This situation

Guan Ning was eating lunch alone in the canteen of the No. [-] High School Affiliated to the University. Outside the canteen was a wisteria trellis that would soon be in full bloom.The Second Affiliated Middle School is not only a magical school in the eyes of many students, a famous youth TV series was filmed here.

Guan Ning's senior works as a psychology teacher in this school. Today, she was entrusted by her senior to come to the middle school with him to help students do research projects.

The topic of the research can reflect the active thinking of the students of the Second Affiliated Middle School—the phenomenon of adolescent suicide.

After the tutoring, the students in the research group suggested that she have lunch in the cafeteria of the No. [-] Affiliated Middle School. The cafeteria here is much more delicious than the food in the university.

The pride is beyond words.

The university and the middle school belong to the same land, and the distance between them is less than [-] meters. Although the quality of the canteen is not so different, there is still a significant difference.I really don't know how this student who goes to various universities after graduating from middle school will adapt to the canteen of that university. You must know that the canteen of H University where she is located is already ranked at the top.

Fang Congwen and her have eaten in the school cafeteria several times. At first, Guan Ning was always worried that the food in the cafeteria would not suit Fang Congwen's appetite and suggested eating outside the school, but Fang Congwen was happy to share the cafeteria food with her.

"The important thing is not what to eat, but who to eat with." Fang Congwen always said, "Besides, the smell of the cafeteria is nostalgic."

Fang Congwen is not deliberately picky about the food, he will praise the delicious ones, but put his mouth down when it is not so delicious, and seldom comment.If I like it, I will eat a few more bites, but not too much, and I don't have much pursuit of other material aspects.

At the beginning of their acquaintance, because of Fang Congwen's teasing several times, Guan Ning always thought she was that kind of lively and playful woman, but in front of others, Fang Congwen's smile was flat, almost indifferent. , Congwen is the kind of person who doesn't care so much about anything.Once, a wretched or uneasy well-meaning person said behind his back that Congwen must be extremely boring in bed because of his cold personality.Guan Ning was naturally annoyed when the ugly words fell into Guan Ning's ears. She coughed hard and glared at the person who said the bad words.Because she was a child, the middle-aged man who said bad things laughed and returned to his sanctimonious appearance.

Guan Ning didn't want to tell Fang Congwen this kind of thing, but she couldn't hide it from Fang Congwen with her sullen look. "Those people are obscene and wretched, don't take it to heart."

"I'm angry at them for being lecherous and shameless and saying that about you. Thinking that these people are other people's husbands, other people's fathers feel even more disgusted."

Fang Congwen did not comment on those people, and those people were never worth mentioning.After she kissed Guan Ning, she said to her: "You know what I look like best." The charming look in her eyes made people no longer think about other things.

Writers use the tide as a love//thing, one wave after another, it seems that it will never stop, only personal experience can resonate from the bottom of my heart.Being with Fang Congwen is both warm and passionate, and the two of them cling to each other for many nights, with extraordinary passion.

It is hard for Guan Ning to imagine that there will be such a wave and such madness when he is with others, so what about Fang Congwen?

Will he have the same intimate understanding with others as when he was with her?Will you have a feeling with others in the crowd?

If not, why insist on separating from her?

She can understand that in the relationship between the two, because of their status and age, Fang Congwen has to bear more pressure and guilt.She also understands that what Fang Congwen has experienced is far from being fully felt by her imagination, and she understands it from the bottom of her heart.She can easily say that if it is me, I must be fearless.Just because that's not her.After all, the two could not exchange seats, no matter how strong her empathy ability was.

But she is not reconciled.When Fang Congwen felt guilty and blamed herself, she was suffering every minute.

Will Fang Congwen miss himself as much as she misses her?For example at this time?

Did Congwen have a short lunch and started writing after taking a nap.Or take a collector from a gold-burning kiln to see the goods and explain them?

Many things cannot be thought about, once the imaginary flood is opened, it will swallow itself in an instant.

Guan Ning suddenly lost his appetite and put the dinner plate in the recycling place.Several WeChat messages came one after another, as if they had made a deal, Gu Ran, Chen Qingqing, Gao Yunhua, and Yang Xiaolan all asked her in unison if she still remembered the lecture in the afternoon.

This lovelorn made Guan Ning re-examine her relationship with others. She used to be polite but not careful. She stayed out of the crowd and always kept a controllable distance. feel too far away.But this time, she saw a difference in the relationship.None of the people around her ever wanted to interfere with her or control her under various pretexts, they just stood there purely, treating her with sincerity, like Xuan Ming.Yang Xiaolan said a word to her called partner.

Pulling these people into the WeChat group at once, Guan Ning replied in unison: "This afternoon is the online chat with Daniel Owen Yalong, I will never forget it."

This time, the online connection will be held at H University. Except for interested students from the Department of Psychology of H University, many places are open to psychological counselors in the society, and the places have been sold out early.Gu Ran was interested in consulting, and asked Guan Ning to reserve a place for her.

When Guan Ning arrived, Gao Yunhua, Chen Qingqing, and Gu Ran were already sitting in the classroom, discussing Gu Ran's new hairstyle in one go.From the mature sister Qingyu to the beautiful girl with bob hair, Guan Ning was taken aback.

"Why, don't you recognize it? Still don't think it looks good?" Gu Ran asked her.

"It's very beautiful and very spiritual."

only……

Guan Ning felt it was a pity to have such soft and beautiful long hair like fog.

"Have you signed in?" Yang Xiaolan, who arrived one step later, asked them.

The three nodded, and one shook his head, "Ah, I forgot." Guan Ning said.She walked to the door to sign in, but was thinking about a question at that time.

What is the problem?

"Go quickly." Yang Xiaolan chased her away.

When Guan Ning left her seat, she felt that the people behind her were looking at her, and when she turned her head back, the four smiled and said that everything was as usual.

eccentric.she thought.

After finding his own information and signing his name, Guan Ning habitually scanned the entire list.Hey, there are quite a few well-known consultants working outside.Finally, her eyes fell on a familiar name, and her index finger touched it unconsciously.She remembered the question she was thinking when she entered the door.

Since last summer, every exhibition and lecture, she will think of a question.

Will Fang Congwen appear?

His heart tightened at the moment when he saw the name, and he stared blankly at the entire classroom. There were Yang Xiaolan, Gu Ran and others looking around, but there was no such haunting figure.Fang Congwen hasn't arrived yet, but there is a great possibility that Fang Congwen will appear.Fang Congwen came to listen to Owen Yalong's online chat just because he liked this existentialist master after reading the book?

"What's your name, classmate? What's your registration number? Can't you find your name?" the kind staff member asked.

After Guan Ning thanked her, he returned to his seat. "you saw it?"

Yang Xiaolan hummed.She saw Fang Congwen's name and asked Guan Ning to sign in.

Knowing that Fang Congwen might appear, Guan Ning was uncharacteristically not looking for it. She sat quietly in her seat and watched the video of the staff and teachers and the old but still energetic Owen Yalong.With a little attention, it is not difficult to find that Guan Ning's eyes are twinkling, and all the words and sentences are blowing by his ears like the wind.She tried her best not to look for that person, not to see that person, not because she didn't want to see him, but because she was afraid that once she saw him, all her sorrow and resentment would eventually turn into a cloud of mist.Such love and attachment will become Fang Congwen's burden.

But just because she doesn't look or look for it doesn't mean that no one will do it for her.

Yang Xiaolan, who had regained some mischievousness after finding the ancient mythical beast wonton together with Lei Yuyu, was willing to do it for her. She kept looking around.

"Your Miss Fang has arrived. Her style is still the same."

"Miss Fang is sitting behind us alone, do you think she saw you?"

"Ah, why do you think she's a little haggard?"

"Hey, I think she saw you, she's been looking in this direction."

Gu Ran, who was sitting next to Yang Xiaolan, couldn't help telling her to shut up.Yang Xiaolan made a gesture of zipping the zipper to indicate that he would not say anything, and then coughed lightly.

Gu Ran stared at her, and she stuck out her tongue.

"Are you bipolar disorder? Do you alternate mania and depression?" Gu Ran said to her angrily.

"Senior Gu, you are really interdisciplinary. Are you really here to take the exam for our Department of Psychology? Oh..."

Gu Ran pinched her thigh severely and ignored her.

After the conversation ended, people left one after another. Gao Yunhua asked Chen Qingqing how much he understood Yalong's words.Chen Qingqing said, seven seven eight eight.

Gao Yunhua asked Yang Xiaolan again.Yang Xiaolan said, if you understand it, you will remember it.Gu Ran laughed at her.

"Guan Ning, what about you?" Gao Yunhua asked.

"Ah..." Guan Ning raised his head blankly. "There will be audio and text recordings later." She didn't listen to a single word, even the end was said by Yang Xiaolan.

Fang Congwen saw her dazed appearance perfectly, and so did their conversation.

"Guan Ning." Fang Congwen walked towards her.

Guan Ning smiled and waved to her with a stiff smile. She immediately realized that such an expression was wrong for Fang Congwen, so she smiled brighter.

Yang Xiaolan covered his eyes.Worse, worse.

Fang Congwen met Yang Xiaolan and Gu Ran a few times, and they greeted each other politely. Fang Congwen praised Gu Ran's new hairstyle.

It was the first time for Gao Yunhua and Chen Qingqing to see her, and they were both a little surprised.

In the noisy crowd, they walked out of the classroom with their own thoughts.Guan Ning, who was always half a step behind, looked dishonest.Yun Jin just said a few days ago that Guan Ning finally returned home obediently on the weekend, but was scolded by Uncle Guan, saying that she was lack of energy and looked weird, and that Guan Ning was not like this before.The final point is to ask Guan Ning to find a boyfriend in school.

The gentle little girl jumped up immediately.

"What kind of boyfriend! I have a girlfriend! I used to have a girlfriend. You forced me to separate from Congwen, and you got your wish. I won't go home to keep your eyes out, but you want me to come back , It’s all as you wish. What do you want from me! Do you want me to smile? Okay, I’ll go to the hospital later and cut my face twice, like the smiling man, always smiling, satisfied? Or do you want me to show you two slashes and smiles now? Do you want to draw a mark on my face? How much do you like to raise the corners of your mouth?"

She kept calling you all of you, and Fang Congwen felt that he was also one of you.

Uncle Guan was even more angry when he heard this, and wanted to do something again when he threw his chopsticks, so Shi Xiuming stopped him.

Yun Jin hugged Guan Ning who was trembling with anger, telling her not to be impulsive. "Ningning, mother doesn't think so."

Guan Ning said, "I know, Mom, I'm sorry. I can't help it."

Uncle Guan scolded his son severely and said to his granddaughter, "The breakup is your own decision. Don't rely on others."

These words made Guan Ning's feet jump again: "I decide? What have I decided? What qualifications do I have to make decisions. People like me who can raise their braids anytime and anywhere, have no right to make decisions. It's all your decisions, Yours, grandma's, dad's, mom's, Congwen's. It's all you who decide, when have you asked my decision? My good decision, what else can I say!"

The words are very hurtful, but they are the truth that has been accumulated for a long time.After speaking, Guan Ning repeatedly apologized to her parents. She understood that they had always treated her very well. She was very grateful and relieved. Maybe it was because she was not satisfied.

But in the end it's hard to settle down.

Yun Jin confessed her sadness, but expressed her understanding to her daughter. "She has always been polite and never yelled at home. I didn't worry about it before, but now... I didn't expect her to have resentment."

Guan Ning never wanted others to worry, just to make the family peaceful, just to make Congwen feel at ease.

Fang Congwen was very sad, especially after seeing Guan Ning's smile.In a sense, Guan Ning is not wrong, just like the separation is Fang Congwen's decision, all Guan Ning can do is respect.

"Guan Ning, don't be like this." As soon as he spoke, his voice was hoarse after being suppressed.

Fang Congwen stopped suddenly, Guan Ning didn't pay attention, and almost bumped into her, but such a distance was enough for her to smell her body, which was still exciting.

"Then, what do I want? Congwen, what do you want me to do?" As farewell friends, the two stood under the shade of a tree. Guan Ning closed his smile, pursed his lips, and frowned.

"I hope you are well and happy like you used to be. But I don't think it's going to work. You have to think about it too."

Heh, Guan Ning smiled, "I hope so too. But do I want to be useful? I want to hug you, I want to see you every day, I want you not to leave, is it useful? Congwen, what do you say? That's right, I think it's useless, you have to think about it too."

……

"You are still young, and you will meet and love many people in the future. The love of young people will pass after a while."

"Yeah, it's like a little thing, summer is over, love is over, or winter is over, love is over. Since you are so clear, don't worry about me, as you said, it will pass soon." Guan Ning Stiff neck, revealing a rare rebellious and unruly.

Fang Congwen felt that she was cute like this, with a completely different taste from the docile side. "The last time I went home was because I mentioned it?" The tone became soft unconsciously.

Guan Ning looked at her strangely, and said, "It's true that I haven't gone back for a long time. Facts have proved that it's better not to go back."

"I'm hungry, let's go to the cafeteria to eat? It will be late in a while, and there will be a lot of people." Fang Congwen suggested.

Guan Ning looked at her, and heard his lines from someone else, and felt an indescribably weird feeling, especially this person was the one who made him gnash his teeth and put his heart on top of his heart.

"Let's go." Fang Congwen took her arm and walked towards the cafeteria.

……

"Congwen, let's talk after dinner, okay?"

"What do you want to talk about?" Fang Congwen's sigh came from the bottom of his heart.

"I'm not reconciled. I love you."