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Kaito suppressed the uneasiness in his heart, and he got off the bed lightly.

Walking slowly to the door, facing Kamishiho's complex expression, he said softly, "Let's go out and talk."

Shiho took a deep look at him, then turned and walked towards the living room.

Kaito is doing mental construction for himself.He closed the door gently, and through the crack of the open door, he saw Shinichi who was sleeping soundly.That sleeping face gave him great strength.

The door was finally closed, and he turned around, ready to face the biggest problem at hand.

In the living room, Shiho was waiting for him.

He didn't dare to speak loudly for fear of disturbing Shinichi, so he asked Zhibao to go to his room, "Go to my room and talk."

Zhibao had no objection and followed him into the bedroom.

He set the chair for Zhibao, sat on the bed by himself, took a deep breath, and asked, "You...how did you come here?"

"I'm here to deliver materials to Kudo," she gestured to the things in her hands, "I heard that he is ill, so I'll visit him by the way."

But he didn't expect to see such a scene.

Kaito said hesitantly, "I... I don't seem to hear you knocking on the door."

Zhibao explained: "I called Kudo, and he told Xiaolan to hold the door for me and let me come in directly."

Quickly understood, "That's it."

He lowered his head and remained silent, never expecting that the secret he had hidden for so long would be discovered in such a way.

"Then you..." He asked in a low voice, "Did you see it just now?"

Zhibao didn't say a word. In fact, the shock in her heart is no less than that of Kaito, but her strong psychological quality keeps her so calm, otherwise she would have screamed when she saw it.

She tentatively asked, "You and Kudo, what's going on with you two?"

"That's not the case." Kaito raised his head abruptly, "It has nothing to do with Shinichi."

"He..." He was afraid that Zhibao would misunderstand, and explained: "It's me, it's my wishful thinking, it has nothing to do with him, he doesn't know about it at all."

Zhibao's heart relaxed slightly, just now she thought... It's okay, as long as Xinyi doesn't change his mind.

However, she can't completely relax, because in her opinion, even Kaito's unrequited love is not a small problem.

It's not because Kaito is a boy like Shinichi.If it was someone else, she wouldn't care if he was gay or not, but Kaito is different, because Kaito has his own special characteristics.

He has such a good relationship with Xinyi, and he also knows Xiaolan.If his thoughts were discovered, Zhibao couldn't imagine the consequences.

These two people are what she wants to protect, and she doesn't want them to be hurt. In order to protect them, she can sacrifice her own feelings, or sacrifice others'.

She tentatively asked, "You know Kudo has a girlfriend, right?"

Kaito nodded, "I know."

He hurriedly said: "Please rest assured, I will not do anything to try to separate the two of them."

He smiled wryly, "Actually, I never thought of telling anyone about it."

It's just that some things don't always develop according to his ideas, and he didn't expect that his momentary involuntary feelings would be seen by others.

The only luck is probably that the person who discovered this was not Shinichi, but Shiho.

"By the way." Thinking of this, he looked at Zhibao expectantly, begging implicitly in his eyes, "Can I please, don't tell Shinichi what happened today."

Zhibao nodded, "I don't care about other people's feelings, as long as you don't do anything to hurt them, I won't take the initiative to bring it up."

Not only would she not mention it, she would even help him hide it together, otherwise, she didn't know what would happen if Xinyi found out the truth.

Kaito repeatedly assured, "Of course I won't hurt any of them."

Zhibao believed that he would not wish to hurt those two people, but sometimes, everything was not as expected.

She asked, "Are you going to live here forever?"

Kaito pursed his lips, "You want to persuade me to leave him?"

"This is a hopeless relationship." She confessed: "No matter how much you like Kudo, you can't be together. In this case, isn't the farther away the better?"

When she thinks this way, she is actually thinking of everyone, "You have to know, even if you don't tell me, I won't tell you, but when you get along day and night, it's inevitable that Kudo won't find out."

"In this world, the most impossible thing to hide is a person's heart."

Kaito lowered his head and said in a low voice: "I know, I understand the truth. But..."

He didn't want to go, didn't want to leave Shinichi.

He knows that living close is not good for him. For a love that is beyond reach, he should take the initiative to distance himself and let time and space calm his feelings.

But he still didn't want to.

He wants to see him, wants to be with him.Even if the consequences of staying by his side are bruises all over his body, even if he knows that if he continues like this, he will sink deeper and deeper, he is still willing.

Zhibao sighed softly, not knowing whether he was lamenting that Kaito couldn't see clearly, or lamenting his feelings that were stifled before they sprouted.

"Why are you in trouble?"

Knowing that that person will never fall in love with me, knowing that it is impossible for me and him to be together, but insisting on not letting go, in the end, it is only myself who is sad.

"It's hard to say whether it's bitter or not." Kaito chuckled, "But it's all my own choice."

Zhibao was puzzled, "Stay away from him, and forget those thoughts you shouldn't have earlier, wouldn't it be easier?"

Even if you can't let it go for a while, but if you stay far away, at least you don't have to watch him and your lover every day, wouldn't it be better?

She is not a nosy person, but the Kaito in front of her made her see her former self.

Luckily she's out and Kaito is still stuck in it.

She couldn't help persuading: "You shouldn't let yourself get stuck in it. Letting go as soon as possible is the right way."

"But I don't want to." Kaito refused without thinking, "Miyano-san may or may not have liked someone. But you will never know, when I found out that I liked my brother what does it feel like."

"I don't want to, and I don't want to develop to where I am today."

He said softly: "I have also struggled, I have also doubted, and I have tried to alienate him... But, I can't."

Those who have not experienced it will not know what he went through in those six months.

If he could choose, he would not want to fall in love with a boy who already had a girlfriend and was still his brother.

But many things are beyond the control of people. If people can really control their emotions, how can there be so many people who are trapped by emotions in the world.

He couldn't control his heart, couldn't control himself to give up on him, just like he couldn't control himself not to love him back then.

On New Year's Day, he had already succumbed.If he can't change it, he will choose to accept it.

And since he accepted...

Kaito closed his eyes slightly, he didn't ask much, he just wanted to stay by his side, as long as he could see him all the time, and touch him unscrupulously when he could still touch him.

Otherwise, he doesn't know how he can still be in contact with him once he leaves the school.

This less than four years is the time he left for himself to indulge.

In their drifting future, the sweet or bitter days during this time will be his most precious memories.

He opened his eyes, "Actually, I understand."

"So I never asked for anything. I knew there would be no result, and I never expected a result at all."

"I just." His eyes were a little dark, "I don't want to take the initiative to give up this relationship."

For the first time in his life, he fell in love with someone.

He used to think that his feelings for Qingzi were love, but he didn't realize that it wasn't love until he met Shinichi.

After more than ten years of friendship, Qingzi is as important as his family to him.

But such feelings are vulnerable compared to his feelings for Shinichi.

For the first time, he knew that to truly love someone, he was willing to give everything for him.

He lowered his posture and unloaded all principles in front of him, just because he loved him.

Soaring wantonly in the dark night sky, the gorgeous and bold magician under the moonlight, after taking off his white disguise, is nothing more than an ordinary person in love.

He is not a real god, he cannot reverse time.

So he can't stop time at the last moment of Xinyi's birthday, and he can't change the time when they met.

It's God's will, they started off wrong.

If there is no one else by Shinichi's side, he will pursue him at all costs and seek a result.Good or bad, he is willing.

But now, he doesn't even have the qualifications to do so.Because the ending was doomed from the beginning, and he saw the future from the beginning.

That dark, dark future.

"I know." He said: "One day I will be able to let go. I don't know when that day will come."

He raised his head slightly, "I just hope that before time wears away my love for him, I can love him wantonly."

"I don't want to give up this relationship."

"Even if this relationship belongs to me from the beginning."

If he gave up what belonged to him alone, no one in this world would know.

No one knew what emotions he had touched for him.

No one knows how this heart beats for him under his brother's coat.

"Miyano-san." He said sincerely, "I beg you, let me stay here."

Stay here until the end.

Shiho sighed, and closed his eyes sadly.She nodded heavily and said, "I promise you."

Kaito smiled, "Thank you."

It was rare for Zhibao to feel a little sad. She didn't want to stay any longer, so she stood up and said, "I won't stay any longer, I'm leaving."

Kaito also hurriedly got up to see her off, "I'll see you off."

Zhibao passed the information in his hand forward, "This thing?"

Kaito looked at the thick documents in her hand with a complicated expression, because of this pile of things, the secret he had kept for so long was discovered, and he really couldn't express how he felt.

The result of telling the secret that was pressed deep in his heart was full of unknowns for him, but it was undeniable that he did feel a little relief at that moment.

He knew that it was impossible for him to confess his love to Xinyi in his whole life, but at least, he was no longer the only one in this world who knew this feeling.

He took the document and said, "I'll give it to him."

Shiho responded.

She walked outside the door in silence, and before she left, she couldn't help but said: "You, you can do it yourself."

Kaito smiled wryly, he was already prepared.

He walked back into the house, but did not enter Shinichi's bedroom.He walked slowly to the window, watched the disturbing pedestrians downstairs, and slowly closed his eyes.

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I was also very helpless when I was reviewed recently, obviously I didn’t write anything

In this way, change the update time from today to [-]:[-] noon, and I will give him time to review it slowly.

Oh, it's so difficult!