i gave myself away

There was the sharp sound of high heels rubbing against the floor in the ward, followed by a female voice.

"Yeah, I just came to see your joke."

Xie Jincheng suddenly grabbed Shi Mo's hand, and he recognized that it was his mother Cheng Pei's voice.

The air factor condensed strangely, and the tense conversation in the ward continued.

"Have you seen enough? Let's go when you've seen enough."

"I really want to see enough, and I will leave in a cool way. But it's rare to see you in such a mess, how can I not take a few more glances? Ever since you were obsessed with making money, you have been running around and leaving your family behind. How does it feel to spend money, but can't buy health and people to accompany you?"

"Are you mocking me?"

"Of course, if you don't taunt you, who are you taunting?" I thought that there was going to be a war of words and guns in the ward, but Cheng Pei sighed and said in a low voice, "But I have no right to criticize you. I'm the same as you. I don't know." Since when, money and interests have deceived our hearts, we have ignored our elder son, and we have made it a common practice to criticize our elder son, just because we are under a lot of work pressure, unhappy and need to vent our anger.”

The ward fell into a dead silence, so quiet that Cheng Pei could almost hear Cheng Pei's incomprehensible low sigh.

"I really wanted to laugh at you, but seeing your appearance, I thought, if one day in the future, I was also lying in a hospital bed, I would be as lonely as you. To be honest, we have been arguing for so many years, and I also Tired, divorce is actually the best result for us. After the divorce, I traveled to many places and saw many things that I can’t usually see. Once I had a meal, I saw a family celebrating the old man’s birthday. The children surrounded the old man, wishing the old man birthday, serving food, and the old man gave red envelopes to the younger generation. I still remember the happy scene. At that time, I really envied them. The family was happy and harmonious, and there were children to take care of , look at us again, besides wealth and status, what else do we have? Money can’t buy health or happiness. We treat Jin Cheng badly, and we have no right to ask him to support us in the future. Zhan Hong’s heart has flown abroad , may not come back in the future, and the only thing that can accompany us in the end is loneliness, but we let go so coolly, what about Jin Cheng and Zhan Hong? We didn't leave them anything. In the best time of their lives, we What they are given is endless quarrels and a broken home." Cheng Pei sighed long, "The sins we have made, the bitter fruits we have planted, we will suffer on our own, but life is not long, shouldn't we leave some happiness for them? Our son, especially the eldest son who has owed us for many years?"

The ward suddenly fell silent, and there was no sound for a long time. It seemed like a century had passed before I heard Xie Wen say softly: "I have nothing but money."

"Me too."

The ward didn't make any more noises. Neither Xie Jincheng nor Shi Mo could see what they were thinking or what their expressions were at the moment.Even though the lights in the corridor were extremely bright, the ward was as dark as an endless black hole, sucking in all the light.

In fact, they still have one thing - love.But none of them spoke of it, nor did they have the courage to speak of it.They knew very well that they had already lost the qualification to care for them. From the day Xie Jincheng left home, everyone in this family has gone to the road of no return, and there is no turning back.

It's too late for this guilt.

Xie Jincheng hung the cold sugar water on the handle of the door, gently pulled Shi Mo, and left the ward quietly.

This is the best ending for their family, because their self-esteem does not allow them to bow their heads, so no one will pierce that barrier first, so it is good, let them feel guilty, and let him feel missing , Let’s miss each other.

Shi Mo looked at Xie Jincheng, and scratched his head in confusion: "Aren't you going in?"

"It's not necessary, it's good to know what they think." Xie Jincheng said calmly.

"Although I don't know your family's situation very well, is this really good? This is a good opportunity for you to reconcile."

Xie Jincheng shook his head expressionlessly: "They won't apologize, and I won't give in again."

"That's it..." Shi Mo thought for a while, then suddenly grabbed Xie Jincheng and walked back, "Since you can't speak, let me do it."

In fact, for what Xie Wen and his wife did, Shi Mo is still unable to forgive them. Years of hurt cannot be healed by a few words and regrets, but he knows that Xie Jincheng needs them, and Xie Jincheng needs the care of his parents and a complete family. There has been a spiritual vacancy for many years, and this is precisely what Shi Mo, an outsider, cannot fill, so Shi Mo took Xie Jincheng back to the ward.

Shi Mo picked up the bag of sugar water and knocked on the door: "Hello, takeaway supper, we're coming in!" Then he met Xie Jincheng's stunned gaze and boldly opened the door.

There was only one dim bedside lamp turned on in the ward, which happened to clearly reflect the surprised expressions of the two people beside the bed.

"You..." Xie Wen didn't finish speaking, seeing Xie Jincheng, all the words choked in his throat.The atmosphere has become weird, and silence is the word that best describes the current situation.

Shi Mo put the sugar water on the table and called out politely: "Hello, uncle and aunt! I'm here to deliver supper. Everyone is here, so let's eat together." After speaking, he walked to the side naturally and poured the sugar water He went into the bowl, touched the wall of the bowl, and said with a smile, "The sugar water is cold, I'll heat it up, you guys will wait." After finishing speaking, he quickly closed the door and walked away, leaving space for his family.

No one broke the silence first, and the three lowered their heads, not knowing what to say.Obviously they are the closest family members, closely linked by blood, but they have fallen to the point where there is nothing to say, how sad.

After a long time, Cheng Pei sighed, "Who is that?"

"My lover." Without hesitation, without hesitation, Xie Jincheng said these three words with pride and pride.

Cheng Pei opened her mouth in shock. She looked at Xie Wen, but saw that Xie Wen had no expression on his face, neither angry nor disgusted, as if he had long accepted this stranger who accidentally broke into their home.

Cheng Pei couldn't figure out what her ex-husband was thinking, so she asked Xie Jincheng in disbelief: "Are you serious? Do you know what this means?"

"I know, I won't change my mind."

Before Cheng Pei came out of the shock, she asked Xie Wen: "Can you accept it?"

Xie Wen closed his eyes deeply, did not speak, and answered in silence.

As a proud father, he should object angrily and scold his son, but he has no right to object.He drove the eldest son out of the house with his own hands, and the eldest son was already a familiar stranger to him.And what about Shimo?When no one visits and takes care of him, it is Shi Mo who silently helps him regardless of the past.

After all, he owed Xie Jincheng and Shi Mo.As Cheng Pei said, life is not long, and all he left to his eldest son is pain, and it's time to give his eldest son happiness.

Shi Mo just walked in, he looked left and right, saw that no one was talking, he immediately smoothed things over, opened the lid of the bowl containing sugar water, filled two cups with disposable paper cups, and handed them to Cheng Pei and Xie Jincheng respectively. The bowl was handed to Xie Wen: "Eat it while it's hot, don't wait until it's cold, this is a package from your favorite restaurant, Uncle."

The hot air flowed into the palm from the bottom of the bowl and cup, and the cold ward suddenly felt warm.The family of three stared fixedly at the sugar water in their hands. The green mung beans swirled on the water surface, slowly rippling away with the wind, and the heart seemed to be baptized by the wind, and the haze was dispelled one by one.

Xie Jincheng handed his cup to Shi Mo: "You don't want to drink?"

"I'm full," Shi Mo stroked his chubby stomach, "You drink, and uncles and aunts drink too."

Xie Jincheng had a faint smile in his eyes, Shi Mo, it's always like this, he was touched by the small details, if it wasn't for Shi Mo, he and his family would probably have been strangers since then.He smiled and drank half of the sugar water, and handed the rest to Shi Mo: "Drink some, get rid of the fire."

"Oh." Shi Mo held the cup and drank it slowly.

Xie Wen and his wife saw the interaction between the two, looked at each other, smiled at the same time, picked up the sugar water in their hands, and tasted it slowly.

This bowl of sugar water...is so sweet.

"Drink a bowl of sugar water together, and we will be a family in the future." Shi Mo helped them clean up the bowls and cups. You have separated because of some things, but your blood relationship is still there, you can talk about everything, there is no need to be so rigid, the elders are not young anymore, they can’t stand the stimulation, the younger generation also have work and life pressure, can’t bear the blow, everyone Let's be considerate to each other, no matter what, we are a family, isn't it possible for a family to be together and eat the same bowl of sugar water?"

The three members of the family were taken aback at the same time, and looked at Shi Mo with complicated expressions.

Shi Mo went to clean up the bowl behind their backs, didn't notice their gaze, and was still talking to himself: "I think you still have feelings between you, but the way you express your feelings is wrong. Then just change it, It’s not that murder and arson cannot be undone, so why refuse to change it? Face is very thin, and it can be broken if you tear it up. For example, sitting together drinking a glass of wine and eating a bowl of sugar water, nothing will happen? You are family, I'm not a stranger, so you can understand a lot of emotions, right? I don't know why I, an outsider, want to tell you so much, I just... just hope you can cherish your family, ""Wow"!He suddenly turned on the faucet, looked bitterly at the bowl being washed by the water, and his clothes were soaked by the splashed water, "Don't regret it until you lose it...Family is very precious, don't waste the only time in your life It is used to quarrel with family members, even if you win, you also lose the relationship with family members. In fact, I really envy you, you can still sit together as a family, and I..."

He suddenly clenched his fist, and the hand holding the bowl trembled violently. His voice was sad and helpless, as if he had been abandoned by the whole world, leaving him alone: ​​"What I regret most is my mother died before she fell ill. , I quarreled with her because of bad work... Later, I sent her away in this hospital... Regret and guilt can't replace the lost relatives. You haven't lost them. I don't know how much that is. Pain and despair... No one can predict when the parting will come, but I hope you can cherish every day and every person before the parting comes."

A hand went around his back and turned off the faucet for him.The warm embrace was tightly attached to his trembling body, and a gentle voice rang in his ears: "Go back, time will heal our wounds." Now that Shi Mo is hurt, it is really not suitable to stay in this pale place. environment.

Shi Mo nodded, and while watching Xie Jincheng wash the dishes for him, he smiled self-deprecatingly: "It's so funny, I am the one who persuaded you, why did I turn into talking to myself... Hehe, this story is It’s fake, it’s just made up to win your sympathy, don’t you believe it?”

The true feelings and ardent expectations in the words are truly revealed and exposed in the air that everyone breathes. Shi Mo, Shi Mo, he is just using a strong excuse to cover up his unknown heartache. , if he didn't sincerely hope that their family would reconcile, why would he open his bloody wound and sprinkle the salt of the pain?

Xie Wen and Cheng Pei closed their eyes deeply, maybe Shi Mo was right, it's time to change, don't let yourself regret it in the future.

Xie Jincheng also understood very well that Shi Mo's words broke their deadlock, and I believe both parents would understand the deep meaning.Now, relatively speaking, he is more worried about Shi Mo.He hugged Shi Mo tightly, wiped his hands with a paper towel, and was about to leave with him. When he reached the door, he stopped suddenly, his lips moved, and he said a little stiffly: "Dad, Mom, let's go first." Let's go, Shi Mo's condition is not good."

In an instant, the parents burst into tears.

It's been a long, long time, and I haven't heard this "Dad, Mom".

With tears in their eyes, the two couples looked at each other with relief, nodded, and said with a smile at the same time: "Go slowly and pay attention to safety."

Then they looked at each other, their faces that were no longer young were covered with wrinkles from time to time, and the once shiny black hair was also mixed with white hair. I don't know when they started to grow old, and in the future, they will be able to accompany My own, the only one who is willing to quarrel with me is the other party, right?It's really... lonely and comforting.