Every confession will be killed

Since I was very young, my elder brother has been synonymous with strength. He is always in front of me, guiding my way all the time, even my decisions, my thoughts, and my life are all influenced by this person. Controlling, such an omnipotent and powerful man is the man I am looking for.

So when I saw the man who would express his fear unscrupulously in my arms, I knew very well that he was not sober, so everything would only rely on instinct.

And this instinct made me realize clearly that this man who blocks all my sunlight is actually so fragile.

I hugged my elder brother in my arms and stroked his back gently like comforting a child.

It is impossible for any one person to live alone in this world, and the despair of this world will consume this person's nerves all the time.

For the eldest brother, I was the one who consumed all his energy.

I'm sorry, brother.

I've been doing nothing but trouble for you, I'm really sorry.

Please allow me to atone for my childishness in the next time.

But even though that's what I said, I really have no idea how to cure my elder brother's illness. Except when I go out at night, I like to take my elder brother to the library to read.

It was the first time for me, Ye Yuan, to study something so earnestly since I was a child. However, after reading various theoretical books, I came to a conclusion - there is a cure for mental illness. It's all a lie.

The complexity of mental illness does not allow anyone to claim to be an expert in this field. Everyone can only be in the exploration stage. After all, the human brain is too magical to understand with the current knowledge reserve.

Just like...

So far if I say that I have been reborn many times more people will think that there is something wrong with my brain.

This is really a helpless world to tell the truth.

It's just that every time I look at the book in my elder brother's hand, I feel dazed.

"What's so good about such a book?" I looked at the famous book that gave me a headache, but I couldn't understand the most important thing, "Can you understand it, brother?"

"The content of this book is a bit interesting." When my eldest brother saw me asking him, he put down the book and talked to me. "It tells the story of a poor boy who fell in love with a noble lady and finally could only recognize reality."

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"Why do you find this story interesting?"

"I am very interested in this person." The eldest brother lowered his eyes slightly, and reached out to touch the foreign words on it, "Even if in the end, the poor boy gave up in the end, but at least the whole person in the author's writing, he has struggled very hard, And his struggle may seem futile at the moment, but he can feel the changes in the people around him."

My heart skipped a beat when I heard this.

"What can change?" I asked calmly.

"This poor boy is very naive, but he has the arrogance of a young man. This backbone supported him, and finally he broke his head." The eldest brother's faint voice did not seem lonely in the quiet library. , On the contrary, it is more prominent and soft, "But his actions have changed many people, and let more people see hope and resistance instead of resignation to fate."

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"Why on earth do you want to read such an inexplicable book?" I felt guilty, and it was difficult to ask, but my heart was beating undetectably faster. Does this mean that I have actually changed something? ?

"Well...it's quite boring." The elder brother closed the book and put it aside.

"You are also really, obviously you are a sick person, why do you feel that you are so much smarter than me, you should act like a sick person!" My eyes always glanced at the book inadvertently, I wanted to read it Even if I can't understand the story, the message revealed from the words of my elder brother also makes me interested in this book.

"Yuan Yuan was not very smart when he was young, and he won't become smart when he grows up." The elder brother reached out to pick up another book, which was a book about mental illness that I just put there.

I snatched it up quickly: "You can't look at these."

"Why?" The elder brother was obviously puzzled.

"You are already confused, if you look at these inexplicable things again, don't you become even more incomprehensible?"

"Okay." The eldest brother reached out and put down the book, "Yuanyuan, shouldn't it be time for the stall today?"

I checked the time, and it was almost the same.

"Return the book." I glanced at the book intentionally or unintentionally, and finally curbed my curiosity. The contents of the books are all the same now, and the ending doesn't seem to be very good after hearing what my elder brother said. I still don't want to embarrass myself.

"Xiaoye, you came so early today." Seeing that those uncles and aunts were still eager to me, but I could only smile on my face and curse in my heart.

These guys asked me to stay and clean their sanitation area every day after closing the stalls, but they really caught us bullying, but it is not the same now, if I am hated by these small vendors, just rely on the mouths of these gossips, I It is impossible to hang around here any longer.

My eldest brother was setting up a stall with me. He has mastered some barbecue skills proficiently, and his grilling movements are so damn good that many female students asked him to barbecue.

As soon as it was time to leave school, I saw this group of female students running over with sparkling eyes.

The eldest brother seldom speaks, rarely smiles, and only shows a little expression when he is facing me, and these female students don't like my easy-going elder brother, but they like the facial paralysis.

I really don't know if I don't open my mouth, I will definitely scare them!Brother is not a normal person!

Seeing groups of female students standing in front of my small stall talking and laughing, everyone seemed very happy, and at the same time, I felt the sharpness on my back.

Where did this sharpness come from? You don't even need to turn your head to know that it is these uncles and aunts who sell snacks on the street.

Because of the curiosity of these female students, everyone in the school knew that there was such a handsome guy in the street vendor at the gate to help out. Cengcengceng rises, which also means that other small vendors have fallen out of favor.

I don't know if I should be thankful that this is an era of face-to-face, otherwise I would not be able to do such a good business with my estimation.

I saw these uncles and aunts come to close the stall early today. I watched eagerly as one of them closed the stall, and the others also closed the stall one after another.

Frowning slightly, I felt that the atmosphere was a little weird.

I raised my eyes intentionally or unintentionally to look at the young man who was about the same age as me over there. The other party was also closing the stall, but the eyes that kept looking at me kept dodging intentionally or unintentionally, as if he was hiding something.

Watching the street vendors disappear one by one, I subconsciously grabbed one and asked, "Aren't you doing business today?"

"You've already snatched up the business, what business do you want us to do?" The old man said very bluntly, and didn't show me a good face. He was obviously very unhappy, and I didn't want to make trouble anymore. let go.

Turning around, he said to his eldest brother, "Today we will close the stall early."

Intentionally or unintentionally, I hide the things that have not been taken out for barbecue. Finally, when there are the most students, the things on the stall are almost sold out.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't prepare a little bit today. Tomorrow, I must prepare a lot tomorrow. Remember to join me tomorrow." I said to a few female students who often came to the stall and hurriedly planned to close it. Hearing the unhappy sighs of the female students, he could only smile apologetically.

The eyelids are constantly jumping, so many people have left, I can't believe it's because I robbed the business, although I have checked here before, and I haven't seen the urban management for such a long time, but It doesn't mean that there is really no one here!

"Will anyone come today?" The elder brother followed me and pushed the cart away, "No matter who it is, it must not be someone who makes us live comfortably!"

For two consecutive days, everyone left very early, and I vaguely felt that something was wrong, so I specially dragged my brother back here after closing the stall. At this time, the students had not completely dispersed, and from the beginning to the end, I I haven't seen anyone who resembles an urban management.

Once or twice is okay, but three or four times is a bit strange.

Could it be that those people really wanted to get off work early before leaving?

This is not scientific!

Every time I go is the peak time for students, such a time cannot be missed.

And after such an abnormal situation lasted for a period of time, the people who stayed were getting later and later. Every time I followed their footsteps, as long as the last person withdrew, I would withdraw, and I would never relax for a day!

These people also seem to have discovered my attitude, and there will always be two or three people left in the end, and they will set up stalls with me until the end.

Just one day when I intentionally or unintentionally greeted my aunt who hadn’t spoken to me for a long time, she gave me a hasty look, and immediately lowered her head to look at the things in her hands. I couldn’t even hear it. She has always yelled at me loudly.

After maintaining the anomaly for a period of time, all the small vendors returned to their normal state, but the eyes that everyone always cast on me became much less.

I looked at the people around me, raised my head and said to my elder brother, "Brother, I'm going to the toilet, you can look at the stall."

Seeing the elder brother nodding, I am still a little worried after repeatedly telling me, but...

There is one thing that I feel I need to check.