Religious Faith

On the second day, the doctor came to make rounds, so he couldn't avoid scolding me, so I had to smile cutely and obey the training obediently.Probably he had finished what he should say, he took a breath, and said again: "Fortunately, you are not my son, or I will kill you!"

He is in his 40s, with a bit of a temper, but a good heart.He has a son at home who is about my age and is in college now.

I nodded again and again, and said: "I was wrong, I was wrong, I won't go anywhere this month, and I will just stay here honestly."

Heizi came back after I lay in the hospital for five days. He seemed to be in good spirits. He asked, "Brother Xian, is there anything wrong with you?"

"Well, but I'm not going now, and he can't even think about messing with me anymore."

Heizi said to himself, "How did you offend him...?"

He went to work that night and came to see me the next afternoon. He said, "If you don't go, brother Xian is not here either."

"...It seems that it is really aimed at me."

The two of us are in two hospitals, he is in a tertiary hospital, and I am in a very ordinary hospital. I waited until the tenth day before leaving to see him.I asked him with a smile: "I haven't seen you for so many days, do you miss me?"

He was still silent, and I was used to talking alone, so I said, "I took a month off, I can have a good rest this month, and I can visit you often, are you happy?"

"Are you always dreaming? Will you dream of me?"

I tried my best to make myself smile and look happier, and said in a lively voice: "The lotus is blooming again, let's go see the lotus when you feel better!"

The smile disappeared slowly, I looked at his peaceful sleeping face, and said softly: "I miss you so much... really miss you...but I'm afraid, when you open your eyes, I'll be old..."

I am most afraid that I have waited for you all my life. When you wake up, your face will still be the same, but I, who have experienced vicissitudes, are already old.

don't be so cruel...

I stuck to him like a child, and said angrily: "Don't be so cruel to me, wake up quickly..." In the end, I still felt a little coquettish.

After saying this, I broke out in cold sweat again.How can you blame him for being ruthless, for causing him to be like this, it's you!

I said, "I'm sorry..."

"Jinze, I'm sorry..."

"I know I'm wrong, I'm not qualified to say this or that, please don't torture yourself, okay?"

A voice came from the bottom of my heart: He is so good, he is carefree all his life, and he doesn't have to work hard. Is it possible that he continues to be angry with you?Ask him to watch you go out for sale, ask him to remember that the person sleeping next to him is actually related to many people,

"Shut up!" I yelled.

The voice was still unhurried: Are you guilty?Am I wrong?Hongdu New Mansion, Jade Shaker, Gentleman's Gap, Wind Passes, Wanjun's Brush...

"It's enough!!"

Voice: How lewd Ι lascivious...

Me: "Get out!! Shut up!!!"

Voice: Do you remember how many people fucked you?You dare?Do you know how big a green hat you brought him?Do you want to forget what happened the day before every day, do you hate them so much, but you still have to do it with them, you are unfaithful, you are a man Ι bitch Ι

I knelt down weakly, hugging my head and crying all the time.My heart hurts and I feel so uncomfortable, that is my sore, I have never dared to touch it, dare not think about it; when I talk to him, I never avoid what happened in Hongdu, even if someone bullies me, I will not say .Because I believe he has memories, and I believe he will feel uncomfortable and sad when he hears it... I said: "Don't say any more..."

It persists: You should have found out a long time ago, but how long are you going to lie to yourself?It's all because of you, he became like this, it's all because of you, he will be humiliated even when he is sick

I cried and shook my head, my mouth moved slightly, and I said with my mouth: Don't say any more...

It says: You are not good enough for him.

I broke down and yelled, "No! That's not me!!"

I stood up, went to his bedside, and told him excitedly: "No, Jinze, I didn't make that!! I didn't!! I didn't sell it!!! You believe me!!!"

That was all made by Ah Wen, Li Jinze's Jiang Cheng has never been sold, never!

I, I am Jiang Cheng!Li Jinze's Jiang Cheng would never do such a thing!

I shook him: "Listen to me, I didn't do it! I didn't do that, it was him, it was him!!"

He is still silent, I don't know how long it has passed, I hoarse my voice, close my eyes, and pray, "Jinze...don't blame me...it's not me, don't think I'm dirty..."

That sentence was extremely vicissitudes of life.

Fortunately, I was the only one in the ward, otherwise I would have been kicked out for making such a fuss.

I stood up, took a few deep breaths, calmed down, then wiped away my tears, and said to him: "I'm leaving first, and I'll see you tomorrow."

The moment I went out, I didn't know who I was anymore, but it was obvious that I rejected Ah Wen's identity.

Instead of going to the ward, I went to the bookstore to buy some books.I haven't read a book for a long time, but Jin Ze likes me to read a book.

When I got back to the ward, I kept forcing myself to read, but I couldn't read it at all, and fell asleep after a while.

The next day I felt better, and I tried not to think about what happened yesterday, but occasionally I would say something in my heart: bitch, you are not good enough for him.

Or: bitch, it's you.

……

After this month of recuperation, my body and spirit have improved a lot, and I look very energetic.I absolutely listened to the doctor’s advice, go to bed early and get up early, avoid smoking and alcohol, avoid sour and spicy food, and eat light food that warms the stomach, but I feel that I am really addicted to alcohol and cigarettes. Shaking uncontrollably.

This month, I really found a day to take him to see the lotus.

It was a rainy night, and there were few people on a rainy night.I put on a raincoat for him, and then pushed him for a walk to Shichahai in a wheelchair.

I leaned down and said, "Do you remember? We also came here to see the lotus last year." I smiled softly, then took out a coin from my pocket and put it in his palm.I wrapped my hands around his and clasped them together for him.I said: "Quickly make a wish." After waiting for more than ten seconds, I took him and threw the coin into the water, then took out another coin myself, put my hands together, and prayed sincerely.

I said in my heart: I hope you get better soon.

When tossing a coin, I subconsciously said, don't think I'm dirty...

I was afraid that I would not be able to make any wish because I was too greedy, so I quickly said in my heart, if I can only fulfill one wish, then the first one should be fulfilled, the second one is not important!

……

It's January and I'm going back to work.

When I first went back, I was refreshed, and Heizi couldn't help but shine when he looked at me.He said, "It's really watery."

"Screw you."

"Can I drink?"

"Just try not to drink."

He sighed, and continued playing with his phone.

Dian Li walked in, and I smiled and said, "Hello, Brother Li."

He hadn't seen me for a long time, and he smiled when he saw me coming back, then nodded and said, "Okay."

He said, "Awen Awu, you two come with me."

I walked up to him and asked, "Is today's guest drinking too much?"

"It's my first time here, I don't know yet. What's the matter?"

"I hurt my stomach a while ago, it's best not to drink."

He nodded: "I see." Then he said: "Ayu, you go."

That night, Dianli assigned me a guest. This kind of guest is not very demanding, as long as we chat with them, it is quite casual.

The location was in a Zen-themed box. A thin man was sitting on a rattan chair and looking around. There was a set of tea sets on the coffee table in front of him, and the tea leaves were not opened yet.

Seeing me coming, he nodded to me and said, "Sit."

The man was in his early 50s, wearing a pair of gold-rimmed myopia glasses and a set of casual clothes. He was looking at the box at this time.After seeing me coming, he nodded casually and said, "Sit."

I bowed slightly to him and asked politely, "Hi sir, do you want some tea now?"

He asked, "Can you make tea?"

I smiled slightly, this tea was brewed when I was at home.My dad loves to drink tea, and also loves tea art. I have been influenced by my ears and eyes, and I can brew it decently, not to mention that I have learned tea art before.This kind of kung fu tea is actually not very difficult.

Before that, he quizzed me: "Guess what kind of tea this is first?"

The tea in Hongdu must be good tea, but it uses its own packaging, so there are no varieties of printed tea.I tore open the package, put the tea in a container, and sniffed it a little, and the smell was as blue as musk.I said, "Tieguanyin."

He nodded approvingly, but didn't ask further.In fact, I am not sure about the strong fragrance, delicate fragrance, rhyme, cinnamon, and cinnamon. First of all, I don’t know much about it. After all, I am not a professional tea art teacher, and my energy for laymen is limited. I just need to understand these things a little. .Furthermore, I often smoke and drink, and my sense of smell is not very sensitive.

There are three smells of tea, one is dry smell, the other is hot smell, and the third is cold smell.These listening methods also mean that when you taste tea, you should not only taste its taste, but also taste its fragrance. Tea is also a kind of culture.

Seeing my movements like flowing clouds and flowing water, he couldn't help giving me a high look.He said: "Hongdu New Mansion really lives up to its reputation, it's worth the money."

This kind of guest must have some ink in their stomachs. It doesn't matter what their education background is, how much they know, or whether they have the character of a literati, because it has nothing to do with me. He is only half a bottle of oil, and he just came here to experience the feeling of an ancient celebrity.

We talked for about three hours in total, during which the content of the chat was very complicated and messy.In fact, sometimes I also admire myself for being so eloquent, and when I am eloquent, I am also polite and quiet.I always followed his topic, and I played wherever he pointed.Few of his questions could be asked of me, and among them, he also mentioned a few tricky terms, such as "coffin".

Some people may read "Coffin and Outer Coffin" as "Coffin Chun" at first, but anyone who has read tomb robbery novels should be familiar with it—it is the stone outer coffin that is set outside the coffin.Later, it involved famous horses and famous swords in ancient times, and then transferred to the Three Kingdoms.

……

After the chat, he asked my name.

"Awen."

"Which Wen?"

"Wen of Wenshui."

"Shandong people?"

"No."

The reason he asked is that there is an ancient water in Shandong named Wen.In fact, I wanted to call it "A Wen" at the beginning. After all, the word "Wen" is not as smooth as "Wen".But then for some reason, by accident, he changed his name to "A Wen".Wen and Ze both mean water...

He didn't ask my name at the beginning because he looked down on me, and he talked too much in the middle, and forgot to ask, but he asked me at the end because he wanted to find me next time.

But after going out, I met a person I didn't want to meet the last time.

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