To my dear senior sister

Chapter 89 Loss and Existence

Although they have separated, she clearly knows that Wen Lian is still there.She's doing well, she's taking life seriously every day, and that's enough.

In this way, she can tell herself to deceive herself.Even without her, Wen Lian can live well, her appearance will only disturb her life.Then her appearance is superfluous, and she can live in a place far away from Wen Lian with peace of mind, instead of looking for her.

Before meeting Chu Yijing, she never thought that one day Wen Lian might disappear, and then there would be no more Wen Lian in the world.

She couldn't imagine that such a thing would happen, let alone worry that if it happened, she would be the same as Chu Yijing...or worse than her...

During this period of time in the hospital, I was used to seeing too many partings between life and death.

She felt that people should live cautiously and not die.Everything is fine as long as you are alive.

After that, when Chu Yijing fell ill, she could see Gu Xianxi, and she regarded her as her former lover, Xia Wen.When I didn't see it, I just imagined one out of thin air, and laughed and cried at the imaginary person.

In normal times, she and Gu Xianxi are ordinary friends, and they only contact once in a while to chat about life.

Gu Xianxi pitied her and cooperated with her all the time.

five years?How long is five years?

For some, it might just be a fleeting day.For a cat, half of its life has already passed.

Penicillin went from a kitten to a cat about to enter middle age.

Unlike people, the years have not left too many traces on it.It's just that it has a lot more fat on its body, and it's also a lot lazy.

In addition to lying on the balcony and basking in the sun every day, I eat cat food. No wonder it swells up rapidly.

A leisurely cat, but not boring at all, because Gu Xianxi can tease it.

Before the sun had risen, the air was damp, and it squatted on the window and looked into the distance.

Gu Xianxi, who had just had breakfast, walked over, picked up her bag from the sofa, and prepared to go to work in the hospital.

Seeing it squatting there, he deliberately went around the sofa, hugged it into his arms, stroked the long hair on the top of its head with his palm and said, "I'm going to work, you have to be good at home, don't scratch the sofa." Each one had been pawed by penicillin, and if it was scratched again, she couldn't afford a new one.

In the past five years, Gu Xianxi's appearance has not changed at all, just like penicillin, but his temperament has become softer and more approachable because of his work.

Afraid that the penicillin would not listen, Gu Xianxi even tapped its head with his fingers.After explaining, she put down the penicillin and went to the entrance to put on her shoes.

Gu's mother, who came to visit her these few days, saw that she hadn't left yet, so she resumed her daily chatter while cleaning up the dishes.

As she spoke, Gu Xianxi listened and nodded from time to time, and then it was all blown by her ears.

Until Gu's mother asked: "Xianxi, should you find someone too?" Gu Xianxi's bending down stopped.

"It's been so long since you graduated, and you're still alone. You get up early and go to work every day, Mom, I love you so much." Mother Gu said with her head down.

Gu Xianxi thought for a long time before he thought of how to answer his mother's words, "Mom, I'm not in a hurry."

"Why are you not in a hurry? You are so old, if you don't get married, no one will want you in the future!" Gu's mother raised her eyebrows and stared, and was almost thrown off by the folded plate in her hand: "There are so many young people in your hospital. Doctor, you don't even like it?"

"They all belong to someone..." Gu Xianxi replied distressedly.Her mother urged her to go on a blind date several times before, but she always escaped because of the hospital affairs.During this period, her mother paused for a while. She thought she would be spared, but she didn't expect it to be brought up again.

"Then why don't you hurry up?" Gu's mother thought for a moment: "In the past two years, my mother's health has been poor, and I just want to see you get married quickly and have children... Would you like my mother to ask your aunt to pay attention to you?"

Gu Xianxi had already put on her shoes, pretended to glance at the time, and quickly interrupted her: "Mom, it's getting late, I'm going to be late for work soon! I'm going first..." After speaking, he opened the door and fled.

The door was shut with a bang. Mother Gu put down the dishes and listened to the sound of the elevator door opening and closing outside, and sighed. Why didn't she want to find a boyfriend?

On the way to the hospital, Gu Xianxi turned a corner and went to the bank.

This month's salary has not been paid yet, and my father owes debts from gambling and needs to pay it back.

Seeing that there was only a small amount left in the card, Gu Xianxi couldn't help but frowned.After thinking about it for a while, he still had no choice but to send a sum of money to Gu Huahui.Although it was a little less, it was enough for him to last for a while.

Gu Huahui stopped playing cards and bought lottery tickets instead, but the speed of spending money was still as fast as before.

Now that she can earn money, she doesn't want her mother to work hard, so she asks her father to ask her for money.

Therefore, the burden on the shoulders is much heavier, and the savings are getting less and less.

Sometimes she really wants to persuade herself.

Don't expect any more, don't wait any longer, completely forget and give up on Wen Lian!Find someone you are almost satisfied with and get married!Anyway, that person is not her, and there is no one who is better than her.To marry who is not to marry?There is always a result in a person's life.

but……

she can't...

When I see the penicillin at home, I will think of her childish, and the days of living together.

She can still be jealous with a cat... Gu Xianxi couldn't help but get red eyes when she smiled.

After arriving at the hospital, Gu Xianxi changed into a nurse's uniform and started another day's work.

After working for a while, she rarely had a break to take a break, and walked to the balcony with a teacup.Looking at the blue sky, he took a shallow breath, and after taking a sip of tea, his whole body relaxed.

When her gaze turned downstairs, she saw Chu Yijing wearing a hospital gown, wearing a pair of black-rimmed eyes, sitting on a chair in the shade under a tree reading a book.

She fell ill a few days ago and was sent in. Judging by her appearance today, she is probably awake.

In the past five years, her condition has repeatedly flared up, and no matter how many treatments have been used, they have no effect on her at all.The hospital was annoyed by her and didn't want to accept her for a long time, but due to the pressure from the leaders above, they finally accepted her.

Gu Xianxi raised his head, looking at the somewhat dazzling sun.The sunshine outside was just right, but Chu Yijing was immersed in his own world.

She hesitated to go down to say hello, but soon she was going to be busy again.Before she could make a decision, Chu Yijing from downstairs raised his head, saw her first, waved to her happily, and signaled her to come down.

Gu Xianxi had no choice but to go down. When she got downstairs, she asked before reaching Chu Yijing's side, "Are you feeling better?"

Chu Yijing narrowed his eyes, raised his smile and said, "Just stay the same, you know."

Gu Xianxi nodded noncommittally.

"The seizures have become more and more frequent recently..." After Chu Yijing gave up half of the seat to Gu Xianxi, he closed the book on his lap, and on the cover of the book was written the title "Genius on the Left, Crazy on the Right." ".

She held up the book and shook it in front of Gu Xianxi and asked, "Have you read this book?"

Gu Xianxi felt that the title of the book was very familiar, but she couldn't remember where she had heard of it, so she shook her head, "No."

"I can recommend you to read it. It's very well written." Chu Yijing was still beaming when he said this, but his eyes dimmed in a blink of an eye, and he said in a low voice: "I think I am very similar to the one in it." ...they are all the same people..."

Although Gu Xianxi didn't know what the book was about, he still comforted him: "Don't think about it..."

Before she finished speaking, Chu Yijing nodded and said, "You can be regarded as my only friend after I got sick...they all stayed away from me after I got sick..."

At the beginning like this, Gu Xianxi heard that she had something to tell him, and listened carefully.

"Want to hear my story?" Chu Yijing stared at Gu Xianxi with sadness in his eyes.This was a decision she made after thinking for a long time.

Speak up, otherwise there may be no chance in the future, and she still has something to ask Gu Xianxi.

"If you're willing to say something, I'm willing to listen." Gu Xianxi also wanted to know her story, so it should be enough time.

Accepting does not mean that you can retell it to others. This is the first time that Chu Yijing wants to open up to others and tell his own story.This requires not only breaking through the obstacles in your heart, but also enough courage.

"I lost her..." She was silent for a long time, her eyes turned red, and she struggled to speak.

Gu Xianxi was waiting for her next words, but Chu Yijing wiped his eyes with his head down, and gave up, saying, "It's gone."

"Forget it, don't talk." She still didn't have the courage to speak.

Gu Xianxi looked at Chu Yijing regretfully, sighed softly, afraid that she would fall into the shadows again, wanted to share his attention with her own experience, and said hesitantly: "I also have such a person... I lost she."

"Oh?" Chu Yijing slightly raised his head curiously, but did not look at Gu Xianxi and asked, "Is it as miserable as me?"

"No." Gu Xianxi shook his head, "She's still alive."

"Cherish the person in front of you, don't regret it until you lose it." Chu Yijing raised his head and sighed.She didn't want Gu Xianxi to miss it, and she didn't want her to become the same person as herself.

"Probably too late." Gu Xianxi was in a complicated mood.

"I have some things that I want to tell you...is that okay?" Chu Yijing remembered what he wanted to say before, turned his head sideways, looked at Gu Xianxi and asked.

Gu Xianxi knew very well that his ability was weak, so he didn't dare to say that he could take it casually. After weighing it in his heart, he said, "Tell me. If I can help you, I will definitely help you."

"They all say I'm sick, but I don't think so." Chu Yijing lowered his head and said slowly, "But I'm afraid they will send me to a mental hospital, so I have to admit it."

"Actually, I quite like that world, because there is her in it. I don't care if I am crazy or stupid, as long as I have her." There was a smile on the corner of her mouth, and the smile of that person was reflected in her mind, "Maybe One day, I'll be totally immersed in it..."

"Please, please don't let them take me away!" She raised her head again, staring at Gu Xianxi with burning eyes.

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