Religious Faith

I went shopping with Heizi all afternoon, and he took things home before going to work, while I went to the hospital to see Li Jinze.

He is my religion now, and as long as I see him alive, I can keep going.

Although I earn a lot, the expenses are also high.Although I have already saved a sum of money now, it is impossible to just keep it.Now he has not woken up, and the monthly medical expenses and nursing expenses are 10,000+, and what I have to do is to continue to do it when he is not awake and I can still move. At that time, if he hadn't woken up, the money must be enough for him to live like this until old age.

I gently held his hand, and said softly: "Jinze, wake up quickly, I have almost forgotten the color of your eyes..."

He was still lying quietly, and the nurse had already gone out to avoid me when he saw me coming, so I was the only one here, very comfortable.

His hands were cold. I remembered that when I had an injection when I had a fever, he sat by my bed and warmed my hands.

I clasped his hand and looked at him quietly.

The sunset is soft and light, the clouds are rolling and relaxing, the breeze is easy, and the years are flawless.

At this time, I suddenly thought of a poem, "The grass is bearing its seeds, and the wind is shaking its leaves. It is very beautiful to stand without talking."

After some time, I looked down at my watch, and said softly to him: "Jinze, I'm leaving." Then I suddenly remembered something, I became playful, and I leaned into his ear and whispered Said aloud: "Teacher, I love you! I have loved you for 1 years, I have loved you for withstanding the test, I want to marry you and have a child with you! Do you like boys or girls?" After satisfying my bad taste, I As if I had been greatly satisfied, I came to Hongdu Xinfu with a smile on my face. When the waiter greeted me, I smiled and nodded to him in a good mood.

Heizi came to Hongdu Xinfu one step ahead of me. He is still the same, sitting in the corner of the sofa with his legs crossed and playing with his mobile phone.Seeing me like this, he joked while playing: "Yo, Wenge's spring has come~"

"Fuck you!" I smiled and punched him.

"It's okay, it's okay, which boy doesn't have Huaichun?"

I glanced at him and corrected him: "It's a girl!" He hadn't read any books, and he heard me say this by accident and remembered it wrong.

"Oh, almost."

While talking and laughing, Amu walked into the box. Today he was wearing a pink shirt, a green tie, white casual trousers, and black leather shoes.

"Red flowers match green leaves~" After one young master finished speaking, another young master immediately interjected: "White clouds match black soil~" The other young masters all laughed, and another person jokingly said, "It's so down-to-earth~"

Amu ignored them, but sat down beside me and said, "Mosquito."

I ignored him and continued to play with Heizi on the phone.

"Mosquito!" He stuck his head in front of me, I pushed his face away and said, "I have a name."

"Oh, Arvin."

Amu always likes to pester me, and I don’t know why, but he said he hates it, but it’s not annoying, but it’s very disgusting because of his lack of brains, but it’s really not worth it to teach him a lesson. At worst, I just ignore what he says .

Two days later, he patted me on the shoulder and said, "Mosquito, are you unhappy when I call you that?"

I took his hand off and remained silent, thinking in my heart: Aren't you talking nonsense? ?

He shrugged and said, "I'm used to it, I can't change it!" Then he sat next to me, stretched out his hand and said, "Mosquito, do you think my hands look good? I don't think anyone here is more beautiful than mine. It's a fly in the ointment." The only thing is that I have a scar on the heart of my right hand, do you think it looks like a hand model?"

The other young masters laughed instantly when they heard this sentence, because everyone knows that in Hongdu, no one's hands are more beautiful than mine, and their hands are more precious than mine.I couldn't control my emotions well, my body trembled a little, and I felt a chill.The words that reached his mouth were swallowed alive.

Heizi smiled and said, "It's pretty, it's just right to wash your feet."

Hearing Heizi's words, Amu wiped out all his pride, and sat aside in a moment of anger. Heizi chuckled and said to me, "It's incredible, why do you think there is such a strange thing?"

Arrogant, overestimated, arrogant, unrestrained, regardless of size... It is indeed impossible to have such a person in Hongdu.

But it just happened.

I said: "The world is so big, there are no wonders."

We thought that a person like him would be kicked out after only a week in Hongdu, but he actually survived a week, but he was abused a lot.Some people even come to order him after hearing about this wonderful flower.Later, I thought about it, maybe it is because there are no people with such a lack of brains that we are a little curious about him, so we have always kept some leeway and watched him "perform" for a few more days, so as to satisfy our onlookers Psychology, this should be the reason why he can live here for a while.But living more does not mean living longer, because there are some molds that cannot be touched.

Everyone felt quite surprised by this result.Heizi said, "It's really an impermanent world. Such a person survived."

I shook my head and said: "There is still a long way to go. If you come out to play around, he will pay back what he owes sooner or later." Amu did owe something, but he owed a brain.

Sometimes Amu would also ask me for my opinion: "Do you think my bottom is long?"

I:"……"

"Look, that person praised me yesterday."

I just took a look when I heard someone praise him, and then said truthfully: "It's not long."

"That's not it! It's long!"

I didn't continue this topic with him, but lowered my head and continued playing with my phone.

……

"Mosquito, look at my new clothes, do they look good?"

I was in a good mood that day, so I took a look and said, "This color is not suitable."

"That's not it, I think it's pretty good."

Me: "..." The good mood disappeared in an instant, I threw the phone away in annoyance, and said, "Since you have such an idea yourself, why are you asking me why?" After that, I left.

Later he asked me to apologize, and finally he said: "That old dog Wu said that if I don't apologize to you, you will find someone to beat me, don't beat me..."

I glanced at him and said, "First of all, Ah Wu's barking like an old dog is not something you can afford, and secondly." I slapped him on the face cleanly and crisply. "I don't need anyone else to hit you."

Heizi sighed faintly in the distance: "It's a crime..."

……

Come out to hang out, sooner or later there will be a day to repay the debt.There are many times when you feel that a person has not paid for his behavior after he has done something. It is the same for good and bad things. There is no thanks for good deeds and no retribution for bad deeds.

In fact, you are wrong, because it is only a matter of time.Both good and bad fruits will one day be reaped, it's just a matter of time, no one can hide from it.Without exception.

Something will happen to Amu, this is an inevitable event.

He was beaten to death alive. When we saw him, he was covered in bruises and bruises, his eyes were wide open, his fingers were broken off one by one, and his tongue was gone.

It was late then, we were all off work, and he was the last one out.When he was carried out of the box, we didn't speak, and we didn't feel afraid, because we had already thought about the result.

Someone died here... If you don't tell me, I won't tell you, and no one will pursue it, so who will know?

Amu died, so we were together. After we sorted out the details of the clothes, everyone poured a glass of wine into the glass and spilled it on the ground.

On the second day, no one talked about this matter, as if Amu had never appeared, and the box returned to its former appearance.

But the good times didn't last long. When the door of the box was pushed open again, we were all quiet.

He is back.

He looked at me condescendingly, and asked blankly: "Are you Ah Wen?"

The author has something to say: The short poems in this article are excerpted from "In Front of the Gate" by the poet Gu Cheng

"In front of the door"

Gu Cheng

How I wish there was a door

morning sun on the grass

we stand

holding on to the door

The door is low, but the sun is bright

The grass is bearing its seeds

The wind is shaking its leaves

we stand and don't speak

it's very beautiful

There is a door, don't open it

It's ours, it's beautiful

In the morning, the night will wander

we give him the banjo

we are not leaving

we need land

need an indestructible land

we're going to ride it

spend a lifetime

The land is rough and sometimes narrow

However, it has history

There is a sky, a moon

a dew and a morning

we love the land

we stand

Digging the dirt with wooden shoes

The door is also hot

We leaned lightly, it was beautiful

grass behind the wall

Won't grow up anymore, it only uses fingers

pointed, touching the sun