Religious Faith

It was still noisy in the carriage, and it was still silent outside.The melted glass froze again because the water was not wiped clean. Unlike frost, a thin layer of ice formed.

"How long until?" I asked him.

"Five hours."

"I'm boring."

"Recite the vocabulary." He was still reading and didn't look at me.

"I won't recite it." I leaned my head on his shoulder and said, "Don't move, I'll sleep for a while."

While sleeping in a daze, he heard someone talking to him from the opposite side.

"Who are you?" It seemed like an old lady: "The young man is quite handsome."

He didn't seem to speak... Then I fell asleep, and I was so dazed that I couldn't remember what was going on.When I woke up, I found that my upper body was lying on his lap, and he put his arm around my head and my waist in the other, for fear that I would fall.

"woke up?"

"Hmm..." I sat up slowly.

"Are you hungry?"

"A bit."

"You wait, I'll fetch water and instant noodles for you." He told me, "Keep an eye on your luggage."

"Your teacher is so kind to you." The aunt on the opposite side was holding a child, the child had a runny nose, and his face was covered with ashes.

"Haha...that's pretty good." He said he was my teacher.

"I also want my child to have such a teacher when he goes to school." Then she smiled and wiped the child's snot with a piece of paper.

There is a lot of people in the carriage, some are standing and sitting.Anyone who has been on this kind of train knows how difficult it is to walk from the seat to the water heater in a crowded situation.It's okay for him to walk over, but it's not easy for him to go around people and cross people. When he comes back, there is boiling water in the noodle bowl.

He held the noodle bowl in one hand, and kept the other arm in front of the noodle bowl. He walked cautiously, stopped many times, and stepped over many times, stepping over those who sat on the ground and refused to give way.From time to time, he would say, "Excuse me, excuse me."

The road is so short, but it is so long to walk.

Seeing him like this, I feel a little sour in my heart, but I also feel very happy.

He came back and put the paper lid on the cover box with a fork: "I'll eat it later."

"And yours?"

"I'm not hungry."

It's not that he's not hungry, nor does he want to eat, it's just that it's too troublesome to go back and forth once.

"eat together."

"Eat by yourself." He continued to read.

"Li Jinze."

"Ok?"

I saw that the noodles were almost soaked, so I picked up a fork and rolled up some noodles, let him cool down, and brought them to his mouth: "Come on, open your mouth."

He smiled lightly, and only ate a little bit, no matter how much I persuaded him in the end, he stopped eating.

We arrived home in the afternoon, not because the road was too far, but because the train was too slow.There is no airport, no high-speed rail, only express and ordinary green trains, and there is also a closed bus, but I feel sick when I sit on it, so I don't think about it.

Immediately after we got home he did the laundry for the train ride, and then made me a meal and we had a quick bite.

I wanted it at first, but he said wearily, "Let's do it another day, I'm very tired today, and I have to go to work tomorrow."

Teachers go to work one day earlier than students, and they have meetings to formulate new teaching plans and new semester arrangements.

The next day, I played games at home for another day. When he came back from get off work at night, he saw me sitting cross-legged on the floor, with my earphones on, and playing high with the controller in my hand.He sighed and asked, "Did you eat?"

"No."

He lifted the pot and looked at it, but it was empty.

"Are you going to starve to death if I don't come back?" He put on his apron and got to work.

"No, because I know you won't leave me alone."

"Don't always depend on me, one day you have to take care of yourself alone."

I dropped the earphones and handle and ran over to hug him from behind: "I don't."

He smiled helplessly and dotingly, and said, "Let's play."

"I'm just sticking to you."

"..."

I did what I said and did not let go.So he was delayed in taking seasoning and cooking.The dish lived up to expectations and thanks to me we had a mess.

Li Jinze: "..."

Me: "Hey..."

Li Jinze: "..."

In the last semester of the third year of high school, an English teacher was pregnant, and the school had no other English teacher to substitute for the class, so Li Jinze was ordered to teach both the second year and the third year of high school at the same time.Judging from the results of the final exam last semester, that class has improved a lot, and after today's discussion, the school decided to let Li Jinze continue to teach the two classes in the third year of high school.In fact, he is quite tired. English is the main subject. Some classes have two English classes every day, and he still has three classes to teach in the second year of high school.What impressed me most was that he had ten classes a day, and he was never idle from morning to night. When he got home, he couldn't speak, and fell asleep.

If Li Jinze stays in this school, then he will judge the backbone of outstanding young teachers, and the signs are very good.

But Li Jinze didn't say whether he would stay or not, he only said: "It depends on the situation, I can't say for sure."

Later, Li Jinze took part in the [-]-day swearing-in in the third year of high school.The location is the playground.

The teacher stood alone in a team and asked all to wear suits.Li Jinze is recognized as the best-looking male teacher in the school. He is standing in the front row in a black suit, so handsome that he has nothing to say.Poison | medicine will also be elegant.

In March of Yangchun, the spring in the north is cold and the wind is biting.He was wearing a well-pressed suit and a dark red tie, and only a white fleece shirt underneath.The students on the side were all wearing winter clothes under their school uniforms.

He stands straight, with the jade tree facing the wind, forming a unique scenery.

I lay on the windowsill of the class and looked at him through the glass.

He also looked up and smiled slightly.

I think it was the day when the incident was exposed.

That day, Li Jinze spoke on stage on behalf of all the third-year teachers.

That is an honor for the teacher, even though Li Jinze's performance is very good, even though he is very popular with students, even though he is very dedicated.But he is only a 25-year-old young man. Why has he been valued since he first came, and he is so powerful?

The wood is beautiful in the forest, and the wind will destroy it.

After the [-]-day swearing-in, I asked him, "Is it cold?"

"Fortunately."

"But you were so handsome just now."

"Really?" He smiled, and then prepared to change clothes and go to class.

"Don't change, you're handsome, I like to see you in a suit."

"That's because you find it strange. This is the first time you've seen me in a formal suit." He took a white foam from my head and said softly, "Go to class."

later……

The principal called the two of us to the principal's office.

"What is your relationship?"

Li Jinze looked at him indifferently, but I was speechless.

"Li Jinze, Teacher Li! Do you know what you're doing!" The principal pointed to the monitor, which showed a picture of him taking foam for me in the office that day, which looked like pampering me on the head.He said: "This is your role model! Is this how your teacher taught you to be a role model!"

Li Jinze didn't speak. He knew that someone had been paying attention to him for a long time, but he thought that he would be exposed sooner or later, so he was mentally prepared.But this time, he just took an opportunity to get rid of him.The competition is always so fierce and cruel.His eyes were cold, a little mocking, a little disdainful.

"Jiang Cheng, did he coerce you?" the principal asked.

"Do not……"

Li Jinze glanced at me with threats in his eyes.I didn't understand what he meant, but the principal said: "Li Jinze, you bastard!" The principal pulled me to his side and said, "Don't be afraid, I'll make the decision for you."

It turned out that Li Jinze did it on purpose... He deliberately made the principal think that he forced me to do it, and then pretended to threaten me not to let me speak.

"No! It's not like this!" I ran to Li Jinze and said, "I voluntarily!"

Li Jinze lowered his eyes, and he said, "It's none of your business, you are obedient."

"Mr. Li, I don't think you have figured out your position. Both of you are responsible for this matter, and you are the most responsible!" The principal said: "Jiang Cheng! Tell me! What are you two doing?" Up!"

The principal's face contorted, and I shook my head tremblingly at him.

Li Jinze said to him indifferently: "You scared him."

"Shut up! What qualifications do you have to say such things!?"

The principal called my mother and asked her to come to the school: "It's Jiang Cheng's mother, right? I'm the principal... Yes, Jiang Cheng is in love with his teacher... It's his head teacher, Teacher Li Jinze... ...Yes, please come here...School rules stipulate that love must be expelled from school, especially if he is gay, the influence is very bad."

After the principal hung up the phone, he said to Li Jinze: "It stands to reason that you are my younger brother, and we are all Teacher Wang's students... But now, I am ashamed of you and disgusted by you."

Li Jinze said, "You are not worthy of being an educator."

"Nonsense! I don't deserve it? Look at what you have done! I really thought that I would be different after going to France and drinking some foreign ink, messing around with my students!"

Li Jinze's neck twitched, he didn't bow his head, and didn't admit his mistake.

"You've been expelled!" The principal was furious: "You write a self-criticism and apologize to everyone before you get out!"

Li Jinze remained silent.He is so brave and calm, he is a hero in my heart.

"Get out! Get out!" the principal yelled.

Later, the school held a general meeting, and it was finally decided that Li Jinze would not conduct his self-criticism under the national flag, but in the auditorium, where all the teachers of the school were present.Too many people know that it will affect the reputation of the school, and media reporters are likely to come to interview, so they humiliate him internally.

I was left in the school dormitory with a teacher.He asked me if Li Jinze had done anything to me, but I ignored him, but he made fun of himself, cursed and left.

I miss Li Jinze, but I can't go out, and my phone was confiscated by the principal.

In the early morning of the next day, my mother arrived. She stayed up all night and came by car, her eyes were still red.The first thing she did when she came here was slap me.

We went to the amphitheater, where all the teachers in the school were present. The principal sat at the front and had a leisurely discussion with the teachers.

"There is no need to take these two classes, it's too easy."

"Yes."

"Why is Li Jinze gay?"

"Hehe, I don't know, anything can happen."

Someone asked: "Principal, how did you deal with it?"

The headmaster turned around and said, "Dismiss, expel."

Li Jinze, if you say that I am not worthy of being an educator, then I will let you see who is the authority here.I can promote you, so naturally I have the ability to knock you down for nothing.You are still young, you are still tender.

Li Jinze is here.The audience is boiling.

"I said why doesn't he have a girlfriend, it turns out he's gay..."

"Yeah, it's really shameless to mess with students. Did you see that? That kid is sitting with his mother."

"Actually, I saw homosexuality at school, and I didn't think it was a big deal..."

"It's really an embarrassment to the teacher. I didn't expect it to look gentle and gentle... You can't judge by appearance!"

"This is a bit exaggerated, ha ha."

……

Gossip drifted into my ears.I feel bad, I don't understand, am I wrong?Why does it have to be like this... If I'm wrong, is this a punishment... Is this an education...

Shame, anger, and finally turned into hatred.I hate education, I hate school, I hate the principal, I hate the teachers.I hate why they are so desperate, why don't they leave us any way out?If we really made a mistake, is the significance of what they do is education or punishment?

I thought of what Li Jinze said: "You are not worthy of being an educator."

My Li Jinze.

He still held his head up, eyes indifferent.

"Quiet!" the Director of the Year Department said.

The whole place was silent.

"Li Jinze, let's start." The director of the annual department dictated. I hate his face, but in fact he is just the principal's dog.

"..." Li Jinze looked at the self-criticism in his hand, then put down his hand again, looked ahead, and smiled lightly.

He said: "Ilikeaperson.Heissixyearsyoungerthanme.He'smystudent.Heisaboy.Wefellinlove.Ihavesexualintercoursewithhe."

There was an uproar in the audience, and he said again: "Writing self criticism is just a piece of paper. It's not my fault. I won't pologize." After that, he let go, the review book fell, and he turned and left.

Only then did everyone see that the so-called self-criticism was a blank sheet of paper, and he didn't write anything at all.