go to university and stayed in Shanghai after graduation, he never forgot to send gifts to Li's family on this day. a gift.But on this day this year, he came to Li Mingchuan's side to work by accident, but he forgot about this day due to his busy schedule.

"I'm sorry Ming Chuan, I'm really busy today." This was a serious dereliction of duty as an assistant. He felt that he had let down the trust of his artist. Ye Tang hurriedly apologized, but remembered that Li Mingchuan was at least not alone because Tong Xiao was there before. , maybe Li Mingchuan called Tong Xiaolai just for today's birthday?Ye Tang tentatively asked, "Tong Xiao will celebrate with you, right?"

Li Mingchuan withdrew his hand from the wall, his face was as cold as ice. Before he called Ye Tang to come back to cook, he was reminding Ye Tang to pay attention to what day it is today. He didn't believe that Ye Tang would really forget it. For many years, Ye Tang never forgot his birthday. Even if he was away from home and rarely met in recent years, the gifts from that person never stopped.

Li Mingchuan originally disdained these empty gifts, especially since his debut, the gifts sent by fans every year can fill up several rooms. To be honest, he really doesn't have the energy to unpack them one by one, but Ye Tang's gifts are different.Every year, the gift that Thunderbolt receives on his birthday always arouses his interest. That person always seems to be able to surprise him just right. It can be seen that every time he has put in a lot of effort and put his heart into it, Li Mingchuan Although he didn't say it, he still enjoyed the feeling of being valued in his heart.Over time, every year around his birthday, he actually had expectations for Ye Tang's gift, and his appetite was whetted.

But today, Ye Tang slipped away as if oiling the soles of his feet after returning home to cook, leaving him and Tong Xiao alone. After he and Tong Xiao got out of bed, there was nothing to talk about. The meal was tasteless. He sent Tong Xiao away early.

Then he was at home waiting for Ye Tang to come home for the first time, this incident in itself was enough to make him angry, Ye Tang still refused to answer his calls again and again, pretending to be missing!Seeing that the day was passing by, Li Mingchuan wanted to wait for Ye Tang to come back, to let him see that he was waiting for him, so that the man could feel ashamed and blame himself, but after the clock passed 1 o'clock in the morning, Li Mingchuan I'm starting to get really worried.

Ye Tang would never not answer the phone for such a long time. He had already thought about the worst possible outcome, and finally he couldn't hold back anymore and went out to find his assistant himself.

After locating Ye Tang with his mobile phone, Li Mingchuan realized that he actually didn't know Ye Tang's life. Ye Tang seemed to be inseparable from him every day, but he didn't know what Ye Tang was with when he was not working in private. He often hangs out somewhere, so that when he came to the bar where Ye Tang was, he was a little dazed.

He didn't expect that after waiting for Ye Tang at home for so long, the other man smelled of alcohol and was flirting with other men, making all his worries and waiting become a joke. He Li Mingchuan Such a useless time! ?

Li Mingchuan patted Ye Tang's face, his eyes were so cold that it could make people frost, "Have I given you too much shame lately? If you don't want to do it, just say it. It's just an assistant. I, Li Mingchuan, don't need you."

No matter how many times he heard such words, Ye Tang still felt as uncomfortable as a needle prick in his heart.

He could see that Li Mingchuan was really angry, but besides apologizing, he didn't know what else to do.

He is indeed a role that can be replaced at any time. On this point, he still has self-knowledge. For Li Mingchuan, after he leaves, there will be Assistant No. [-] soon, and Assistant No. [-] will be on top. The work he can do , others can do as well. Whether he leaves or stays will not leave any impact on that person. Doesn't the earth still turn the same when it is gone?

Li Mingchuan turned and went back to his room, Ye Tang was the only one left in the empty hall.

He leaned against the wall and raised his head for a while, feeling sleepless, feeling sticky and uncomfortable, so he dragged his exhausted body into the bathroom.