[Qin] Qin Shi

why...

Bai Shu tilted his neck back, looked up to the sky, and looked at the floating clouds and swaying green shade above his head.

"It's because of Shu. I've been having a dream that I don't want to wake up." In the garden with only two people, there was nothing foreign except for the singing of birds and the rustling of leaves. Looking back, I found that the companion who could dream together suddenly disappeared."

I was left alone, staying where I was, not knowing whether to move on or give up.

"Dream?" Ying Zheng brushed his fingers across the wall of the teacup, "How do you classify it as a dream?"

"Isn't it a dream?" Bai Shu himself didn't really want to talk about this topic, but he also knew that if he couldn't give Ying Zheng an answer today, then the other party would definitely keep asking until he was satisfied. When I was a slave, when it was always the time when the son inherited the father's position, instead of apostasy, when talking about equality, talking about equivalence, talking about reading and writing, there is no baseness or honor—"

Bai Shu raised his arms towards the sky, his outstretched fingers seemed to be grabbing something: "—how ungrateful are you."

Ying Zheng's fingers stopped, and he looked at Bai Shu with a little surprise: "Why do you think so?"

"Isn't it?" The cloud drifted leisurely through the sky, and the troubles in the world can't affect its free footsteps. It would be great if people could be born like this.

"It's just the status of 'someone's son', you can shake your will, give up trust, forget all your past deeds, leaving only hatred, only hatred. No more friendship, no more grace, and even unwilling to listen to explanations, Just because of one identity, we have to veto everything."

"Equally, some people are born high, and some people are destined to be humble all their lives. It is clear that those princes and nobles may not be as good as ordinary people, but they can enjoy themselves in the prosperity and wealth, while those who have paid a lot can only reluctantly live on the edge of life and death. Fill the stomach."

"Once upon a time, I complained about it."

"Didn't you always do well in the past?" Ying Zheng didn't know where Bai Shu's emotion came from, "I thought you'd already looked past Lian Po."

The sun passed through his fingers, and in such a bright weather, Bai Shu suddenly lost his temper: "I can't think about it." He was decisive and crisp, "I can't think about it, I can't think about it, I can't think about it——I just can't think about it!"

Bai Shu at this moment reminded Ying Zheng of Fu Su who acted like a baby to him.

So he laughed, coaxing his general as if he was coaxing Su Su: "It's because he's not good enough, that's his problem. It's also his fault that he didn't know how to cherish you. Now he's dead, and You are still alive, isn't such a result enough to prove who is right and who is wrong?"

"What kind of proof is this?" Bai Shu tilted her head angrily, "Don't treat me like a child."

"You also know that your current behavior is very naive." Ying Zheng laughed, "There is no distinction between good and evil in this court. The winner is naturally righteous, and the loser is naturally evil. Right and wrong are just a piece of paper, one person, one bite That's all. If you're too attached to this, you're not the Bai Shu of political awareness."

Bai Shu's raised hand came down, and at the same time, he pulled his head back: "Although no matter how you say it, you don't care, no matter how much you are praised by Yanbei, in the final analysis, Shu is still a human being. As long as he is a human being, he hopes to be recognized and affirmed. The one that is seen as correct, and that alone, is universal."

Ying Zheng raised his eyebrows, probably knowing why Bai Shu was troubled.

"When I admit that all of Shu's companions are gone, I suddenly become uncertain..." Bai Shu's pupils on the bamboo slips were scattered, and he looked into the distance, as if he was standing on the mountainside. The mountains are clustered together, with heavy rocks and peaks, like layers of waves, green colors with no end and no end.

"...Am I, really walking on the right path?"

"It's strange," Ying Zheng clicked his tongue, "There are still things you are not sure about. Haven't you been doing very well all the time, whether it is Yanbei or Chu State, even if your identity is revealed now, most of the people in the court The courtiers on your side. Isn't this well done, what are you questioning?"

Bai Shu hummed: "But Yanbei is Yanbei, there is only a square inch of land, and all they think about is 'survive'. Whoever can lead them to live, they will follow whoever." Thinking about it now, he was in Yanbei. The success of Bei's move is really an unrepeatable miracle because of the right time, place and people.

"I led the soldiers to give them victory and let them see the hope of living, so they will follow me. There was a severe drought that year, and the people were not worried about the king's power and rich people's food and clothing, but they were unwilling to use it to help outsiders. Hatred, and the military power in my hands, pushed me to the throne of Yanbei."

"How big is Yanbei, and how big is Qin. I want everyone in the world to be able to study, but doesn't this touch the interests of the princes and nobles? I want everyone in the world to be an official, don't they have the right to shake the clan?" ? I want men and women to marry freely and casually in this world, don’t you offend those old-fashioned ones?”

Ying Zheng let out a 'huh' and looked at Bai Shu with joy and gluttony in his eyes.

"I kept my promise to guard Yanbei for Lian Po, but when I confronted his king, he abandoned me without hesitation. I have been with Zhao Li for decades, and when his king was in danger, He chose his king without looking back. Then what am I, just an insignificant passer-by?"

Ying Zheng raised his eyebrows, and the satisfaction on his face turned into enlightenment.

"They can treat me like this. The King of Chu has so sworn that Shu will not end well when he returns to Qin. If everything Shu wants is realized, will the people still praise me? Will they be in danger when I am in danger?" Time to stand in front of me and block the attack from the meritorious nobles for me?"

Speaking of this, the bewilderment in his words could no longer be concealed: "Or maybe they just watch, just like they watch Shang Yang, because they don't care about themselves, so they just watch and don't do anything? But in this case, my What's the point of acting? When Shang Yang died, did he regret his actions?"

"Does Mr. Wu An know about Shu's existence? It is obvious that Mr. Wu An killed Zhou with his own hands, but why did Ji Zhou's princess give birth to him? If his background is false, who is Shu?" Questions followed one after another. , into the mist, "Sometimes, I feel like I've gone crazy."

Bai Shu didn't see Ying Zheng's expression, he was immersed in his maze: "Such crazy thoughts, such crazy actions, such out of place, is it because I have gone crazy that I feel this way? Or maybe I have had a dream for too long, and after repeating it, I can no longer distinguish between fantasy and reality?"

"Then have you ever stopped?" Ying Zheng hummed, but did not answer, but asked his own question, "Have you ever stopped, continue to dream your dreams, and want to change the world into what you want , want your promise and things that can no longer be distinguished as illusions or dreams to become reality?"

The answer is naturally no: "I've been thinking about it, sometimes it's more, sometimes it's only for a moment, but I never stopped thinking about it." Bai Shu raised his head, as if the majestic city wall of Yanbei was right in front of him, as if Yanbei The person knelt in front of him, bent his knees, lowered his head, "I can't control it, I've been thinking about it all the time."

"Then what are you still hesitating about?" Ying Zheng let go of his grip on the teacup and stood up, "They are your companions who will live and die with you, your robes are your brothers, and they are willing to entrust their lives to you , isn’t it for the world you promised, the world you promised?”

"With your ugly appearance, are you denying those brave men who fought and sacrificed for you?" Walking around the table, Ying Zheng stood still in front of Bai Shu, "With your appearance, are you denying Gu Zhizhi?" Since the trust in you, the expectation of you, is it different for you!"

When he got to the back, his voice suddenly rose, and Bai Shu was so shocked that he suddenly raised his head to look at Ying Zheng.

The king of Qin was holding the light behind his back, and the dazzling sunlight bypassed him, so excited that Bai Shu couldn't fully open his eyes: "The story about the little fox and the little prince you told Fu Su, do you know which part Gu likes the most?" Looking down at Bai Shu , watching the shade of the trees cast shadows on his face, watching the sun coat him with gold, "it's the part of the rose and the little prince."

"The little prince is an ordinary boy. One day a rose appeared in his world. Just as he is different from roses, he also firmly believes that his roses are unique. Even if one day he finds that he The rose is just one of the thousands of roses, nothing unusual, nothing to cherish. But no matter what kind of scenery along the way, he meets a different kind of person, he finally , will return to Rose."

Bai Shu narrowed his eyes, trying to see Ying Zheng's face clearly against the sunlight.

"You said the fox told the little prince that he has been domesticated. But to the little prince, does he really care about the fox as much as the fox cares about him? I don't think so." Ying Zheng looked down at his best friend with obsidian-like eyes There was ink rolling in his heart, "It's the rose that changed the world of the little prince, didn't it?"

Bai Shu froze there.

"It was the rose that came first, it was the rose that domesticated the little prince first, and it was the rose that became the little prince's uniqueness first." Ying Zheng bent down, wrapped Bai Shu in his arms as if coaxing Su, "Some people can never be replaced, and the so-called replacement is just a temporary forgetting."

"One day, the world will remember." He said, "It's like the singing of willows and cicadas, the sunset and tide, and the swaying of branches. Don't ask where it started, don't know where it ends, and can't be yourself."

"If you still have confusion before then, it's okay." The king's hand pushed away the fog, allowing the sun to illuminate the valley through the darkness, "come and ask the solitary—the solitary will admit everything about you, and the solitary will guide your confusion, The solitary will block all threats to you from the rear, for the solitary is your king."

So, go ahead and do it.

"Because Gu, like you, is dreaming a dream that others will call crazy."

A dream that lasts until death.

There is a faint aroma in the breath, even through the clothes, you can feel the temperature of the other person, someone strokes his back gently, obviously such an important position as the neck is exposed to the other party's hands, but it is not a little I don't want to move, I just want to maintain it like this forever.

Isn't the luckiest thing for an idealist to meet another idealist?

"What if Shu wanted a world without a king?"

"Isn't that very interesting!" Ying Zheng's voice was not forced, and he couldn't hide the joy in it, "If you can do it, please let Gu Ye take a look-you must know that the government affairs of 120 catties a day, Gu also has a big head .”

Bai Shu buried her head in Ying Zheng's arms, and laughed softly: "Give up, there is no such world."

"That statement is false, isn't it?"

"No, only this sentence is true!"

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